>have a messaging only connection with a girl I used to study with during high school >She only checks on me in national holidays and stuff just "hey what's new" every three months or so >Calls me last week out of the blue >She was stressed over the fear of failing her last year of uni and not graduating >Made up some superman-isc pep talk about hope and that she will pass, unironically saying "fear and doubt only come to those who have the ability to succeed">She texted me today with happy crying eyes emojis and walls of texts about how she passed, thanking me for standing by her and giving her hope I always wanted to help someone like this, it was kinda a fantasy of mine in a way, she even said the exact sentence I've always wanted someone to tell me, but still felt nothing.I'm starting to think nothing will fix me anymore.
Alas, endless consumerism for me then, my friends.Currently watching fringe, it is a pretty fun formulaic show. Walter is an amazing character.
I remembered where I posted this, I know you guys won't trust me without proof.
>>84612406nice. Has she sent you pics of her blowing Chad yet to thank you for the emotional support?
>>84612519No, I only have her Instagram account that she gave to her parents too, so I assume she has another one as her main.About the emotional support part, I feel like I kinda use her in that regard too, she listened to me vent once Abou my internship experience for 2 hours straight, to be frank, understanding that friendships are all about taking something from someone helped me a bit.My main issue is that after I've gotten the praise and appreciation that I've always wanted I felt nothing.Just like Denji from CSM part 1fr
literally all you did was give her some rote platitudes conjured up from the mind of a shounen addictif you actually felt "good" about this it would be a sign of you having a large ego and weak constitution
>>84612604Appreciate the reality check, anon.I guess you're right, but I still feel like seeking positive reinforcement from others is a pointless cause while still desiring, maybe true happiness and self fulfilment only comes from within after all.
>>84612406>still felt nothing.foolThats not how feelings work, as soon as you think about your feelings, you don't feel any more.I remember as a teen I was obsessed to tell my girls when I thought I didn't love them at that particular moment - as what I thought was just an act of honesty - because when I felt I loved them like crazy I told them, too, right? Imagine what unnecessary uproar, pain and confusion I created...
>>84612620fake it til you make it, I guessdeeper connections and more meaningful moments take considerably more time and effort
