how do you deal with becoming very mean and violent when you get angry? its mentally exhausting and completely alienates you from social life, even hurts people your truly care about.Im just cooling off from being incredibly mean to my own mother and going into my room and doing all sorts of autistic meltie stuff like breaking shit and punching walls while she had good intentions. This also happens with other people, mainly women or effeminate men, and it manifests in the urge to rape and kill them. I even have a recurring dream of beating a woman to death Ralph Cifaretto style.
>>84587833Keep thinking and simulating what thoughts you'll switch to in order to calm down. Practice sometimes only goes so far, so you just have to keep consciously making the effort to calm down and not act on that initial negativity when/if these scenarios arise again. Habits take time to shape, I've lived this.But also think about any issue/cause that keeps coming up. Rather than just learning to be calm, think about how to explain to others why it was displeasing. May take time for you to find good words, even improve the, and it may take time for people to get it. But in time understanding can prevail more and more. That's how it went for me, strange as it was that for a while people didn't get their good intentions weren't aligned with what I wanted. They did eventually.
