I've come to the realization that i don't really play games to have fun anymore, i play them as a desperate attempt at connecting with others and to simulate having anything at all going on in my life.Some of the main things i enjoy doing in games are build-crafting and decorating homes. I think it's because it makes me feel like i'm creating something, or making progress at something.Something that other people can see. Maybe even appreciate.There are singleplayer games i would like to play, VNs i would like to read, anime i would like to watch, but it all feels pointless now.Ever since my girlfriend passed away, i feel completely hollow inside, i barely even feel like i exist anymore when i'm not perceived by someone.When she was still around i was able to take joy in singleplayer games, whether we went through them together or i played them by myself, but i just can't find myself deriving any joy from anything that i do just for myself anymore. I'm probably not even gonna be around that much longer anymore, what's the point in accumulating "fun" experiences only for myself at that point?That's why i only really find myself able to play multiplayer games anymore. It would be nice to be remembered by someone for something i made or did there.But i'm also terrible at socializing in games... idk. Sorry this was a pretty pointless blogpost, i suppose.
>>738103289Damn that's rough Kanoe. Sorry to hear that.Anyway, did you make me any more of those asmr countdowns? You should make me a vidya one
>>738103406I think you got the wrong kanoefag, sorry anon
>>738103289Damn im so sorry dude, you should shoot up a Christian highschool and commit suicide after. It’s totally safe as long as you commit suicide before being caught. Highly recommend going for the high score.
>generic gacha game animu moeblob>woe-is-me i hate video games blogpostEvery time Sorry to hear about your partner dying tho
>>738103504I don't hate games but yes sorry it was a stupid post to make.
>>738103449Nah I was just shit posting but really you're probably just depressed. as someone who also had a gf pass away, It took me seriously years and years to become fully happy again and I still get waves of depression over it. Don't force yourself. You'll find enjoyment again.
>>738103538Maybe try more interesting forms of art than anime.
>>738103706I'm glad you found happiness again anon.I really can't see that happening for myself sadly, i have no life without her at all, she was who i shared everything with, she was my inner voice, my best friend, my future and the only person i ever felt like i could actually be myself around and still be loved. She was such a huge weirdo herself and i loved her so much for it, there isn't ever gonna be anyone or anything to replace this... i'm all alone now, sitting in this empty apartment full of her stuff, her half of the bed being empty forever nowI love her so much, it's too painful
>>738103289>desperate attempt at connecting with othersretard
>>738103289Do you get off by this? Are you a masochist or otherwisely submissive?
>>738104160>i have no life without her at allyes you have, before her you were alive, and here your after she passed away, and still you can have a life, yes she will not be around, but that doesnt mean a bad life...dont know what is happening in your head in your surroundings, with your family, friends, a large etc... but do not think like your whole existence was hanging upon her, in reality we never share a 100% with a partner, also here your sharing with others and trying to keep everyday trying to find something that could fulfill the hole she left, and very likely will not happen instead you will found someone else that will make you feel different and fill your life in a different way, just keep your life bro, best for you
>>738103289yeah man i ge->Ever since my girlfriendthread hidden
