Its finally gone, for me. When I was 10 years old, I remember watching a rerun of bye bye butterfree, and thinking to myself "I know adults arent supposed to like pokemon. I know that. But Ill never stop loving Pokemon. For as long as I live, Ill never forget that love, and Ill never forget this moment."that was 13 years ago. I dont love pokemon anymore. I played every single entry and version in the series at least once, and replayed every generation several times. as an adult I just cant do it. I feel nothing replaying the old games anymore, and the new games invoke nothing too. Pokemon used to be important to me. As a kid it was literally a defining trait of my character. Ive killed my younger self. Hes dead. Soon Ill kill myself too. I just wish I died still loving Pokemon.
The problem is that you've forced yourself into replaying them to try and get that joy backThe joy you seek can't be forced nor achieved through expectation, only when you let go of this rigidity and free yourself from the expectation that you'll feel that joy someday will you properly get to feel it againEmbrace chaos, anon. Things change and happen beyond your control and that's okay, fag
