please don't hurt yourself anon, it gets better dude
>>84559996Okay, I'll hurt you instead.
*slaps your balls*
>>84559996What a cute anime girl. Source?
>>84560005same. lets all hurt OP
>>84559996okay I won't today have a nice day anon
>>84560010Rent-a-Girlfriend, introduced in Season 3
>>84560078>>84560005i think anon deserves to be hurt
>>84560332That's only because you hurt me first doe
>>84559996Most people are too cowardly to commit suicide.
>>84559996I'm not. I'm here to the fucking end for better or worse.But when?I'm 33 and I've only watched the world get worse. I would like to live long enough to see it all implode and crash.
>>84559996Been suicidal for 9 years with the though that it'll get better, that I'll start enjoying my life one day and it'll all be worth it.That days has yet to come, so when the hell is it going to come you cunt?
You can act bliss all you want but you cannot deny that the QoL has drastically decreased since 2016.
it never gets better if ur retarded and ugly
>>84559996I said this in another post. But I'm saying it here too.>>Its easy to say you'd die for something. Someone. When you're young, you haven't lived enough life to know its value so throwing it all away is easy. Its even attractive in a self destructive way, to imagine giving meaning to the short life you know. But as years drag on, the soul is burdened. With the weights of responsibilities, the things that keep you around. Reasons to stay. You might just find things worth living for, things you would fight to get back to. Things you hope to find immortality for. Its not sudden, but I wonder if the realization is. That you are dragging so very much with you every step you take, that you would never believe the small accumulations you made over a lifetime could lead to it. But its here now, and while you may yet one day pass the strains you treasure, you hold the reins as long as you can. And you fight to continue holding the bundle of weights that you have plucked and strung together.Right now, I have little beyond a family I was given to stay for. I love them, but 4 people and 2 friends just isn't a lot. I haven't built a life, and I fear I won't. Won't be able to. Won't be worthy to.
>>84559996>it gets better dude
>>84559996Quality has nothing to do with it.
>>84561825What counts as building a life if a wife and kids don't count?
>>84561847Was that meant for >>84560617
>>84559996It sure can, even after a decade of isolating.
it only gets better if you are actively trying to improve. If you're passively wasting away the days, months, years, you are going to be hit in the face with reality hit in the face with worsening health, worsening living situations, worsening prospects. It does not get better, you make it better if you are trying hard.
>>84562136>worsening healthJust how old do you think the people here are?
>>84562142I know how old I am and I know if you dont want to end up like me you'll start fixing yourself before its too late
>>84562148I'm in my late 30s with zero health problems
>>84562153Great. Proud of you!
>>84562162Yes, okay, nice snotty response, but I was more just wondering what age you were thinking of because robots tend to be doomers. My parents are in their 70s and don't have any health issues that impact life much.
>>84561858They do count. I don't have them. I have 2 parents, 2 siblings and 2 friends. Its more than a lot of people, so I might just be mentally weak. I've gone through all the arguments and maybe a wife won't fix my life but damn does it feel like it would.
>>84559996I have a feeling it doesn't but I'll keep going for at least a little bit longer, if only to see society shit the bed and buckle under the weight of the rotting systems it vainly clings to :)
>>84562136I'm trying. I'm in uni, I've been weightlifting for a year after dropping 30 lbs (~5% bodyfat). My physique is improving. I've been boxing for over 6 years, and I recently started teaching a kids class. OvI've been developing my philosophical view, growing closer to God and growing my understanding of theology. I also saved every paycheck since I started working to buy my dream car at 19. Now at 21, I own my dream car, I've started a business, I'm set to graduate uni in a year. Sure I'm still 25% bodyfat and short (5' 7") but I feel like I have a lot to offer. But it all feels like nought because I lack the intimate love man was designed for. Our Lord said it was not good for man to be alone. I hope I'm not called to be a eunich, I want intimacy, not lust. I've remained chaste but again, it feels like its for no reason. One of my friends is married the other is having a kid. Both are far more successful in having built a life worth staying for than I.WhateverI evidently have work to do since I'm fagging on the boards
>>84559996>Said the loosh farmer to their preyNigga there's no point in living life if you were born neurologically messed up to the point where you can barely feel satisfaction or pleasure. And no, pillz wont fix it.
>>84559996>be me, 21 and suicidal>it gets better bro dont worry>be me in current year, 34>its never been worse>desperately wish I had just killed myself when I was 21>at least some people wouldve cared back then>now when I shoot myself no one will even notice
>>84559996It really doesn't, unfortunately. The older I get, the worst it gets.
I did bad things. I deserve death
>>84559996It's over. I can't even get a wageslave job to move out and work myself to death. I will be dead by 30.
>>84562334this is the final truthnuke. I've been on disability for 8 years. there is no improving for me. old friends grow distant and drift away and aren't replaced by new ones. I'm on on lithium and anti psychotics and it's just enough to keep me from wanting to die 24/7. there is no amount of wealth or power or status that would make me happy in this world. the only things I do want, are permanently out of my reach and not realistically obtainable. I just drift from one day to the next, watching my society unravel, and having no friends left, which were the only thing that made it all worth tolerating.
>>84559996>it gets betteri'm not currently suicidal but i hate this bullshit phrase so much
>>84562533You can't relent robot. Your problems may not be your fault, but your failure to manage them is. Start succeeding in life. Get healthy (work out), eat well and be proactive socially. The rest tends to sort itself out. Personally, I generally say get off the pills and leave them for bad episodes but consult a shrink or something before listening to anons here.Regardless, you need to take radical responsibility for your life. Accept that its yours, that its worth living well and only you can make it happen.
>>84563002>stop taking your meds, blame yourself and just like, get betterthis is really the type of advice they be giving on here
>>84563029Barely worth engaging but I'll relent. Specifically, not everything is his fault, but it is HIS problem. Either solve it or give up. If you give up, don't bitch about it to anyone. I also gave somewhat nuanced advice on the meds, generally they're over prescribed but he should talk to a professional before making a decision.And yeah, just get better. Its simple. Not easy, but it is absolutely simple. Its very hard and requires constant effort, all the time. But thats how every admirable man lived for all of history.We all know what makes people virtuous, admirable and maximizes their fulfillment. Be healthy, eat healthy, have community.
>>84562296See it's this faggot that measures success in terms of >physical fighting ability>owning a car>starting a business>graduating university>spirituality>love>workIt doesn't feel like anything at 21, does it? You think it'll magically feel like something at 30? 40? 50?
>>84563100stop taking your meds and then what, buy a gun perhaps? normalfags like you need to be driven off the board
>>84559996No, it doesn't. It never does. Only when you die. Fuck off.
>>84563110This entire board lacks any and all reading comprehension. I specified none of that is success.>>Both are far more successful in having built a life worth staying for than IBut I'm done talking to retarded 3rd worlder jeets. I'll not sully my mind with retards bastardizing my language>>84563135Die niglet, I hope you have a mental break and get forced into taking these drugs forever. I hope you never experience joy nor sadness ever again. I hope you live the rest of your life in a gray malaise stupor. I hope you die drugged up, incapable of even wondering where the time went and how you wasted the greatest gift in all creation. I hope your mind is lost, and your body is rotted and your soul spoiled. You have earned the hell you're destined for, but I hope your stay on Earth reaches as close to it as possible
>>84563210typical self-improvement fagspeak
>>84563210lol and so the mask slips. get a good look at the true thoughts and intentions of the average normalnigger giving "advice" here.
>>84563244>>the mask slipsRetards, who would literally kill, actually murder people, to be in my position, who are stuck in their third world mentality, have successfully managed to get me a little heated. These are not truer thoughts or intentions than anything prior. They're equally real. Just because I have a sense of civility, nobility and intelligence, and you completely lack anything outside the basest of instincts and a deeply misfortunate and grave tongue capable of my language, does not mean what you think it does. There is no facade, I will not deny what I said. But unlike you, I don't try to reduce everything to your level. You are a parasitic person. People like you are why we have prisons and capital punishment. You abuse my native language as a weapon, you are subversive and you are scum. Luckily, there are few like you, unfortunately you gather here.TL:DR hang yourself fag, and kill your nigger family, your genes are an evident abominationI'm tired of these kike psyops just farming decent, normal people
>>84563299the fact that the world is populated by barely conscious 80 iq normalgroids like you that fly into a homicidal rage when a mentally ill person is not able to simply "get better" by going to the gym and taking a cold shower seems like a pretty good reason to continue not engaging with the world.you accuse others of being jeets yet you are about as intelligent as one. no one asked for your retarded boomer normalgroid non-advice. kindly fuck off the board and go circle jerk about how much you hate robots elsewhere.
>>84563328I used to be one of you. I attempted, I cut, I harmed. I obsessed, hell I borderline stalked. I'm still constantly in a mental war against my worst instincts. I didn't just "get over it". But I steadily improved, eventually I left the worst maladaptive behaviors behind. I'm angry because its like talking to myself those years ago. I heard the same advice and gave the exact same response.>>Fuck off boomerTime helps. Just stick around a little longer. Some things can't be taught, but ultimately, I really do want the robots in threads like these to learn the lessons and have a more fulfilling life.I won't argue, probably won't respond. But to any lurkers who relate to anyone ITT, just hold on, stick around. Even if you don't want to, please do it anyway. I believe that even when I didn't care about myself, someone did and one day I'll meet Him.
>>84562296>weightlifting>philosophical view>god>dream car>bodyfatbro your problems are due to you being a retard, nothing to do with your heighti dunno how the fuck to help somebody this stupid. you should be so dumb as to have zero self-awareness but youve had really detrimental programming put in you
>>84563465he's 21 man, he will grow out of it. the problem with people under 25 is they feel like they are supposed to be adults because thats what everyone tells them even though they are retarded children.
>>84563465what's wrong with any of those things chud
>>84559996I turn 30 in two years and I can't even drive. It's about to get a lot worse.
>>84559996I wasn't going to, and no it doesn't.
>>84563375>But I steadily improved, eventually I left the worst maladaptive behaviors behind.But I won't tell you. Ever. Anything that I did. Because if I actually got into detail you'd realize either I was destined for a good life (good parents, community that helped) or got fucking lucky.>hey how did you change out the battery in your tacoma? I'm doing the same thing "DURR WITH CONSTANT IMPROVEMENT">how do I get off the pills?"HURR WITH DETERMINATION"Goddamn you, you vague-posting normalfag.
>>84564368It's just like when people talk about getting a girlfriend or regular friends>I just happens
