>>738203017
Nope. I've actively tried to avoid mirrors for about 12 years

I hate myself and I want to die

>>738203017
I prefer this version of myself today than I did of last year. It's hard not to look at the past and hate it, even harder to try and be compassionate about it.

>>738203017
could be better

Not at the moment no. I made a choice that put me in danger and forced me and my family to move

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Yes, of course.

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>>738203017
i am, objectively, doing pretty good in essentially all aspects of my life.
i still feel awful and like a fraud.

>>738203574
Feeling bad about it still makes you better than the average normalgolem who would rather just pretend it didn't happen

>>738203017
No, I wanna be a version of me with an erased memory, a clean slate

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>10 year old trannytale fags when that scene be like

I am an ugly piece of shit that never had a chance in life, so no. One of my main fantasies at the moment is wishing I could die in my sleep and be reincarnated as a young boy in either Hyrule or Nazi Germany. Whichever, really.

>>738203837
>in either Hyrule
Nice choice

>>738203837
Being alive and breathing is an unfathomable chance, I hope you get to realize it one day.

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>>738203837
>Nazi Germany

>>738203017
I feel like i've been in a state of stasis for the past few years

>>738203878
Thank you.

>>738203927
Being alive is the worst curse in existence.

>738203961
(you)

>>738203961
>>738203961
Yes you would fair better since in nazi Germany there arent jews poisoning your food and water supply and you will look better cause of that

>>738203017
I'd more want to improve how I'm presented socially than physically

>>738204029
Numbing yourself is the worst curse in existence you could ever put on yourself

>>738204106
It's a bad choice because you'd have to experience post-war Germany

>>738204136
I cry every time I go to bed, So I wouldn't really consider myself numb.

>>738203017
Yeah after a few turbulent years, I'm at peace now
I have a good job and I have time for vidya. Still have my mom and dad, and a good group of friends from high school (I'm 33)
I've accepted that I'm a hard person to love and that my standards also prevent me from having a reciprocated love. I also barely go out so that makes it worse, but I don't really mind anymore; I enjoy myself in my free time
The me from 5-10 years ago would've folded and taken any sort of abuse from whoever wanted to get into a relationship with me. Never again. I also played vidya on pure inertia; came to a point where I didn't quite enjoy it like I do now

>>738203017
Yes. Of course, I'm not the idealized version of myself, and i do have regrets. But i think it's almost impossible to be the perfect you that you envision and have no regrets at all.

I think i am at least happy and satisfied with what i am.

>>738204292
Hi fellow crier I'm>>738203757
I have extreme trauma, forever broken in my mind bipolar

>>738203017
Recently unemployed. I'm just really fucking annoyed and impatient all the time because I have no money to do anything, and all I can do is just sit back and wait for some place to call me back.
At least I've been able to take out my frustrations playing RE4, Devil May Cry, and Dead Space.

>>738203017
I love myself. It's the world that needs change

>>738203017
Of course. Else I'd change towards something I would prefer.

>>738203017
I am indifferent to myself. I can see that I am a fat lazy slob, but I feel zero motivation to change, so whatever.

Yes. I work out, have a beautiful and loving wife, I have my health and I have a shitload of PS2 and Saturn games. I have a 7.5 inch penis. I take hard shits.

>>738204585
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lyu1KKwC74

>>738204680
Then you wake up.

>>738204106
Do you really think you meet their standards?

>>738204803
I would if i wasn't raised in a jewish world that poisons me

>>738204803
do you think ugly dysgenic people like us would exist in a world like that? our genetics would be totally different and we would actually end up being normal or even super human

>>738203017
No. I'm locked in the bathroom with explosive diarrhea for the fifth time and my asshole feels like fire but I don't want to take a pill because what if I really need to get something out? I ate strawberries yesterday maybe there was a bad one I missed. Felt nauseous multiple times but haven't thrown up at least

>>738204106
If your biggest suffering comes from your appearance, you are suffering because you seek the approval and admiration of others.

It's a fools errand i tell you, to live in seeking to be admired by people that do not truly care for you and would actually envy you and wish you the worst.

True good companions will not care about your appearance, like friends and family, you can find happiness from within yourself with your current appearance.

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It is naive of me to hope that my sins and mistakes will never catch up to me, considering they're right there, staring back at me every waking minute of my life
And to think that I have wasted so much time and so much effort and so much energy contributing to communities and places on this very website; and because of my stubborn and misplaced sense of dignity, whatever that means, nobody knows my name, nobody ever will, and only I will have to suffer the consequences of my own mistakes
In a way, it's even a bit funny

no
all i do is jerk off all day like 12 hours total every day and feel like dying
i will never like being myself, i'm a lost cause

>>738205361
capeshit

>>738205376
that horse fell

wow

>>738204136
>>738204292
Crying and feeling bad means you're still attuned to yourself. Many people would be in your position and would be doing drugs or escaping into self-destructive habits to cope with the pain.
I consider both of you above the majority because most people would avoid their pain, avoid introspection and ultimately avoid the next steps to lead them to a better future. It sounds easy from a stranger's point of view, but trust me when I say that self-parenting is the kindest thing you can do to yourself when nobody has ever made you feel safe and accepted.
You're not alone, there's the younger version of you who's in desperate need of being held and being acknowledged within you.

>>738205020
>do you think ugly dysgenic people like us would exist in a world like that?
Exactly. They'd march you onto a train, and then into a gas chamber, and then they would forget about you. So it's not in your best interests to support Nazism, is it?

>>>/r9k/

>>738205536
>>738204508
Both of you, my bad.

>>738205554
it's in my best interests to support nazism because it's the only way forwards to a better world

>>738205376
You know your name. You know that you have this strong sense of dignity. In the end, unfortunately our ego will always make it very difficult for us to feel good without the admiration of other.

In fact, in an alternate situation where you actually had no dignity and had done nothing for no community at all but people thought you did, you could be feeling better.

This is because unfortunately our ego is a terrible thing, that makes our truth less relevant than that of the others. But we will only achieve true peace and happiness when we manage to learn to care more about our own truth.

It's a difficult battle, but we should aim to take it

>>738205636
A better world for who?

>>738205636
There's a funny correlation between men drawn to fascism and men who were emotionally neglected when they were younger. Whether they had a dad who was physically present or not. Some cosmic force makes fathers unavailable to their kids, turning women into whores and men into radicals.

>>738203017
No I hate just about every aspect of my life and it’s made worse because I know I had opportunities
>grew up intelligent
>dad worked hard to send me to private school
>went to community college and stuck at shitty government job
>tall broad build
>first boss said if he had my body he’d have gone pro rugby
>been fatass most of my life
>decent looking, good hair, good teeth
>again been fatass most of my life
>middle aged kissless handholdless virgin
>never put enough effort into any hobby to be good
Both my parents died of cancer in the past year and half too so now I have this thought of “what’s the point in trying, they died knowing me a failure” on top of everything too

>>738205448
You're masturbating your penis for 12 hours? Every day? Jesus is it like a dried up parsnip?

>>738205376
You have the power of compassion and you deserve being able to turn it inwards. You are not your mistakes, you are not a monster. The version of yourself who's "broken" belongs to the past where the mistakes also belong. Is it dusk forever, or does dawn come every day?

>>738205554
Why is it hard to understand you wouldn't be dysgenic like you are now in this hypothetical situation. You are dysgenic cause you were poisoned from birth

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I don't know about (You) but when I woke up this morning somebody told me
>YOU DON'T HAVE TO LOSE
>YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE DEFEATED
>YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE

>>738205739
for everyone

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>>738205786
unless you acted like an ass to them, then they probably just loved you and hoped you were happy

>>738205786
>Both my parents died of cancer in the past year and half
I'm sorry for that, anon. I believe they were relieved that you didn't die before them as that is the worst pain a parent could endure. You're still here and alive, they'll be proud of you for sticking around.
>dad worked hard to send me to private school
This disconnect could potentially tie in to some of your troubles, it's ok to admit that you didn't have the greatest upbringing because that's where you pick up the leftovers and make something worthwhile.

>>738205536
If I had access to drugs I think I would just take them. There really isn't anything in this world living for. Especially for someone like me that has never even had a chance at life. I don't even know what I would do even if my body and face wasn't horrifically ugly.

>>738205806
i don't deathgrip it for 12 hours usually, i alternate between actually jerking it off and nipple play and rubbing the dick against surfaces, like the desk
sometimes i go too hard and it swells up really badly. i have also ripped the skin, especially around the foreskin area, probably because i never use lube. it does hurt randomly sometimes, probably because i squeeze too hard still when trying to cum for the 11th time and crush the urinary tract or something. but it's not too bad

>>738205806
I'm afraid his brain might be in a worse scenario, forever wired to seek cheap and quick thrills over anything substantial and worthwhile

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Honestly, more and more I come to the conclusion that you're all simps. It's always about your appearance, always about being virgin, always about muh women.

There are a LOT of things to do in this life, there are MANY sources of enjoyment, enlightenment, dedication or i don't know whatever the fuck one can seek in this life.

But you want the attention of women... It's pathetic. And we're on a videogame board of all things. Weren't you guys supposed to be enjoying gaming and masturbating to sate your hornyness?

>>738205958
If you want a better world for everyone, why do you support a genocidal regime that wanted to exterminate entire demographics?

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kek why is this entire thread indistinguishable from a /lgbt/ one
no more brother wars

>>738204737
Its the truth. Ive been here since 2007. Its never too late bud.

>>738203017
What a weird message to put in a tranny game

>>738206129
It's ok to feel inadequate, but your perception doesn't mean it equals to objective reality. I feel the same way as well, that's because of issues with attachment where my parents weren't able to value me, rendering me unable to value myself. What you believe in will become reality, not in a self-fulfilling prophetic way but in a world-building way. You don't have to become a pathological liar to end up feeling handsome, but through self-compassion you can find the strength to not feel hatred, you'll find that you have qualities that make up for objectively looking ugly.

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>>738205735
It's all cope at the end of the day, isn't it
I can think to myself "oh wow that anon 2 months ago told me he really admired me" or I can look up any references to my (willingly nebulous) monikers in the archives and see that people sometimes still sometimes mention me long after I've gone, but it really doesn't matter
When I turn off this PC, I am the one that sits here, and I am the one that has to face those that truly know me and love me, and what do I have to show for it? A web of lies and vagueness at most.
It is naive for me to think I've done some great thing, that I'm some Renaissance man who dabbled in all kinds of creative and intellectual pursuits for the sake of my curiosity or intelligence: I'm just a dumb procrastinating retard who wasted my life

>>738205883
Maybe, one day. Funnily enough, today was supposed to be that very day, without being facetious; but it obviously wasn't. I ended up spending most of it helping out someone else on this shithole of a website, and they'll likely never even respond nor acknowledge the stupid amount of effort I've poured into that, but it's fine. Even if they did, nothing would really change.

>>738206346
Your brain is broken

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>>738206428
cute frogs

>>738203783
>having emotions means you're a tranny
You're brown btw.

>>738206385
No, it's not okay to feel inadequate at all. My life was stolen from me because my stupid fucking ugly parents couldn't resist their moronic animalistic desires to have sex with each other and then they neglected my health and now I am this mentally ill autistic freak that just has to keep on pointlessly living until I die in my room. No amount of fucking 'self-compassion' will ever overcome my flesh and blood. I have to live with this every single day. I wish I could kill myself but I am a coward and it's not like you can get a firearm in the country I live in anyways so any method I'd try would have a high chance to fail and would be quite painful and then if I do survive, I'd get bloody sectioned.

>>738206656
>troon trying to use racism to get people to like a trannycore game
lol I've you you fags try this tactic before

If I could just forget what happened to me I'd be happy and live a fulfilling life

>>738203017
Eh, could be worse but also could definitely be better

>>738206724
I'm sorry about what your parents have decided to do, they brought you here as a gift for themselves and haven't even had the decency to treat your life as such. It's not your fault. I'm glad you still haven't decided to end it all. It's not cowardice or lack of measures, I believe it's the desire to feel again that keeps you around. Treat yourself with more care and attention than your parents ever did, will you?

>738203783
>738205453
>738205563
>738206321
>738206346
>738206816
I wonder what makes sincerity seem like poison to anons like this.
The most broken individuals are ones incapable of self-reflection or feeling sympathy

>>738206816
>lol I've you you fags try
ESL turd got too nervous, kek.

>>738206890
Do you want your mind to forget? Your body keeps the score, it's what leads you to compulsive behaviors that trumps any idea of free-will.

>>738203017
not 100% but it's still better than what most people have

>>738207046
years of irony in an era of post-post-post irony?

>>738207046
/v/ doesn't reward sincerity

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>70lbs heavier after female kicks me to the curb
>shitload more money now
I need to fucking lose weight immediately.

>>738207068
My horrible past alienates me from most people, I can't relate to anyone, can't connect to anyone. I am an alien stranded on this Earth

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>>738207059
>he's still trying
lol tranny was probably crying at this scene

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>>738203017
yeah
could of been better
could of been a lot worse, like grammar nazi worse

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>>738207204
>70lb
BRO WHAT. I feel like a fat fuck being 30lb heavier than I should be. AHHHHHH
>got new job making $180k
>downside: 50 min commute each way
>and my l4/l5 is bulging. I'm rehabbing it but back injuries don't go away
life could be a lot better.

every single problem you're going through right now is your fault btw
>muh parents
>le joos
>muh genetics
Are just excuses and you know it.

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>>738206563
ikr

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>>738203017
Not sure. I dont really think about it. I mean who else am i supposed to be? Im not gonna live my life like some psychotic narcissist always measuring who i am against some idealized yardstick version of myself that only exists in my head. Thats just dumb. I dont like or dislike what i am i simply accept that i am what i am because thats all i ever could be.

Also soulelle best ship

>>738207204
why were you kicked to the curb?

>>738207395
I was 7 years old when my life got ruined, my body went through early puberty, that's when my childhood ended...and my life

>>738207046
Online dishinibition effect makes retards think that being sincere is weak and it makes you a target when in reality it's a virtue

>>738207395
no I think my dad letting our house fall into ruin just to spite my piece of shit mother who he was too worthless and lazy to divorce despite her alcoholic ass torturing the whole family my entire life is not my fault
nor is it my fault that he hit and screamed and me and never did anything but belittle me when he's so stupid I've been more intelligent than him since I was 10 years old

>>738206964
Thanks for the kind words but it is most definitely my cowardice and lack of measures that is stopping me from killing myself. Every human wants to 'feel' but what would that feeling be to me in a sober state? I am too ugly and stupid to be included in anything *human*. There just isn't anything out there for me. I was not cut out for life at all. I suppose I have video games and other stupid crap to keep me company but this is not what I thought my life was going to be at all. What a depressing shit show all of this is.

>>738207252
It's kind of cathartic to notice other people who are struggling with the same issues as you because it makes you feel less alone, it's freeing. Just know that we all feel like aliens even when we pretend the contrary.

>>738206428
Everyone dies at the end of their life (shocker, i know) and everything dies eventually. Everything changes. What I'm trying to say is... We can always say that we wasted our lives no matter what.

The only thing that truly matters ultimately is if we enjoyed. If we felt good with the journey, that's all.

Most people, me included, ends up getting swallowed by the ego and caring too too much by the perception of others, when this is the real waste of life.

We have to learn to value more our own truth, and live my a metric of our objectiveness, not others. It's fucking hard, i would know because i tried and i still am trying. But this is the truest way to find happiness and peace i believe.

You mentioned people that truly know you and love you, about having nothing to show. To those people, do you truly need to show anything? And couldn't you show, or at least tell, your truth?

>>738203783
the 10 year olds of then are 20 years old now

>>738207656
Have you ever had the desire to create something? From a simple doodle to being the lead director of a game/movie.

I don't brush my teeth because I have adhd

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>>738203017
yep, im the best in fact, the diva of this existence

>>738203017
I wish I could read books more than my brain lets me, my mind wanders off after two paragraphs

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>>738203017
not really
but there isn't much i can do change it

>>738207046
the people in this thread talking about how much they hate themselves are the same kind of people who will spread hatred in this place
sympathy is hardly warranted

>>738208186
I had a desire, sure. A long time ago though. I don’t really have that desire anymore. And I could never get into drawing anyways. It was too difficult and I could never translate whatever was in my head on to the paper. I suppose I day dream a lot of being in various different scenarios. I suppose that’s creating something in a sense.

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>>738203017
No. I'm 31 with no friends or plans to leave my parents' house.
At least I have a job, kind of get along with my coworkers, and my social skills are improving at a glacial rate, so I guess I'm a little happier than I was a few years ago.
I still don't see any future besides killing myself after my dad dies.

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>>738204803
>>738205554
>>738206262
>If you want a better world for everyone, why do you support a genocidal regime that wanted to exterminate entire demographics?
Isn't that what's happening right now with a little country that's only ~70 years old? Aren't they also enacting this in other countries where they also have massive political power over the natives?

>>738203017
I do like myself but everybody else in the world tries to make me feel bad all the time. I don't know why and I'm growing uninterested in other humans because of it.

>>738208601
Wow fucking shocker just shut up

>>738208706
how do they make you feel bad, are you just stuck around toxic people or are you being prevented from dissociating?

>>738208718
the day i look through the catalog and dont see various types of slurs used derogatorily will be the day when i think this board's people deserve sympathy

If you don't have a plethora of health and neurological issues shut the fuck up.

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>>738207968
Oh that much I know, I know full well I haven't truly wasted my life; but it's the pile of "what-ifs" and "damn that one time I could've". Or even just the "I oughta set my pride aside and do X or Y"
>The only thing that truly matters ultimately is if we enjoyed. If we felt good with the journey, that's all.
It's funny, that's been my guiding light and main cope all these years: my dad was an incredible worker, an amazing man who devoted his entire life exclusively to his family and his career, yet he was taken at the ripe age of 29 with nobody to blame for it. All in all, I can only pray he had fun and enjoyed his life because it'd be a really grim state of existence if he hadn't.
Hell, at some point I was really into hedonism as well, for how dumb it sounded: those guys fucked a bit too much to be relatable but at at least they made some sense. Happiness is only inside of yourself, live by your own morals and truths, yadda yadda.
But still, there's a world out there and it'd be dumb to ignore it since we live knee-deep inside of it, whether we like it or not; and I sure as fuck like it, and I hope you do too, anon.

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>>738207294
>brown
>ESL
>shartynigger
You are the cancer that is killing this site.

>>738208906
You’re a faggot just shut up

>>738208681
Just say what you really want. Say what you really think. Say what you really are.

>>738208828
The friction is nonstop. It's not just "toxic" people that outright insult you or have expectations you're not interested in. Just regular people are always infringing. Why haven't you dressed this or that way, why don't you like this or that. At the end of the day, I have noticed that if a human isn't happy they try to share the misery.

>>738207294
I look like this and say this by the way

>>738208647
That can be one of the things keeping you alive, you haven't kicked the bucket simply because you daydream about something better. if there were no rewards to reap and no loving embrace to see you through pain then you would've left this path long ago. You don't have to swallow the hope pill but know that if you feel pain, the opposite can also be felt.
Hold on to your creation and your desire for it, you don't have to draw or create a game to keep it alive in your mind.

>>738208706
I wish I would have realized this when I was younger.
There's no reason to take it personally when someone is acting like an asshole towards you. Being an asshole is their personality problem, not yours.
It's so easy to shrug things off when I started thinking this way.

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>>738208997
the jokes write themselves, enjoy your worthless life spent pitypartying on fucking /v/

>>738208906
>>738209136
>OMG YOU CAN'T SAY THAT....
Nigger lol

>>738203017
I have more shekels than before so today me will always be superior.

>>738209021
Two people can experience the same thing, one of them will forget about it and the other will cling onto that memory for the rest of their life. Maybe your issue is taking things too personally. Do you feel like your own unhappiness stems from the need to conform?

>>738209206
if you cant respect others, what makes you think you deserve respect?

>>738209282
Respect is something that is earned not given

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lol id do be like that

>>738209336
and what makes you think youve earned it?

>>738204176
Anon would have turned the tides.

>>738203017
>making decent money
>lost 15 pounds so far this year
>exercising daily
>stopped drinking

I'm not doing too badly. I do feel unfulfilled though.

>>738209007
I'm not isr*li thoughever

>>738206132
>he ripped the skin
Rookie mistake bucko

Right well this thread seems to have run its course

this thread was just people trauma dumping, people trauma sucking and infighting because of banter

>>738209386
Respect is relative, subjective and objective
My intentions with you and this board and not the same you have
I say I hate Niggers and anons won't respect me because who respects what a parrot repeats everyday
I give my respect with only the ones who I consider they earned MY respect

>>738203017
Nope. Working to change that every day. I've cut out video games, I only check on 4chan when I wake up, and am actively getting a trucker's license to make more money so I make home improvements, get some doctor's appointments, and chip away at creative pursuits. I would only ever come back to video games if I did streaming so I'd have a chance at making dosh.

>>738210556
>I've cut out video games
>posts on /v/
haha classic

>>738203017
no i'm a lazy piece of shit who can't focus on anything

This places is the only thing that brings me joy, that and playing with my peniks, and that is sad

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>>738210601
It is what it is. Video games have been part of my life for the 31 years I've been alive. They've carried me this far, but they've done nothing, truly, for my character. Streaming would be nice, but that's what trucking would be for - getting the dosh for a setup.

>>738203708
are you actually even doing good enough to feel like a "fraud" about it?

>>738210556
>I only check on 4chan when I wake up
good morning, anon!
but really you should not being checking this in the morning. do it at night. use the morning for yourself and setting up everything to have a great day/life

>>738210865
unironically yes.
i own my own excessively big, to-my-spec renovated home, live with my great gf, have plenty of money in the bank, own the sports car i wanted, have a cozy white collar job, have my hobbies, etc etc. all boxes ticked

>>738211141
what do you do for fun? or maybe you feel terrible because nothing seems fun?
or does your job take up all your time so you can't do fun stuff

>>738211141
Life is not a checklist of sports cars and hobbies, and a female companion only matters if you love her. The only thing that matters is love and challenge.

>>738203017
I always strive to be better than yesterday but I'm content with how I am now.
>>738210556
What is so bad about games? Unless you exclusively played some toxic multiplayer treadmill like LoL or CS then I kinda understand

>>738208658
Why do people make such a big deal about leaving their parents homes? Is it that horrible and insufferable to live with your family?

Why would you be much happier if you left your house? I don't get it... Sometimes it truly feel like you guys are suffering because there are certain expectations imposed on yourself by some old and common consensus that may not exactly apply well to you.

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>>738203017
I stopped liking this a long time ago. I feel bad for my younger self, he deserved so much better... So does the very few people who still like me.
All the potential I had, I wasted it. I lost myself in completely useless and messy things. Some of it is due to others and life, but I also know a lot of it is my own fault for losing myself and being too stubborn.
but I try hold on to try become better, even if life is a struggle and it feels very hard sometimes when I'm not doing escapism, I know I will never be the best version I could have being, but I know my younger self is still there behind all the shit. I might have have many mistakes but I'd like to still try my best. The world is becoming much worse is not an excuse to be your worse self.
anyway, where are the video games here?

>>738211790
It's a big cultural thing, especially in the US. I don't really understand it either.

My parents had me when they were like 45 so they're old enough to be my grandparents, I enjoy being at home around them while I still can and there's a lot of stuff they need help with at this point too. I'm gonna inherit the house anyways so I might as well just stay here, saves me money and everyone's happier. I do crave a little more independence and privacy sometimes and I have moved out briefly a couple times for school or jobs or whatever, but otherwise there's not really much reason to leave the nest. It's just not worth how much it'd cost and knowing that any day one of them could just have a stroke or something and I'll feel like I never really got to say goodbye.

Feeling bad for yourself and wallowing is childish shit. Fucking grow up and fix your shit you arent a fucking amputee in Pakistan or something stupid fucking dicks

>>738209660
Just say what you really want.

>>738211790
>Why would you be much happier if you left your house?
I basically live in my room. I want more space to work on hobbies and projects that aren't temporary setups in other parts of the house.
My mom is a religious nut and I have to act like a grey rock around her for nearly everything.
I want to date girls and have sex but that's really hard when you're 30 and living with your parents.

I wish I could leave but I can't afford to rent by myself.

>>738206656
>not checking your privileges
You're green btw
>>738207059
>still liking golem
UOL unhinged fag got too anxious, kek
>>738208974
>green
>UOL
>tranime
gzdoom lost , graf lost btw

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>>738203017
It is what it is

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>>738214082
xhey make everyone's life worse THOUGH
have you seen gas prices? I have and filling my tank sucks now

you probably don't because you're a jobless faggot on welfare

>>738214865
>have you seen gas prices?
Before I answer your question, I must ask one of my own: who did you vote for in 2024?

>>738214865
Gas prices aren't your fault (unless you voted red) but they aren't the jews' fault either.

>>738204106
Nazi regime only existed because of jew well poisoning, so no, you'd still have to deal with it. Why wouldn't you just wish to end up in a world without jews? Hyrule doesn't count, it has G*rudos.

>>738203017
It alright

>>738203783
>xitter reaction image
I know what you are, you ACTUAL troon.

>>738203017
Not at all, but im glad i dont suffer from worse stuff like gender dysphoria or some fucked up schizophrenia

As they say, things could be worse

>>738215050
>>738215085
both yid controlled parties want to invade iran for g*ds chosen

don't be retarded vooooter cattle

>>738215596
Who did you vote for? If you won't answer, I'll assume the answer to be the obvious one.

@738215643
lmaooo this mossy agent is big seething that I won't play along with his little game

stick to bombing kids and leeching tax money fag

>>738205554
0 iq

Undertroon
Troontale

>>738216006
Tizza power
chadgary spire
Dantonblast deluxe

>>738216006
rent free

>>738212382
great idea, let's repress people some more, that'll teach them!

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>>738203017
Could be worse I guess

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>>738215895
Okay, I'm going to assume that you voted for Trump, because you would've said so if you voted for someone else. Just remember next time you're paying through the nose for gas: Trump did that, and he only did so because people like you voted for him. Because you thought that your bigotry was more important than your wellbeing, and you decided that you'd rather not have nice things at all than have nice things that the people you hate get to have too. You chose this. At least a third of America chose this, and another third effectively chose this by deciding not to vote at all. So even if you're in the latter group instead of the former, you still chose this.

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>mfw this thread
Feels good to not be any of the cretins who posted ITT. Trolling or otherwise, there are some truly pathetic losers who post here kek

>>738215643
>vote
That anon is probably a 16 year old Brazilian. The only thing he’s ever “voted” for is the flavor of sopa de macaco.

>>738216391
>you thought that your bigotry was more important than your wellbeing
I thought you were actually going to say something important but I stopped reading right there.

>>738212381
>mfw I’m 34 and living at home because i have been struggling to finish my education
>mom and younger sister treat me like shit because of it
>wish I could move out just so I could focus on school without having to deal with them
>can’t afford to do so without taking out a loan, which sounds even worse than tolerating their numerous abuses
At least I FINALLY got put back on my meds. That’s been helping keep me and stable, which is more than I can say for the last few years. I’m so fucking close to being done with my degree that I can almost taste the freedom.

>>738216969
It's not a coincidence that the only time Trump lost the election was when his opponent was another white guy.

>>738216969
>implying he’s wrong
Aren’t you the same anon who calls everyone who disagrees with you a Jew or a golem?

>>738203017
No really, but i can live with it.
Im cowardly, selfish, and mean.
But im trying to be better.

>>738216391
the harris-walz ticket have repeatedly stated through official channels that iran is america's "greatest adversary", swore to stand with israel against them, and spouted the same talking points about nukes and "global terrorism" that the Trump government currently does. the only valid attack here is from the right, that Trump wasn't populist enough, and next time we need someone fags like you will hate even more for president.
>tldr: only more racism can fix this

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>>738216391
>disgusting retard jew is still pushing left right kikery
Funny how this is the only site you can remotely astroturf anymore. Anywhere else rightfully calls put your red and blue pedophile jew parties without restraint.

The core issue is jews. You made the left and right both hate you. No one is falling for it anymore moishe.

Now cry to the jannies jew boy. Maybe they'll delete the thread if you cry about the shoah or something.

>unironic democrats ITT shilling that akshully if u let the intelligence agencies and bureaucracies control everything through a weak puppet president the gas prices would fix themselves
How curious... I wonder why they've been turning America into a third world and extracting all its wealth as debt for the past 50 years then? Certainly they were JUST about to turn things around.

REGRETS

I HAVE A FEW

BUT THEN AGAIN

TOO FEW TO MENTION

>>738217219
>>738217295
See what I mean? You'd rather burn your own country down than let go of your hate.

>>738216391
Good, fuck you and yours.

>>738217506
Hi retard, just to clarify, I said the country will only stop burning when we have more racism. You don't have a counterargument because it's true. Deport 100 million immigrants and stop listening to jewish kvetching about the middle east and pretty much all problems would be fixed or dramatically improved.
Thanks for trying though.

>>738217554
And fuck you and yours too. I hope that everything you want to happen to other people happens to you.

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>>738203017
No, I'm 400lbs. 5xl pants and shirts. I'm dieting though. I want to be 200 by December.

>>738217619
>just get rid of all the X and everything will magically be perfect forever!
You're like a child.

>>738217506
>the epstein race and religion talking about hate
don't you have some kids to traffick and rape moishe? maybe some brown kids to blow up?

>>738217621
>we get to live in an unmixed isolationist ethnostate, to which we have historical roots, with our own kind and prosper unperturbed by globohomo
Huh... what a sweet thing of you to say. Thank you, anon.

>>738217506
The country has been burning for almost 50 years now.

>>738217694
And how exactly do you get there?

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>>738217621
Thanks, that means a lot!

>>738217762
I'm already here, but the third worlders will require a flight back home. Since I'm a nice guy I'll chip in to pay for it.

>>738217685
>Get rid of all the cancer cells and your body will magically be perfect forever!
Probably not, but nothing else really matters if you don't.

>>738217685
>trying to explain sense to someone who unironically believes genocide will solve his problems
He’s hopeless, anon. The only real shame is that he has decided to spend his time on /v/ instead of literally anywhere else. And we’re stuck with him because that’s just how it is.

>>738203017
No I hate my mental illness and I hate my uncaring parents for being neglectful

>>738217506
>nevermind everything getting worse for the last few decades regardless of who you voted for, there's no controlled decline, it's clearly THEIR fault!
Shalom

>>738203017
I've held a respectable full time job for the last 10 months and I've been pretty good at it. For a decade before that I was a NEET with no direction. So I am pretty happy about that. I'm not happy with my poor physical state and my health but I've been eating healthier and exercising more and I'm happy about that. Overall no I'm not satisfied with myself but at least now I have some hope that I will be satisfied with myself one day.

>>738217691
>>738217710
>>738217776
>>738217832
>>738217840
>>738217915
>>738217939
You know what, fine, you win. If you want to keep voting for hate then go right ahead. Have fun becoming an irrelevant isolationist third world shithole that no other country wants to associate with and living in squalor while your masters eat their fill. That's what you want, that's what you're getting.

I haven't showered in weeks

>>738217984
>implying any of his insane ideations will ever become a reality
No need for hysterics, anon. I know it’s frustrating to have to be exposed to people who are offensive in every single imaginable way, but it comes with the territory. We’re stuck with stubborn, insane retards because this board does nothing to discourage them from posting here. The best thing anyone can do is ignore him and his ilk, which is immensely difficult.

Just make your peace with it. You can’t have 4chan without screeching retards.

>>738217939
>believing bloating a country's population by 30% with third worlders isn't a problem
>because if he thinks that's a problem then it's a heckin genocide
And what if it IS a problem, and your handwringing is irrelevant to the incredible financial and societal damage it has caused? does calling deportations genocide mean it no longer solves said problems?
Sounds like you're just taking the easy way out by establishing a fiction in which you don't have to make any societal tradeoffs, thus keeping yourself morally blameless.

>>738217984
>fine, u can be WHITE and NOT IN PERPETUAL WAR
...nice. Thanks m8

>>738217984
>living in squalor while your masters eat their fill.
At the very least, I want to make sure that those people don't accomplish their goals by importing infinite third worlders to tank the quality of life for everyone else.

>>738218003
That’s pretty gross, NGL. Longest I’ve ever gone was about a week, and I felt truly wretched. I could definitely smell myself by the time I’d had enough.

>>738203017
When I was a kid, I looked at the world that awaited me in adulthood and realized I would never be happy if I was working a fulltime job. I'm 36 now, and the only time I was truly happy in my adult life was a brief 3 month period where I was between jobs. I'm hoping in 4 more years I'll have the money to justify quitting and hopefully find happiness again in paid-for NEETdom

>>738218232
Lol bunkertroon is about to have a melty

>>738217984
>keeping yourself in squalor while your masters eat your fill
Weird... If the masters want America to be segregationist and ethnically white, why have the trends been the opposite for the past half century? :0

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>>738203017
No. I'm a failure of a son and a drain on my mother.
I hate my mom, she was abusive and we never got along, but she's still too kind to me, or rather who I am now. Most parents would not be as forgiving as her and as willing to let their son NEET. Her parenting is partially why I am the way I am now, but that doesn't excuse me being an unemployed loser mooching off of her.