I have hardly any reason to fight or strive anymore, especially at my old age. I failed so much: I failed the CNA program; I failed at roofing; they gave up on training me after 2 weeks; I was let go from landscaping construction because every foreman hated the fact that I didn't talk and was negative. Hence why I'm entertaining trade school, entertaining an apprenticeship, or even trying to be a fireman, especially since it involves being an EMT if I can't do a CNA program right, btw, then an 11-year-old could do; why bother being a fireman? Why bother with anything, especially after failing so much? I am seriously not sure I should live. Most days, my life is a joke at my expense, and if there is a God, I hate him. God is cruel; he is terrible for forsaking me and cursing me to be like this >My Boston commute
You have forsaken yourself. Find your strength and believe in yourself. You are born of this world so do what you can, carve yourself a piece. Even if it is small, stop washing over your thoughts with negativity and you can change for the better. ad astra per aspera.
>>85719213I wish I could have died like noble 6
>>85719227nta but same, something worth dying for will be good enough for the final act of my life
>>85719227also nta but I just cant afford to care about dying honorably anymore. I just wish that there was a peaceful method out there that is possible to get your hands on. Thats all I want, to die peacefully. Anything that kills you easily without suffering has been long since heavily restricted or banned.
