do any other anons struggle to make and keep any sort of friendship type things? more than anything i loathe getting attached to people, so much so that ill usually just do increasingly bad things till people dislike me so that i can get rid of any sort of care we have for each otherid like friends but i think there's just something wrong with me that makes me hate having them
sounds like borderline personality disorder
>>84586540maybe to some extent, but i have a more healthy relationship to my familyoftentimes you just learn more about people and get the feeling that these are not the kind of people you want to waste time being friends withmost people in this world are rigid and incapable of change, they spend everyday killing themselves with drugs and alcohol or other addictions, it feels like rotting in a pile of corpses being around themi guess it's hypocritical since im arguably just as if not more toxic than them and it's not like i really do anything productive, im just self loathing about iti guess it also stems from not wanting to be vulnerable to people at all but slipping up because im human and yearn for connectiondo you get what im saying anon?
>>84586532ye, i eventually remember im not pleasant to be around, and then i just shut up and hope they forget about me
>>84586564yeah, i get what you're saying. humanity is scum and you're humanity. It'd be better if everyone died and shut up for once.
>>84586589pretty much, yahnot everyone is so terrible, but if they're fine with spending time around me they always have a lot of issues>>84586579do you try to be unpleasant on purpose?
>>84586604>do you try?na, there is just nothing of interest in me, nothing fun or engagingjust a boring old ghost of a person who likes people too much
>>84586604>pretty much, yah>not everyone is so terrible, but if they're fine with spending time around me they always have a lot of issuesyeah. human scum can only associate with the same kind
>>84586650yah i guess so, sure does suck though
>>84586631i feel the opposite almost, it's like im living solely among people who's best years have already past them, they just reminisce about how things used to be and how they're probably worse now or something
