im in a really dark place right now. you guys are literally the only people i know how to talk toi'm sorry
>>12944290it won't get better but it will get less worsedon't kill yourself until you're at least 25
>>12944291i'm 32
>>12944290we are here for you
>>12944292ok, you can kill yourself i guess
>>12944290hang in there buddyim sorry youre in such a bad spot...youre stronger than you realize handling it like you dothings will get better eventually, please dont completely lose hope<3
>>12944290Just remember that you still haven't been blinded or gotten limbs amputated or been crippled with a nervous system disorder, so your life isn't all that bad and there are literally some people that would kill their own parents just to live your life as pathetic as it may be.
>>12944290I am in the same boat, I love you anonAlso I am 30 too
>>12944290Yup. That's one of the reasons why I'm starting steroids again tomorrow. If I'm going to be on mind altering drugs to deal they may as well increase my PRs while they're at it.Your fortune: ｷﾀ━━━━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━━━━ !!!!
>>12944296i can't do that i don't want to put my brothers through that
>>12944290https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rhy__BcFtbM
>>12944290I'm sorry you're going through such a bad time, friendI will share with you some inspirational wisdom a wise sasquatch once relayed to me: remember, though the night be dark, the dawn yet shall awaken and annoy youYour fortune: Better not tell you now
This too shall pass
>>12944383>>12944372I'm afraid it won't end. I've spent the last 10 years doing the same thing, going to work, going home. I spent too much time I had ignoring everyone because I'm selfish. I'm trapped in a prison of my own making.I'm just glad my brothers aren't like me.
>>12944483What do you mean by ignoring everyone?Why go work then home and nothing else, are you not going out or doing any hobbies?
>>12944492I always stayed in my room to use my computer.
>>12944290Are you perhaps this bird that fell into my sewer?
>>12944483please dont be so hard on yourselfyou can still turn things around and socialize more
>>12944483maybe it wasn't because you were selfish. maybe it was because you were coping with something the best you could. I hope you're able to give yourself grace, to be patient and understanding with yourself, because you're clearly dealing with a lot. whether through therapy or self-help, if you want to make a change in your life you might think about exploring what it is that's holding you back from leading the life you want to live; just concluding that you're "selfish" doesn't really offer you a path forward.
>>12944506>>12944625thanks for the kind words
