Can any doctor here that wants to do good from their heart help me? I barley want to live.I've been trying to help what I thought was autism or anxiety and doctors later diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder for now, 20 fucking years. 2 fucking decades. Too long.Ive realized im banging my head into the wall. The meds dont work for me.I want benzos opaites or stims until I die. I dont deserve to go to fucking prison and getting raped in the asshole and beaten for wanting to not be suicidal and wanting to be happy like everyone else. Anyone who says otherwise is an authority bootlicking sub 50 IQ drooling cock sucking cuck or just cruel a lying manipulator who wants to see me suffer.I hallucinate perpetual demon rape with anhedonia too I want to do nothing and enjoy very little. I have tried to commit suicide like 5 times. I ate toxic mushrooms, did heroin oraly unmeasured at *shitload* mixxed with dr pepper and coke and just drank the whole 2 lite (I felt like i was asphyxiating in open forest cold air, I did it alone in the forest with no cell phone)I dont want to go back to jail, i was attacked in general population and told to get into the shower. it's worse than documentaries actually, they make it seem like it is cool and tough but gangmembers just teamed up to kick my head into the cement after i said anything schizo and told me to get in the shower and when i asked the guards for help they told me to shut up and waited 10 minutes to help me, coulda died.Im only happy high. I can use weed here in california but its not enough. I hallucinate a demon raping me all the time or have a real demon raping me all the time, plus i cant socialize right and dont fit in. Its like im deer in the headlights all the time even with no anxiety. this gives me no ability to enjoy life.ive deduced people enjoy life by connecting socially with others platonically, i cant due to my braini want to feel some pleasure and im only happy on opiate benzos or stims.1/2
2/2 I want to just be high medically till i die im so unhappy but i cant.ill also get kicked out and made homeless again if i smoke weed or drink all day even if its not enough.is there any law in america im in california or any state or country on earth that allows for mercy treatment of people like me with feel good drugs so we dont want to die all the time?I dont like life.
AnonDoNotSmokeTHCStopItsMakingYourSchizoaffectiveWorseQuitNow
Your hallucinations are being caused by the THC, especially when mixed w stimulants. Get. Off. The. Dope. Do. Not. Use. THC. Its. Proven. To. Make. Schizoaffective. Symptoms. Worse.
>>16910873Sneeds. Feed. And. Seed. Was. Formerly. A. Shop. Owned. And. Operated. By. Chuck. He. Called. It. Well. I. Don't. Have. To. Tell. You.>>16910871AnonThePlace Used ToBeACountrysideBrothelButNowItIsAnAgriculturalSupply StoreRunBySneedIt's CalledSneed's Feed&Seed(FormerlyChuck's)
>>16910762How much of this is true I wonder lol
>>16910762>I ate toxic mushroomsEat magic mushrooms instead.
>>16910762Great, another street screaming drug addict screaming obscenities at no one and everyone downtown in the making.Just what we need
>>16911451It's probably true. A lot of people suffer chronic physical pain and horrific mental, psychological, emotional torture, anxiety, unhappiness, melancholy, depression.Why should it be so viewed as "wrong" for a person to use natural plant compounds to find relief from these crippling symptoms?"modern" society and culture is a living nightmare dystopia. a person gas to be psychotic to adapt and function in this prison-like hellscape and blend in with the normoids.
>>16912510>Why should it be so viewed as "wrong" for a person to use natural plant compounds to find relief from these crippling symptoms?Because it makes you into even more of an enabler than you already are. Any form of drugs (alcohol, coffee, cigarettes) and entertainment (music, books, internet, parties) should be banned.
>>16912529a natural born human is innocenta plant growing naturally in nature is just a natural plant,but for some reason the self-proclaimed authorities and judgmental ones declare its should be "illegal" for the natural human to interact with the natural growing plant.judgmental self-proclaimed authorities are the cancer of the world
>>16912535Sorry, I don't care. Since you've agreed to the ToS of civilization and signed up to be a golem slave for capitalists and the technological system, you should be fully immersed in the role you have chosen, without any kind of cope or distraction. That you could better appreciate the implications of forfeiting the terrors of the natural world, where natural people could use whatever natural plants they wanted. :^)
>>16910762>kick my head into the cementwelcome to the CTE clubweed is going to make it worse, but not doing weed isn't going to make it better
