Day 1 off fent, starting my third rehab this Monday.
there's all kinds of demons lurking about here
>>84575324>unironic fent hitterBased
>>84575324good luck anonnynon
>>84575345Thanks, I'm going to need it.
>>84575324Good luck bestie. I believe in you.
>>84575374I don't fren, I was super hyped and hopeful the first and even the second time. Now I know this shit is revolving door.
>>84575401Yes of course you can! It doesnt matter how many times you have failed, you still can. Drug addiction usually stems from a plethora of bad habits and coping mechanisms, but we can change our habits. We have full control to change the internal. The very process that drives you to fent abuse can be reversed and changed into something positive. I believe in you so much anon, I know you can change. It will be hard, but it WILL be worth it.
>>84575519I am lucky to not have withdrawal symptoms TOO severe (usually just akin to mild stomach flu+maybe some fever). It's the drag afterwards, I just feel like my brain was covered in wet cotton if that makes any sense. I don't know how to explain it.
>>84575324Good luck, if true.Wishing from the distance that you kick the habit and get back on your feet soon.
>>84575324Well done, anon. Well done.
>>84575555Like as in sluggish? Its a good thing that your symptoms arent bad. That means its going to get easier! Anon this is great!! The feeling of being slugish and ill will pass, and you will look back and realised that you moved mountains and that you can overcome anything. Anon you can overcome anything.
>>84575324>relapsed twiceeven george floyd got off it the first time, get it together bro
>>84575519Have you ever had a sleep paralysis at the verge of falling asleep? Feeling like something was pulling your head backwards and you were dragged across a million cramped, repeating claustrophobic rooms, you knew where you were but everything felt alien to a point of total dissociation? Sorry if I'm not making much sense, I just like being overly dramatic.
>>84575324hahaha oh my fucking GOD anon HAHAHAHA
>>84575624I'm not tripping every single day, I only go full purge when it fucks up my life bad enough. I'm a casual tourist of the robot world.
>>84575678Hmm I usually dont get sleep paralysis. I have had it maybe 1 times in my life and I was a kid back then. Just a lady with orange hair looking at me. Do you get sleep paralysis often? Hmmm anon, I do think this must come from your background with drug abuse. It can induce some pretty gnarly mental health issues. Now I know you can reverse it, you can help yourself, and these nightmares are likely to become fewer and fewer. You can make it out anon. Maybe some hobby can distract you? Working out is always a good idea, eating good too.
>>84575324What does fentanyl feel like?
>>84575954Shit, I don't know - it kinda turns you off, you don't feel pain and weariness and just flow through the space and time in complete vacuum but not like after dropping acid or dissociatives. It's somewhat similar and yet, not at all like it.
>>84575983What a worthless answer
>>84575555when you abuse opioids your body responds by down regulating the number of opioid receptors in the brain, unfortunately endorphins bind to these same receptors so when you quit everything can consequently feel like a drag for a good while before your body "replenishes" the amount of the aforementioned receptors, because nothing will feel like anything. I remember reading turmeric can help facilitate the recovery process.
Unironically good on you OP, the fact that you were able to make the decision to quit means you can be saved and more importantly save yourself. I was smoking literal crystal meth back in February of this year, now I don't even have cravings for it anymore and was able to get back to living my life.
>>84575995>and was able to get back to living my life.>sits on r9k for 16 hours a day
>>84575988I've heard people describing it differently, so I guess it all depends on the dose, purity, mindset, health status, past experiences and a million other moving parts different for each individual. I'm feeling kinda like a balloon, stretched thin from inside out and floating. But then again, I don't really have past physical traumas (people kften get hooked up after injuries) and I'm microdosing (so I'm somewhat lucid even though I tripped yesterday).
>>84575401Tell us about your first time
>>84575324you got this, my guywe're rootin' for ya
>>84576007You give up one addiction and pick up another. 4chan is less expensive money-wise.
>>84575995That's good manI hope you can find some joy in your life that's not chemically induced. I like video games and anime
>>84576034I was a kid (17 if I'm remembering correctly) and it all felt excitingly surreal, like I was a main character in a feel good movie about believing in yourself.
>>84576058How long did you stay clean after your first stay? What went wrong?
>>84576121Until moving out for college, so I'd say like two-ish years? I didn't start with fent mind you, I was mostly doing dmt and mdma, with fent becoming a cheaper alternative to both over time.
>>84576153I never tried DMT. It seems like a crazy drug.Did you always get the 'rocket ship' or did you sometimes get stuck at the launch pad because you didn't take enough?
>>84576195I must've been doing it all wrong since I never met any machine elves nor received any profound visions, it was mostly just white noise.
>>84575324good luck nigga that shit is evil
>>84576243https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6irjzQ0nEIDid you ever meet someone who did salvia?
>>84575324Good job anon, don't give up. Let's hope it's true that third time's the charm.
>>845760071. You're assuming I've been on this site all day rather than just checking in for a few hours even though I'm well aware this board hasn't been "good" for well over a decade 2. I might be on /r9k/ but at least I'm not on meth
>>84577592Discord servers might dominate digital communication now but I don't feel confident talking about drugs on a discord server it's too mainstream.
