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>ASL19/F/USA>Looking forlately ive been feeling like something is missing in my life & i think having someone i can truly bond with will heal my soul. my ultimate goal is to form a serious relationship. i want a lifelong partner (aka a husband) that i can eventually meetup with irl. i will get to know you first and see where things take us. please dont add me just to immediately sext me, not interested in that until we've established that sort of relationship. being able to vc sometimes is a plus.>Not looking forghosters, unironically rude people, people immediately interested in sex, doesnt contribute to conversation, consistently taking forever to respond, people who do not live in the USA, people not looking for a serious long-term relationship, people who dont want to have children, NEETS>Interestssinging, video games, cooking, tv shows, voice acting, fashion, food, doomscrolling, hiking, animals, just started getting into jigsaw puzzles and i love it>Discordclevercassie
>>34749400Holy based
I saw a comment on here the other night that made me start thinking about you. I wasn't sure if it was directed at me or not. It wasn't overly specific, but it certainly felt like it could have been directed at me, then again maybe I really am just schizo. I really just want to say, I miss you, or at least, the thought of you, and my heart aches whenever you cross my mind. Sometimes I open a browser I haven't touched in a while and it's like a time capsule that has tabs open of things you sent or I scroll through my gallery and have screenshots or images you had sent me or I had meant to send you and it makes me feel so sick and blue. I don't know why I'm even writing this, I guess just to get out the feelings that I felt the other night. I'd like to think if we were still talking you'd be glad for me and where I'm at lately. I truly hope you're happy. That's all I ever wanted for you.
Where do I find men who aren't ONLY interested in "having sex" and "video games"? I'm ok with sex once a week, but men, even the nice ones, seem to want multiple times a day and that's not sustainable for me. Does this make me asexual or not straight? Looking for genuine answers on how/where I can find them, or any book/vid resource recommendations on this
>>34749426That's really beautiful anon, what happened to them?>>34749433Once a week might be on the lower end of normal. Multiple times a day is a lot. I don't have advice but both of those frequencies seem extreme-ish to me
>>34749448I appreciate the input, what do you consider "normal" frequency for you, OP?
>>347494573 to 5 times a week seems average to me. I don't think it makes you asexual or not straight by the way. You just have a lower sex drive than the guys you're meeting. I don't know how you'd find lower drive guys tho
>>34749448I'm just being forthright. I'm not even sure if the comment I read was actually talking about me because from my perspective, I didn't think things ended amicably. I don't want to get too specific, but we stopped talking, it was for the best. It was draining the both of us and bringing out the worst in me. I treasure the moments we had before it all went to shit.
>>34749433nice i cant sleep gif anon
>>34749472Yeah, thanks.It's a problem I've had for 12 years now - I'd often start off thinking "I'm sure it will become less frequent as time goes on" and then it would get to 6-12 month mark and I'd feel horrible, like a zombie doll toy.And starting a relationship by saying "Hey I can only have sex ~1 times a week" also sounds awful, I don't want to frame intimacy like some quantity-limited timed transaction. But I just can't do multiple times a day. 3 times a week sounds doable considering what I've endured in the past though.
>>34749478did go through the same thing and i wish him well and become a better person.
>>34749507I don't think there's anything wrong with talking about that from the beginning of a relationship. Sexual incompatibility can be a big problem. Letting your partner know you have a low sex drive and only want sex once a week is good to do. You'd want to know if they were hypersexual and wanted it 3 times a day, right? Don't think of it in terms of a transaction, it's more like expectations. If it wasn't sex but, I don't know, whether you wanted kids or wanted to travel, you wouldn't feel as weird bringing it up would you? It's a difference in lifestyle is all. Feeling the way you've described seems miserable, you shouldn't have to suffer for your partner like that. >>34749478Something kind of similar happened to me as well so I can relate. Little things remind me of them and I treasure what we had even if I know there's no going back. I'm sorry that happened to you even if it was for the best, losing people is always painful.
>>34749523>>34749542Yeah it's a pretty common thing on this board which is why it was probably not about me. Lots of people on here that behave this way, but I had to just put this out there.
>>34749478Oh yeah, saw that post on the missed connections thread (why was that deleted???).
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>>34749579Idk I think the jannies don't like em
>>34749433>Where do I find men who aren't ONLY interested in "having sex" and "video games"?There are men everywhere, I don't know what to say>I'm ok with sex once a week, but men, even the nice ones, seem to want multiple times a day and that's not sustainable for me.I personally have a high sex drive so I could have sex every single day and honestly even twice (sometimes 3 times) in the same day, but I can see that's not really normal or needed. I'd be happy if I could have sex just once a week, but ideally a few more times for me. Other guys have a lower sex drive so maybe they'd match better with you.>Does this make me asexual or not straight?No, if you are attracted to men then no. You just aren't that big into sex, it is what it is. My brother is the opposite end of it compared to me. I could have sex and enjoy doing it with a woman every single day while I suspect he would only do it once every few months, but only if the woman engages it.
>>34749433Congrats, you just found one! My discord is whuhuhwhathuh let's chat ^^
M, 20. Would love to get to know someone. Into writing, walking, video games, been hitting the gym a little. I am straight, just throwing that out there. Like, I'm fine with chatting with a gay guy obviously but please don't come around expecting to see anything.Horny as hell too though. Actually not that horny just kinda like, hard to explain. So I can kinda trade. Would be nice to chat with a woman but I'm not holding out much hope. I'm more than fine with just having a chat with a man and chilling.Discord: Moonflare_0063Teleguard: GGLH8PECW
i'm up might go buy a soda and scratch off from a corner store. that guy really pulled my inner trashiness out
>>34750206What kinda soda? Good luck on your scratcher
Male, 32I need to vent a little because things kind of suck right now. Broke up with girlfriend 6 months ago because of her flipping out over me getting contacted for a job interview. I Don't hate her, but I have realised that she probably had adopted a bunch survival tactics that basically ammount to manipulation, and I am slowly trying to un-fuck my mind. Winter depression is kicking my ass this year and I had to move back in with my parents because I am broke as fuck right now and don't have a job. Can't find one in my specific field either so I am just applying for anything I could reasonably do, which means competing with all the other desparate people. Nothing is fun anymore, everyone else has moved on with life and I ended up loosing the one thing that was keeping me a bit on track (the gf). On top of that: questioning my personal style/expression, balding quite badly, want to get back into hobbies but cant because broke etc. By the time I will have caught up employment-wise and have any stability I will be pretty old, and I feel like everything is just getting worse and worse right now.my telegram is lark31swe if anyone wants to talk.
>>34750862>By the time I will have caught up employment-wise and have any stability I will be pretty oldfucking same, looking grim and bleak
>>34749426D is that you?
32/F/US I like attention. I'm currently out with a sprained knee and am bored. I enjoy reading, concerts, hiking (how I got into this predicament), and have 2 cats. Give horror book and TV show recs plsSnap: cantbehecked BOO SNAP BOO listen ok I like it
I need a friend, an ear, stability, someone.disc: samdrifts
i cant stop crying i keep thinking the bad thoughts it hurts so much
thinking of offing myself. recently lost my only support system, someone I have been with for the past 7 years suddenly up and left me to be with someone else. so I have to move back into my abusive mothers house and my boss wants to fire me as well. I don't see a point in living anymore. been alive for almost 30 years and it is a constant stream of abuse and misery. I will never heal nor be happy. I want out.
22/mtf/US L,T, bpd, audhd, yay lonely neurotic traumatized loser >looking for people smarter than me to post to about legends z-a and modern pokemon im not particularly into vgc i just like the designs and world >not looking for anyone who plays league, men, flirting, small talk, very dumb/very insecure people (not what i need sorry) talk to me like you know me i like attention, game analysis, weed, but i only want someone to talk to about pokemon >discord lumvyiuex
>>34751638No I'm not your person. All I can really say is if the person who wrote that comment the other day sees this, then add me in a month or two. I might have your contacts but I'm not even sure if you're my person, and the last thing I'd want is to reach out to somebody who wants nothing to do with me.
i've drank so much and i dont even feel a buzz this is so fucking stupid i just want to stop feeling this way i'm still crying
>>34751913>recently lost my only support system, someone I have been with for the past 7 years suddenly up and left me to be with someone else. so I have to move back into my abusive mothers house and my boss wants to fire me as well.It feels like I'm reading about myself. The worst happened to me, I'm still recovering from it but you can make it through anon. Just don't move in with your mom whatever you do, even couch-surfing is better than that.>>34751950Yeah it doesn't sound like you are my person. In any case, I hope you find peace anon.
>>34751969I have to move in with her. I have no other option. she does not beat me or sexually abuse me, she is bpd plus npd and verbally/mentally abuses me. I don't think I can make it through. I miss my special person, the only person who seemed to care about me. the way I was discarded and how they are suddenly so happy with someone else after all our happy years together hurts. now the added stress of losing my career and dealing with my mother is too much. you don't have to answer if you don't want but I am curious what happened to you and how you are recovering from it.
>>34751967itll be okay, maybe not now, but at the end of your tears you might find some peace and comfort, at least a respite for a bit, deal with it in whatever messy way you can so long as you get through the other side>>34751913its probably not accidental that its happening at the same time anon, maybe the structures in your life werent doing much well for you anyway, i know what you mean and i hope you realize that despite all the abuse and misery youre still a valued and loved person, even if you cant pinpoint or comprehend that love, you have your worth and strength, maybe this time it will be better, maybe things will be more stable, maybe youll have a firmer foundation, i cant promise you anything good or nice, but know that your misery doesnt define you, i appreciate you anon, just as i would appreciate anyone, your incurred agony doesnt make me see you as any less of a capable human being and perhaps in the future youll be able to forget about all the negative emotions youre feeling, one step at a time again, no matter how stuck you feel, time will always pass, you can take it however youd like, but i personally think thats a really good and comforting thing, anyhow, please contact any friends you have to see if you can crash there, scrounge up any money you have left for a motel, do odd gigs, work as a cashier, the worst thing you can do to yourself is go back to an abusive environment, but even if it comes to that, time will pass and youll get out, i believe in you anon, i believe in everyone who might not be feeling their best right now, myself included
>>34752020Pretty much the same thing happened to me as you on top of actually losing my job. My life fell apart losing everything I thought was good at the same time more or less, but >>34752027 was right that they actually weren't good for me at all. I definitely didn't go back to living with my abusive parents though. You should really figure out an alternative living situation, it will make you worse if you don't. I'm just recovering by making sense of what happened, and figuring out a path forward in my life without being so dependent on others or people pleasing. You would benefit from some trauma therapy, there are ways to do it on your own. Tapping is pretty good.
>>34752027well nobody values or loves me, if they do it is only temporary and they hurt me in the end. I appreciate you trying to be kind anyways. but the negative emotions did go away for the first time in my life when I was with my ex. only for me to get cheated on and abandoned in the end after all the love I gave. I have no friends. I've always been alone in this world. the people I've befriended in the past used and discarded me just like my ex. I believe in you and in others that you will make it out ok, I just don't think I will be one of those who makes it out.>>34752042maybe I deserve the abuse. maybe in a past life I did something terrible and this is how I atone for it. I am in therapy, been in and out most my life. it does not help me.
>>34752068>maybe I deserve the abuse. maybe in a past life I did something terrible and this is how I atone for it.I was in the exact place you were about a year ago, I had suicide plans and everything and I'm still here now. The wound hasn't healed, and probably never will, but it doesn't hurt as much anymore. Do I have it figured out, am I all better? No, especially because I'm still here on 4chan searching for something. Truthfully, it's been a struggle with many ups and downs, I don't have a full path forward fleshed out yet, but I can genuinely say I can find comfort and relief in being alone now, which I never thought I'd be able to achieve. I know this was meant for someone else>nobody values or loves me, if they do it is only temporary and they hurt me in the endBut honestly, I've even managed to get over this. You and I both probably have some sort of masochistic tendency to endure this over and over, but this stopped bothering me, maybe because it happened so much or my senses have dulled.
>>34752098were you also cheated on and/or left by your significant other? what really bothers me is the day after they dumped me (I already suspected they were having an emotional affair at this point) they immediately started dating the person they told me not to worry about.did you find a job? what else do you do with your time besides browse 4chan? I don't know what to do with myself. I don't think I will ever find comfort and relief in being alone. I want someone who cares about me and I would do the same for them but it's like cluster b people and dark triads are drawn to me like flies on shit. and I never spot them until it is too late.
>>34752125>I want someone who cares about me and I would do the same for them but it's like cluster b people and dark triads are drawn to me like flies on shit. and I never spot them until it is too late.First and foremost, you gotta work on this. Past a certain point you're not a victim anymore.And yes, pretty much the same thing happened to me. I'm currently underemployed so I'm making some money, but not a lot for the time being, working on changing that. I indulge in other hobbies but lately I've been slipping on focusing on healthier things which is why I'm here.
>>34752142I think I might have autism. I have trouble reading people and don't know how to spot these toxic people until they really start showing their true colors but by that time I have already given so much to them. sorry to hear you are going through something similar. does your ex run through your mind every day? I cannot help but constantly reply all the memories with mine and cry myself to sleep each night. have you ever seen eternal sunshine of the spotless mind? I wish I could erase everything. how are you planning to get a better career?
>>34752183I mean, even if you have autism, it doesn't remove your ability to pick up on patterns those people share or your power of discernment especially now that you've had experience. At first, yeah. But over time it's gotten much better. By completely changing my approach to jobs and actually networking as cringe as it sounds.
>>34752190how long before you stopped obsessively thinking about them/crying over them? it's been a bit over a month for me and it is relentless. oh makes sense, I wish you luck at finding a higher paying job.
>>34751888It's gonna be alright. You just have to get through it. You'll wake up tomorrow and feel better.
helloi dont know what other thread to post this in so i will do it herei am 18 i am male and i live in canadai am the lowest form of human life, an artisti like to draw and i like to write and i like to make musici also like religion and i like to readi am also extremely mentally ill and autistici want to talk to people who are similarly enthusiastic about the things i am and like talking about themi want to talk to people who are direct about their intentions and thoughtsmaybe even people who make stuff or want to see and talk about the things i make or bothi am predisposed to weird experimental and unorthodox art because i do not have talenti do not in any sense connect with people very easily but i tryplease dont add if youre evil racist or a gooner or somethingmy discord is "intheshadowofthevalley"
>>34749433Dont worry, your not asexual at all, you just have less sexual dessire, and the men you have been with have too much sexual dessire. And yes, there can be more well behaved men, he will come, just dont push it and keep goin with ur average life!!
Hello everyone. I'm bored and I want attention. I'm a songslave. I will sing any (moderately popular and known) song you ask me to, and then I will post a vocaroo of my doing so. This is my kink, and also my attentionwhoring.
i still feel like shit and i had to drink to calm the shakes because of my injection it was bad i wasn't gonna get the needles on the syringe let alone in the vial or leg without it
>>34753237Sing Think of Me from Phantom of the Opera (2004)!
>>34753289https://voca.ro/1hrxBy4u544r
>>34753237can you sing tiktok by kesha, and make it cunty anon
>>34753259Have you ever considered using an insulin injector/autoinjector? Theyre less stressful to use than typical syringes, because they do the hard part for you.https://www.youtube.com/shorts/jeIr-bLepgk>>34753299https://voca.ro/1bnM8QeZF0Aj
>>34753307no ty i'm fine with this
>>34753307splendiferous anon, absolutely magnifico, it was cunty alrightnext one is donttrustme by 3oh!3, thanks for doing this
>>34752424Thanks, you're right, I'll keep myself busy with good things and continue trying to meet nice people.>>34753237>>34753307I liked tiktok.Would you do Birds of a Feather? I really like that song. Thanks
>>34753307Nice.I'm doing fine, by Marino, stp
>>34753317https://voca.ro/1mIPV2E7u3RR>>34753321https://voca.ro/1hWkeWJjL53j>>34753324https://voca.ro/1cJYGl8lfL6B
>>34753396i love you anon, very beautiful job, thank you for spending all your time on these, you dont have to try so hard its okay, i appreciate what youre doing anywayfinal song for now i think is oh no! by marina
>>34753396So good. Thank you.
M22 just woke up in my gf’s dorm bored and horny with a little bit of time. Please hmu and send me anything to make my cock throb in her bed. Make me get naked and jerk in her bed when she has no idea. Make me feel so dirty because I’m gooning to the things u send in her bed. Make me jerk off with her panties to whatever you send. Drive me deeper into my porn addiction and melt my brain with pleasure. And please if u can fake my celeb crush in any way. Pics, vids, nudify, caps, AI, any of it would make me throb!Willing to show off if u help me out.Pls HMU, anyone and anything welcome!Session051c8e6f774ab979d1379a65580e607f97c0fd4161e154c757d438dd2a6a73d92b
>>34753407https://voca.ro/15SaDDkoG69TI am going to take a nap now. Thank you for the requests, and for the attention. I might return later.
>>34753458GOO WHITE BOY GOOO, you really sang with cunt this time anon, thank you very much, your voice sounds like something id hear on a comic fandub on tumblr and i mean that in the nicest way possiblehave a nice nap and treat yourself
>>34753458I love you anon thank you for these. sleep well and enjoy the attention! your voice is so cute lolmy request is thank you for the venom by my chemical romance if you get back to it when you wake up ^_^
M22 in my gf’s dorm bored and horny with a little bit of time. Please hmu and send me anything to make my cock throb in her bed. Make me get naked and jerk in her bed when she has no idea. Make me feel so dirty because I’m gooning to the things u send in her bed. Make me jerk off with her panties to whatever you send. Drive me deeper into my porn addiction and melt my brain with pleasure. And please if u can fake my celeb crush in any way. Pics, vids, nudify, caps, AI, any of it would make me throb!Willing to show off if u help me out..Pls HMU, anyone and anything welcome!Session051c8e6f774ab979d1379a65580e607f97c0fd4161e154c757d438dd2a6a73d92b
ok i'm fine now mixed some dew voltage with some booze
I’m M looking for things to send my master to please him. I’m a sad pathetic loser just looking to make my master’s cock happy and do what he says. Please he’ll get mad at me if I don’t please him properly. Looking for anyone who can help! If u can help please respond with “I’ll help you”.05955aa0aeaad12fc6aa74a681b34dff24fdb49d51c5f98ab8234aa80ef6f2f810
>ASL19/F/USA>Looking forlately ive been feeling like something is missing in my life & i think having someone i can truly bond with will heal my soul. my ultimate goal is to form a serious relationship. i want a lifelong partner (aka a husband) that i can eventually meetup with irl. i will get to know you first and see where things take us. please dont add me just to immediately sext me, not interested in that until we've established that sort of relationship. being able to vc sometimes is a plus.>Not looking forghosters, unironically rude people, people immediately interested in sex, doesnt contribute to conversation, consistently taking forever to respond, people who do not live in the USA, people not looking for a serious long-term relationship, people who dont want to have children, NEETS>Interestssinging, video games, cooking, tv shows, voice acting, fashion, food, doomscrolling, hiking, animals, just started getting into jigsaw puzzles and i love it>Discordclingycassie
>>34753289>>34753293>requesting yourselfI like the cut of your jibI second the oh no! request here >>34753404 if you come back>>34753563I remember the first time I had alcoholinated soda. It was a social thing with an open bar but I left my wallet (and ID) at home because I'm an idiot. Anyway I asked someone to get me booze and they handed me their jack and coke. Was pretty good. Then they got another and handed me that as well. I went through I don't know how many of these until I was sloppy. People kept handing me more like it was a conspiracy to make me black out and of course I didn't refuse any of these. I drank so many half finished drinks from people I didn't even know I'm surprised I didn't get herpes from it. Completely fucked by the end of the night. Had an after party but we didn't get anything to drink, all we had on hand was shitty everclear and some gross citrus flavored cooking shit. I don't remember how much I drank of each but at least one shot of the everclear. Blacked out on the floor of my room, woke up drunk tried to message my gf at the time and (luckily) did not hit send, passed out. Woke up sick as shit, deleted the message which was fucking incomprehensible and sent a sorry drunk lol instead. My throat hurt for the better part of a week after that. But at least I didn't vomit. Everyone else did but not me. That was the last time I really drank.>>34753709this isn't a dating thread cassie
>>34754039you like marina anon or just early 2000s scene music?
>>34752207I wasn't really crying so much over them, but just the pain of someone you thought loved you hurting you so deeply. I still think of them from time to time, but the trauma therapy techniques have helped me a lot, and honestly just time and having new life experiences/meeting other people. Thank you for your well wishes. I hope you make it through this a better person
I need someone to read scenes from my autistic cartoon that im writingIt's about an incel trying to pipe some robot chick after getting superpowers and he finds out reality is rigged'cord: baselordisblaster
>>34754087I like Marina's early stuff a lot. Her first three albums, especially Electra Heart, were great. I haven't listened to much of her stuff past Froot tho>scene musicI'm not sure what all counts as scene, but I like everything Paramore has done
>>34754369its okay, im just saying shit, im not a stickler for genres or their definitions either, i dont really know marinas new stuff eitherparamore is really good!! patd, set it off, gaga, thats all kind of stuff id bunch into that aesthetic, its not really what i listen to on the daily or my current taste in music but i like the vibe so much i listen to it all a lot, i might make op sing something from msi
>>34754039hii thanks for pointing out the obvious douche, however i am THE cassie so im allowed to do whatever i want
>>34754392I just say shit all the time too most of it doesn't mean anything>paramore is really good!!They are and Hayley is an incredible singer and has only gotten better over time>patd, gagaI like both of those but especially Gaga. Artpop was my favorite from her. She reminds me a lot of Goldfrapp. What's your current taste in music? >msiSomeone got me into them a little a while back but I still haven't listened to much of theirs I should get around to that
>>34754519i like lauren bousfield and belladonnakillz lately, its starkly different from what were talking about but since you asked! i love fame and born this way, but ive known those songs for years, artpop was somewhat new to me... well a year ago or something, but i really fell in love with it, lady gagas one of the only popular pop musicians who ill always lovemsi is good but dont get your hopes up! i can send you some things i enjoy of theirs if youd like, if you want to share your discord or i share mine
