Does anyone else just deeply loathe school? I genuinely mean it when I say that sitting in a closet in pitch black for 7 hours would have been more preferable than going to school. School was boring AND stressful, whereas a dark closet is just boring. Plus I could have napped and probably heard a TV in the other room. Every year past 4th grade just got worse and worse. I've graduated already but the damage school did outweighed any benefit. I'm too broken to go to college or get a job, all I can do is be a recluse, like what would have been the difference had I dropped out at 16 instead of graduating at 18? I barely learnt anything because I was so depressed. I will say school is very important for most people but I feel like an extreme outlier.
>>84756567what kind of sick fuck enjoys school? i mean yeah, i liked listening to the announcements in the morning. but the rest of it was shit. fuck homework
>>84756582It's funny you say:>what kind of sick fuck enjoys school?But then say:>i liked listening to the announcements in the morning.What could have possibly been that interesting?Also yeah not many kids like it but it's usually a disinterest or dislike, I hated it to the point I attempted suicide several times with the sole purpose of getting out of it. Even attempted at school lol, got caught and went to a mental hospital for a week. It was a rough first few days but after that it was enjoyable
>>84756567yes it was fucking awfulbut i do miss the structure
>>84756736>What could have possibly been that interesting?it's just a low stakes setting where you can relax compared to 8 periods of teachers asking to see homework you didn't do
>>84756883in fact, if i was a comedian i would even turn it into a bit>can we see you naked?>uh, no?>oh... can we see your homework then?
>>84756567Only good thing was the structure. I only use like 20% of what learned in school anyways, absolute waste of time and youth and only meant as a daycare business. I hated sitting for hours and just writing and having to be around people that didn't like me or were neutral towards me or were just getting close to use me, and then hours of useless homework later. My calc teacher told the class drop out if you dont understand this first lesson, should have listened to him instead of my dad who pushed me to do math and science so hard even though I was obviously bad at it and hated it. I fucking hate every adult and older person who has told me what to do only for it to be bad for me or to fail, fuck those hags and farts. Especially the ones that gave me opportunities they know I would be terrible at like combo of working in crowds with music and doing mental math and being on feet all day, literal torture for a 'tist. Suck my metaphorical dixk you sabotaging incompetent authority figures. Also you cant oppress and demoralize someone so much they just stay in bed and still expect them to do shit like pay taxes and care about their future. Fuck off. I dont give a shit if you think I'm lazy, you try being constantly hurt and sabotaged and having little or bad opportunities.
I regard schooling as an actual malicious entity these days rather than as an organically-born clusterfuck. I've never been more convinced in my life that some people just have natural inner radiance and others just don't. You guys >>84756582>>84756875are saying you miss the structure or elements of it. Fuck all of that. Do you have any fucking idea what's been done to you? They took the most hormone-driven, fertile, passionate, athletic, energetic period of your life and sat your ass in a fucking seat surrounded by complete imbeciles for 8+ hours a day. They would have sent your parents to fucking jail otherwise. You fail to understand just how badly you've been robbed because you have nothing to compare it against and can't feel the absence of something better that you never experienced. If you had been able to experience a youth in a timeline without compulsory schooling, and then had to exchange it for the one you had, you would see in an instant how miserably it pales in comparison. They took a flower in bloom and then kept it carefully-managed and sterile until it began to wither. They did it to all of us. How is that not cruel? That's not imparting wisdom; that's nakedly just a means of population control. Like we're fucking farm animals. How contemptuous.Face it. The hippy educators who wanted to let the gifted kids roll around on beanbags all day were half-right. The mistake was trying to apply to an entire population you clearly regard as peasants methods meant to midwife the potential of noble-souled children. The kid who dicked off all class to read novels the size of the Bible didn't benefit from being there and neither did the idiot who couldn't read. Grading has become politicized and almost completely divorced from competence. Unironically stop trying to keep up with China or Japan or whoever if we're gonna keep doing this. It would deadass be better to literally just stop and not replace it.
I didn't loathe schoolJust my colleagues
>>84756567school is far superior to work. it's just conditioning you for slavery and for being working class laborer. conditioning you to labor. but you can game the system in school by being an A plus little party member, and you will get a free pass in life when you get out and not have to really work for money. you can become a CCP star member basically but it is the united fascist state of amerikkka instead. if you get into ivy league you are basically garaunteed a management or ceo spot or something.
>>84756883That is a good point.>>84757333You are absolutely correct which is why I'm a recluse. It didn't even condition me it just stressed me out.
>>84757268This, originally with a side of curly fries.
>>84756567It is an extreme and profound waste of time when you think about it. That's SO much time in your formative years. And if you're bright, you would have self-educated anyway, but there exists not a single institution to even supply you with a book that isn't written by McGraw Hill, beyond maybe a library or the internet. The demand of time on a child's perception is extreme too, and it is one of the most depressing things in the world that you KNOW that they're empty promises, nobody tells you how these things you're being trained to do and the tests you're being trained to pass will help you work in an industry, and then you graduate in the ultimate final rugpull. I don't remember the minutiae, but I remember specifically events in school where the single mother bitch failure of a person put in superiority over me confiscated a book I had brought to class instead of paying attention to whatever her dumbass McGraw Hill lesson was. The sense of inarticulate resentment and despair might collectively have emerged in the zoomer phenomenon of backrooms. Musty, stagnant rooms with harsh lighting, cheaply made, cheaply decorated by an insane menopausal single mother lanyard karen. It's like being trapped inside the mind of one of them. Obsessed with procedural safety, where a normal person has synapses, the lanyard karen has roman numeral I, II, III, and then 1., 2., 3., and then A., B., C., &c. "Be creative" and then you're allowed 12pt Times New Roman or Arial according to MLA format, by teachers who have no ability to explain the rules of English grammar, while also insisting that English is constantly changing and there's no possible way to define proper English. I could go on for hours. It's just stupid if only for a week or a summer camp, it's actually insane for years of your life just because of lanyard karen HR credentialism.
>>84757638>Musty, stagnant rooms with harsh lighting, cheaply made, cheaply decorated by an insane menopausal single mother lanyard karen.I feel like this is more insightful than it seems somehow
>It's like being trapped inside the mind of one of them.I meant to quote this part, but the setup was important too.
I started dropping out when I was in grade 4 and fully dropped out in grade 7. I had great grades. They failed me for attendance in grade 6, and I simply redid grade 6 with the same terrible attendance with my grades being in the top 5% while I missed half the days. They bumped me up into grade 7 in the last 3 months of the year and I didn't go for the last month at all. Went to high school for one month in the hood, never talked to anyone and finalized my dropout. I just had no interest in school anymore and didn't like any group of kids.I was ostracized for being poor and parentless even by the teachers. I'm 40 years old now and I don't feel like I missed out on knowledge, but I missed out on socialization and this ostracization has continued up until this age. I work skilled jobs and become the best worker but never move anywhere because I don't socialize with anyone. My current job I've worked 5 years, the business has only been open 5 years, and my boss still tells me not to steal and suspects me. The Church hates me because I don't wear a long sleeve shirt and I won't write a baptism essay.
schools are literally modelled after a prison lolit's purpose is to snuff out your divine spark and turn you into a compliant wageslave chasing pointless metrics of approval
>>84757818I guarantee you my retrospective opinion on school would have been different if, at the very minimum, it was not like being locked inside of a monolithic, sturdy, synthetic carnival funhouse asylumn box, where the cheapness of the materials are so apparent, and the design is so loud and obtrusive you can barely even daydream. I think that must be one of the causes of our collective aesthetic flight towards Nordic minimalism, if you remember that trend. It probably wasn't the photographer's intention, but picrel is a seriously beautiful image to me. Even if you imagine it without the verdant trees in the open window, if all the trees were dead and it was in winter, it would be a beautiful image to me. They're taking care of the place they all have some communal stake in. It's not more or less than it needs to be. This is one hundred times more advanced than what I had.
>>84757868You are so lucky. I wish I dropped out in middle school which I know isn't legal but even when I could drop oit at age 16 my mom wouldn't let me
>>84757896I don't feel lucky at all. The way the 6th grade failure was presented was that if I started attending and putting in an effort they would bump me up to my proper grade. This happened because my single mom avoided all communication with the school and said it was my responsibility to talk to them since I was the one skipping.The fact that I simply went "well, that's life huh?" And didn't change my path at all while flat out swallowing all social stigma by being the only kid to ever known to be failed in elementary school. Seeing how different I was treated for failing even though I was an honor roll student straight up taught me that my actual work didn't matter and only my social reputation did. And they were right, but I've been fighting it all my life because of what happened.I want to prove that I am better while being uninvolved. Unfortunately this just means I get abused and used as a stepping stone by strugglers
