What video games do you play while hiding from your abusive normalfag family in your room?
>>738953738Star Wars Battlefront (2004)
>>738953738Rei > Asuka
Starting a new Rimworld game is like fast-forwarding life 1-4 days. Start a Factorio game if you need to wake up 1-4 months from now.
It's just me and my mom alone now.Weird co-dependency, I'm her 30 year old teen son (NEET), I play whatever games I want it doesn't matter.
>>738953738i goon to asuka scat
is this supposed to be an off-topic eva thread, or an off-topic trauma dumping thread? either way it's not video games.
>>738954645I wish Eva was a whole gaming franchiseThey tried a little on the fucking N64 and then gave up
>>738953738move out dude. after that even if you move back home you will have learned not to care
>>738953738In hindsight, I should have just snapped and beaten the shit out of my psycho stepmother when I was like 14 or 15. At worst, I probably would have ended up in a psyche ward for a while, and had to move in with my aunt and uncle or something.
>>738953738You are not a woman.
My sister would lock me in a closet while she would have weed parties while both my parents worked evening shifts.15 years later she would call me and ask to be rescued by her abusive boyfriend and I would call the guy and ask him to get one punch in for me. I'm still friends with that guy today.
>>738955016unbelievably based
I have not lived with my parents for 20 years, kiddo.
>>738954560did dad die? do you still play street fighter?
>>738953738what are they specifically doing to you and why?
>>738955982physical abuse violation of privacyostracization for having my own interests and personalityemotional abuseneglecting my mental issuesspending money my grandparents left me for school on drugs and alcohol >why they are baby boomers
>>738953738TF2 is the game I play whenever people are around and I don't want them to bother me.
>>738956112that sounds actually awful. you need to get out or they will ruin your life
>>738956112kek
>>738956173>willwhy do you think I'm stuck with them
>>738953738how old are you?
>>738956383i encourage you to try. surely you can do education or find some job to grind?
>>73895652329
>>738953738any vidya with anime girls on it
>>738956580I dropped out of college a decade agoI can't get a job here because I don't have a license and I'm too much of an anxiety riddled wreck to get one
>>738953738Tinkering with Linux while listening to white noise with noise cancelling ear buds.Or Ps2/GameCube era games. They as so nostalgic and remind of... "when everything was okay"
>>738956112>spending money my grandparents left me for school on drugs and alcoholSave up and get out. The moment you get out, Go to your bank. Move that money into a separate account your parents can't touch. Tell the bank you need to be notified any time someone tries to access that account that isn't you. If you can't do that, at least do online banking and save screenshots of those transactions, or download a pdf of those transactions on your phone or e-mail. Keep it somewhere safe. That way if something happens, they can't lie about it or say they didn't know.
gibbs you're almost 30 nigga
>>738956668well if the alternative is to live among abusive parents who are going to make your life exponentially worse from now on maybe you dont really have a choice? im sure you can get a job. living in a house full of lunatics will make any person an anxious wreck
>>738953738All of them, I probably have schizophrenia because the second i close my door it sounds like they start talking shit.
>>738953738Rampage Furyou ni Hamerarete Jusei suru Kyonyuu Okaasan
>>738953738you honestly can't, you'll intermittently hear them between drops of game audio, just get headphones and blast music loudlystart taking steps to get yourself away from that if you truly want to be free, best of luck
>>738956668German NEETs unite
>>738957039hnghh.... yessss, play this one
>>738956912that's literally been my entire lifeI've never known anything else
>>738953738Anyone who cries online about their family being abusive is usually an autist that doesn't understand they're trying to do what's best for them>nooooo! My family is abusive!Oh I'm sorry, what did they do?>they didn't let me cut my cock off and won't call me by my female name!
>>738957227how about watching my mother stab the dad in the back with a knife when I was 5 years old and then having him bail her out of jail the next day
>>738957227Me when I make up a scenario to get mad at rather than accepting that child abuse happens regularly in many families in many ways
>>738957227I bet your parents cut your cock at birth
how does a broken person who can't even get work because they live somewhere with no public transportation escape from their shitty family
>>738959264>need a car to get a job>need a job to get a carCapitalists excuse for this? Right now there is literally 140 IQ geniuses unemployed who never got a job or went to college because the US government invests nothing in its own people
>>738953738All of them >mfw this semester was going fairly well until my sister triggered me so badly that I saw red and almost tried to strangle her >the shame caused me to turn inward for a month and put me so far behind that I failed a class when I couldn’t afford to do so We’re both in our 30s. Idk how the hell my life has ended up like this. I’d have killed myself without vidya to at least take the edge off of my retarded life.
>>738957573I go on >>>/adv/ every few months if I get a little tipsy and feel like being nice to random people and try encouraging them or whatever. The shit I see some literal kids dump on there is pretty sobering. Maybe it's always some asshole role playing, but I don't think so.
>>738953738It used to be SNES games like Megaman X, LoZ, Super Mario RPG, etc. It's kinda funny how my adult life is better than my childhood was. >>738957227That's one hell of a projection you got there, anon. Not everyone had the luxury of growing up in a stable, nuclear family. Hell I moved out (or got kicked out, depending on your perspective) when I was 17 and lived in my car until I could graduate high school and join the army - and it damn sure wasn't because I wanted to be a tranny.
>>738953738I used to simply close my room door and play whatever game I had at hand. Whatever to make the pain go away.A lot of shit I don't want to get into happened but to this day vidya is one of my few escapes from life. Things might change very soon though.
>>738959454I hope things get better for soon, anon.
>tfw just waiting for my parents to die in the house with me so I can be free>have no way to financially take care of myselfI am in hell
>>738953738Expand your Horizons Gibbs
previous Gibbs threadshttps://arch.b4k.dev/v/search/filename/1479700532076.png/OP has been blogposting for a while
>>738960162Thanks, anon. As long as I can finish school and move the fuck out of this arrested development situation, everything will work out.
Too real
i'm like 90% sure I found a video of OP at a tournament and...he looks exactly how you'd expect
>>738961451focus on just scraping by, unironically D's get degrees and no one gaf's about college grades after your first year out. Focusing your efforts on not going crazy is majorly beneficial.
>>738953738>abusiveYour mom tell you to get a job again?
>>738961451I am on a similar boat. This year I am helping my mom to buy her own apartment after her divorce and hopefully next year it is going to be my turn.
>>738956112>physical abuseCall the police you retard.>b-but I couldn't prove itIf it happens so often that it's the first thing you list, go set up one of those security cameras in whatever room you get your ass beat in.
Begone underage faggot!
>>738963621OP is a 29 year old man
>>738963519it happened when I was a kid it stopped when I got big and was able to fight back
>>738963953Then don't list physical abuse if you're not being physically abused.
>>738959420If they were actually that smart then they would have gotten a high paying job. I'm convinced only stupid people end up poor.
>>738953738wait a minute, is this the OP who ritualposts about their depression and despair along with their dad/family with a Tomoko Kuroki image? if so, long time no see! has the situation improved a bit?
>>738964347I'm not poor, but this is a single digit IQ belief. I've met people more intelligent than myself who have failed at their lives because of various mental illnesses. Some don't measure their life with how much money they have. Many of these people are complete escapists. You're a retard. Be euthanised please
>>738953738I used to play Persona, Odin Sphere, etc. Anything which gave the illusion that I wasn't in real life, but somewhere else where people cared for me etc. I had no friends in school and my older "artist" brother would watch sport all day, which would echo through the walls. My mother and him were extremely abusive. My mother would call me a piece of shit behind my back and to my face - "only rotten people have no friends". I went to a small private school where no one else was into vidya/anime. My brother was physically abusive, despite being nine years older than me. We would fight physically many times, giving each other black eyes. He'd always go for a cheap punch to the face. My dad was neglectful.
>>738964306>being hit as a defenseless and terrified child doesn't countkill yourself
>>738953738>>738956112>>738965539How is your tinnitus going, bro?
>he doesn't have a good relationship with his parentsshiggy
>>738956112Need to have a job so you can live away from them. Just don't tell them your address and screen their calls.
>>738964632i dont think it is. he'd have a long story of his mom getting drunk / dad wasting money again or whatever
>>738953738hentai and ark survival ascended on a modded pve server.
>>738968129only possible with the ones that arent glued to their TVs which is most of them, News stations outright fuel them with hate boners for everything now theyre insufferable
>>738953738>>738956112I'm all for a multigenerational nuclear household, but some people are crazy and you need to get away from them as soon as possible.Anon, you should wake up early tomorrow and look for a job so you can move out as soon as possible, an Amazon warehouse worker earns a shit but liveable wage, and they're always in need of one, earning your own living does something that's hard to describe in your brain, you get more confident and learn to not take shit from anyone.Don't overthink, don't make excuses, just go find a job tomorrow, anything preferably full time to keep you out of the house, it will be better for your mental health.
Gibbs thread? Gibbs thread
theyre here
>>738953738this anon is trans
OP is also>schizo asukafag from street fighter threads with above 10k hours played on third strike>squirrels in the attic/diarrhea cat blogposter>dragonmaid deck schizo from master duel threads>no fun anon who refused to paint the floor on splatoon threads
>>738961797I literally realized this semester that what's been fucking me over constantly (outside of the numerous other non-academic factors that I've only just recently managed to get *mostly* under control) is the fact that I get way too zealous over missed assignments and always backlog them even when there is no guarantee that I'll get credit for it at a later point. The reason for this is because A) I've never worked in my current field of study, so I don't really know what information/assignments are key for being competent and B) having to accept a 0 on something, no matter how minor, throws the idea of a "perfect" semester in the trash, which tends to catastrophically demoralize me. Ideally, I should never get any bad grades or miss any assignments. But since that's not even remotely close to realistic, I'll have to learn instead to cut my losses and move on. The LLMs make it so that there is NOTHING I can't learn the basic gist of at any point in time. There is no fucking reason to allow things to snowball out of control over information I may or may not even need to know in the long run.
Imagine being so terminally online that people automatically recognize you whenever you make a fucking blogpost on here. I would say at least have the decency to post it on /r9k/, but then I remembered what a shithole that board is and I wouldn't even subject my worst enemy to browsing it.
>>738957227>t.future abuser
>tfw you're the abusive oneI dont even know where it came from. My parents were never abusive.
>>738974929>and B) having to accept a 0 on something, no matter how minor, throws the idea of a "perfect" semester in the trash, which tends to catastrophically demoralize me. it can be demoralizing, but you have to remember you're trying your best and that's what matters. It can be extra hard if you have a learning disability or enough autism for it to make a difference but you have to remember that you're competing on a different level than your peers around you.>The LLMs make it so that there is NOTHING I can't learn the basic gist of at any point in timeAs someone who is about to complete their degree in a technical field game design I have borderline gone to Youtube university. There's nothing I've learned that couldn't be taught by indian youtube tutorials and forums online.
>>738976872Historically, my issue was mostly ADHD which I have under control now thanks to meds (which I had to fight to procure). I'm pretty sharp and I can pick up concepts quickly when I get working on them. But I am emotionally unstable and easily fall prey to severe avoidance patterns, espeically when I start to fall behind and things at home start to get rough. I wish I had more support and felt more secure about my life situation. There is nothing about my life that is bad except having to live with people who don't understand the meaning of "support". It often feels like I'm the only adult around here, which is ironic becuase I am the lowest status member of my family.
Hatred
>>738953871Based
ITT
>>738953738You have to be 18 to post here
>>738980526>posted the same gay shit for ten years award>no you don't get it, the joke is that it's really repetitive, look now I'm gonna btfo you by posting it more>the fact that I'm annoying means I winshut the fuck up already
>>738980526>why yes, I *do* enjoy bitching to no one in particular about my numerous menial woes on a website overrun by insufferable third-world teenagers. how could you tell?
>>738975624OP has tried /r9k/ before with little to none replies.https://desuarchive.org/r9k/search/filename/1479700532076.png/
>>7389805264chan is the perfect outlet for this kind of shit. Cheaper than therapy.
>>738977829>emotionally unstable and easily fall prey to severe avoidance patternsi dropped out of school once before after getting Fs in a bunch of classes due to this, now im back and doing good. ymmv but some things that helped me were just taking less classes a semester (i figure I'm already 30, fuck it, why rush) and making use of prof/TAs office hours or tutoring center stuff a lot. not so much just for the help but just to kinda get over that hump of being just very fixated on the material in a vacuum (especially as an older student) that makes it easy to withdraw and get all tangled up in my head whenever something is hard/i do badly/etc.
>>738980749>>738975624>>738961378There's a couple of recognizable schizos that I want to kill at this point.The one who avatarfags as pepe and talks about how everyone who isn't him should be killed, and I mean literally extends that into rants that people other than him shouldn't be allowed to exist, opinions other than his shouldn't ever be spoken aloud, etc.The motherfucker who just wanders into a thread and starts bitching about Jesus and Lucifer cloning and raping people (?)
>>738980526kek
I wonder sometimes if me being gay af might have something to do with feeling weak and unsafe because of constant belittlement and physical abuse by my stepdad. I was being told frequently "you will never be a real man and no one will ever respect you". Kinda funny that v has all the tranny threads now and something similar is posted so much. I tried pretty hard too, but having genetic health problems just fucked me too much. Might be why I try so hard at vidya now too.
>>738982862You being you has nothing to do with people being people.
NOT FUCKING VIDEO GAMES. Nobody gives a shit. This isn't discord or reddit. Who the FUCK cares about your boring, mundane normalfag "problems"? Tie a knot and use it you normalfag morons.
>>738971479>an Amazon warehouse worker earns a shit but liveable wageThey have very high turnover because Amazon will fire you on the spot to maintain high productivity. Don't go with Amazon, better go with Walmart since they're not that extreme.
>>738983006kek
Trusting anyone is a recipe for disaster. There is no way to prepare for the impending despair. Only thing you can do is numb yourself with drugs and distractions.
>>738955016you are my hero anon
I haven't had any friends in years do any anons want to be friends.
>>738985691No, go die
>>738953738i don't play games anymore but i used to play wow to get away from thatit was kind of the cause of their abuse tho to a decent degreei was a piece of shit (still am)
>>738985691kys
>>738985691Sure. What games are you into?
>>738985691I wouldn't ever be friends with some 4chan poster.
>>738985865I like path of exile 2, jrpgs, srpgs and sometimes helldivers 2. I wanna branch out into genres that I've never played before though.
>>738964632>>738969404This specific anon has been posting this for over ten years, they started when they were barely 18, now their 29.,
>>738985950How old are you? Post your discord. I haven't played PoE2, but I like a lot of JRPG's. I'm more into retro vidya. I recently played Umihara Kawase.
>>738953738>while hiding from your abusive normalfag family in your room
>>738986040I'm 21, I don't have a discord but I could make one. Give me a little.
>>738953953Don't mess with Asukafags, they've never watched NGE.
>>738956112>they are baby boomersYou've got to be in your late 40s by this point, why the fuck are you living with your parents, faggot? Are you a deformed little gremlin?
>>738986139>people born 2005 are posting here now
>>738957573>NOOOOOO, MAH MENTAL HEALTH!!1Maybe you'd feel more at home on Discord, spastic.
>>738986436I was born in 2004 anon-tachi
>>738986392NTA but I never moved out and never will because of my deformities. I'm not even considered a member of the society, I never had a life so I don't give a fuck about made-up rules from people who will not respect me even if I start adhering to them
>>738959753People like to believe that they achieved everything by themselves instead of standing on the shoulders of giants, they even act like this when presented with extreme, unusual examples. Over the past few years I found out about separate cases from the US, Sweden, Poland of people in their 30s/40s who were literally imprisoned by their criminally insane parents for decades and got rescued, and in each case normie comments were like "why couldn't they just move out when they turned 18?"
Op you should probably kill yourself, at 29 you've already lost most life milestones like getting a job, a drivers license, losing your virginity and beyond yet you are still at the level of a middle school kid. You're pretty fucked honestly, is recommend suicide because there's very little chance at this point you could turn your life around. Just being pragmatic.
>>738954682it kinda was through the PS2 era with several different genres of games being made, but after that console generation, they just threw in the towel making eva games. maybe the profit margins were just too small for how expensive development became.
>>738986724Not OP, but I saw a prostitute to lose my virginity last year in Amsterdam.
>>738986330Add me back. I'm a BBC, trans, and 48yo btw.
>>738986991If you are a neet etc your still a genetic deadend, also paying for sex is insanely pathetic.
>>738953738pokemon red / gold on a translucent purple gameboy color in the moonlight shining in my bathroom window
>>738987028It's "you're", retard. I'm not a neet. Every relationship is transactional regardless, particularly with modern women. You're pathetic. I'm sorry I don't want to be go through the insane humiliation rituals obe must go through to find something as contrived as "love", which is just quid pro quo in the end.
>>738986571>normie comments Ignorant people are a dime a dozen. One of the worst things about my situation at home is that no one would believe the problem was that my mom is insane because A) she’s a single mom who has provided a fairly luxurious lifestyle for my sister and I and B) she’s extremely charming in person and people instantly tend to like her. Hell, even *I* couldn’t believe the problem was with anyone but me. It wasn’t until my early 30s that a counselor affirmed how I’ve been pretty much trying to handle *everything* regarding major life decisions on my own and getting nothing but criticism for it at every fucking turn that suddenly it dawned on me. You can’t expect people to understand that shit unless they’ve been through it themselves. Only teenagers and genuine idiots assume that once they’re 18 they’re magically going to become competent, self-sufficient adults.
>>738987185A lot of people don't figure out you can tell them to fuck off and they'll be furious for a while then get over it until its too late. The real kicker is when you get threatened with your inheritance for not obeying, so you do, then you get nothing anyway because boomers are unscrupulous adult babies.
>>738981062Lmao yeah I started doing that stuff too a while back. Asking for help in general is something that took me way, WAY too long to get comfortable with. Doing things on my own was something I took pride in, so it was hard for me to get over that. This previous semester, the issue wasn’t competence so much as it was that I got blindsided by a few things that progressively got out of hand. I just hope they don’t force me not to take classes again.
idk if this counts but I had a rmate who would always walk in on me doing something and try to tell me how to do it and that I’m doing it wrong. Except he would never actually try to see what I’m actually doing so he would just keep telling me to do random steps that had nothing to do with what I was trying to accomplish and he would never stop repeating himself or listen to me explain what I’m doing for actual context.It unearthed some shit from my childhood I think because my parents always did the same thing but to a lesser extent. They both just kept telling me to do random shit based off of an assumption of what they thought I was doing and I would just play along with it because they literally would not listen to me try to correct them or wouldn’t believe me when I tried to tell them I know what I’m doing and just make me feel like a retard.I played modded lethal company with that roommate once and insisted I streamed my game on discord so he could “mentor me” and make sure I didn’t get lost. And I clicked “share screen” instead of just the game footage and he pointed out how I pressed the wrong one and corrected me even though I was playing fullscreen anyway and I wasn’t sure if I put the mod folder in the right location and wanted to be able to show them my screen in case the game loaded wrong. But I just listened to him and went “haha of course, idk what I was doing lol” and of course it turned out I didn’t put the mod folder in the right location, but I didn’t even say anything because I felt embarrassed. I immediately felt like an idiot when I got called out and my mind went blank and played along with it, even though I knew exactly what I was doing.It doesn’t sound that bad, but I’ve lived my whole life in constant shame and low self esteem because of shit like this. And I’m so used to people trying to call me out and correct everything I do that I feel like I have to have every excuse on hand when I do anything
>>738987405I couldn’t give a shit about inheritance. She has nothing I want kek. Worse, she’ll probably try to do things in a way that involves trying to “split” the inheritance between me and my sister, and knowing my sister, there is no such thing as “splitting” anything with her. She’d fight me to the bitter end just for the amusement. No, all I want is to finish school and get a decent job so I can start building a life of my own and quit feeling like a bottom feeder.
>>738965209While IQ is a valid measure it's not the only thing that matters in life. If anything, IQ is a better predictor of success for populations, not individuals. There's other variables like personality traits (though of course successful types with those right personality traits will have high IQ at the upper end).I work with several dudes who are way smarter than I am with a pay grade well above me, but they have insanely dull or outright retarded takes about the society and life in general (of course they also believe in the "pull yourself by the bootstraps" shit). They have high IQs but it's like they're robotically applied to the things they do for a living and nothing else.
>>738987754Yeah, sounds like he’s a control freak. I briefly worked for genuinely insane people about a year ago, and my supervisor would do shit like try to tell me how to take notes in the tiny notebook I brought with me when I was training. I was like kinda puzzled by it at first, but it was just the tip of the iceberg for that bitch. With people like that, you need to just set up boundaries or tell them to fuck off. I got fired after 7 months for completely bullshit reasons because I wasn’t going to bend over backwards and do things the way she demanded I do them, especially when all her suggestions would do was over complicate my job and make things take longer for no reason. I had worked for 10 years at a different facility and knew the job inside and out, so once it became impossible for me to mask my utter disdain for her, she coerced the higher ups into getting me gone. Or at least that’s the best guess I have for why they fired me so suddenly and for such stupid reasons. But I digress— I’m glad I stood up for myself. That job wasn’t worth kissing the ass of a lunatic.Point is that you should find the courage to speak up about things that irritate you, anon. Sometimes it’s worth dealing with the friction that comes with making sure a person knows their place.
>>738987824>While IQ is a valid measure
>>738987754I know someone who's the same way, being criticized by your parents like that really shapes people.
>>738988165>I’m glad I stood up for myself. That job wasn’t worth kissing the ass of a lunatic.I wish I learned this before I grew up when I had nothing to lose and no repercussions for my actions. Now I have to play the game and life gave me nothing to work with. It’s crazy how it never occurred to me that I could just not care. I never thought I could just tell people to fuck off and it would be perfectly acceptable
>>738988524Everything does. I had a control freak mother, and it was tough even talking about it with normies because they'd usually just tell me shit like "she wanted the best for you", "she just wanted you to be educated" because they understand nothing. Her behavior was irrational. Instead of disciplining me to study more or to do my chores, she would demotivate me when it comes to this shit.Like, I couldn't even be bothered to clean my room and for a long time I thought it might be undiagnosed ADHD or some shit, but then once I actually moved out it became trivial, why? Because I was finally doing that for myself, when I want to instead of being pestered and watched over 24/7 like I'm supposed to do it for my mom.
>>738988559I felt vindicated after getting fired, oddly enough. I didn’t think they’d stoop so fucking low, but they *did*. Hurtful as it was, I know now to have more faith in my own competence. I’m honest and hardworking enough that it instills fear in those who can only shine by bringing others down. And that’s something for me to be proud of.
>>738986474Do you at least have a chin?
>>738988838Damn dude, are you me? Kek It’s literally the same situation with me. And she never fucking learns. I’ve told her 10 billion times what she’s doing only serves to make things worse and have spelled it out for her as plainly as possible, and she even has seen for herself that when I am on my own, I will maintain my living space. But it’s like her brain is on fucking autopilot or something. Every Sunday she goes around invading every room of the house and cleaning it incessantly while bitching about how no one in her life is thankful for all the work she does and how she wishes more than anything she had a maid etc, etc. And she does this very loudly and gets upset when I try to tune her out. I honestly don’t even know what to make of it. Idk if she just lacks the self-awareness to see the absurdity of her behavior or if she’s legitimately got some kind of mental complex that I haven’t heard of. Whatever it is, it makes Sundays at home ridiculously stressful. I’m at the point where I think the only solution is for me to go spend the day at a library or something.
>>738989159>Every Sunday she goes around invading every room of the house and cleaning it incessantly while bitching about how no one in her life is thankful for all the work she does and how she wishes more than anything she had a maidHOLY SHIT that's exactly what happened to meNow my dad on the other hand was far worse because he basically barely had a hand in raising me other than traumatizing me with his explosions of fury, but when my mom would do shit like break his audio equipment while doing the pointless busywork cleaning, I was on his side.But the cleaning shit wasn't even as bad as the way she wanted me to study. I'll copypaste a post I made in an earlier thread a couple days ago>Thing is, I wasn't great at studying, just learned to read at an early age which brought me hell. I was forced into long, excruciating study sessions which weren't even efficient because a kid just loses all attention span. I also had my homework micromanaged and supervised by my mother, she didn't trust me that I could do it myself. She basically did everything to make me hate it instead of disciplining me to do them on duty. I hated weekends and I actually preferred being in school because I could at least goof off during lessons.I actually did a little experiment when I was 11, I didn't tell my mom about an upcoming history test so I studied for it in secret. Then I got a better grade than for it than I usually did and revealed it, and what was her reaction? She was FURIOUS and tightened the grip on studying, and started phoning the teachers all the time for test schedules.
>>738989457Jesus Christ, that’s pretty fucked up. I guess I’m lucky my mom had more of a hands-off approach to studying when we were growing up. That also had pitfalls of its own (like her not being able to wrap her head around why I get pissed at her for criticizing me about studying incredibly hard material when she can barely do basic math) but at least I managed to gain self-confidence due to my own ability to learn difficult things. It wasn’t actually until college that she started becoming fucking insufferable about setbacks, probably because now she had to invest financially in it and had no control over the outcome. Then she’d act like she did everything she could to help guarantee my success when all she’s ever done is just stress me the hell out and demand an explanation for every single thing that went wrong, as if she could give me a useful solution for fixing it. Sigh. Idk, anon. I love her but I really, really feel bad for her. I honestly have no idea what the fuck she’ll do when I move out.
>>738982862Gay bro, the origin of your cocksucking has nothing to do with your well being and happiness in life. You shouldn't dwell on thoughts that are related to the reinforcement of your own negative opinion about yourself. Once a person reaches mid life, what he is is 95% what he thinks about himself. From your post I am pretty certain you don't think highly of yourself and that's no way to live.
>>738986991Based
>>738987754The terrifyingly funny thing about people like you, is the usual immense internal need to grow out of this shit, combined with the inability to ever catch a break from shit that made you like this in the first place. If you lived a life of shame and learned helplessness, whether you like it or not you're communicating that non verbally through body language and your actions all the fucking time. THEN, manipulative controlling niggers in your life sense it and attach themselves to you to suck out your energy and block any semblance of positive growth you could have.Life shouldn't be planned and lived to accommodate your weakness, it should be challenged. That's the only way to peace of mind and happiness.Realize the existence of the target that's painted on your back and understand it, you're more than halfway there anyway if you can say what you said in your post. Once that's clear to you, break out from your shell with work, study psychology to understand your behaviours, find your own way and gain confidence.If you try you will fail time and time again. But with persistence I believe you can do it anon. Though my belief or anything that comes externally is worthless. The truth here is you must believe in yourself, and that you can do it yourself. Someone once took that ability away from you, now you must fight hard to get it back. Good luck.
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>>738953738>What video games do you play while hiding from your abusive normalfag family in your room?Usually i just eat some sleep bills and force myself to sleep until things calm down, currently playing hylics 2 though >>738956112Sounds awful lmao
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