Alright so, the man I lost my virginity to told me that he MIGHT get back to me if I better myself! There is hope! I don't have to use my noose yet!
Why did he leave you in the first place?
Anon, you know you don't have to stay with the person you lost your virginity to forever?
>>84468767He says he was really unhappy with me for the years he was with me.
>>84468771I will literally rope myself if I don't. I have the noose ready.
i'm glad you have accepted your sexuality, anon-kun.
>>84468785you've also written a note, and sat around thinking how much people will miss you.i'm not going to goad you into suicide, and i doubt anyone could. you're not going to do it. you're a woman. you know that the function and purpose of this is not to end your life, it's to signal to people you are in distress and want support. and that's totally fine, 2bh. but if you want to vent or hear anons' thoughts, you'll have to be honest about what's going on. are you in love with this man, and how does he want you to improve yourself?
>>84468785But anon - if you kill yourself it's forever, it's over
>>84468832i haven't written a notei haven't thought about the aftermath i am just afraid of the pain, it is the only reason I cant. if someone could let me know how to do the helium method, I will do that easily, I'm having trouble finding info on it online (not to sound retarded).he didn't tell me specifically how he wanted me to improve myself. he just said he wanted me to, and he doesn't guarantee he will be with me again, but he might. I'm not sure if I'm capable of love. My virginity is more important to me than my own life, so how could I love. That's the reason he left me in the first place. It is the only thing I care about. I spent every minute of my day thinking about my virginity and how I want it back. I tried on the noose. it made my ears ring and my face swell. i still feel pressure around my neck.I was on the ground and leaned away to make the noose tighten around my neck.
