Hey /soc/, let me in!I'm playing therapist today, so tell me what's wrong, you've had a shitty week and deserve some empathy.
Life is pretty good ngl
im getting an ovary taken out this thursday because of a tumor
>>34306279That's good to hear anon.>>34306282Awful, should just have them get rid of the other one while you're at it. No more periods!
i'm distraught over how many perfectly good relationships i've torpedoed because of my mental illness. knowing that i'm likely to break these women's hearts makes me incredibly reluctant to date again but that just feeds the shame cycle and sabotages me when i inevitably put myself back out there.shit sucks. i'm in therapy but the more time goes on the less i feel i'm able to indulge in healthy relationships. and it doesn't help that i'm so fucking picky either. i'll look for a connection for weeks, then blow it up in a matter of days - if i'm merciful. at least that's better than burning bridges that took months and years to build.
Messed up my shot with a girl I liked on here. I still do like her but I know there's no way I'm able to get her back. I did say some things I regret but I only said them out of insecurity. I know I came off as clingy too but it was to show I cared for her. The other times I tried dating online I was called cold so I thought I was doing better by trying to be around and more open. But whatever I guess...Dunno why I'm doing this but thanks for taking the time to listen. Finding love these day's is hard. >>34306254Also Hope you're doing alright. We're here to listen to you too if you need.
>>34306254life is awful right now but i could cope with all of it if I just had someone special. i miss how someone i met on here years ago used to make me feel and chase that feeling or look for them in others to this day
I miss her. I only think about her. I still daydream about her every day. Since end of august I'm in hell, I've just been sleeping as much as I can to stay unconscious. I almost broke my hand, drugged myself just to feel numb for a while. I wish she'd give us another chance. It's so rare to feel this way. I'm sorry I said those things to you, I didn’t end up doing any of what I said. I couldn’t, even if I had tried. I only have eyes for you
I hate how posting where i live could get me doxxed for just being from that country and not for who i really am, i hate people who judge others based on their country[spoiler] although desu, im not fond of indians saar[spoiler]
boyfriend of 7 years decided that he wants to just be friends. Except I guess he meant friends with benefits. I told him I don’t really want to have sex anymore if he doesn’t want to commit to me or put in the effort to act like a boyfriend. He’s been pouty about it. I’ve already lost a great deal of my previous sexual and romantic feelings towards him. He still cuddles up to me and tries to kiss me. I don’t try to stop him but I don’t feel anything anymore when he does it. No more butterflies. I want to distance myself completely but we live together and I can’t afford to move out.
A guy I’ve been talking to for a little over a year has pulled away. I’m assuming the attention and compliments I showered him in he’s getting from someone else, or I chased him away by telling him I was in love with him. Shit sucks. I wrote poetry about and for him, painted him, he was my muse. He’s the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen, and he made me feel important and special to him. I felt like a giddy teenager again talking to him. I just wanna be important to him again.
i keep looking at pictures from when i was peak anorexic and thinking about getting back into iti hate my body so much and i don’t think being recovered is really worth being kinda fat now, the only reason i decided to stop starving myself in the first place was because i started going bald but at this point i just don’t fucking care i used to be so skinny and hot and now i’m disgusting and it pisses me off so bad that i thought i was fat then when i looked like a fucking model
I think my life has been so boring that I've gone back to checking up on my ex's socials everyday longing for him. This is like, a whole step back for me as I have made a lot of personal growth over the past few years without him and the ties to our disastrous relationship. But I realized I really, really can't get him out of my mind and I'm about to bang my head on a wall because I don't like it
It feels like I'm the only normal person. I desperately searched for someone to connect with, but now I'm 30+ years and a lifelong social outcast and I should accept the reality, you are the problem. You never grew up, you just switched your parents for a boss, a philosophy, a political view, a religion, a camp. You are not your own ruler, you will obey the law others have fixed for you, even if you know they are bad, even if you know it means hurting/killing someone, Milgram has proven it.Was it worth it to destroy the world and billions of lives, only to have people tell you "you are a god boy" and "That you are right" ? And don't pretend you are happy with your live, you are only fooling yourself.
I have a house. I have a job. I have some good friends. But I can't for the life of me get a girlfriend.I'm planning to off myself if I get to 35 years without so much as a date. I'm 32 now so I'm still hopeful, but it's not looking good if I'm being honest.
