I hate being alone. I'm always the second choice, not even. The third, fourth, fifth choice. The choice people will only tolerate when in groups or as a last resort. When people flake in group hangouts and it's me and 2 other people, they always cancel and I know they just don't want to be with me. I ask myself if it's even worth the feeling of ostracization and distance myself but that can only last so long. I tell myself I like being by myself and for a few weeks that's the truth. But that familiar feeling of loneliness comes back. That desperation that has me crawling back to group hangouts where no one listens to me, no one laughs at my jokes, everything I say is punctuated with an awkward silence. I can't make any new friends so I tell myself I'm lucky to even have these friends but it's not true. I'm still so lonely. But its better than back then where I was so alone so I should be happy, right?
no. you should just do drugs watch anime and sleep.
>>84592869Had friends like yours a few years ago. Eventually ditched them. Not sure if I'm any better or worse offOn the face of things everything seems worse but I can't really tell anymore.
>>84592869Used to be in the same boat, now I have no friends, it feels weird when I eventually have to talk to someone and I don't recognise my own voice
