Just post whatever you want in here, idec anymore
>>34685903You ever miss someone? You bounce around from town to town, or board to board as it were, searching for them but not a sign appears? No familiar posts, no familiar words, no familiar reactions. You start to wonder, did they ever even exist at all? Perhaps it was a delusion. Perhaps they were a figment of your mind. Perhaps none of this is real. And you look around and you think, what am I doing here? What am I still trying for? And in the end you give up, disheartened, disillusioned. You shall never hear from them again. Call and text and message and mail and it's all on deaf ears, or blind eyes. Or worse. Dead and gone or missing in action or never really there at all; and it's all the same in the end. So let's hope against it all that they're alive and well, still kicking, still doing something. Without and apart but not forgotten. Forever in your heart. Is that what you wanted Ratt?
>> 34685919u ok bro
>>34685929It's been a long time. I'm fine. Just remember her from time to time.
>>34685942At least you have someone to remember, not everyone has that chance.
>>34685981We weren't dating. Surely you have people in your life you care for. Or have cared for.
>>34685903Here’s a picture of my room, figure who I'm supposed to be by yourself.discorde: simon_yuse.
>>34685993No I don't even have that. The only happy memory I have are dreams.
I feel cold cus I have to browse outside. There's no internet at home, barely any signal.
>>34686005Where are you in those happy dreams?
>>34686010The location is not important, the important part is I'm not alone and can feel human warmth.
>>34686053That last time I felt real warmth was 26 years ago. I would feel a facsimile 14 years later from opioids. I wonder what child me would have done if he was told that he would never associate touch with safety again in his life. Maybe it's a meaningless thought. I would not have been able to understand at the time. All the love I've ever had for another has been through the screen. Affection in physicality is beyond me. An almost repulsive, slithering thing. I do have dreams as well. Most bad. The rare few. That warmth you speak of. An embrace, an understanding, a desire. Laying together on a couch, meaningless chatter, TV tuned to anything. Waking and feeling alienated from it, I could not stomach such a thing.
>>34685919Yeah, I miss him so much. I lurk where he’d usually post and feel like a loser. :( It’s been 2 weeks. When does it get better?
>>34686092How long did you know him? It passes in time. If he really meant a lot to you you'll remember him every so often even years down the line. It won't hurt like it does now. A twinge of slight melancholy. You'll meet someone else. You'll overwrite those emotional associations and memories. Two weeks is not much time at all. You're still in mourning, all loss is like death in a way.
>>34686082I'm only 32 you win.I know my younger self would be just happy that I didn't kill myself already, after all he know suffering has well. And the only thing I had to say to him if I had the occasion is stop doubting of yourself because no agreed with you in the final you where the one to be right.
>>34686107I think you misunderstood my timeline. I was quite young the last time I was touched in a way that didn't hurt. You are alive and that is good. As long as you hold on things can change. You're right, there is no final you and there is no correct answer. You can move towards happiness and away from suffering. To some extent. There is good in the world, to find and maybe hold on to.
>>34686097It sounds silly when I say we only knew each other for a couple months, but we got really close. I am feeling debilitating grief, worse than I felt after years-long relationships ending.I don’t even know if he hates me now, because he stopped antipsychotics and believed I was trying to harm him.
>>34686117A few months can leave a lasting impression. Some relationships move very fast. It will pass in time. Nothing lasts forever, especially this kind of grief. Psychosis is a difficult thing. Reality becomes twisted and truth becomes distorted. He will come out of it eventually and when he does he'll see things in a less paranoid light. I don't think he hates you. He might hate something he's invented in his head, but he'll know it's not real in time. I'm not sure if this is good advice or helpful to say, but you could wait a few more weeks or a couple of months and try to reconnect. He'll likely be calmed down by then and be more receptive to you.
I dunno man, I'm 31, lonely, never been in a relationship. I filled out a forum for cupid and it's been a week, and nothing's popped up. I've been thinking of maybe posting an "ad" in one of the other threads here to see if I get hits. Duolicious hasn't worked out for me. It's all so tiring, but I gotta continue on, it's all we can do in this time.
THIS man is COVERED in hair and WATER
join up, have fun, post whatever, be prepared to have your life changedhttps://discord.gg/Xx2VG5HUmG
I have a really bad habit of connecting with someone online. But they're too far and we can't meet anytime soon and I know I should let go but I don't want to because I'm lonely and delusional. Why do I keep doing this? I just wish I could find someone relatively close that I could connect with, but maybe that's a part of it. Maybe I want a comfortable distance to be able to connect. Had to cut someone off I really liked. Wonder how long until the cycle repeats, it's like i'm in hell. I must've been a really bad person in a past life
>>34686127>I don't think he hates you. He might hate something he's invented in his headThis framing really helped me anon thank you<3 I can’t contact him so I would have to wait for him to reach out.>>34686878>Why do I keep doing this?Because it’s hard to connect with people in real life. The internet brings compatible people together who might’ve never known of each other’s existence without it. No one cool ever lives near me either. I’ve flown and bussed to people.
>>34686935The last guy I was willing to go see but he was too mentally ill for it :(
>>34686939Omfg, same, what happened in your situation? I talked to him for months and he was too paranoid to tell me his name. I still grew feelings for him. I talked him to sleep. I really would’ve made the effort to meet him.
>>34686943Wtf I wonder if it was the same guy.. Was he in Europe and had some issues with a schizo related disorder?
>>34686949Oh, no, it was a bipolar guy from the US. Your person also didn’t want to share his name with you?
>>34686954Yeah, he never told me his name either. I wonder if there's a playbook they all use lol
>>34686955I felt silly because I honestly loved him without even knowing his first name. What happened between you two?
>>34686975We didn't talk that long for it to be love between us, just mutual like that wasn't going to go anywhere. He got too.. excited? And I think it's triggered the start of an episode for him so it was better to stop talking. I'm sorry you're grieving your guy. If it's any solace, I've been there before and eventually it fades
28 cisfem south Californiachickn3@proton.memostly looking for people to talk on discord and voice chat.. I posted my email first since I wanna filter people and see if you're my type.I tend to voice chat right away since I'm a paranoid type.Don't add me if you're just going to ghost me after one day or after few voice calls!!!Don't add me if you're going to mention the 4chan hate to me... its very annoying and I have nothing to say about it since its annoymous and idk who they are. please make a thread asking why everyone hates me if you're so curious. they know who they are but I don't know who they are.I developed a thing for skinny nerdy weeb black men recently... if you're one of those please hit me up >.<I dated a soc dude in person who was my fat looksmatch and he still ghosted me and we still had discord beef even though we were equal in looks. so don't give me shit about not looking for my looksmatch. my looksmatch hates me deeply and made it obvious when he permablocked on everything and got me banned from mutual discord servers. if my fat looksmatch won't love me then I might as well look for my preference anyway. crazy thing is that he was slightly older than me and still looking for a partner. so don't give me shit for still looking after years.I really want wholesome long term friendships >.< so reach out to me if you're wholesome and sweet.My discord is out there but I started posting my email instead to filter people to make sure you're my preference
https://t.me/+eXLlwCsSBDRkYjkxJoin up and have fun
>>34686396>>34686127>>34686117Guys ngl I had no idea this thread would get so depressing when I started it. But I am at least glad y'all had a place to vent. And some of y'all had constructive conversations from it. It really is hard to meet good people these days, even harder to force our dead hearts to turn back on and actually care about them. Everything requires so much effort and we are all too tired at the end of the day to put in the effort needed for love or friendship. But we need to break that cycle and be the change we want to see in the world. Make an effort, a real one, to treat others with love and kindness and maybe you will earn the chance to find someone who treats you the same.
i want to use a man's dick like a soccer ball and his wallet however the fuck I want. that's what i want.
