what makes you keep going on in life
>>84453826Preparation. It is important to prepare for death so that you are not deceived into coming back here by the Demiurge and his archons.
>>84453826Hate to say it anon but it's as simple as this. I'm just a beast, despite everything.
>>84453826Pure spiteful burdenmaxxing for being rugpulled, OP
>>84453826Adenosine triphosphate, mostly.
>>84453837i kek'd a tiny bit when i saw it on the catalog too kek
>>84453826The thought that once the lights go out (which they will) everyone is going to suffer
Laying in bed. I don't even mean in a bedrot doomer way either I'm genuinely just passionate about sleeping and laying in bed.
>>84453863understandable, personally i like laying in bed too but that's just because it makes me think about how good it would be to just dream forever
>>84453826Unironically the fact that mom would be sad. Also the prospect of robowaifus but I'm not counting on it.
>>84453826fear of death and what's after, that's literally it, i lost all hope and interest in this place
>>84453932i look somewhat forward to them too but i don't think the sensation of being "fake loved" would make anything better for me>>84453947i used to get extremely anxious thinking about the afterlife but nowadays i don't even feel a thing anymore. have you ever believed in heaven and hell?
my cats + boyfriend + new things i get look forward to in the near futureotherwise idk where i'd be right now!!!!! (probably a mega addict)
>>84453960>have you ever believed in heaven and hell?yeah i was once religious and i didn't think about death much then, but since i left religion i think about the afterlife almost everyday and get very anxious about it
>>84453973i went through the same thing for a while. growing up in a weird evangelical cult really fucked my head up in many ways and made me scared of pretty much everything but for whatever reason that i genuinely can't point out i eventually stopped caring about these thingsi assume most people end up taking a side one day though
>>84453826Have you tried being a good person? It is called being a good person, okay buddy?
i dont really know anymore, i barely even care if i get sad or happy because i just view it all as empty irrelevant emotions that mean nothing and will pass. i think ive been alone for so long that i became kind of like the inanimate objects that i spend all my time with, because i have no one to bounce my emotions off of and get a response in return. all i have are objects and an internet connection
Japanese entretainment. Also, this board. If I hadn't this board I would have almost no one. You anons are my family, my company. Thank you so much.
>>84454031guess it isn't much different to me either desu>>84454051
>>84454051:) we're gonna all make it
>>84453826The love of my robot bf.
Honestly just watching stuff and playin games. Life is just a shitty story so all I have to do is indulge in escapism to live in fun and interesting stories.
im not making itim planning on killing myself sooni want to see what happens when i diei have seen and felt everything i needed to leave this place
There are days where i just feel...peace. Don't know how to make them more constant, but no intrusive thoughts torturing me, no tingling and burning sensations in the body, and feeling like my brain is actually complete. For however few they may be, i cherish them and hold onto them like if they were treasures and keep them on a little box in my mind to remind myself of the tiny bits of hope that still burn in my life. That and the hapiness in moments of my childhood... Without them i would have already killed myself long ago
>>84453826twinksno bullshitmy life's purpose is just twinks
>>84454112i wish i had something nice to tell you anon but honestly i don't even know what to say>>84454127i'm glad that you get to experience that and can enjoying holding onto your past experiences anoni've had a few memorable moments in my life but thinking about them just makes me even more depressed, thinking about how much everything changed or even about the fact that whatever i consider "memorable" should be common in anyone's life
>>84453826I've gotten this far, might as well keep going.Sometimes it's shit, sometimes it's good, most of the time it's just meh.
>>84453826at first, curiosityi just wanted to know what happened next, it was the only thing to cling to for a long timethen after a while, spitei wanted to metaphorically kick the faces of those who underestimated methen i realized that shit was pointless and wandered aimlessly for a whilenowadays, it's determination to live a good futurei'm headed toward somewhere pretty comfy, and i'd be lying if i said there isn't a lot of hard work left until then, but i'll managefiguring out what exactly you want in life, concrete goals instead of something abstract like>i want a family>i want a good jobetc. goes a long wayit makes paths easier to viewhere's hoping you all manage to see and latch onto something concrete in your futuresand once you do, let nothing stop you, not even yourselveslive a good future anons, even if you're in a bad present
>>84453826maybe one day something good will happen to me
>>84454154Ty anon...May be a blessing of god or something. Stuff like this sorta makes you get a little bit more comfortable with spirituality and such even though you may be an atheist or agnostic, you can truly and viscerally understand why some people desperately seek out for that kind of life fuel.>can enjoying holding onto your past experiences anonYou have to be careful with this, though, it can become maladaptative. I hold onto them because i have to scratch out of whatever i can to keep going on, but i know i have to let go the nostalgia for it once i can surpass this shit, that and the hate for the versions of myself i've seen as "weak" and "disgusting". >thinking about how much everything changed or even about the fact that whatever i consider "memorable" should be common in anyone's lifeRemember that you might not even be the minority with this kind of stuff going on. Many people who seem normal or even, are normal actually, had their childhood happiness shattered, their families destroyed, illusions crushed, spirits drowned. Humanity is a shared suffering, don't fall for the illusions sold by the media and the retarded brainlet influencers who sell this reality to help them hide their worthlessness tooGodspeed for whatever may come for us. Lets hope it will be better than this hellhole we have been subjected (or subjected ourselves) to...
>>84453826nothing. it is automated at this point. I just repeat the routine and the years keep flying by. I can't even believe my own age.
>>84454325honestly i'm in a loss of words... all i can really say is thank you for taking your time to write this and give not only me but whoever else reads your message some tips. genuinely.
>>84453826It would really hurt my mom so I can't do that to her. I also don't want to disappoint God more than I already have, but sometimes I feel like dying would be better.
>>84453826I dont know. Im extremely depressed and my health is shit. My family stopped giving a fuck about anything years ago and hates each other I live with addicts in a decrepit hellhole infested with pests and mold. My life is already a dead end at this point I am waiting to die in my sleep.
>>84454345Thanks man, good to know some of my bullshit is useful for others out there, though i don't wanna be le wise man or something...just like to talk my shit with people like me. Hope whatever is going on with you improves
I am waiting patiently for the day I feel the equivalent peaks of joy to the crushing sadness and melancholy that has plagued me in my day to day life
>>84453826My father would be heartbroken if I died so I have to carry on not killing myself and pretending I'm not miserable.
>>84453826just biological inertia
>>84453850>mitochondria-pilled turbonormiengmi
>what makes you keep going on in lifeMy 'bux, and the hope of an afterlife. Also the vain hope of getting unpaid sex before the end.
