>NEET / work part-time for years>run multiple games and constantly have ideas for new ones>become full-time wagie>rapidly lose energy and enthusiasm for running games>turn 30, become NEET again>think that I will recover my creative drive>4 months in and I still feel like it's empty inside my mindIt's like I was born with a set amount of soulful creative energy and I used it all up. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm going back to school and the local game store will actually pay you to be a DM, so I was thinking of running an open-table west marches game there but I just don't have energy or creativity to do that. I'm already running a couple of campaigns but only maybe once a month. Is this how it's gonna be for the rest of my life? How do I break out of this?
Getting paid to DM and turning it into a job (A poor paying job, no less) is the easiest way of losing all passion for TGs
>>97404575okay well aside from the novelty of being a paid DM (it'd be like 7.25/hr, it's not for the money it's just because I've always wanted to run an open-table drop-in game anyway just to see how people behave in a sandbox world with gold-for-XP). More generally, it's just that I don't have the ability to just whip up a whole dungeon or setting on the fly anymore like I used to. My brain used to be overflowing with ideas. Then 5 years of factory wagecucking destroyed that.
>>97404559You just constantly had new ideas? Didn't pluck them from anywhere or get inspiration from anything?
>>97404559What you are asking for and what you are saying you want to do with it are on opposite ends you can't have both without serious work ethic which you clearly lack. get your act together.
>turn 30, become NEET againI don't get it. How do your finances work? Are you just broke and depressed?
>>97404945Working full-time can build up savings that allows you to become a NEET, at least for a while.
>>97404559Consume some fantasy or scifi media that you genuinely enjoy. Thats where 'creativity' comes from: not from a vacuum, but from seeing things that inspire you to put your own spin on them or combine them with other ideas in a vacuum.Its also possible you're just, you know, depressed. That tends to damper creativity too, and modern day adult life and be pretty depressing. Especially if you consider NEET-dom to be a step up.
>>97404559>set amount of soulful creative energyMore like, you decided to consume rather then produce.
>>97405030much better to get really good at something specific and disappear into a WFH job. I've probably made $20k over the years doing session prep when I was technically supposed to be working
>>97404559Any time someone talks about "wagecucking," they are depressed. Work on your diet, read books, work out, go on walks, stick to a schedule, make sure you're getting enough sleep. You aren't a super special snowflake, there are plenty of people who work full time or more and still manage to come up with shit and run games.
>>97405158Indeed, I would argue that even thinking about it in terms of 'wagecucking' is setting yourself up for depression, because you've inherently treated having a job as some kind of defeat state. I've been doing my job at various companies for 16 years, but I have high satisfaction with it because I like what I do. If you can find a job that you don't just tolerate, but find comfortable or satisfying to do? You'll have a much happier life.For example, resteraunt workers almost always report low job satisfaction. Its a high stress, high turnover job where you have to get it right every time but nothing you make lasts. You can make and serve the dish 99 time in a row perfectly and never get thanked, but if you mes it up once you'll never hear the end of it and at the end of the day you're just exhausted from trying to keep everyone else happy but you don't have anything tangible to show for it.Meanwhile, construction workers tend to report high job satisfaction. Because they take pride in being able to point to the building they made and say "I did that". Even if its hard worker, the tangible results of it make it feel more worth it.
>>97405082Correct post here, OP. Pay attention to this man.
