On my father's side, my family has a long military history. It stretches back to the Sino-French War, through World War II, the Vietnam War, and the American Civil War --though I'm not sure which sides my ancestors were on during the Civil War. My father served in multiple theaters around the world, including Iraq, Korea, Israel, and Germany.Despite the trauma, hardship, and occasional benefits that come with that service--serving a country that does not always serve its veterans in return. It is not only because of my past psychiatric problems. I've worked through those issues and grown past them. The underlying condition may still be dormant and could surface again someday, but right now I consider myself stable. I'm not spiraling just yet.Even so, I'm prescribed medications - Abilify, and Concerta - which leave me exhausted and mentally dulled paired with the avolition. Some mornings I wake up unable to move my body or even turn over. I have no energy, and my stomach hurts like hell. Because of these prescriptions and my medical history, I'm disqualified from the military. Now, I feel like a bitter fuck sitting on a giant's shoulder's.There is no greater act than willingly submitting to a force larger than yourself---upholding, protecting, and defending something beyond your own interests and ego.I wanted to be present for my little brother: calm and grounded in daily life, yet decisive and unmerciful when a situation goes wrong despite lacking the empathy to ever feel what he feels - yet due to that general apathy, neglect would be a concern.And now I wonder whether or not I turn to the underworld where there are no laws, at least money will flow, even though the paranoia alone would be exhausting. Do I dare risk being locked up? Wish mother was here to smack me in the back of the head. How could I be so ignorant?
I meant the indochina wars actually, my bad.
>>84589143>There is no greater act than willingly submitting to a force larger than yourself---upholding, protecting, and defending something beyond your own interests and ego.You would not be doing that, war is about serving the interests of your leaders, not your people, and it's been that way for a long time. If the US forces itself into a war with China for example, it won't be about the American people, it will be about "the economy", which is meaningless alongside the idea of "nation" now.
>>84589143https://youtu.be/IYITxGniww4?Stay on the Porch,Porch Monkey. Don't jump off and hurt yourself
>>84589288>>There is no greater act than willingly submitting to a force larger than yourself---upholding, protecting, and defending something beyond your own interests and ego.>You would not be doing that, war is about serving the interests of your leaders, not your people, and it's been that way for a long time. If the US forces itself into a war with China for example, it won't be about the American people, it will be about "the economy", which is meaningless alongside the idea of "nation" now.You're right though, but you were talking about politics and I was taking about psychology.
