State the cause of your malady.
>>84588932>State the cause of your malady.poop stuck to my butthole cuz im too fat to wipe properly.
>>84588932chiIdhood trauma
no father figure,raised by retarded women and thrown into awful american public school before i could even be conscious
>>84588932No empathy
>>84588932Lack of discipline
>>84588932everything negative that i imagine to come true comes true. positive things i have to work for and never stay around.
>>84588932almost everyone i've ever met has wronged me/betrayed mei'm a recluse and i no longer interact with people
>>84589184same, worst part is that if i ever betray someone, even if its warranted and tame compared to whats happened to me in the past, i face an endless stream of consequences, meanwhile the people who betray me are rewarded for their behaviour.
I think I might know what I'm missing, I think it's love I'm missing. I think never having truly received love - even with my last relationship which was the first time I've been serious with someone. I never felt truly loved by her she hurt me deeply, she told me she found me physically repulsive basically at one point which I realized then that she loved who I could be not who I am. And even from my family - my dad has never shown affection and my siblings only use me., I wasn't even invited to my brother's wedding. Looking at it now it seems like it's pretty obvious why I'm so disenchanted with people and relationships and feel so alone in this world.I think I may kill myself in the coming months. I don't have much to live for but if you will please try to think of my joy at being liberated completely from the suffering of living and this hateful life itself
>>84589234Be honestCould your ego handle it
>>84589222i've lived my entire life by "treat others how you want to be treated" and all it gave me was an almost impenetrable shield/shell, i'm a cold husk, i'm only vulnerable around my own mother, nobody else
>>84589330Handle what?
>>84589340Being vulnerable If you wanted a girlfriend you'd just find some whale or dude who had low standards
>>84589339Golden rule is The true gold standard Everyone treats everyone else like shit in your low status environment so you reflected that
>>84589357Probably not anymore, I don't know how I'm supposed to connect to anyone when everyone hurts me when I try to be open with them. I'm not confident in myself at all
>>84589364there is no reflection, i also don't live in a low status environment
>>84589396Then why is everyone you golden ruled around causing you to be cold
>>84589369Which is why I asked if your ego could handle it
