I made a deal with the devil. When I was young. I had lots of casual sex. I did a lot of drugs. I ended up with a lot of money and adventure. But what they don't tell you is that in the end, you get a woman who did the same. Same. And you'll never have gentle, innocent, peaceful, humble precious love. You can't go back undo the drugs she took or the men she slept with casually. You don't get to have that. Be careful what you wish for anons. Be very careful
>>84588640I met my soulmate in college and married her and had children with her, and then she got sick and died. I think that's even worse.
>>84588640Well yell you that much loser men that didn't fuck around when they were young ALSO get roasties
>>84588744What did she die from? That is heartbreaking, anon. I'm very sad for you. How are you dealing with this? >>84588849Yeah I don't feel like a complete loser. But I've realized I took the worse path.
>>84588884She got cancer. She fought it a long time, but eventually got tired. I cared for her all the way until she took her last breath.How do I deal with it? I don't know. I think I'm going to just give up. I hate it when people say "Oh don't worry, you'll meet someone nice!" Really? Where? Women do not go out anymore looking to meet someone. Everything I see on dating apps repulses me. I go to the gym and stuff, it's just so I can leave a good-looking corpse.
>>84588640the difference is you're describing an average female, while you as a male had to made a pact with the devil himself.
>>84588640Nah that's bs, what you get is random if you don't actively seek what you actually want but the chances to land a degenerate simply increase overtime because society is falling.
>>84588640I made the same deal but I do not regret it. What was the other option, follow the path of christ, become the dad who stepped up to a born-again whore and her 3 mystery meat kids? I'd rather be the real father to the mystery meat kids somebody else is taking care of, thanks. It's getting depressing now that I'm getting older and the well of casual sex is drying up and my health can't sustain the constant drugs, drinking, etc. But I don't think I would have been happy with any kind of volcel or trad alternative. Maybe normalfagging and just partying for a while when Young then settling down promptly at age ~25 would have been correct but it is far too late for me now
