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>ASL19/F/USA>Looking forlately ive been feeling like something is missing in my life & i think having someone i can truly bond with will heal my soul. my ultimate goal is to form a serious relationship. i want a lifelong partner (aka a husband) that i can eventually meetup with irl. i will get to know you first and see where things take us. please dont add me just to immediately sext me, not interested in that until we've established that sort of relationship. being able to vc sometimes is a plus.>Not looking forghosters, unironically rude people, people immediately interested in sex, doesnt contribute to conversation, consistently taking forever to respond, people who do not live in the USA, people not looking for a serious long-term relationship, people who dont want to have children, NEETS>Interestssinging, video games, cooking, tv shows, voice acting, fashion, food, doomscrolling, hiking, animals, just started getting into jigsaw puzzles and i love it>Discordclevercassie
>>34749400Holy based
I saw a comment on here the other night that made me start thinking about you. I wasn't sure if it was directed at me or not. It wasn't overly specific, but it certainly felt like it could have been directed at me, then again maybe I really am just schizo. I really just want to say, I miss you, or at least, the thought of you, and my heart aches whenever you cross my mind. Sometimes I open a browser I haven't touched in a while and it's like a time capsule that has tabs open of things you sent or I scroll through my gallery and have screenshots or images you had sent me or I had meant to send you and it makes me feel so sick and blue. I don't know why I'm even writing this, I guess just to get out the feelings that I felt the other night. I'd like to think if we were still talking you'd be glad for me and where I'm at lately. I truly hope you're happy. That's all I ever wanted for you.
Where do I find men who aren't ONLY interested in "having sex" and "video games"? I'm ok with sex once a week, but men, even the nice ones, seem to want multiple times a day and that's not sustainable for me. Does this make me asexual or not straight? Looking for genuine answers on how/where I can find them, or any book/vid resource recommendations on this
>>34749426That's really beautiful anon, what happened to them?>>34749433Once a week might be on the lower end of normal. Multiple times a day is a lot. I don't have advice but both of those frequencies seem extreme-ish to me
>>34749448I appreciate the input, what do you consider "normal" frequency for you, OP?
>>347494573 to 5 times a week seems average to me. I don't think it makes you asexual or not straight by the way. You just have a lower sex drive than the guys you're meeting. I don't know how you'd find lower drive guys tho
>>34749448I'm just being forthright. I'm not even sure if the comment I read was actually talking about me because from my perspective, I didn't think things ended amicably. I don't want to get too specific, but we stopped talking, it was for the best. It was draining the both of us and bringing out the worst in me. I treasure the moments we had before it all went to shit.
>>34749433nice i cant sleep gif anon
>>34749472Yeah, thanks.It's a problem I've had for 12 years now - I'd often start off thinking "I'm sure it will become less frequent as time goes on" and then it would get to 6-12 month mark and I'd feel horrible, like a zombie doll toy.And starting a relationship by saying "Hey I can only have sex ~1 times a week" also sounds awful, I don't want to frame intimacy like some quantity-limited timed transaction. But I just can't do multiple times a day. 3 times a week sounds doable considering what I've endured in the past though.
>>34749478did go through the same thing and i wish him well and become a better person.
>>34749507I don't think there's anything wrong with talking about that from the beginning of a relationship. Sexual incompatibility can be a big problem. Letting your partner know you have a low sex drive and only want sex once a week is good to do. You'd want to know if they were hypersexual and wanted it 3 times a day, right? Don't think of it in terms of a transaction, it's more like expectations. If it wasn't sex but, I don't know, whether you wanted kids or wanted to travel, you wouldn't feel as weird bringing it up would you? It's a difference in lifestyle is all. Feeling the way you've described seems miserable, you shouldn't have to suffer for your partner like that. >>34749478Something kind of similar happened to me as well so I can relate. Little things remind me of them and I treasure what we had even if I know there's no going back. I'm sorry that happened to you even if it was for the best, losing people is always painful.
>>34749523>>34749542Yeah it's a pretty common thing on this board which is why it was probably not about me. Lots of people on here that behave this way, but I had to just put this out there.
>>34749478Oh yeah, saw that post on the missed connections thread (why was that deleted???).
>>34749433
>>34749579Idk I think the jannies don't like em
>>34749433>Where do I find men who aren't ONLY interested in "having sex" and "video games"?There are men everywhere, I don't know what to say>I'm ok with sex once a week, but men, even the nice ones, seem to want multiple times a day and that's not sustainable for me.I personally have a high sex drive so I could have sex every single day and honestly even twice (sometimes 3 times) in the same day, but I can see that's not really normal or needed. I'd be happy if I could have sex just once a week, but ideally a few more times for me. Other guys have a lower sex drive so maybe they'd match better with you.>Does this make me asexual or not straight?No, if you are attracted to men then no. You just aren't that big into sex, it is what it is. My brother is the opposite end of it compared to me. I could have sex and enjoy doing it with a woman every single day while I suspect he would only do it once every few months, but only if the woman engages it.
>>34749433Congrats, you just found one! My discord is whuhuhwhathuh let's chat ^^
M, 20. Would love to get to know someone. Into writing, walking, video games, been hitting the gym a little. I am straight, just throwing that out there. Like, I'm fine with chatting with a gay guy obviously but please don't come around expecting to see anything.Horny as hell too though. Actually not that horny just kinda like, hard to explain. So I can kinda trade. Would be nice to chat with a woman but I'm not holding out much hope. I'm more than fine with just having a chat with a man and chilling.Discord: Moonflare_0063Teleguard: GGLH8PECW
i'm up might go buy a soda and scratch off from a corner store. that guy really pulled my inner trashiness out
>>34750206What kinda soda? Good luck on your scratcher
Male, 32I need to vent a little because things kind of suck right now. Broke up with girlfriend 6 months ago because of her flipping out over me getting contacted for a job interview. I Don't hate her, but I have realised that she probably had adopted a bunch survival tactics that basically ammount to manipulation, and I am slowly trying to un-fuck my mind. Winter depression is kicking my ass this year and I had to move back in with my parents because I am broke as fuck right now and don't have a job. Can't find one in my specific field either so I am just applying for anything I could reasonably do, which means competing with all the other desparate people. Nothing is fun anymore, everyone else has moved on with life and I ended up loosing the one thing that was keeping me a bit on track (the gf). On top of that: questioning my personal style/expression, balding quite badly, want to get back into hobbies but cant because broke etc. By the time I will have caught up employment-wise and have any stability I will be pretty old, and I feel like everything is just getting worse and worse right now.my telegram is lark31swe if anyone wants to talk.
>>34750862>By the time I will have caught up employment-wise and have any stability I will be pretty oldfucking same, looking grim and bleak
>>34749426D is that you?
32/F/US I like attention. I'm currently out with a sprained knee and am bored. I enjoy reading, concerts, hiking (how I got into this predicament), and have 2 cats. Give horror book and TV show recs plsSnap: cantbehecked BOO SNAP BOO listen ok I like it
I need a friend, an ear, stability, someone.disc: samdrifts
i cant stop crying i keep thinking the bad thoughts it hurts so much
thinking of offing myself. recently lost my only support system, someone I have been with for the past 7 years suddenly up and left me to be with someone else. so I have to move back into my abusive mothers house and my boss wants to fire me as well. I don't see a point in living anymore. been alive for almost 30 years and it is a constant stream of abuse and misery. I will never heal nor be happy. I want out.
22/mtf/US L,T, bpd, audhd, yay lonely neurotic traumatized loser >looking for people smarter than me to post to about legends z-a and modern pokemon im not particularly into vgc i just like the designs and world >not looking for anyone who plays league, men, flirting, small talk, very dumb/very insecure people (not what i need sorry) talk to me like you know me i like attention, game analysis, weed, but i only want someone to talk to about pokemon >discord lumvyiuex
>>34751638No I'm not your person. All I can really say is if the person who wrote that comment the other day sees this, then add me in a month or two. I might have your contacts but I'm not even sure if you're my person, and the last thing I'd want is to reach out to somebody who wants nothing to do with me.
i've drank so much and i dont even feel a buzz this is so fucking stupid i just want to stop feeling this way i'm still crying
>>34751913>recently lost my only support system, someone I have been with for the past 7 years suddenly up and left me to be with someone else. so I have to move back into my abusive mothers house and my boss wants to fire me as well.It feels like I'm reading about myself. The worst happened to me, I'm still recovering from it but you can make it through anon. Just don't move in with your mom whatever you do, even couch-surfing is better than that.>>34751950Yeah it doesn't sound like you are my person. In any case, I hope you find peace anon.
>>34751969I have to move in with her. I have no other option. she does not beat me or sexually abuse me, she is bpd plus npd and verbally/mentally abuses me. I don't think I can make it through. I miss my special person, the only person who seemed to care about me. the way I was discarded and how they are suddenly so happy with someone else after all our happy years together hurts. now the added stress of losing my career and dealing with my mother is too much. you don't have to answer if you don't want but I am curious what happened to you and how you are recovering from it.
>>34751967itll be okay, maybe not now, but at the end of your tears you might find some peace and comfort, at least a respite for a bit, deal with it in whatever messy way you can so long as you get through the other side>>34751913its probably not accidental that its happening at the same time anon, maybe the structures in your life werent doing much well for you anyway, i know what you mean and i hope you realize that despite all the abuse and misery youre still a valued and loved person, even if you cant pinpoint or comprehend that love, you have your worth and strength, maybe this time it will be better, maybe things will be more stable, maybe youll have a firmer foundation, i cant promise you anything good or nice, but know that your misery doesnt define you, i appreciate you anon, just as i would appreciate anyone, your incurred agony doesnt make me see you as any less of a capable human being and perhaps in the future youll be able to forget about all the negative emotions youre feeling, one step at a time again, no matter how stuck you feel, time will always pass, you can take it however youd like, but i personally think thats a really good and comforting thing, anyhow, please contact any friends you have to see if you can crash there, scrounge up any money you have left for a motel, do odd gigs, work as a cashier, the worst thing you can do to yourself is go back to an abusive environment, but even if it comes to that, time will pass and youll get out, i believe in you anon, i believe in everyone who might not be feeling their best right now, myself included
>>34752020Pretty much the same thing happened to me as you on top of actually losing my job. My life fell apart losing everything I thought was good at the same time more or less, but >>34752027 was right that they actually weren't good for me at all. I definitely didn't go back to living with my abusive parents though. You should really figure out an alternative living situation, it will make you worse if you don't. I'm just recovering by making sense of what happened, and figuring out a path forward in my life without being so dependent on others or people pleasing. You would benefit from some trauma therapy, there are ways to do it on your own. Tapping is pretty good.
>>34752027well nobody values or loves me, if they do it is only temporary and they hurt me in the end. I appreciate you trying to be kind anyways. but the negative emotions did go away for the first time in my life when I was with my ex. only for me to get cheated on and abandoned in the end after all the love I gave. I have no friends. I've always been alone in this world. the people I've befriended in the past used and discarded me just like my ex. I believe in you and in others that you will make it out ok, I just don't think I will be one of those who makes it out.>>34752042maybe I deserve the abuse. maybe in a past life I did something terrible and this is how I atone for it. I am in therapy, been in and out most my life. it does not help me.
>>34752068>maybe I deserve the abuse. maybe in a past life I did something terrible and this is how I atone for it.I was in the exact place you were about a year ago, I had suicide plans and everything and I'm still here now. The wound hasn't healed, and probably never will, but it doesn't hurt as much anymore. Do I have it figured out, am I all better? No, especially because I'm still here on 4chan searching for something. Truthfully, it's been a struggle with many ups and downs, I don't have a full path forward fleshed out yet, but I can genuinely say I can find comfort and relief in being alone now, which I never thought I'd be able to achieve. I know this was meant for someone else>nobody values or loves me, if they do it is only temporary and they hurt me in the endBut honestly, I've even managed to get over this. You and I both probably have some sort of masochistic tendency to endure this over and over, but this stopped bothering me, maybe because it happened so much or my senses have dulled.
>>34752098were you also cheated on and/or left by your significant other? what really bothers me is the day after they dumped me (I already suspected they were having an emotional affair at this point) they immediately started dating the person they told me not to worry about.did you find a job? what else do you do with your time besides browse 4chan? I don't know what to do with myself. I don't think I will ever find comfort and relief in being alone. I want someone who cares about me and I would do the same for them but it's like cluster b people and dark triads are drawn to me like flies on shit. and I never spot them until it is too late.
>>34752125>I want someone who cares about me and I would do the same for them but it's like cluster b people and dark triads are drawn to me like flies on shit. and I never spot them until it is too late.First and foremost, you gotta work on this. Past a certain point you're not a victim anymore.And yes, pretty much the same thing happened to me. I'm currently underemployed so I'm making some money, but not a lot for the time being, working on changing that. I indulge in other hobbies but lately I've been slipping on focusing on healthier things which is why I'm here.
>>34752142I think I might have autism. I have trouble reading people and don't know how to spot these toxic people until they really start showing their true colors but by that time I have already given so much to them. sorry to hear you are going through something similar. does your ex run through your mind every day? I cannot help but constantly reply all the memories with mine and cry myself to sleep each night. have you ever seen eternal sunshine of the spotless mind? I wish I could erase everything. how are you planning to get a better career?
>>34752183I mean, even if you have autism, it doesn't remove your ability to pick up on patterns those people share or your power of discernment especially now that you've had experience. At first, yeah. But over time it's gotten much better. By completely changing my approach to jobs and actually networking as cringe as it sounds.
>>34752190how long before you stopped obsessively thinking about them/crying over them? it's been a bit over a month for me and it is relentless. oh makes sense, I wish you luck at finding a higher paying job.
>>34751888It's gonna be alright. You just have to get through it. You'll wake up tomorrow and feel better.
helloi dont know what other thread to post this in so i will do it herei am 18 i am male and i live in canadai am the lowest form of human life, an artisti like to draw and i like to write and i like to make musici also like religion and i like to readi am also extremely mentally ill and autistici want to talk to people who are similarly enthusiastic about the things i am and like talking about themi want to talk to people who are direct about their intentions and thoughtsmaybe even people who make stuff or want to see and talk about the things i make or bothi am predisposed to weird experimental and unorthodox art because i do not have talenti do not in any sense connect with people very easily but i tryplease dont add if youre evil racist or a gooner or somethingmy discord is "intheshadowofthevalley"
>>34749433Dont worry, your not asexual at all, you just have less sexual dessire, and the men you have been with have too much sexual dessire. And yes, there can be more well behaved men, he will come, just dont push it and keep goin with ur average life!!
Hello everyone. I'm bored and I want attention. I'm a songslave. I will sing any (moderately popular and known) song you ask me to, and then I will post a vocaroo of my doing so. This is my kink, and also my attentionwhoring.
i still feel like shit and i had to drink to calm the shakes because of my injection it was bad i wasn't gonna get the needles on the syringe let alone in the vial or leg without it
>>34753237Sing Think of Me from Phantom of the Opera (2004)!
>>34753289https://voca.ro/1hrxBy4u544r
>>34753237can you sing tiktok by kesha, and make it cunty anon
>>34753259Have you ever considered using an insulin injector/autoinjector? Theyre less stressful to use than typical syringes, because they do the hard part for you.https://www.youtube.com/shorts/jeIr-bLepgk>>34753299https://voca.ro/1bnM8QeZF0Aj
>>34753307no ty i'm fine with this
>>34753307splendiferous anon, absolutely magnifico, it was cunty alrightnext one is donttrustme by 3oh!3, thanks for doing this
>>34752424Thanks, you're right, I'll keep myself busy with good things and continue trying to meet nice people.>>34753237>>34753307I liked tiktok.Would you do Birds of a Feather? I really like that song. Thanks
>>34753307Nice.I'm doing fine, by Marino, stp
>>34753317https://voca.ro/1mIPV2E7u3RR>>34753321https://voca.ro/1hWkeWJjL53j>>34753324https://voca.ro/1cJYGl8lfL6B
>>34753396i love you anon, very beautiful job, thank you for spending all your time on these, you dont have to try so hard its okay, i appreciate what youre doing anywayfinal song for now i think is oh no! by marina
>>34753396So good. Thank you.
>>34753407https://voca.ro/15SaDDkoG69TI am going to take a nap now. Thank you for the requests, and for the attention. I might return later.
>>34753458GOO WHITE BOY GOOO, you really sang with cunt this time anon, thank you very much, your voice sounds like something id hear on a comic fandub on tumblr and i mean that in the nicest way possiblehave a nice nap and treat yourself
>>34753458I love you anon thank you for these. sleep well and enjoy the attention! your voice is so cute lolmy request is thank you for the venom by my chemical romance if you get back to it when you wake up ^_^
M22 in my gf’s dorm bored and horny with a little bit of time. Please hmu and send me anything to make my cock throb in her bed. Make me get naked and jerk in her bed when she has no idea. Make me feel so dirty because I’m gooning to the things u send in her bed. Make me jerk off with her panties to whatever you send. Drive me deeper into my porn addiction and melt my brain with pleasure. And please if u can fake my celeb crush in any way. Pics, vids, nudify, caps, AI, any of it would make me throb!Willing to show off if u help me out..Pls HMU, anyone and anything welcome!Session051c8e6f774ab979d1379a65580e607f97c0fd4161e154c757d438dd2a6a73d92b
ok i'm fine now mixed some dew voltage with some booze
>ASL19/F/USA>Looking forlately ive been feeling like something is missing in my life & i think having someone i can truly bond with will heal my soul. my ultimate goal is to form a serious relationship. i want a lifelong partner (aka a husband) that i can eventually meetup with irl. i will get to know you first and see where things take us. please dont add me just to immediately sext me, not interested in that until we've established that sort of relationship. being able to vc sometimes is a plus.>Not looking forghosters, unironically rude people, people immediately interested in sex, doesnt contribute to conversation, consistently taking forever to respond, people who do not live in the USA, people not looking for a serious long-term relationship, people who dont want to have children, NEETS>Interestssinging, video games, cooking, tv shows, voice acting, fashion, food, doomscrolling, hiking, animals, just started getting into jigsaw puzzles and i love it>Discordclingycassie
>>34753289>>34753293>requesting yourselfI like the cut of your jibI second the oh no! request here >>34753404 if you come back>>34753563I remember the first time I had alcoholinated soda. It was a social thing with an open bar but I left my wallet (and ID) at home because I'm an idiot. Anyway I asked someone to get me booze and they handed me their jack and coke. Was pretty good. Then they got another and handed me that as well. I went through I don't know how many of these until I was sloppy. People kept handing me more like it was a conspiracy to make me black out and of course I didn't refuse any of these. I drank so many half finished drinks from people I didn't even know I'm surprised I didn't get herpes from it. Completely fucked by the end of the night. Had an after party but we didn't get anything to drink, all we had on hand was shitty everclear and some gross citrus flavored cooking shit. I don't remember how much I drank of each but at least one shot of the everclear. Blacked out on the floor of my room, woke up drunk tried to message my gf at the time and (luckily) did not hit send, passed out. Woke up sick as shit, deleted the message which was fucking incomprehensible and sent a sorry drunk lol instead. My throat hurt for the better part of a week after that. But at least I didn't vomit. Everyone else did but not me. That was the last time I really drank.>>34753709this isn't a dating thread cassie
>>34754039you like marina anon or just early 2000s scene music?
>>34752207I wasn't really crying so much over them, but just the pain of someone you thought loved you hurting you so deeply. I still think of them from time to time, but the trauma therapy techniques have helped me a lot, and honestly just time and having new life experiences/meeting other people. Thank you for your well wishes. I hope you make it through this a better person
I need someone to read scenes from my autistic cartoon that im writingIt's about an incel trying to pipe some robot chick after getting superpowers and he finds out reality is rigged'cord: baselordisblaster
>>34754087I like Marina's early stuff a lot. Her first three albums, especially Electra Heart, were great. I haven't listened to much of her stuff past Froot tho>scene musicI'm not sure what all counts as scene, but I like everything Paramore has done
>>34754369its okay, im just saying shit, im not a stickler for genres or their definitions either, i dont really know marinas new stuff eitherparamore is really good!! patd, set it off, gaga, thats all kind of stuff id bunch into that aesthetic, its not really what i listen to on the daily or my current taste in music but i like the vibe so much i listen to it all a lot, i might make op sing something from msi
>>34754039hii thanks for pointing out the obvious douche, however i am THE cassie so im allowed to do whatever i want
>>34754392I just say shit all the time too most of it doesn't mean anything>paramore is really good!!They are and Hayley is an incredible singer and has only gotten better over time>patd, gagaI like both of those but especially Gaga. Artpop was my favorite from her. She reminds me a lot of Goldfrapp. What's your current taste in music? >msiSomeone got me into them a little a while back but I still haven't listened to much of theirs I should get around to that
>>34754519i like lauren bousfield and belladonnakillz lately, its starkly different from what were talking about but since you asked! i love fame and born this way, but ive known those songs for years, artpop was somewhat new to me... well a year ago or something, but i really fell in love with it, lady gagas one of the only popular pop musicians who ill always lovemsi is good but dont get your hopes up! i can send you some things i enjoy of theirs if youd like, if you want to share your discord or i share mine
>>34754531>lauren bousfield and belladonnakillzThose are pretty different but I can hear some stuff I like in them, especially Lauren Bousfield. I don't listen to a lot similar to those, maybe Black Dresses but that's not the same sound at all lel>lady gagaI don't listen to much mainstream pop but Lady Gaga can really make great music. Born This Way is a crazy good album>discordI haven't really been in the mood lately to talk to anyone privately, sorry. I appreciate the offer tho and I'm only saying no because my brain is dumb
>>34754581oh? is that some old pseudonym for devi mccallion? i like her, i dont listen to her too much but i can appreciate her unique sound, i like the emotions she gives off too, theyre not that far off anon! i like goreshit as well, i forgot to mention, please listen to happy screaming night businessman, in the hollow mountain of generic consumer goods, or wrapped around the polei love judas! its one of my favorite songs, summertime is my nostalgic favoritedont feel pressured anon, i understand! your brain is most definitely not dumb, i really hope you feel better if it is because you are feeling bad, and im not going anywhere anyway, anyhow
>>34754617>is that some old pseudonym for devi mccallion?She was in Black Dresses alongside Ada Rook but I'm not familiar with what either did outside of that. It's pretty far from what I usually listen to which is more like punk and rock but I like the emotion and the sound. I listened to those songs, they're pretty chaotic which is nice. I liked Hollow Mountain in particular, the carnival sounds are neat>judasReally good song and the music video was cool. My favorite was Electric Chapel. I don't know what my favorite overall would be, maybe the song Artpop but it's hard to choose>i understand!Thanks! I don't feel bad, don't worry. I'm just in an asocial spell at the moment which makes it hard to talk to anyone unless I'm already comfortable with them. It's a neutral thing for me. I've always been like this so I'm used to it
My father is suffering from an advanced stage of Alzheimer's due to his involvement in the navy VA benefits barely help. Cant apply for a full time caretaker cause I don't make enough money. Work an average of 71 hours the last 6 months, some weeks 80+. Is in perfectly fine healthy physically outside of that so this could go on for 5+ years apparently. Want to kill myself because I am so tired all the time. Probably going to do it after my mom dies. Lost my girlfriend over it because I spend so much time taking care of him and my mom (mutually).Don't have time to date. Don't have time for leisure. Low self esteem. Idk bros. People say it gets better but like when
>>34754763i can appreciate them without really being able to listen to them daily, i listened to a lot more punk rock in the past, ghost, waterparks, boa, old radiohead (bends particularly), mother mother, cage the elephant, the garden, i still like them! im just not listening to them now, i might come full circle!i would say i love applause from artpop personally hehe, it has a fun chorus to sing along tono worries! its not something you should feel the need to explain yourself for, im just happy to be talking to you!>>34754776im really sorry to hear that anon, i dont have much to give you except my condolences, i dont know for a way out out of this and im really sorry you had to give up so much of your life for this, maybe there is something you can do but i cant think of it right nowwhatever happens, please dont take your life, get through this, scraping, bloody, bruised and scathed and barely managed, but get through this and come out the other side, youre stronger than most people for already having done so much, i know you can do the rest as well, im sorry i dont have any more than measly words of encouragement for you when you deserve more, i care about you anon
Hello all!I’m a 26 year old white guy in the US (east coast). I’m 5’11, 170lbs, decently fit, short brown hair, clean shaven face, and I wear glasses.I’m into cooking, exercising, music, and outdoorsy stuff. Favorite genres of music right now are bluegrass, folk, and industrial hip-hop but I like really all types of music. Always open to new recommendations. When it comes to books, some of my favorite books are Hyperion, East of Eden, and The Sun Also Rises. My philosophy when it comes to life is to keep things minimalistic. Life is already too complex, no need to make it harder.Recently been thinking about changing careers but not really sure how to do it or what I want to do. Would love to get some advice or just chat about it. I’d also be open to chatting about anything going on in your life and helping you find some resolution. I’m open to NSFW chatting too if we get along.Discord: 5d2d3
>>34754776i know how rough that is and i pray for u.
>>34754810>i can appreciate them without really being able to listen to them dailyI feel the same way about a lot of music. What I listen to daily is constrained but I'm willing to branch out pretty far for occasional listens. Ghost is pretty good and has a cool aesthetic. Radiohead, Mother Mother, and Cage the Elephant are all great too. I haven't listened to the others you mentioned but I'll try to give them a listen later when I'm not busy. I shift what I'm listening to too but usually go full circle eventually. Usually anyway, I still haven't gone back to my heavy metal phase lol.>applauseIt does have a great chorus it's gotten stuck in my head more than a few times. Most of her songs are really catchy>no worries!You're very nice. I appreciate you giving thoughtful replies to people too, you're making the thread a better place
>>34754868haha, i dont think ill ever get into heavy metal sadly, i love the histrionics of it tho! a past relationship put me onto ghost, i used to listen to him religiously, even if she kinda beat me to it in that regard... i love his whole shtick and persona and he is just a genuinely nice guy, you really dont have to concern yourself with my assorted list of musicians tho! id love to listen to whatever you might recommend, if you want to of coursethey really are!! and not in the in the earworm sort of way like a lot of pop music is, it is genuinely just pleasant and rhythmic and has incredible vocals and soul, you can really feel her passion for it even tho shes already so famous and obviously rich, bo burnham made good satire lampooning general pop music back in the day which i always found funnythank you! im really happy you say that, genuinely, it really helps me keep going, i cant lie that im as virtuous as you think i am, theres selfishness to this, i tell people what i want to hear said to myself, even so we all need someone to love us, and we do, even if we might not see or feel it, i appreciate everyone, on this thread, on this board, on this world, no matter who or what they are, i hope everyone gets through it all... anyhow, i just want you to know your comment really made me happy, and made me smile, and im really grateful that you show me kindness as wellis there anything else youd like to talk about anon? if youre willing to share it id really be more than elated to hear and participate in it, it really could be anything thats on your mind>>34754860thats really nice of you dakota! i hope youre feeling at least a little better now!
>>34754957its an up night still drinkin but moods good
>>34754973drink if you must, i just hope you get to feel alright in the end, and please try not to compromise your health in the meantime
>>34754980its a nothing drink only 12% abv so for me its like a little warmth its not gonna mess me up at all lol
gib attention pls> Age, Biological Sex, Location - you want to meetup and fuck31 m Scotland> Sexual OrientationStraight > About You - what do you look like6'4, 198lbs, slim, around 9", short black hair, beard more often than not - I'm kind of shy irl and tend to be more of a homebody but I've been told I'm pretty nice to chat with lol> Virgin - Yes or No, Pussy, Anal, OralNope> Partner Count - if not a virgin how much of a slut are you?Around 14 or so> Hobbies interestsCooking, reading, woodworking, vidya, working out, writing, travelling > Fetishes and KinksBDSM, LIGHT ddlg, breeding, voyeurism, public, orgasm control, choking, biting, cnc, incest, facesitting, cheating and low-key feet > Deepest desire or fantasyconsensual sex in the missionary position for the sole purpose of procreation> Favourite PositionMe on top pinning her legs back so I can slide in as deep as possible > Looking ForSomeone fun to chat and flirt with, occasionally sext or trade nudesI'm down for whateverI'm sorta looking to explore my budding feet kink, still not sure if it's for me or not > Not Looking ForTrans, vc, M, cucks and catfish > Discord Tagbebopnorocksteady
>>34754957>i dont think ill ever get into heavy metal sadlyI still like some of it but I wouldn't be able to listen for long. The histrionics are fun tho. Past relationships have gotten me into a lot of bands that I still listen to. It's kind of nice to listen to a band or a song and remember a person. I don't know anything about Ghost as a person but his shtick is fun and I like the old horror aesthetic a lot. I like listening to new music so I'll listen to them, it's late now so probably tomorrow. My go to recommendation is usually Fiona Apple. She's easy to listen to and has incredible talent>it is genuinely just pleasant and rhythmic and has incredible vocals and soulI agree. Her lyricism is very good and most of her songs are pretty smart. She evolves her sound a lot too. Bo's thing on pop music was really funny and pretty accurate. His bit on country music was pretty dead on too>i cant lie that im as virtuous as you think i am, theres selfishness to thisEven if you do something for selfish reasons, if it causes good then it's a good action. We do all need love and acceptance and appreciation. You seem really nice even if you're not fully virtuous, I'm glad you're happy. >is there anything else youd like to talk about anon?I don't have much to say, I mostly made this thread to see what other people were thinking about. But what about you, anything on your mind?
>>34755549oh wow, im really surprised i havent heard of her before! she seems like a musician id at least know from the communities ive been in, i love her voice and style, i havent listened to much of her discrography, only the popular songs, but i like the first taste and get gone so far... thank you anon! the old horror is very enamoring yes, i love artists with a distinct aesthetic, but thats something ive grown fond of over the years, i still remember disliking melanie martinez in middleschool for her doleful theme but im glad ive come around, its a good way of expression and it is intrinsically hyperbole and over the top otherwise it doesnt quite workhahaha, i love bo burnhams stand up shows so much, they were really central to forming my humor and mannerisms when i was younger, im really glad he came back and made that netflix film, i hopes hes still creating now...not really much i can talk about anon, at least not in this thread, i find it hard to meet likeminded people, i cant seem to find anyone with my interests as well, even tho everything im into used to be so common in the early 2010s or so, it gets lonely at times, so im really happy you could humor me in this thread, thank you for doing thisi hope you sleep well anon, go get some rest, and you deserve to talk as much as anyone else in your thread!
>>34754994what u drinking ? anyting special ?
>>34749367I met a girl on /r9k/ who I thought was cool. Like we had a lot in common. Sadly right before we met her dad died so she was having to deal with a lot of shit involving his death. So I didn't get to talk to her again for nearly a month. She said she hated her dad so she wasn't under a lot of stress about it or anything, just busy. Her dad did die for real. But anyway, waiting to talk to her that long kinda drove me nuts so I googled her spotify username and found her tumblr only to find she had been posting on there daily the entire month but left me hanging that entire time. It really crushed me so I kind of vented to her about it. I didn't insult her or anything I just asked her why. She apologized to me and said a ton of shit that's not relevant here. Well anyway I have some kind of issue where I delete people online when I get anxious so I deleted her. Well a few days pass and I regretted it so bad. But I seen her posting on /r9k/ again. She has a very unique way of typing. Plus she was talking about stuff that let me know it was definitely her. I replied to her on there and ask her to add me again on discord and that I was sorry. Apparently this freaked her out so bad that she blocked me, changed her discord, Steam URL, Locked her Tumblr, and DELETED her spotify. I'm pretty sure she thought I was stalking her. I swear to you I never looked at her accounts much at all before then and she shared most of them with me herself anyway. She had told me she had stalkers before so I think she was deathly afraid I was going to do it too which makes me feel like fucking shit. I want to cry every time I think about it. I could handle her just blocking me but her going out of her way to change her entire online presence to avoid me hurts me to my core, especially when it was over something I didn't mean to do. I just wanted to be her friend since I'm in no position for a relationship or anything. Now I'm completely alone again over a small misunderstanding.
>>34749367>about meM 21Into books, music, art and cinema. I love gardens, cats, old buildings and museums. Very introspective and even though im decently social i often struggle with deeper connection. I have alot of mental issues and often feel kind of affection starved which makes me a complete sucker for any kind of affection and attention.Physically im pale skinned, green eyed, hazel haired, decently broad shouldered, kinda short at 5 foot 8, decently hung a bit above avrage.>looking forAnyone willing to give me some attention, I dont really expect a super deep connection just someone who is a bit intrested in me and who I can be intrested in in turn.Not necessarily looking for something sexual but not opposed to it either, just dont be a complete gooner.>discordpierrot_the_mellow
33m canadaGot a short haircut for the first time in like 20 years and honestly i really like. Would love if a female could boost my ego and tell me it looks good too (hopefully honest opinion) or at the very least guide me on how to take more attractive selfies Realone709 TG JRK6VUT6A
>>34755626>i love her voice and styleMe too. I don't think she's ever made a bad song and her entire discography is worth checking out. Get Gone is a really good one. My favorites are Limp and Left Alone but I'll usually listen to an entire album instead of just a song or two when I listen to her>i love artists with a distinct aestheticSo do I. A lot of what I listened to when I was younger was heavy metal or random goth stuff one of my friends would loan me and both of those lean very heavily into aesthetics. I liked Cry Baby a lot but couldn't get into Martinez's other stuff. The hyperbolic expression is interesting tho and I can see parallels with Slipknot and such. It's theater and theater is fun>bo burnhamI think he's the only musical comic that I actually appreciate, though I haven't seen many. I hope he's working on things too but it seems he's a private person. I looked him up to see if there was anything and saw he was in Promising Young Woman. I completely forgot that was him. >likeminded peopleIt is hard. It's pretty rare I meet anyone I really feel a connection with and I only talk to people online so they tend to disappear often; such is the nature of online connections, I suppose. I think, for me anyway, people don't need to share my interests for me to feel good talking to them. I've felt very connected to people I had very little in common with and it was more that they were willing to interact with me on a genuine level. Shared interests do help a lot for creating that initial connection tho. What are your interests outside of music?
>>34756632oooo get gone, i liked that one too! ill have to listen to the other ones you mentioned too when i can anon, maybe im a little bit of a weirdo but i dont think ive ever listened to a whole album of an artist no matter how much i liked them, its always separate tracks in a playlisttheater is very fun! i never got into her either, but i like dollhouse and toxic, ive listened to a bit of slipknot, nin too but i dont know if they really count hehei feel sort of bad for bo burnham, hes not so timid, at least i dont think he is, but his crowd and fame at such a young age was insane, assuming he was probably the weird kid in highschool, im sure it overwhelmed him, i hope he has enough motivation and desire to make another show however, because im just a sucker for his stuffno i completely agree, i have friends who are dear to me who dont exactly participate in the things i do, i love talking to people even if they might seem so diametrically opposed to me, i just hyperfixate on stuff i like a lot, and my partners are usually having none of it and cant participate to the same degree as me, it makes me sort of sad, i love the thought of experiencing my hobbies with someone close to me, i love roleplays, cosplays, etc., the idea of having someone to share my passions with is really romantic and comforting to me, its not their fault they dont like it as much as i do of course, and theyre still all good and kind people, ive just grown up without really being able to talk to much of anyone about the things i enjoyas for what im into, its sort of basic when i spell it out, i dont have a big bucket list or anything, but marble hornets, jsr, yume nikki, homestuck, rpgmaker horror, even so i still somehow find it hard to meet a partner with likewise interests, besides that i like vulkan and game engines but thats a purely me thing
>>34756455im really sorry to hear that anon, none of you are at fault here, and fault really wouldnt be a useful tool anyway, maybe you should make a thread or something explaining yourself? if this is something recent at least, she sounds special to you in some way, im sorry this had to happen over a misunderstanding, know however that something like this would have probably happened sooner or later, so please dont beat yourself up about it, this person isnt lost to time and even if you end up somehow never talking to her again, at least you could appreciate the time you spent together, as im sure she appreciated you as welltheres a lot of people in life who will make you feel special, so whatever happens, please keep your chin up anon, i know what you feel, ive done gaffs just like that, i know it really stings and feels so preventable but life hardly works that way, to me thats comforting to some degree at least, im sorry if you dont think so
>>34756355it was 2 cheap ass bootlegger drinks from the gas station didn't even get me drunk but still gave me a headache
>>34756725>i dont think ive ever listened to a whole album of an artistThat seems to be how people approach music now. I grew up listening to CDs so it wasn't uncommon that I'd listen to songs I didn't like much just because hitting skip seemed like too much work. I usually get obsessed with a single album anyway and listen to it on repeat until I get tired of it.>theaterDo you like things like Rocky Horror or Little Shop of Horrors? I think those are a really nice blend of theatrics and music while still having interesting stories>ninThey're cool too, The Downward Spiral is really good>i feel sort of bad for bo burnhamHe got famous really young and then people started picking his early work apart because it was edgy or whatever which is kind of sad especially since he's obviously not a bad person. Being famous at all seems exhausting to me. I can see why he's a private person>i love talking to people even if they might seem so diametrically opposed to meIt can be really interesting talking to people like that because there's not much you agree on. As long as everyone can stay cool about it you can get some really good conversations like that. >share my passions withDo they not try to learn about your passions at least? It's hard to develop passion, but I think enthusiasm can be infectious. For me, I think acceptance matters more than them sharing in my interests, but I've always been a very solitary person and have always had issues with getting truly close to people. I prefer learning about their passions and participating as best I can than them doing that for me>marble hornetsI really liked those videos but I don't think I finished them all. I don't remember if it was the same time period but alantutorial was really good too and sort of similar. I never got into Homestuck, it seemed so big I couldn't even try. I did used to play a lot of rpgmaker horror stuff but that was a long time ago, I remember Yume Nikki and Ib but that's about it
>>34756794i do that with music genres, in the end i feel bad for not being able to enjoy it anymore and having to switch...ive never personally been big into musicals, but at the same time i havent really heard of many... i havent even thought about a horror musical, it looks kind of enticing actually, im a big sucker for all things horror, i have a soft spot for slashers but i love any and all types especially psychological, the atmosphere of a lone two floored cabin in the woods at night is really comforting to me, anyway, i would love to watch both of those, i remember i actually liked andys sweeney todd musical in that one office episode, of course its not a real musical but i thought i would hate ithaha, i want you to know i agree knowing full well its pretty much their only album ive listened to, i love heresy thoi could never imagine being famous either... not that i have even a shot in hell, but i dislike social medias a lot, i dislike being stalked or people knowing what im up to, i have a hard time staying social in front of others, i couldnt imagine doing that every waking second of my lifethey try their best, i dont blame them, i cant say ive been the best at that either, sometimes i also really cant get much into something and it also breaks my heart, of course im happy when they try to engage with me in it but i end up feeling like a kid being left to his toys, i dont know, i want to go to cons with someone, larp with them, write fanfics on ao3, its what comforts me and makes me passionate, the fantasy worlds that have stuck with me through my life, of course someone cant share that with me if they dont feel the same way, or at least i havent met themi dont blame anyone for this of course, no ones at fault, and i also feel extremely guilty that im so selfish so as to want something so specific out of someone, i know they also feel bad they cant reciprocatehahaha, fucking alantutorial, i never realized it was that old
>>34756951my posts are getting a bit too long and reaching the character limit, so im sorry about that, but youre just gonna have to deal with it anon :pi just sort of love all things from that sort of tumblr era, i wasnt here at the time but from what i see 4chan also wasnt so hateful and sort of similar back theni know homestuck is really big and unwieldy, i can send you a really good voice acted readthrough of it if youd want, they nailed the characters and some of them have even gone on to be professionals, the voice actor for karkat voices shinji in the english dub hahaits really nice of you to do those things for someone anon, maybe you like it that way, but it feels really nice to be close to people, in the brief moments where i believe ive come close to doing that, even if it hasnt worked out, i hope i can meet someone that makes me feel that way even on my worst day and vice versayoure a very kind person anon, im really happy you exist on this earth
Hello everyone. >>34753237 here. No longer a slave - I was "emancipated" (not really, I'm still basically a slave, but now I'm working grueling hours at the unsanitary songfactory for a few cents an hour instead of working at the songplantation) - so I am now the songworker. I am here for more attention. You can request songs, if you want. >>34753470Wow... thank you. >>34753490https://voca.ro/13j8ipGBPoZB>>34756455I'm really sorry anon. It really sucks when the stars align and you feel like youve finally found someone before some retarded neurosis of yours ruins everything. I'm kind of going through a similar grieving myself - the only thing you can do at this point is try not to do the same thing in the future. I wish you the best. At least you know a special connection is possible.
>>34756462Discord is Beanboy2026.I have been arrested by 50+ police/sherriff and state police and two SWAT trucks.I just got back from the mental ward.
>>34757282glad to see you back and delivered from songual labor anon, beautiful vocals as always, i hope you get a lot of requests!
>>34756741>>34757282thank you for your kind words. Sadly I'll never talk to her privately again probably and making a thread about her would just freak her out even more. I sent her an email apologizing but I'm not sure if it was an alias or not, so she probably never even got it. She was the first person to ever add me so I kind of got attached to her and didn't know how to handle it. I literally installed discord just to talk to her. I honestly think she might have been married because she made a post on here once that said she was engaged years ago. But I didn't care I just wanted to talk to her. She's REALLY into /r9k/ history and stuff so I'm sure she'll still be there months from now. I'm pretty sure I've already talked to her again anonymously. I might give her some space for a month or two and make a thread. I feel like I've grown a lot since this interaction so I wish she'd just give me another chance. She used to tell me about all the weirdos who added her over the years and now I've became one of them by mistake. But thank you again.
>>34756951>i feel bad for not being able to enjoy it anymoreBut you get to move to a new genre and enjoy that, so it's not all bad>ive never personally been big into musicalsMe neither. There are a handful I like and most are horror themed. Horror is my favorite genre by far. Cabins in the woods are perfect settings. If you want a not-quite-a-musical horror musical, Phantom of the Paradise is pretty good and very aesthetically interesting>i dislike being stalked or people knowing what im up toI hate people knowing anything about me. It's easier on here because no one knows who I am, but talking to people privately I find it uncomfortable to divulge much. Some people I get comfortable with and can do it, but mostly not. Being social drains me very quickly. Fame would kill me>i dont blame themThat's nice. I try not to blame anyone for things outside of their control. Personality, interests, and so on. I'm sure you can find someone who likes at least some of those things if you keep trying. It's interesting, I'm prone to fantasy as well but I think I'd rather die than ever share any of that with anyone. Even in relationships I've felt entirely comfortable in, I've never said a word about what I think of. It's not selfish to want that tho, everyone wants specific things from their partners. It's better to recognize those things and seek them out than go from unfulfilling relationship to unfulfilling relationship, in my opinion. >alantutorialI'd never seen anything him before and I was completely hooked. Man that was so long ago
>>34756964>also wasnt so hateful and sort of similar back thenIt was still hateful it was just less serious about the hate. People knew how to have fun back then. Everyone is weird now, everything is political now. I miss old 4chan. I was never on tumblr much but there was a small period of time I think from 2013 to maybe 2016 that I was and it seemed like a nice place even if I wasn't hooked into it. >voice acted readthroughI'd have to read it myself, my attention wanders when I listen to things. I can't even do podcasts anymore it's terrible>maybe you like it that wayI feel a lot more fulfilled taking care of someone emotionally than them doing it for me and the same with sharing interests or anything else. It's a weird, I don't really know how to phrase it. It's like I want to be in their life but I don't need them in mine. And that's not accurate but I don't know how else to say it. If I'm sad I don't want someone trying to take care of me, but if they're sad I want to do what I can. Being close to people is terrifying. It's so vulnerable. I like it and I seek it out when I can, but most of the time I wish I didn't want it. I hope you can meet a person who makes you feel good and safe and accepted tho anon. You're quite kind too and I'm happy you're here as well.
>>34754141well mine is still hurting me, we still love together for one more week and they answered a phone call from their affair partner in front of me tonight and told their affair partner "I love you" while I was standing right there. it's only been one month post breakup/discard. truly hate my life. I'm probably not going to make it through but thank you anyways best of luck I hope you fare better than I.
I miss talking to women online. I used to be a huge Omegle addict and I'd always have a few girls on discord/snap/kik/whatever to chat with whenever I had the time. I'm a bit of a clingy/needy person I guess so I liked having someone to chat with 24/7. Then Omegle shut down and I kinda ended up out of touch with the internet, I guess people meet strangers on Discord these days? I've tried some random servers but can't really get into it, just don't like the vibe. I just need 1-on-1 conversation available in my phone at all times. Never really been great at meeting people irl so Omegle people and anonymous 4chan posting made up 90% of my human interaction. Only even browsing /soc/ now because my mental state's been in the gutter for the past couple weeks and I've been frantically trying to find new ways to meet strangers online. Like, giving myself panic attacks over this shit.
>>34757825i absolutely adore phantom of the paradise anon! i fell in love with that movie and in general that aesthetic, the costume design is put together so well, winslows outfit is something i hope to cosplay, all of the scenes with him are so gutwrenching and visceral, especially when he screams with that voicechanger, i love his character and the theme of the movie! hell of it is such a good song to bundle it all together as well, if i could live my life half as worthlessly as you, im convinced that id wind up burning too! i love that style of cinema anyhow, theyre completely different movies but things like fear and loathing in las vegas (pretty much my favorite movie) and inherent vice really scratch that itch in my brain toowhats your favorite horror movie anon? mine is probably noroido you ever wish you could indulge anon? it can just be something youre not interested in doing, everyones different, but if youve repressed wanting to do it instead, i really hope you can at some point, its an amazing feeling, at least i assume it to be, ive been chasing it for a long time and maybe one day you could tell me about it instead if fate so has it, i understand what youre talking about, i feel very vulnerable about it myself as well, and i always feel dishevelled, miserable and dried up by the end of it too, but i cant stop looking for it, i feel as if i stop ill somehow miss some narrow timeframe of having the chance to be happy, i dont want to give up on it despite how much it may hurt me as well, i want you to be happy anon, im not going to pry, and perhaps youre just fine living like that, but i hope someone can make you happy when youre feeling down, and that they see to you the same way you see to them, its a very nice feeling being taken care of, i want you to have that in your life, letting yourself be vulnerable with someone is the closest thing to the halcyon prenatal period of everyones existence, its bliss on earth, to me at least!
>>34757828haha, i understand, i cant do podcasts either, please at least listen to the ost while you read! i dont know how much you enjoy game soundtracks, but i love the homestuck tracks, 90% of them go unused anyway, which is sad but also kind of endearing, like theyre just waiting there patiently for someone to hear them, fuchsia ruler, ugly betty, revered return and crystalmathequins are just some to name :peverything is political now yes... i cant say that it doesnt make sense, what with the world order nowadays, things need to be done, even if i myself am not a particularly political figure, but the chasm between ideologies today is also growing larger and its hard to keep things in check... the popularization of the internet made things worse since now everyone can critique each others thoughts without ever getting to know them, on a slightly unrelated note, i miss amino, its very hard to have fun on the internet with someone nowadays>>34757780you havent become a weirdo anon! and i dont believe in such names for people anyway! everyone is a person with their history, please dont put a label like that on yourself no matter how fitting you may think it is, because it isnt, i understand your concern, im happy youre thinking of reaching out still anyway, please know there will be other people like her, and someone that may complement your quirks instead, maybe she will also be that person in the future, but if not, then she simply wasnt right for you anyhow, and theres nothing wrong with that... please feel better anon!
>>34758102me too man, though i wasnt active on omegle, since i despise the way i look, but ive gotten better with it over time, i really wouldnt know where else to branch out from soc tho, i dont know what other community id feel like id fit in, even tho this board honestly sometimes gives me paroxysms... maybe well find the answer soon, in the meantime, please dont stress, the people on this planet arent going anywhere, and youll meet them sooner or later, theres enough time for everyone and everything anon
I have a really conflicting and confusing relationship with my parents. When I was younger they used to be very violent towards me and sometimes tried to abandon me (my memory is poor so I may be making these up) but also would be very affectionate to me. Now they are no longer hurtful towards me and are mostly kind to me and it’s hard to wrap my head around who they are. I’ve been fucking up a lot lately and I don’t understand how now they can be so lenient when previously going up the stairs ‘wrong’ would get the shit beaten out of me. I feel so guilty all the time now. Am I making things up? Am I just overreacting? I can’t understand anything. Sometimes I wish they were worse and kept being cruel to me now so I could understand better and I know it’s stupid but I get jealous of those who have it worse than me.
>>34758988It sounds like you need to talk to them about how you feel. How they react to you will tell you a lot about whether they've grown as people.
>>34758988my mom is like this, i havent asked her about this, i dont really think i need to, im happy for her, she was a very spiteful and abusive person, she can still be mean of course, even as you grow theres vestiges of who you are, theres a reason people are a certain way, but shes always trying to be better and i really respect that of her, i know i havent been the best eitheri can only speculate, but i imagine it was my dad, theyre not divorced but for the past 4 years he hasnt been living with us, ive seen her basically glow during this time, shes a lot happier and understanding, engages in her hobbies, makes time for herself and is peaceful, makes sense when the person that drags you down isnt theretheres probably some reason this has happened anon, its not a ploy or a trick, you can ask them if youd like, maybe youll get an answer, but im really happy they have changed for the better towards you and i dont wish for them, or anyone, to ever get abusive to you... please dont be paranoid, i hope you can still forgive their transgressions and be comfortable in their presence again without being scared of being slighted or tricked
I DO NOT SEND NUDE PHOTOS OR SIMILAR KIND!!! Not 100% fluent in English, but want to practice I am from Haiti but live in Dominican Republic My goal is to find good man for husband in different country who can allow me to be stay home wife. Now I am single and work as housekeeper manager in hotel resort. I am polite and open minded. I like books, movies, horror is my favorite. I like cook and spend time alone. I come from small family. Please ask me anything
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>>34754776>finally get some free time, have date>stood upya im killing myself lmao
>>34760552no! if i can hang on looking like something out of the ring i want u to hang on too
>>34749433The only people who are doing it multiple times a day are the people who have nothing else to do. If you're doing it a few times a week that's perfectly normal. Once a week might be a bit infrequent though, unless you've already been together for years, then as long as it's at least 3-4 times per month you're fine.
>>34760575idk what u look like dakota but i doubt u look like the creature out of the ring
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>>34749367I turn 40 in 3 days and I've never experienced intimacy. It sounds like a meme but my life is a fucking meme. I can explain the whole story of how it happened but no one would read it. I've also been a shutin and so i've had no social life ever. I don't know how I ended up with no friends or anything for over decades but my loneliness and depression is becoming unbearable. I get a sinking feeling in my stomach and get choked up like a bitch when see certain things like happy couples. I'm a manlet with a short cock and I'm broke, I really want to do some minecraft shit.
im 18 and diagnosed mdd and sociophobia. i started cutting and counting calories again, except now i also hate everyone around me and am cutting people off because im a leech on them. i’m becoming violent and i think im becoming mysoginistic too which is stupid because of how many friends i have that are girls. i wish i could commit but if i failed everyone would hate me even more. the most i can do is try to throw my life away by whoring myself out to other men on the internet, and possibly real life. maybe one of them will actually put me out of my misery.
>>34758827>phantom of the paradiseIt was incredible from the music to the aesthetic to the story. Did you know that Winslow's outfit inspired Darth Vader's? The actor who played him did a really good job. As far as I know he didn't have many other major roles which is crazy to me, he's so good. The Hell Of It was a great song to end the movie on and a great song all around, I still listen to it. Paul Williams can write the hell out of a song. Fear and Loathing and Inherent Vice were both great too, I was really surprised by Inherent Vice I wasn't expecting it to be as good as it was.>horrorPicking a favorite is so hard. Suspiria or The Neon Demon maybe, but Ginger Snaps was really good too. Noroi was a great movie as well, J horror is great at that kind of slow burn unsettling feeling>indulgeNot really. I like to be solitary in a lot of ways. It's most comfortable to me. I'm like an animal, when I'm sick or injured I retreat into a hole and wait it out. Being around other people would be uncomfortable. I prefer being there for someone else. They can be there for me in different ways, but it's more abstract. I want to feel wanted but I don't want them to intrude on me. I feel the way you're describing when someone is vulnerable with me, but in the reverse I can only feel discomfort. >>34758859>please at least listen to the ost while you readI'll keep that in mind thank you anon and the way you describe it is very poetic>since now everyone can critique each others thoughtsIt has gotten very impersonal and rough on the internet. I don't think that will ever be fixed and it's a sad feeling.
>>34760695Do you have a therapist? If you're getting violent that's something you should bring up. Meds can help a lot with those kinds of behavioral changes.
>>34759006Yeah, I probably should. I’m still very afraid of them though. Maybe I should talk to them when they have less control over me. Previously I have talked to them before about similar things but I was either shut down or blamed or told it didn’t happen, but it might be different now. >>34759117I’m sorry your mom was like this, but I’m glad things are better for you now. I can think of some things that caused them to be much crueller to me- my parents’ relationship with each other was worse and sometimes violent, and there were a lot of health and financial issues and deaths in the family. It’s hard not to be paranoid.. I keep waiting for them to finally snap again. I’m dreading it. I can’t even predict what might trigger it, sometimes me spilling water ends in hours of them shouting and days of them being pissed off at me afterwards, sometimes I mess up majorly and nothing happens. And thank you, I hope so too (I’m not so sure about forgiving them, but I don’t think I need to necessarily to improve our relationship idk).
>>34760989no, i don’t. i tried for a while after i went to the mental hospital a few years ago but it felt pointless. they were just giving me antidepressants and antipsychotics that didn’t work (prozac made me more suicidal, seroquel didn’t do anything really) so i stopped going. violent in the sense that ive had the urge to hurt people, and even raised my hand to my female friend a few days ago. i stopped myself but i feel like a time bomb even if she didn’t feel threatened and thought i was silly for apologizing a bunch
>>34761009It could be worth trying again. There are other mood stabilizers and they might help with the violent urges. Even if you don't want meds, if you feel like a time bomb that's kind of a warning sign, right? A therapist can at least help you figure out what's going on and maybe teach you some deescalation techniques.
Hey guys, I don’t have anything to say I’m just really bored. How was your day today?
>>34753237aurorawave - KINDNESS this song
>>34761019that’s true. i actually found out gaba works pretty well for my anxiety and irritability but idk how to be like “this works, let me take this”
>>34757291Once, when I was eleven, a guy in Varrock told me he just got out of prison after a multi-year sentence and asked me what was new in RuneScape. Terrified that this criminal was talking to me, I logged out of my account and stopped playing for the day.Back when I was twelve, I had this absolute loser of a teacher who screamed his head off at his students constantly. He was the first adult I'd met to be a gamer, and the first male teacher I'd ever had, so of course he was like a hero to me. In that same class, there was this girl. Whitest skin you'd ever seen, the most vividly blue eyes, very red hair. It's a weird thing to say, but I have no doubt that she would be a hotty nowadays. My skin would rash up from sports classes and she helpfully related to me that I probably had clinically sensitive skin like her. She used to talk to me pretty often, actually. In retrospect, I think she didn't have many friends. At the time stupid people were the enemy to me, so I would have assumed she had plenty and was only striking up conversations as some secret and insidious way of picking on me.She was dyslexic, and would constantly read out her work sheets in the middle of class in that annoying droning voice retarded school kids always did when they read out loud. This pissed that teacher off, who would always shout at and pick on her, so naturally I hated her guts too.One day she took me somewhere quiet and said that she would really like to be friends with me because I seemed cool. I blew my top off at her and she ran away crying. No clue what she saw in an asshat like me. She probably hates men nowadays. I've been looking for her, but I just can't remember her name. Just for nothing more than to apologise of course.
>>34749426Anon, respectfully, you have to move on from that person and build a better life. Those tabs you are keeping open are weighing you down like a curse. I recommend getting into fitness if that is an option for you. It is scientifically proven to treat depression. Hope you find happiness anon.
>>34749433I have always thought that it is normal for women to only be interested in sex once or twice a month due to the way ovulation works.
I'm intersex with a specially rare form of it called chimerism. I absorbed my twin sister before I was born so I have parts of her body in me, I have a dick and balls outside and a uterus and one ovary inside with no vaginal opening. Feel like a freak and hard to connect to people. I've talked about it with some guys and trans people I've met on 4chan but I get put off by how fast they get sexual to me.
I spent a few hours tirelessly uploading all my weird anime porn to a self hosted booru. Thought I'd feel accomplished, but I just feel empty and sad. I have no one to tell. I wish I had someone to tell. I wish I was still a child so I could be praised for successfully preforming stupid (but laborious) tasks. >>34760622I'm sorry anon. I imagine that's really hard. Does the need for intimacy still dominate your life, or are you able to find joy in other things?>>34761056I will do this in a moment.................
>>34761512...oh my god. Genuinely curious, does that mean you have a period through your penis' urethra? Like do you shed your lining or is it like one of those things where your body absorbs it into itself? If that's the case, you'd think nature would have figured that shit out by now, just seems so much more efficient than having girls bleed all over the place
>>34761532I don't have periods, so nothing to worry about there
>>34761534Wow okay, so is it more like vestigial or could you in theory get pregnant through something like IVF? Also when you were a teenager did you have like an abnormal pubescence with the expression of both male and female hormones or would you say one was more dominant? Do you find yourself leaning more towards one gender? Has it ever contributed to some form of dysphoria or would you say despite that you've lived a relatively normal life as a gender, also would you say that it matches the traits that were expressed during puberty? I find it absolutely fascinating. Truly anomalous.
>>34761546Fairly sure I'm infertile but not actually sure if maybe I have viable eggs in me that could be accessed with surgery or something. Yes my puberty was very abnormal, I have testosterone levels of a man and estrogen levels of a woman. Im tall, have broad shoulders, full size breasts , more hips than a typical guy and have some facial hair. Im extremely self conscious about my body, and don't have a solid gender identity. I dont like to call myself non binary though I just call myself a guy because that is what I'm used to
>>34761556It sounds like you might just identify as a guy because it's easier to explain based off appearances. That sounds extremely difficult. I can only imagine what life might have been like during the years where kids are ruthless. What would you say makes it so hard to connect with people? Would you say it's almost always because it's hard for people to look past the chimerism to see you? Who exactly is you? What interests you have?
>>34761556that's fucked
>>34761588Cant connect for a lot of reasons. Im cut off from my family so im pretty much alone, aimless in life, just so weird compared to others. Its hard to imagine me having sex or relationships (its very hard for me to maintain erections for example, and my sexuality is uncertain) and I dont know who would ever like me. I like playing video games like everyone else, I've tried coding and art and making music but never got good at anything. Sometimes feel like my life is cursed because I killed my sister in the womb and this is revenge but also feel like she lives in me because parts of my body are from her (I have xy chromosomes in some parts and xx chromosome in other parts)
Come join the non-normie server (formerly, the non-wagie server.) It's a server for, you guessed it, non-normies. We have a select amount of channels where you can talk about the meta and the concept of memes. We are the best discord server ANYWHERE and have been meticulously advertised on /soc/ (since the forfrees don't let you advertise anywhere) for a year and a month now, by the owner, one of the oldest oldfags and most ironic shitposters. There is no moderation and you can do whatever you want so come join! We need new members! https://discord.gg/SJJq6SsgEv
>>34761556>Im tall, have broad shoulders, full size breasts , more hips than a typical guy and have some facial hair>able to self impregnate and replicate without others future and end of the human race. everybody note this post down, in a hundred years the world will be nothing but this guy.
hi /soc/ coming to this thread because normie advice forums are going to give me shitty parroted advice. TITLE: Am I being sexually assaulted? Should I stand up for myself?gonna keep it short and simple. i moved in with my boyfriend at new years, and since then 4 or 5 times i have woken up to him pinning me down and having sex with me. the first time i had just gone to sleep so i woke back up with him on top of me and asked what he was doing, he said he was going to have sex with me and pulled my pants down. i started yelling no and to stop and its going to hurt, and trying to push him off of me, but he covered my mouth with one hand and choked me with the other hand and did it anyways. since then i have not tried to fight back, i just say “no no no stop i dont want this” every time i wake up with him inside of me. last night i passed out drunk and woke up to him doing it again and started yelling at him to stop because im actually going to piss myself if he doesnt stop and im not joking. but he didnt believe me and didnt stop and i pissed all over both of us now he is mad at me. this is probably going to happen again. what should I do? i dont think its really worth bringing up since it doesnt hurt when he does it, its just super uncomfortable and makes me feel like i have to pee. and he has not been aggressive since the first time where he choked me. but also i want to be able to sleep peacefully in my own bed he also told me his friends girlfriend was complaining about how he doesnt stop when he asks her to stop, and he said “i dont think she really wants him to stop, because she wouldnt like it if he didnt get to finish and he was all mad for the rest of the night.” i just dont get why they have to be mad about it. he NEVER makes me cum unless its my birthday or a holiday and i dont pout about not getting to cum every single time we have sex?
>>34762941You've described rape so yes that's sexual assault. There's no fix to that scenario. If you don't like what's happening you need to leave, he's not going to stop.
>>34762952okay well i dont like going to work or doing my homework or filing my taxes but i cant just leave school or my job. im looking for ways to cope with it or maybe some sort of logic that will make him understand that what he is doing is wrong, or some sort of logic that will make Me understand that what he is doing Isnt wrong. i dont really think sexual assault and rape exist within romantic relationships
>>34762966He probably does understand it. You told him you don't want it and he doesn't care so he's doing it anyway. If you prefer to stay that's your choice. If you don't want to call it rape, fine, but it's still a non-consensual sexual interaction. I don't have any great advice, you're trying to make someone who doesn't care about consent start to care about consent. Think of it in transactional terms. You say no, he does it anyway, what's the downside for him? He gets what he wants and you accept it. What's the incentive for him to listen to you? You could try punishing him, but he'll probably escalate and the dynamic will only get worse. You could try offering him incentives to be more respectful, but at some point he'll start pushing again and probably punish you if you remove the incentives. I may be entirely misreading the situation since I don't personally know the guy, but I've known guys who have said or done similar things to their partners and that's how they operate.
>>34762941Thats definitely sexual assault/rape and he sounds horrible. You had sex you did not consent to. What makes you question this?>>34762966>i dont really think sexual assault and rape exist within romantic relationshipsWhat makes you say that? A relationship is not a contract saying “I consent 100% of the time” (unless you’ve made some kind of agreement for that). A lot of sexual assault happens in relationships. He has no right to have sex with you with you without your consent even though he is your partner.
>>34762941It's rape in a literal sense, but what you call it semantically is besides the pointThe question is: how did you end up with a man who is going to rape you every time you try to sleep? Why would you be attracted to a person who doesn't respect your boundaries? Why wouldn't you leave him?
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>>34763420okay its not every time i try to sleep i moved in with him January 1 and it has happened four or five times and idk the way i view it its not about boundaries its whether i love him enough to not use therapy speak to manipulate him in order to not fulfill my end of our relationship. after reflecting i decided if the only reason is that i just dont want to have sex i feel like thats kind of retarded, because he does plenty of things he doesnt want to do just so i wont be in pain or be sad. its not a huge ask for me to deal with 3-5 minutes of discomfort
>>34763505 if you’re willing to chance being raped everytime you go to sleep just to satiate your bf, that’s kind of pathetic. being raped isn’t the same as having to do the dishes, and his friend is a retarded manchild. that’s just my opinion tho
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>>34762941you stupid nigger, you're screaming "no" at him from the outset and he keeps going, how is that not rape? are you one of those muslims or something? indian, maybe? or are you just trying to shit up the thread?if you stick with that chimp, your only resolution is to develop a taste for rape because that's what's going to keep happening. or hell, if you aren't willing to just walk out, then you have the right to tell the police or whoever if you think that'll change him. married couples have stooped down to the level of talking to cops for less
>>34763990me too
>>34764206my dryr opened so idrank more waiting on closes try iwamt nanamin to kill me
>>34764316me too!
>>34764328mortal kombat!
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>>34762941girl how did you get into a relationship with a guy who wants you to be uncomfortable/in pain during sex. also you might not see it as a big deal, but he obviously would keep going even if he had to be aggressive or you were in pain, and doesn't care about you getting off. This is abuse.>>34762966>how can I convince him that when he has to be aggressive or force me to have sex or ambush me when drunk/sleeping that it's wrong and not something someone who loves another would ever dofixed it for you>>34762966>I don't think rape exists within romantic relationshipsoh never mind you're just retarded and deserve this okay. Rape is forcing someone to have sex regardless of their comfort, safety, or free will. That can happen regardless of being in a relationship or not.>>34763505>I don't use therapy speak to fulfill my end of our relationshipso... you don't communicate and have any healthy relationship standards at all? girl, you're going full pick me mode for a guy who can't even get you off or not rape you. What the fuck is wrong with you? btw the only men that would pick you for this mentality are men who will mistreat you because no sane or decent man would settle for this. the irony of a pick me, they don't understand it won't actually lead to them being picked, loved, or honored/respected in any real way, just used and discarded (which, if you are a pick me is well deserved at that point). talk to a fucking therapist. you are far beyond help.
>>34764381Based, but saying she deserves it is wild cause the dumbass might actually use this to rationalize further abuse down the road
>>34764407if she is so far gone justifying literal sexual assault when she's asleep and struggling and saying no because she thinks rape can't happen in romantic relationships. why do you think me saying they deserve it will make a difference? not trying to be rude but let's be real lol
>>34764462Telling someone they deserve something just gives them a copout to point to further down the road when they have opportunity to change. My sister was in multiple abusive relationships, do I think she deserves them? No, I think she's a fucking dumbass bitch. My mom on the other hand, would tell her she deserves to be beaten, frequently actually. My sister specifically told me one day after she broke down to me crying when her piece of shit boyfriend dumped her, that she deserves this all of this. I mentally rolled my eyes so hard in that moment. People internalize the dumbest shit and use it to rationalize retarded behaviors because to them that's easier than leaving the situations they've grown used to. They'll find other people like themselves and they'll even start making badges of honor our of abusive situations. Like she found a "role model" in her abusive ex's step mom who told her that she had earned her stripes by being beaten by him. Like bruh. Lmfao. Don't ever underestimate how irrational fuckers can be.
>>34764523oh no I completely agree with you but also I get tired of people being dumb. I know how it works using stupid shit to justify this crap, I work with a lot of people who have been abused. it's just that they post asking if they're being abused, then justify it because it can't happen because they're in a relationship... so at that point it's just trolling or someone so far gone I have no hope for them.
>>34764381ykw I was onto something because i didnt WANT to hear the same old “Nooo you deserve better girl” because it doesnt really click with me and I guess i didnt WANT to hear that I should break up with him at all but > btw the only men that would pick you for this mentality are men who will mistreat you because no sane or decent man would settle for this. the irony of a pick me, they don't understand it won't actually lead to them being picked, loved, or honored/respected in any real way, just used and discardedis what i NEEDED to hear even if it wasnt what i wanted to hear. reflecting on how all of the women i have taken relationship advice from are consistently praised for “standing by” their abusive husbands and i look down on the guys they married for treating them the same way the guy i choose to be with treats mei respect these women so I took their advice but this made me realize that i respect them for everything they have accomplished OUTSIDE of their marriage, not for putting up with abuse
>>34764783lol every guy who has praised me for my mindset and said anyone who calls me a pick me is a jealous lonely bitch ended up burning me in ways I have not recovered from. if anything maybe this can be a cautionary tale for any trad minded girls who might stumble upon this thread
>>34764783>>34764786I wasn't expecting you to post back or for it to go well, but I'm really happy that it clicked. You don't deserve to be abused, and honestly I think that's something worth pointing out: in a healthy relationship, men won't accuse you of pulling therapy speak to get your needs met, they'll be happy you're communicating so they can help meet your needs. Also, yes, if the women you take relationship advice are also being abused.... the advice you accept won't lead you to a healthy relationship. I am so glad to hear you figured out you can respect them but they can also not have good advice around certain subjects. and yes, any man who encourages you to be a pick me is a man you want to avoid. Pick mes sacrifice aspects of their personality or their wants/needs to please, and that's only a good thing to men who want to avoid being with a real person that has or expects them. Good men want a person they can be with, who is themselves, and will communicate and function as a union (respecting each other as individuals while finding ways to be together). It's a big irony when it comes to growing up with these mindsets.I was like you where growing up I was surrounded by women with these shitty mindsets, abused by my ex, and told I should stay, and it wasn't until I realized all the people around me wanted to be miserable and for other people to not be able to have better to feel better about their own lot in life... did I move away, find my (now) husband, and am happier than ever. Every time we do stuff I get off multiple times, he never complains, and if I say no he's happy to cuddle or do whatever. We communicate, no one is afraid, and if either of us are having a difficult time we can just tell each other and support one another. You deserve to be in a relationship where you are safe to say no, where you have a partner AT THE BARE MINIMUM doesn't want to hurt you or for you to be uncomfortable, and would want you to be happy and strive for that.
>>34762941>TITLE: Am I being sexually assaulted?Yes.>Should I stand up for myself?No.
>>34764783Okay I am so, so glad you decided to spontaneously gain consciousness. Good job and I hope your road to healing is a short one.
feeling fantastic this morning and i dont know why
Need relationship, life and guy advice. Early 20s f usa- I know I’m young, im still decently existential. I know there’s plenty of people out there and time and blah blah blah but if you’ve got an open mind and a willingness to help me figure some things out I’d be super appreciative. I have disc telegram and snap if those are better but my Teleguard is DGRPVU9P2Disclaimer I do keep myself busy when I can with chores or life distractions and it’s my one day off to get things done so I might be a bit spotty but still would really appreciate some help
>>34766096why not ask the questions here?
>>34766099There’s honestly a lot to get into and I’d rather it just be a personal conversation then to fill up the feed with my nonsense. I know I’m kinda spiraling and it’s just not a fun time. Plus with not being on here a lot I’m sure it wouldn’t be very effective
>>34766127this thread is already nonsense. why not give it a shot?
>>34766127Filling the thread up with nonsense is fine, you or anyone else shouldn't worry about that. I think you'll get more people adding you if you post disc instead of teleguard by the way>>34765379That's good accept it and make the most of it
>>34766096Why not, add me, its magnumdml on discord
how do i get over my ex?he was hot and (mostly) perfect and actually liked me a lot and broke up with me 'amicably' how do you pick up the pieces when there's nothing you did extremely 'wrong' but it just didn't work out with the only person you cared about and you feel worthless as a result?
>>34766182the easiest direct solution is to destroy the image you have of him. tell yourself he smelled like shit. was a liar. hated your hobbies. talked to others behind your back. was a fucking waste of time.the healthy solution is a clean cut. reduce or eliminate all memories you have. never check his stories, dont look at old texts or muse through pictures.combine with activities. focus on your hobbies, listen to music, watch movies, meet friends, get out.
>>34766182It just takes time. You can do things in the intermediary to distract you but the only thing that's going to help you get over them is time.Being distracted is a good thing though. Gives you the opportunity to do things you might have never thought to do before and work on yourself.
>>34766188for the record i haven't spoken to him at all since and i don't go through texts or look at his social media (neither of us have social media actually afaik)But i don't see how i can stop the memories.>>34766190i guess this answer is boring/expected but necessarily true.
What exactly is shooting your shot even supposed to be!?!? In every context the broad view boils down to go bother that person and see if she's okay with it
>>34766199It's the boring answer but it's also the hardest thing to do. Everyday they'll probably pop up in your head, and everyday you just have to know that you'll be okay and can make it through the day. Soon enough, they'll stop popping up in your head and life will be like they never existed at all.Good luck anon.
>>34766199then stop being stuck in the past. you gave your best, you were steady, but it didnt work out. move on.
M/36/USAFit, with a bit of a dad bod. Looking to chat with younger F. I'm pretty much open to whatever so feel free to chat about whatever, vent, etc.For interests I play a lot of video games, play guitar, cook, and go to the gym. Feel free to add me if you think we have anything in common, or you just want to say hi.TGuard: 6X8E6RQ7R
>ASL33/M/USA>Looking forPeople to talk to, to waste the day with. And maybe someone to play videogames with. Or even just fellow nerds who want to talk about new anime coming out.>InterestsEating, Traveling, playing videogames, Going to the gym, Watching tv, watching Anime, Reading Books and Manga>Discordzuni93
>>34766237Bump. I have Kik and Discord too. Kik: Zombieboats0Disc: Robolasagna
>>34766096No idea if youre coming back and 4chan wont believe me but im a LSW working on becoming a LCSW. Post a username that isnt from some dogshit russian spy app and ill talk to you
How do I get an older eboyfriend as a chronically online male NEET? I live in the middle of nowhere and have no choice but to edate, but all the NEET KHHV 18yearoldpilled men on this site are straight
>>34767932Dropping your discord would be a good start
>>34767945I'm too scared of posting my Discord in the gay/age gap threads, because I'd just be humiliating myself(by exposing my most cringe desires, potentially to efriends who could be browsing) for an onslaught of coomers that will lead to nothing. Very few men are willing to have a long-term erelationship with some faggot NEET so they can meet up in two years, when they can just go on Grindr and find another boy. Maybe this would've been possible if I had posted a few years ago, but 4chan is mostly dead now. I suppose my refusal to advertise myself makes me a fakecel, but this is the thread for whiny attentionseeking faggots, isn't it? Woe is me.
28m recently relapsed Looking for some company or a distraction or just to bullshit, I’m geeked out of my mind and down for whatever. Women only please I don’t need any cavemen asking me to exchange irl’sMINORS AND SELLERS DNI Kik is HeavyWeather08 disc is heavyweather713
how do i get one of these retarded foids that goes on 4cheddit and asks "my boyfriend keeps raping me and everyone around us, AITA?"
>>34768775these are almost exclusively overweight forever-students or dropouts
Jfc I've been sick with a stomach bug the past few days. Shitting and throwing up non stop. I'm so sorry I took you for granted body ;_;
>>34768929when that happens to me i look on the bright side of it makes me lose weight.
I need an emotional supportive person. I'm in my 30s so I'd like to talk to someone the same age or older. vc is prefered, I don't want to trauma dump or talk about my personal issues, I'd like to talk to someone with a cheerful funny personality to get away from that, I feel lonely from the toxic things constantly coming in my way and I miss laughing. I'm not looking for anything romantic so you can be male/female/bi/gay whatever.drop ur discord if you like, I'll add you
ugh i feel extremely ill today i should drink some
sad bro have lots of hot exes but Damm life has been hard earn good money but back breaking work in the mines of Australia kik kim132132
I’m too niche. I can’t get along with dirty normies even though I have level 999 normie camouflage and women with high level corporate jobs invite me to dinner on dating apps. I lowkey think it’s mostly because they’re about to hit the wall tho, and I wish more of them were Chinese. my godlike integrity and visionary nature prevents me from tainting my soul with their company either way also I’m a NEET and we wouldn’t have anything in common unless they want to fund my metaphysical endeavors. I’m a spiritual white boy and my pleiadean brothers told me that I’m here to spread beauty and perfection throughout the material universe but dumbass hoes don’t understand esoteric things like that.
wanna be trained to stay abstinent. Please make jerking off and cumming very unenjoyable for me. Make to jerk to stuff i hate, ruin my orgasms, train me how to cum prematurely, or any other idea you got to make this unenjoyable so i can stop jerking.Tg: ZHBPBUHHY
My gf and I said "I love you" to each other for the first time last night. I was holding it in for a while after realizing I was in love with her a week or two ago. I'm so glad I said it and now we can't stop saying it to each other. I love her so much bros and I'm so glad she loves me too.
>>34770051That's cute how long u guys been talking? Happy for u anon
>>34770067We've been dating for just over 2 months. I was worried it would be too soon to say it and I'd scare her off but it worked out in the end.
>>34770091That's awesome anon how'd u guys meet
it was 71 outside and pretty today i was supposed to go outside but i didnt. also a internet man just knocked on my door asking about service and i basically went into shutdown panic attack mode and closed the door in his face i'm so sorry.
I had a dog that I adored that was given to me and then taken back because in the eyes of the person that gave her to me, kennel training her was bad for her and she thought I wasn't able to take care of her properly. I agreed because she looked happier over there since there were other dogs and I felt like she had a better social life there. They are now being offered to me again. I want to take her back, but I'm so salty because I was training her when I had her, and according to them she became an untrained disruptive dog, maybe because they weren't training her or getting her exercise?? Like what the fuck did they expect? I don't even know if she remembers me anymore and she's grown so much bigger since the last time I saw her.
>>34770428i just hide anytime anyone knocks on my door and try to peak out the window to see who it is.
>>34770728I understand why you're salty but remember don't punish the dog for them being bad people. Kennel training is also pretty healthy for a lot of dogs as long as it's not used abusively or inappropriately.
>>34770769Yeah, I know it's not her fault. It just irks me so much. I was putting so much effort into raising her right, and I chose to believe she was going to be in better hands back over there. It's honestly tough choice if only because she's a very intelligent and high energy dog that has the stubbornness of a husky. So I'm not sure if it's going to be as simple as providing stimulation and exercise+training or if she's already formed behaviors that are going to be hard to train her out of. I'm not some expert dog trainer, all I know is if I do take her back, it's going to probably be very high effort until she settles down again.
>>34770757i have a doorbell it doesn't freak me out knocking makes me think you're either trying to break the door in or you're here for money i dont have
decided to drink a bunch feels good sadness is gone i was very sad crying about being not even worthless but detrimental to everyone now i'm fuzzy
I wish I would just meet my next "I know it when I see it" person already. its really boring and empty to be aimless like this
>>34771600Me too. I don't know where to meet people though.
I want to give a woman obsessive compliments but they always just want money... I just love the feeling of obsession, not findom...
Why am I so retarded and gay?
Hiiii im a girl and its my dream to have a spergy true incel bf that's shy and autistic ^_^ Im a 21 yr old girl so if you're 20+ and interested leave ur contact
>>34771020Fuzzy is nice>>34771600>"I know it when I see it" personI didn't know that existed outside of movies>>34771610Talk to lots of people online until you run into someone you like? I have no idea what the alternatives are.>>34771687What is a true incel?
i am low iq retard but i am kind add my discord @bunnyprincesssuzy lalalala
>>34770051very happy for you two. sending you love.>>34771649a man without prestige cannot give praise.>>34771661you didnt get enough love as a child.>>34771687good luck with that, you better be ready to do 90% of the work.
>>34771711>I didn't know that existed outside of moviesthey do, especially when including platonic connection
>>34771600Well why did the last one not work out? Or it like a you just like collecting people thing
>>34771800>why did the last one not work out?it was never going to from the start even if that didn't stop me before >Or it like a you just like collecting people thingno. I keep my focus on whoever I'm closest to
>>34771804No offense, I hope you find what you're looking for, but I've dated girls like you, and in my experience, what you're really looking for is a sense of self. So you just look for somebody that embodies the characteristics you want in yourself so you can adopt their personality. You get head over heels for them, put them on a pedestal, until the inevitable fall, then you discard them and go next.
>>34771815I'm not a girl and you're projecting. I'm not even speaking of romantic relationships. deep meaningful friendships are special to me. I hope the next girl is kind to you mate
>>34771821Well now I look a fool. Thanks, appreciate you bro. Doesn't change what I said initially and I hope you find what you're looking for.
I woke up to find the dog is now at my place. She hasn't trained her, hasn't disciplined her, didn't get her regular exercise, didn't socialize her properly, apparently her dumbfuck husband would beat the dog because they're retards that don't understand how to reinforce or discourage behaviors, and now she has SHOCKER aggression issues. Not ONLY that. They dropped her off at my place while I was sleeping, saying that it was an emergency since she was about to kill their other dog not giving me a choice in the matter. With nothing. No food, not the collar and leash I gave when I originally gave her back to her, not the doggie bags I had, not the dog bowls. Nothing. So beyond fucking livid with my sister because now not only is the dog's development stunted, she's developed behavioral issues on top of already being a stubborn dog. Beyond salty. Like I'm glad I got her back, and it's lwk a pleasant early birthday gift, but ffs.
>>34766188Ive been there with my ex gf. Its tough but part of it is you make new memories and work on yourself. I took the time to get back into hobbies, spend time with friends, and traveled and it helped alot. Then when youre ready go try dating again and you will find someone meant for you.
>ASL19/M/Tennessee>Describe/About Yourself5'8, skinny twink build, pale, long black hair with faded purple ends, shaved smooth except a little happy trail. Big eyes, blush easily, voice cracks when nervous . basically a pathetic femboy in denial....>Hobbies/InterestsValorant until I tilt, anime, collecting thigh highs I never wear outside, sending drunk voice messages, scrolling horny twitter at 3am>Looking forany guy who's down to bully me, flirt, play games or get weird in dms, call me princess/kitten/babyboy, send pics, voice chat, whatever. Just give attention I'm starving>Not looking forghosts, just curious straights who dip, one word "hey" messages...>socialsDiscord: 2challotBirthday was yesterday and nobody has clapped my cheeks yet, send help...
>>34771751That's interesting I've never felt that. It takes me a while of knowing someone before I get the feeling that they're right for me, platonically or otherwise.
>>34749400How about temporary neets
Something off my chest is that every couple of months for years now starting back in highschool I had small online whore arcs that only lasted 2 weeks max. I would talk to random people online and ERP before completely ghosting and fucking off before I just couldn't be bothered to keep up with the daily back and forth. Stopped sending pics once I hit uni because I realized how fucking dumb I was and now only keep it to VCs and sharing hentai with people. I am hitting this high again and just needed to confess my sins and if you were ever affected by me.
I'm a fuckin mentally ill incel, I've got a handful of friends and they don't know how fucked up I am because I've seen similar people drive them away so I don't get that close.All I have left are my parents and they can't stand me much anymore.Every time I try to make a change (start eating healthy/working out, stop gooning as much) something horrible happens that sends me back to my shit ways to cope. I can't take it and I just wanna die.
>>34771935report her, she shouldn't have any dogsditching one dog on you is proof enough she can't keep otherst. reported sis for same, minus beatings
I'm not sure this is the right place but I'm just looking for some advice about my weekend. Sorry if I don't respond right away, been pretty busy lately but I'll do my best!Kik - becks3611Oh and 21 f Canada
i'm so tired of being a mentally ill retard surrounded by normal healthy people i cant do anything right
>>34749367I am so lonely and I don't see a way out of it. I think I am fundamentally incapable of forming a bond with other people, yet I want it so badly. I am my own worst enemy. Every single day, I wake up and I tell myself, "today's gonna be different," and then I go to work, come home, sit at my pc, and fall asleep. I don't know why I do it. I don't like work and I don't like what I do in my free time. I'm just sort of going forward because of inertia more than anything else. This isn't what I wanted my life to be, but I don't think I ever had any sort of plan for my life. I think this is what happens when you don't have dreams or goals, you just end up somewhere and all of a sudden years have gone by and nothing's changed at all. I'm not too old to be truly gone and past the point of saving things, but am I really going to fix myself? I don't know. Probably not. I am so sick of my life, but I am too scared to change things because there is an odd comfort in my misery. It is so hard to get over that hurdle because, ultimately, my life could be much worse, and I guess I have resigned myself to playing it safe and keeping this humdrum life rather than risking things and falling on my face. Surrendering joy to prevent pain. I've been doing it for so many years. Anyways, that's about it. Thank you for reading my gay little vent if you did.
>>34773452post tits
>>34773452just be my girlfriend and you can do all that without feeling guilty! ok???
>>34771687I'm a spergy incel... Add me on discord, it's whaaaaaaaaatnow
>>34760622Well i hope you birthday wasn't too bad, where you at ? If close to ny perhaps we can camp when it gets warmer, or just drivearound. Im slightly younger male. If doable leave contact and expectations
Free advice for anyone that doesn't want to publicly post their issue or advice requestDisc: worthyusername_15642
Fuck all the parents that use their sons as RETIREMENT PLANS. okay time to cry.
Fuck I need to get this shit out. Sacrificed myself and gave them a better life for 10 years, lost everything and now I got myself fucked and stuck in a place I can't escape. Everyday I'm treated like a fucking dog and now my brain is in on a saboteur mission against my self every single day.
hmm i'm losing my appetite and havent eaten dinner in 2 days
25/M here. Would like some attention and also to give others some and chat. I’ve been struggling with depression for a while and am struggling to get over anxiety and find ways to meet new people. I also stubbornly seek a relationship despite the fact I don’t know anyone irl and that online will likely never work for me.
>>34775273>>34775229Hey guy seems like you need to leave for some self preservation. You've done more than your fair share for them. They are not your responsibility
If anyone needs any advice or to vent feel free to hit me up, Im not very judgemental VFQ6K8AK4
>>34776730I'm losing mine too but I think I'm getting sick kill me. What's up with yours?
M 22 just got back to my dorm laying naked in bed after a shower, looking to get dirty again. Just relapsed, so feeling guilty but so damn horny. Please hmu and show me why I shouldn’t feel guilty. Show me stuff my cock can’t resist and make me throb. Get me hard and push me deeper into my porn addiction. Show me something innocent then slowly corrupt me and push me deeper and deeper. Fuck me up. And would also love if you could fake my celeb crush in any way. Any of it would be appreciated.Pls hmu, any help is welcomed and appreciated!Session053bbff12e992861e96c2b85a7bcaf01a36300cc8a9b148e4a4cc42612cdfc5916
>>34775273>>34775273You're never truly stuck. You gave 10 years but doesnt mean the next 10 years are a wash. If you've got nothing to lose then consider it freedom.
>>34778697i dunno maybe nto drinking for 2 days my tummy was healing so it didnt want food i'm kinda hungry atm so i'll eat soup
Having the same thoughts of wanting a gf over and over again...
Why is that whenever i start to have a semblance of mental stability it always comes sliding back down? I thought the depression was because of my best friend not wanting anything to do with me because of my mental health but we're friends again and i know for a fact my recent spiralling has nothing to do with him. I just really really want it to stop, every single day whether it's the chills in my spine or the way my voice locks up because of my anxiety or the loneliness, i feel something relating to my traumas (social isolation, ghosting and bullying mostly) even tho i have a decent amount of online and irl friends (somehow). To be honest i just don't think i'm long for this world, especially with the way my trauma and mental illnesses have had the impact on me that they have. It's not like i have a particulary horrible life besides being broke and living in a shitty place. The only thing i really want in life, moreso than my desire for artistic fulfillment (which won't happen either) is to be loved as corny as it sounds. But who could love a faggot druggie? I just want out, i don't deserve love. I'm so so so tempted to just go buy a gram of heroin again when i get paid and snort it all, it would be a great way to go compared to hanging myself like i've tried.
i'm only tipsy
>>34780196id suck those tiddies till im tipsy my lordy
>>34780231lol sometimes they leak its prob booze by now
I think I’ll start therapy soon and I’m scared. I like being sad I think, it’s just easy and simple. Just wake up, have the day be a blur and then sleep. Sleeping while sad and depressed honestly is the best part of my life. My dreams usually are horrible, I have nightmares basically one a night, but sometimes I’ll get an amazing one and it makes my week. My dreams are my safe space, when I’m dreaming I know I’m safe, when I’m sleeping I know I’m safe. And I think therapy will take away my safe space.Also I’m probably gonna drop out of college. I’ve been a student all my life and wanna just live life in a different way, but I’ve never had a job before and have no clue how to get one. So that’s an other thing.Overall I just think I’m in a bad place all around, and my close family feels it, which makes me more and more sad. I think about suicide daily an often but I dont think I could stoop to that level. I know I’d only be doing it to run away, and it’d cause so much pain for those people close to me so I’ll just stick to ideation. I’m not sure if I’ll ever be in a good place, I’ve been trying for a while, but I might need meds even thought I don’t want to so so bad, but it might be how it has to be. I’m laying in my bed right now, my pillows smell like shit cause I wishes them in too much water so they’re getting moldy, I need new ones.
20tf looking looking for attention nd maybe to be fed or just to chat idk !05e9dd049e30bc5aa9b88276949dfb8b5fb0b150871e2f0cd2a3221f8281c69349
20tf repost with correct id!05e9dd049e30bc5aa9b88276949dfb8b5fb0b150871e2f0cd2a3221f8281c69349
>Daedalus constructed wings for himself and his son, and enjoined his son, when he took to flight, neither to fly high, lest the glue should melt in the sun and the wings should drop off, nor to fly near the sea, lest the pinions should be detached by the damp. But the infatuated Icarus, disregarding his father's injunctions, soared ever higher, till, the glue melting, he fell into the sea called after him Icarian, and perished. (Apollodorus)I've always wanted to understand what sort of loop I've been stuck in my entire life. There are times that I enjoy sitting outside in the dark of night, with the cool air and sound of distant dog-barks as my company. When I was younger, I remember engaging in this same sort of aimless loafing behavior, sitting in the darkness and scenting the night air while thinking pointless thoughts; and there happened to stand a porch-light above my head (as a child, it seemed gargantuan and as distant as the moon but, at my age, I could not reach the switch to turn it off), and the light was always swarmed by (what seemed to me) hundreds of moths, all flitting and fluttering against the incandescent bulb. Some would land and, as it would happen, die—falling to the ground in a morbid pile (which I came to call the "moth pile") while others would graze ever so slightly, up and away, before flying right back to meet their doom some other time in a desperate bid for the warmth of light.I imagine this website is like that porchlight. I always feel an extreme tension that draws me towards things I know will burn or kill me, but nevertheless I desire the Sun all the same. There is nonetheless a lot of narcissism in my position. I regard myself as better than the other moths, if only because I have not flown too highly and burned myself (neither have I ever been warm), nor too low and yet drowned. But I cannot understand to where I am headed, even if I should listen to the advice of Daedalus; I have no where to go.
>>34775031Still giving free advice
Looping thoughts... they are running on my mind for two weeks now. I want a girlfriend, but I don't have social life. I want sex, a normal life. I have so much desire bottled up after those years of being alone, but no way of turning those desires into something concrete. I just want to hug and be protected by a girl. And then I would like her to give me a handjob.
>>34782362The work begins with yourself. Become the person you want to be, love yourself before you want someone else to love you.
Being raped by a beautiful girl is so desirable
>>34760622>I turn 40 in 3 daysAre you me? Though I'm 40 in 3 years not days. No gf, no friends since school, and a loner (though I will talk with folks). I'm tall (6'1), have a cock that makes it hard to zip up pants sometimes, and I'm employed (with a decent amount of savings) so those don't really help either.I think the only reason I'm still here is because I moved back in with family.
i'm 40 next month, sick forever and an alcoholic wantng a man to abuse me until idie
https://discord.gg/u5ahunuksHFree attention here
any brunette ladies in this thread in need of a blond man to go insane about you?
I need to vent a little, it's so tiring being a submissive guy. Pretty much every single woman wants a guy to be rough with them or at minimum have normal sex. I just want a woman to be rough with me, but a dominant woman doesn't truly exist out of desire, they just do it for money.
If you are tired, alone, don't have friends please add me. I will check up on you everyday.I do not care how ugly or degenerate you are.If you are European maybe we can be lovers.Maybe you want one quick pat on the back?That's fine too.All I ask is you know how it feels to be alone.Discord: thesoullesshusk
>asl26/M/ New England, USA>about youIntrovert, white, 5'6, 128 lbs, I'm pretty shy IRL but in text / voice chat I'm a lot more comfy and confident lol, I'm pretty chill, not easily offended. >interests/hobbiesI'm an indoors person, so I enjoy gaming, reading / history, YouTube, NFL (Go Pats!), singing,I drink socially, don't do drugs. I would like to get into snowboarding / skateboarding sometime. >looking forA girl who is introverted like I am and tired of feeling lonely, preferably in the US, spend some time online together, maybe build a connection and some trust. Text each other, watch stuff together / game. I'd be open to exploring your interests and hobbies, maybe help me get into anime lol. Also would like to meet in the future if things go well. No trans. I can also provide a selfie in the first message if needed>contactdiscordojc77
>>34782688a woman that truly loves you will always be as dominant as you want her to be within reason. You need to stop sulking, head up anon you can find her, the woman that will amazon position youwhile im waiting for the captcha23/m/europeim also really lonely and its valentines so im really depressed, anybody wanna talk to me i have so much to talk about i am a very chatty person please dm me over at discord chudracemixer i am open for literally anybody doesnt matter, also im kind of a porn addict so you can also like be a sexual degenerate thaz would be hot to have another one to talk to
>bought a gift for her>don't see her todaywell that sucked. guess I can give it to her tomorrow but this is a quite the bummer.. finally "make a dang effort" as my sisters/coworker tells me to and it went all wrong
I want an onee-san style girlfriend. And I want to be raped by a beautiful girl
bros, that fucking retard that kept posting his protonmail searching for a "biological female" that's into 2D loli every other fucking thread since like 2019 seems to have stopped posting and i'm STILL here, i also started posting on /soc/ since 2019 like him. fuck.
I hate that i'm retarded at math and it adds onto my suicidal thoughts that I will always be retarded even if I can read and/or write very well because I can't juggle numbers.
18/mtf/argentine Looking for: literally anyone who wants to send me pictures of their cock, my dms are wide open Not looking for: minorsDiscord: geesearecool87
i love him so much hes so perfect iwant to be his wife and slave but i'm so fucking worthless and he cando better
>>34780245Lactation is my fetish
>>34786702He must have found the one./soc/, the board that's designed to be deleted.
>ASL22 f est usa yes I’m a real girl lol>About YouI’m toxic and can be super subby if the right person brings it out of me hehe let’s degrade each other lmao I’m looking for someone to take control and kinda just bully me and make me submit to them and and I love to smoke weed, game and draw hehe>Looking forAuthentic dominate guys (if you’re ganna add me and act like your dominant don’t. I can see right through it lol), gamers, people who like to, people in NA. DONT BE BORING>Not Looking ForImmediate sexual things (you will be blocked), sensitive people, boring people, dry texters, awkward people, not playful people, non toxic people>Discordfaded.colors
f21 back at the start of a new year, and i am once again relapsing on everything. i wanna be used and abused again. i love seeking out awful men on here and letting them take control of me. i just wanna be told im good for getting worse.
>>34790846Spriteful77 on disc
>schizo venting26 mI just had enough and I gave up in life I really tried but this whole thing is just not for me. everything feels so tiresome and pointless so I'm not going to keep mindlessly working in a timewasting job when I'm gonna stop being a functional member of society anyway. Not planning to directly kms because I'm a catholic but I'm not trying to do "productive" or long term stuff anymore I don't give a fuck about saving more money when you can't even own a house these days.I accepted the fact that the normie lifestyle of getting married with children it's not for me and I couldn't care less for the future of my "hobbies" vidya, movies and even sports are absolutely terrible and souless these days so I'm not missing anything good.I started doing benzos and I would like to try opiates anytime soon. My plan at the moment is basically enjoying myself and try to have a relaxing nice time with easy strong pleasures before eventually OD and die.
>>34749367I asked several AIs and they told me I have a V taper (broad shoulders, narrow waist) but I can't see it. I think I look small with a wide waist. What do you think?
>>34790914i think u look great
>>34790846Disc ._kalos_.
i love hydrocodone
>>3479155541/m/uswould love to give you what you want
>>34791584u in nc?
>>34791589no, indiana unfortunately
ugh just reclining and watching youtube randomly vomit all over my tits i'll go shower after the vid is over
Relapsed on self harm last night. I'm pissed that the knife isn't sharper. I can only get small cuts even when i press down as hard as i can. I really want to cut enough to make my arm bleed, maybe i just need to saw harder or should i just get a sharper knife?
M22 in my dorm tonight looking to have fun for the next few hours. Please hmu and send me anything to make my cock throb and make me jerk it. Make me get naked and touch myself to whatever you send. Make my brain melt with pleasure. Corrupt me. Start innocent looking then slowly get dirtier and dirtier until you really get me into the perv I am. I’ll also jerk on vid call for what you send if you like. And please if u can fake pics of my celeb crush it would be appreciated.Pls hmu, anyone and any help is greatly appreciated!Session05a99ddd53de1796c3c25915cb90fa144c348c05d02064eac452aad1e7829e9d14
>>34793036Oh, a bigger knife worked. They're only small cuts but they hurt like a bitch, the bloods dried now. it's tempting to go again just to see how deep i can handle cutting into. It also stops the pain in my chest just as good as any drugs do, probably healthier for me too. The only downside is how when i do it i just want to kill myself more. I wish there was a easier way to do it than a opioid OD. I probably would've been dead from one since monday but of course i get 100$ stolen off me when i need it. I can't take anymore and i really just don't want to be alive. Everyone in my life always tells me i'm smart and how i can do great things with myself since i'm only 19, but i don't even want to try. Why would i want to when all the people i meet that i come to care about and love always end up getting sick of me or leaving me behind for someone else if i don't end up pushing them away by being too clingy and ending up a suicidal mess because they won't talk to me. I want to be dead so fucking bad i've honestly never wanted it this much before.
>>34793192Dude chill out you're only 19
M22 trying to settle in for the night but looking for a fun goon. Please HMU and send anything to make my cock throb. Corrupt me and start with something innocent then slowly show my cock the pervy stuff it wants. Make me throb and melt my brain with pleasure. Willing to vid call and jerk if you want. And if u can fake my celeb crush in any way that is much appreciated.Please hmu, anyone and anything welcome. Help is very appreciated!Session05a99ddd53de1796c3c25915cb90fa144c348c05d02064eac452aad1e7829e9d14
>ASL23/M/CANADA>About MeQuiet caring guy looking for someone I can genuinely have fun with. I’m big into gaming, binge watching shows, and listening to music together (even if we’re just sitting in comfortable silence). I like the simple stuff, good morning and goodnight texts, checking in on each other, and having someone to care about/be their wingman. I’m the type to listen when you need to vent, give advice if you want it, help you work through problems, or just be there when you feel like you have no one else. Mostly just want a best friend with a little extra, someone to play games with, laugh with, and provide way too much attention to anyone who wants it. NSFW wise I am I switch, I can go both ways and will try anything once, theres almost nothing I would say no to doing or telling you to do. If I get attached enough I might spoil you, buy you things to help you with your hobbies or life (or nsfw/sexy things, gotta have some fun) I don't care what you look like, I'm not perfect so you don't have to be either. Thin, fat, short, tall I will show you the affection you deserve no matter what.>Not Intocis men>Discordmayogoesonfries
free attention hi :p
>>34794732Would kiss and lick them
>>34794751you still would?
First time back on here in months whats going on my dudes, feel free to chat or send pics, love booty also,055f18a106c431c584a15763e59129a407275e8891db7d55b656b37b67bb9a1f52
>>34794784Of course I still would. While keeping eye contact with you
giving free attentiondiscord: cr_eam05
>>34774082wanna play wordle together?
F26 europeI haven't been in this much pain in i don't know how long. It's so intense i feel as if i can't function anymore. I forget things instantly, I'm in this constant state of confusion and brain fog. It's probably physically impossible for the human brain to keep this up, it's like my brain is on fire and that seems like a lot of effort to maintain. Which means the pain won't last forever but i don't know what to do until then. Nothing helps. Nothing. I no longer get joy or satisfaction from completing tasks, or being productive, creative, talking to my loved ones, or talking to mental health professionals. No relief. At all. The tears have trouble flowing out now. It's like I'm a zombie. I was brought to the hospital and obviously they didn't give me anything and obviously i forgot to ask because i can't think. It hurts so much and it messes with everything I've ever learned as a human, almost everything is an abstract concept now. It's hard to explain, but nothing clicks anymore.
>>34794916they kinda not that nice feeling or looking though lol
I'm in a really shitty relationship with my boyfriend. We're supposed to move in together in a few months but I don't know. It's easy to say to just leave him but I'm so burnt out from relationships. It's a long story but basically he lied about something that he knew would be a deal breaker in the relationship. It's been over a year since I found out and I'm still here. I thought I could get over it but I haven't. I care about him and love him but only to the extent I feel towards other human beings. I sent him a treat box for Valentine's Day but I didn't feel the warm fuzzy nice feeling I usually do. I used to have a very high sex drive but he kinda killed it.I know I'm just being retarded about it and just need to break up with him. It's hard I feel like no one will ever love me like he does/did. I still try my hardest to be good to him and love him despite everything, but I would love to have the feelings I used to have for him.
i would like someone to give me daily motivation to not eatdisc: widewilderness
How to Getover child hood sexual ahuse help please please please help if anybody can help in here or in dm Give me your tag please help i don’t care please help
>>34796652Spriteful77
I will give free attention to any pathetic failure of a woman. Stinky bedrotting losers wanted. This is a free platform to complain or talk about whatever with no strings attached, I am just very bored right nowdisc: burningmanonfire
>ASL38/M/DC>DescriptionDiagnosed ASPD+OCPD; I get bored easily, since ADHD as well.[an introduction will be featured inside]>InterestsBDSM, Cyber Security, Finance, Photography, Traveling, Warhammer 40k, Videography, Voyeurism... Honestly, who gives a shit?97% of you have the personality of a sack of potatoes -- the odds we brush up on any of this is minute.>Kinks, AND Fetishes -- Learn the differences.Bimbofication, Bondage, CNC, Degradation, Humiliation, Knife Play, Rape Play, Sadism, Sensory Deprivation, TPE, Voyeurism, & Wax Play.>What you're looking forBiological female slaves, pets, and subs;DDLG compatible if you're not a fucking mess, and a planetary mass of attention...Both metaphorically, and physically -- steer clear fucking cows.You're fuck meat; what the hell do you think I'm looking for?Primarily looking for someone that wants to be a live in slave, or pet.Local hook-ups (vanilla, or otherwise.)Video capable sluts to the top of the list.I'm heavily into Voyeurism:Implying I will want to look at you regularly, shy women typically don't meet this expectation.>What you're not looking forIdiots that have the personality of plank from Ed, Ed, & EddyMinors... I will require proof of age.If you cannot be bothered to regularly send pictures, videos, and VC, I don't want to talk to you.Shekel_Beggars -- LOL.>GamesMostly play single player, willing to allow some of you whores to play my library so I can watch you game half naked for my amusement, TBQH.Multi-player games: Space Marine II, Baldurs Gate 3, Elden Ring.>ContactUse this, to fill out the questionnaire (it's a discord server URL)I'm tired of having to deal with retards that add me, and either never speak,or the conversation is so dry that I'm choking in real life from it; it's that palpable./cybBR8tB9Q[Application_Process_v1.3{Grammar_Nazi_edition}9_5_25]-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
