i feel like i've been abandoned by god
>>12944609what makes you think he was there in the first place?
>>12944609what's wrong?
I would have to think about it for a while before I could say anything meaningful about the greater will or any imaginary deities relating to it
>>12944609I actually might be insane but I quite literally think that God does things to fuck with me and make me barely survive and watch me suffer
>>12944628your lucky to have blamed it on god. Some people are raised to believe their suffering is caused by past life sins
>>12944630I am not luckyI live in a soundproof cube and have been abused since birth by a bad family, I almost died then because my brother would threaten to murder meI have neurological issues that make most people not want to live. I still work hard and want to live but I have been fucked and fucked and fuckedEven little shards of keratin that feels like glass come out of my skin because of my hormone problemmsDon't go talking down to people you know nothing about, this thread was for people struggling to talk for a bit, not to just assume about my life.
>>12944632honestly I'm here laughing at babies getting dashed on rocks
>>12944616i dont know, god, creator, the world, something is responsible for us existing, something created a perfect illusion of lives we live>>12944621i've seen shit, not like the common depressing stuff like gore or natural cruelty, but i've been subjected to inhuman amounts of suffering due to brain problems in the pasti think i'm gonna be subjected to more suffering again when i die i dont knowi hate having been created into something that has a bottomless capacity for sufferingevery nerve and braincell in the body can contort in on itself and it feels like every part of your soul is trying to rip something out of itself and it leaves you so terrified that you cant speak and just lay there convulsingwhy does anything beautiful exist when the world can be so uglythis was the one thing something like god was supposed to preventi feel so frightened i could throw up
Damn are you kidding meBecause some asshole assumed about me I did not even get to discuss amything with OP and have funFuck everything
SeriouslyOP even says they are suffering and I have been dealing with such bad stuff I would have liked to not have to defend my life and to have a fun discussionI don't usually get this salty but fuck you anon that assumed stuff about me, you are a pedantic dick and fuck you OP too for not wanting to talk togetherI hate trying to connect with anyone and this world fucking sucks
>>12944628>>12944632that's really fucked, i didn't have any long term consistent abuse like that but it was a singular event that left me in a really bad state for over a yeari really hope you get out of your living situation if you havent already, and hormone problems are awful>>12944644>>12944648i'm sorry i spent so much time typing out the other reply that you said all that stuff before i could read it all i didnt mean anything by it
>>12944652You don't need to defend yourself, sorry for flipping my lid. If you apologized you are too nice for somethig like thatHaving a single event is bad enough, one thing can change things forever and in a real way. I hope the brain problems can improve, nerve problems are hard anon
muslims and christians are equally insane
>>12944655i dont get why these things have to scar our lives so permanentlyits always bad enough that something happened to begin with, but even after the damage is repaired i constantly get these times where my head shuts down and starts thinking nothing but fear of something happening to my brain again
>>12944658who cares man thats not what this is aboutif i were athiest or whatever i dont think my feelings would change, god is a label for something we dont understand, not a bestial entity
>>12944663Just because someone believes in God doesn't mean they think about the greater will
>>12944642>something is responsible for us existingwhy must that be so? can it not be that we simply exist? if you can take it on faith that there "just is" a something which is responsible for our existence, then why not take it on faith that we "just are" instead? seems like less of a stretch of the imagination
