Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportHey, good evenin>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
85568423heyit's hypodermis/fat layer what it's exposed you it's very district because it's very yellow with bean like yellow globs in there>arm for 2 monthsouch>dont remember any beansmaybe you did pay enough attention to notice or just don't have much fat in that part of your body>>85568480hey>so bad that I gave up:c>actually color a drawing digitally?no ideayou could look for some tutorials or just do it without any experience just for funmaybe it'll be a good way to compare your progress in the future >how was your walk?I forgot I wanted to go :3so I stayed inside yesterday today I went on a bikeride tho
>>85572242Hallu /cat/>How are you doing today?Well enough.>Any plans for today?Dealing with our student loan payment system, I need them off my back until I get a job.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Couple days ago.>Why did you hurt yourself?Hate for myself and all the opportunities I squandered (for myself and others). Envy.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I've been trying to get my parents to let me practice driving and they're being fickle about it. I already know how to and just need to be ready for the exam.>>85564575>I'll probably play some zeldaI haven't played any of the games actually, I'll probably start with ocarina of time for the N64 when I do.>I actually like it when it's cold and dark on my walks, I can put on cozy clothing and feel the cool air, it's niceIt is, it's just the cars ruin it so much for me. There's a decent bit of traffic by my house so it pains my ears to hear it.>you get a lot of snow?Tons. The snow gets up to my knees regularly once we get deep into winter. I'm guessing you get less than us up (down?) in Poland.>>85567783>whenever i watch a reveal show it looks like the same 4-5 games being shown again and again.Lol real, the last reveal I was excited for was the new castlevania and nothing since or before really. Side tangent but man I do not think I'll like this game at ALL even if its castlevania (which I like) made by the dead cells devs (who I also like). The art direction isn't bad but the camera being so panned out definitely hurts readability, and introducing parrying to the series is unwelcome (even if it has appeared a little in previous entries, parrying seems super oversaturated in games nowadays).>if whatever they make isn't an affront to all senses in every aspect, people won't know they did anything.Exaaaaactly
>>85568155>I had fun playing outer wilds haha.heard a lot of good things about that game, but never played it. maybe when it's on sale.>There are many simple graphics games out there.true and i'm playing a lot of those, but especially when it comes to remakes of older games you get a lot of unnecessary visual clutter because that's what "modern graphics" are and the devs need to justify the price somehow. thanks for recs, though. i'll check them out.>>85572242hi catbro! what's up? had a rough day, but not sure what's going on.>>85572617>the last reveal I was excited for was the new castlevania and nothing since or before really.i was interested in the new version of wow they announced at blizzcon, but not anymore. guess i'm looking forward to lords of the fallen 2 now. first game was fun. hope they learned their lessons and implemented them properly.>I do not think I'll like this game at ALLwatched the trailer and i think i get what you mean. got major bloodstained vibes from it, which is never a good thing. can't stand 2.5d graphics as well. maybe it'll be fun enough. who knows?>parrying to the series is unwelcomeguess it's a genre staple now? don't really played a lot of castlevanias to have an opinion on it, but if long term fans find it annoying, it probably shouldn't be in there.
>>85572617hellooo c:>Well enough.that's good, enough >student loan paymentD:never a good thing >to let me practice drivingand they don't wanna?>ready for the examwhen's the exam?>ocarina of time for the N64that's what I'm playin too :]>decent bit of traffic byooh :/>guessing you get lesswhen I was a kid there used to be more snow but now it's pretty rare, maybe once or twice every winter and it doesn't last long>>85572961Hello :3>had a rough day ://did something bad happened?I went on a bikeride today and got a new knife
>>85573056>did something bad happened?nothing in particular. usually i'd call this a regular day, but i'm at a point where i can't even deal with that anymore, physically as well as mentally. not even sleeping seems to do anything.>I went on a bikeride today and got a new knifethat's cool. what kinda knife is it?
>>85573323>where i can't even deal with that anymoreif you have to work 12hours a day 6 days a week I'm not supposed How many days off can you take?>what kinda knife is it?butterfly knoife:3
>>85573346>if you have to work 12hours a day 6 days a week I'm not supposedboss is back, so it's not that bad anymore. still not fully back to normal, i guess.>How many days off can you take?a week or two. we'll see>butterfly knoife:3you learning tricks with it?
170 streak gone, they didnt give me dorm room.its 2 hours there and 2 hours back. i dont know how to deal with it so i just cut. cuz its all fucked now. idk what to do.i dont even feel better. just the rush of emotions is gone. now it just hurts. idk im retardedBoth my siblings are succesfull and i just carve out my arm cuz im retarded. why cant i be satisfied with mediocrity. Why did god made me smart enough to realize that i am a failiure, but too dumb to do anything with it. 140 iq and for what
Therapy went okay. And gf is putting in effort and being nice. I feel a bit better, although I caught a coldI just found out my friend met fucking Alexei Levkin and his wife at a museum in Kiev and talked with him. Apparently a pretty down-to-earth guy, although I'd personally probably be super intimidated
>>85573323Sounds like you need a little change of scenery maybe? Hope you can get some days off and really push yourself out of the grey routine for a bit>>85573346>butterfly knoife:3Cool, how much did it cost? I had one as a kid but I lost it somewhere>>85573504Hey Cas, I know that feeling, lately I also compare myself to everyone and feel like i'm hopelessly falling behind and missing everything. It may sound stupid, but don't be so harsh on yourself. Take a look at your situation and imagine what you'd think if it was a friend in your place sharing these worries. You definitely wouldn't be so cruel. The dorm thing does suck, but it's not a definition of your worth, it's just something that happened that you have to navigate. You're smart, it's a burden when you're down but a blessing when applied properly, keep your head up. You're not wasting anything, and you never know how things turn out.
>>85572617>Hate for myself and all the opportunities I squandered (for myself and others). Envy.What kind of opportunities do you feel like you squandered? If you don't mind me asking.>>85573323>i'm at a point where i can't even deal with that anymoreThat sounds really bad. Do your parents have the means to support you while you finish college or find a more sustainable job?>>85573346>I went on a bikeride today and got a new knifegonna hurt yourself with that o: ??
>>85573799yea, i agree i wouldn't be cruel. but i still would feel disappointed. What is then definition of my worth. Im not trying to say that having a dorm is, but with a little farther look on things, higher education is a form of worth. how others look at you/perceive you.And also its really difficult to not compare myself to others, when i feel like i was in a race with my siblings my whole life.
>>85572242WHERE MY HEAD HITTERS AT? (unironically)
>>85573504>they didnt give me dorm room.sorry to hear. :/ maybe you can get a place that's somewhat closer?>>85573715>Therapy went okay. And gf is putting in effort and being nice. I feel a bit better, although I caught a coldglad to hear things are looking a bit brighter. guess all that stress made you more susceptible to it. i was feeling like i was getting one too, but i surpressed it somehow. maybe that's why i'm feeling so awful rn>Alexei Levkinwho's that? never heard of him before.>>85573799>Sounds like you need a little change of scenery maybe?could be, but i first need the energy to think about that. my whole body is sore just from working. something's definitely off here ^^'>>85573886>finish collegei'm not in college. tried and failed that already. mostly because of depression, but also because i've never found anything i'm interested in. >find a more sustainable job?i don't think it matters much what kind of job i have. i'll always end up like this eventually.honestly, i'm probably not in the right state of mind to evaluate this properly. i'll just go to bed for today. good night
>>85573933Good night !! Sleep well yuanon.
>>85573472>not that bad anymorestill not good :C>we'll seeI feel the should take it asap>learning tricks with it?ye I'll learn a couple >>85573504heya cas>didnt give me dorm roomhuh!? why? :c>with it so i just cut.it's understandable frensounds like a pickle Hope things somehow sort themselves out maybe apply again and again and again :/>>85573715>Therapy went okayglad about that>although I caught a coldD: is it bad?>found out my friend metcool>>85573799>how much did it cost?by chance found it on sale for very cheap like 4usd >but I lost it somewhererip [*]>>85573886hellohow's it going?>hurt yourself with that o: ??nah I don't hurt myself with knifes because then I'll have to be the one to shapen them >>85573910hey anonnot mestop knocking your braincells out, you only got so many of them
>>85574005But it calms me instantly. It is what I need at that moment. I am taking back up boxing.
>>85574005>Hope things somehow sort themselves outwell see tomorrow. I texted the "support" and they might give me a bed with foreigners. Which i don't mind, since i feel quite confident in English. The problem is, that even there might not be any empty space.>sorry to hear. :/ maybe you can get a place that's somewhat closer?i dont know. im affraid, that i will just not go to uni... btw thank you all for answering my retarded talking.
>>85572242>faggot attention whore threadremember kids its across for attention down for destiny
>>85573896Your worth is exactly that, your potential and what you do to achieve it. And being hindered does not lower it, the fact that you want something and work towards it already sets your karmic balance. View it as a positive, something like - the commute there will give you more time to do something and you have an outside factor helping you build discipline. I lived 5 minutes away from uni, and you can't imagine how often i was late and lazy. Everything has two sides to it, it's your job to use it to your favor. Maybe im being schizo, sorry if this is not what you want to hear.>>85573910I knew a lot of you head smashing screamy people in the psych ward, I wish I could do it. I internalize and pull my hair and hit myself because childhood abuse taught me to make myself small and quiet.>>85573933>who's that? never heard of him before.It's the guy on the pic, vocalist of the band M8L8TH. He scares me because he reminds me of a charismatic psychopath, and he's very calm and well-spoken in interviews while being previously imprisoned for three counts of racially motivated murder. Idk just an unsettling dude, like he's possessed by somethinghttps://youtu.be/kZkouX7W6VA?list=RDhABvtvL9Q-k>something's off here ^^'Whatever it is, take care of yourself buddy. Goodnight <3>>85574005Thanks :3>is it bad?It's alright but i don't wanna jinx it.>>85574046It's not retarded Cas, have a good night or day, wherever you are and take care of yourself.
>>85574005>how's it going?Hi catty. Hope you are doing well ^^. I'm doing well and I listen to the audio for the exam all the time. I cooked some macaroni, went to the gym from my home to do some exercise. One machine is broken and it's expulsing water. So I saw insect poop and death insect when I went there. I'm a bit worried. I'm also worried because I lost the mock tests from one of my academies because I didn't realized they exist and AI refuses to hack moodle website. I also sleep most of the day while not sleep at night :(. So I hope that won't destroy my opportunities for the exam. Good night !!
>>85572961>guess it's a genre staple now?More like a medium staple, a bazillion games got parries now it's kinda absurd. The mechanic itself isn't a problem it's just overdone and underutilized where it's featured. Like wtf does Wolverine(2026) need a parry for, it's rarely demanding in and just exists to make the player feel like a badass. Equivalent to the turret sections that plagued shooters back in the day.>>85573056>maybe once or twice every winter and it doesn't last longWow thats basically nothing, our snow lasts from around mid November to early March.>and they don't wanna?They say they do but always put it off. Got some tonight finally
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>>85573996thank you. hope you did, too.>>85574005>still not good :Cguess not, but it never was, so no surprise there.>I feel the should take it asapsame. again: i'll see what i can do.>I'll learn a couplegetting dangerous :0>>85574046>that i will just not go to uni...would suck if you really want to, but there's other ways of making it in the world. you got this.>>85574151>very calm and well-spoken in interviews while being previously imprisoned for three counts of racially motivated murderi see. i suppose one doesn't exclude the other and a lot of serial killers are like that. >Idk just an unsettling dude, like he's possessed by somethingmakes sense. not someone i'd like to be around, either.>take care of yourself buddywill do. thank you. :]
>>85574184>One machine is broken and it's expulsing water.what kind of machine is it?>I'm a bit worriedmaybe avoid the place until they fixed it and do some bodyweight exercises in the meantime?>I lost the mock tests from one of my academiescan't you just ask someone to send them to you?>hope that won't destroy my opportunities for the examlet's hope not. good luck with that.>>85574968>More like a medium staplealso true. most action games have it now.>wtf does Wolverine(2026) need a parry for, it's rarely demanding in and just exists to make the player feel like a badass.watched a guy fuck around with the game on hardest difficulty yesterday. not sure if the game needs a parry or not, but that's by far the least of it's problems... do the arkham games have a parry or is it just block and dodge? been so long that i played them that i can't remember.>Equivalent to the turret sections that plagued shooters back in the day.almost forgot about those. good riddance.
>>85576979>what kind of machine is it?This machine. You can see the death mosquitos and the poop in the bottom floor from the 3 floors of my house. I cleaned the water a bit but I did not clean eberything because I assume the bottom floor is filled of mosquitos anyways.>maybe avoid the place until they fixed it and do some bodyweight exercises in the meantime?That's what I though but the place also has other useful machines that do not expulse water when I use them
Dreamed about cutting myself with metal fragments soaked in burning oil. I was trapped in a house with some crazy old man as part of some "killing game", and my only options were to try and fight him or hurt myself. Really I could only hurt myself, he was lugging an axe around and killed 3 others already... does anyone have similar dreams?>>85576979>the arkham games have a parry or is it just block and dodge?Dunno, never played them.
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hey everyone today just sorta flew by for me idk what happened today >>85577905hellosounds like something out I manhunt or saw >already... does anyone have similar dreams?no but I weirdly have a lot of dreams about fighting people
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