death is preferable to how i live. i have no future. i do not matter and the closest i would come to "matter" is splattering a red mist of my own matter against the walls.
frequency cut out for a second
>>84532819the only death i can get is a slow insanely painful rot on the streets because i was forced to be a neet.
>>84532819>against the wallsplease don't leave a mess. when i go i am going to do it out in the woods or lay down a tarp
I used to think that way now 10 years later life is good.You don't know how things will go. I thought I was going to be homeless by now.
>>84532929i don't care anymore. hotels commonly have messes.>>84532952i don't care how life went for you. life has gone shit for me. i am probably older than you.
>>84532961I'm 36 and come from multiple abusive households. I was even addicted to drugs myself for a bit. You can't know the future anon, no matter how much you think you can.
Most people don't matter, you're just experiencing being a spoiled american, really pathetic isn't it?
>>84532967yeah you're not wiser and older than me and i have a shitty background too. good that life worked out for you? didn't for me>>84532971dense
>>84533004Yeah it worked out for me, but I killed myself 10 years ago I'd be dead. You kill yourself there's no room for improvement. You can't know shit about the future.
>>84533012are you blind or are you stupid? i don't have 10 years to "improve le self". i'm old and worthless. i'm not some depressed teen or even 20-something year old. there is nothing to improve into and there is nothing in the future. "but you never know", yeah, it's called an educated guess.
>>84533030If you kill yourself things can't get better. Just a simple fact of reality.
>>84533037no, they don't and they can't. you know what is far more likely? they get worse. and death is preferable to that.
>>84533048If they get worse and worse then you'll die anyway. Chances are very good they won't keep getting worse though. You reach points of stability. Even homeless people setup nice tents. Even people living in the hood have good times.
>>84533064you're a patronizing dumbass with a ridiculously fanciful and naive worldview. yeah, being homeless with a nice tent would really sound good right now. you know nothing of my life, circumstances, or future, so take your baseless nonsense elsewhere.
>>84533069I don't need to know anything about your life. Prisoners of war learn to cope, people get taught how to cope being tortured. As long as you're alive there's a chance for things to improve. If you die there is no chance, it's over. This is not something that can be argued against, it's just the reality of the situation.
>>84533080holy shit and i thought i was insufferable. it would've been better actually if you killed yourself 10 years ago so i wouldn't have had to read this normie drivel.
>>84533095Normies are emotional, which is why so many of them go through with it. This is pure logic, something outside the reach of most normies. You either have possibility or don't. If you don't have possibility you're dead. Things can only get better if you're alive.
>>84533100you are both retarded and a brainlet with flawed reasoning
if you're going to die soon, then you have more freedom, there are no long term consequences to your actions, make some YT videos exposing normies for their lies, pull some pranks, leave a mark
>>84533109It's a logical truth. Not anything you can argue against. If you get into a situation that only gets worse and worse, there's a good chance you'll starve or get murdered or something. So killing yourself now just makes it impossible for anything to improve. If you life you have a non-zero chance of things improving. Don't kill yourself. You can let yourself die, but don't seek it out.
>>84533125there is absolutely nothing i want to do anymore in life.
at least let me take you on a dinner date to mcdonalds
>>84533134okay but i want to pick 2 things from the happy menu
anything you want, dear
>>84533163unfortunately being called any term of endearment is so utterly unrealistic and unfathomable to me that it has broken my suspension of disbelief.
>>84532819Can you tell us a bit about your life so we can get some insight on why you want to die, OP?
stunlocked by the utter disbelief that you rejected me, i think i'll write bad poetry online for a year now
>>84533095Kek. How old are you op
>>84533214this had me smile. it was bad, but it wasn't that long. i hope he texts you back, sis.>>84533194i spend years upon years wasting at my computer screens having nobody to do anything with for years upon years. i have done everything possible to keep myself occupied and distracted by myself in the meanwhile and have completely ran out of everything. traveled the world, moved countries multiple times, explored every hobby and interest, built wealth, and none of it matters. the acquaintances i have grit their teeth having to interact with me, it is palpable. i can larp as a normie well enough to look into the love and lives everyone in this world can regularly experience that i cannot. my life is pathetic and my biggest regret is expressing this and having to wear shitty socks.>>84533217ancient
>>84533242This world is indefensible. I suspect people react to wanting to leave it like that anon did to you is based entirely around ego: "how could this world be so shitty when I'M in it??" Why do people dislike you so much OP, are you physically repulsive? Even people with shit personalities find other people with shit personalities to be around, your personality doesn't seem so horrible, interesting even. So what's your deal? Why do people dislike you so?
>>84533285because there is nothing more absolutely disgusting and repulsive than desperation. and the more you fail to connect with people, the more desperate you get.
>>84533345Were you always desperate? If you care so much about connection, and you've identified what is holding you apart from people, why did you never... act not desperate? Also, is that really all you care about after doing and seeing so much, you found nothing else of interest? I'm having difficulty understanding the viewpoint you're describing
it doesn't make sense because being vaguely sad and posting melancholy monochrome anime girl pinterest jpgs is his sole interest no matter what he says and every regular knows this by now
Im also very tired aswell op, Im younger than you and just dont see myself progressing, I see the world becoming a hellscape more than it actually recovering that i rather just die than experience what its going to become, alot of people are retarded and do not see what we're going to let unfold its baffling..
