I'm 28, about to turn 29. I've wasted my entire life. I have a chronic illness and I'm extremely mentally ill. My chronic illness limits me physically, and it's also the reason why I can't take the specific meds for my mental illness. I have gynecomastia (permanent man tits), and an extremely receded hairline. I have a foreskin breve, which means my frenulum is too short to retract my foreskin. Which means I can't have sex without a painful, later in life circumcision. But that would severely decrease the pleasure I get from masturbation, which is the only thing I enjoy. I'm autistic, have ADHD, horrible memory problems, anxiety, depression, and a low IQ. Anything I try to put effort into I fail at. Even things I've stuck with for years, I never improve at. I'm socially awkward, and make people uneasy when I talk to them. No amount of practice has made me less awkward. My growing experience gap has made me a bizarre person to my pears, and I can't relate to anyone. I have one friend who's way older than me, and is mean/abusive to me. I've only had one girlfriend in high school, who cheated on me most of the time and gave me paranoid trust issues. My mom was overbearing and also contributed to those feelings. My father was a spineless man. I don't have any type of college or university degree. I've spent years being unemployed. I can't remember anything long enough to take tests or learn skills. Even if I do somehow fix maybe half of those problems, I feel like I have nothing left to live for. I'll be in my mid 30s by then. The time to make friends and meet people was in my 20s, and that time has passed. The only people left to meet will be people younger than me who will bully me for my problems. Or married couples who will also bully and belittle me. The only women I'll ever be able to get will be fat, and already have another man's children. I won't have any memories to look back to when I'm grinding away at normal life to make me happy. What's the point?
Whoo doggy that's a big fucking essay! Let me shorten it for you, the audience!>My penis is weird>I suffer from all these, likely undiagnosed, conditions and choose not to get better>I'm a pussy and I don't care to improve>I'm weird>I'm a deadbeat and have no skills for even maintaining a clean house>Uhhhh the power of friendship>My girlfriend cheated on me>MOMMY AND DADDY WERE SO MEAN ;_;>EVERYONE IS SO MEAN!!!!>ALL I CAN FUCK ARE FAT CHICKS WHEN UHH I'M 30!>WHY MUST I SUFFER, SAD UWU
>>84606469I'll address some of those one by one since you took the time.>I suffer from all these, likely undiagnosed, conditions and choose not to get betterThey're all officially diagnosed. I try to get better but they're most of them are permanent and very difficult to overcome. I keep trying over and over and over.>I'm a pussy and I don't care to improveI try to practice talking to people. taking the advice I see online of chatting to clerks, people I meet in public. But it never gets any easier. i don't just stay home, I keep trying but nothing works.Everything else you mentioned is basically what I said in the post.
>>84606450Thank God my hairline is still strong
>>84606499there's no point being genuine with him, he's just mad you bumped his umpteenth tranny jerkoff thread off the catalog
>>84606572I just wanted to dispel the assumption that people have in response to this kind of situation.. They say things like "you made up your problems" when I didn't, the doctors diagnosed me. Or "you didn't try" when I've tried over and over... I don't understand why people think that trying and failing is the same thing as never trying. Like at least insult me for being a failure, I earned that
>>84606450>What's the point?i dont have the same health issues but im around the same age and just lost my job. i can tell you theres not much to look forward too. normies will not accept us so keeping a job is hard, women have 0 interest in us so thats out, friendship isnt real, family is just a group of people youre forced to be around. things have only gone downhill for me since uni i dont expect it to get better i would suggest you dont either
>>84606602For some reason I didn't think it would be this bleak. I would read all of this propaganda on how "it's never too late" or "age is just a number". Then to one day reach an age where the kind of change I want is no longer possible. That there really is a deadline for certain experiences. I thought your 30s were still young. I had no idea it was considered ancient. The realization just hit me like a ton of bricks...
