>>107905689
get mad, remember bad things only, move on and be less foolish next time, they don't matter anymore and only receive rewards when they do the right thing

Learning to come to terms with loss is part of the process of emotional growth

>>107905689
Remember that she's forever dead and try to move on. It's okay to feel empty and grieve that loss. She's gone from this world and try to remember the happy times. What you had was great but now that she's forever gone and never to return or be seen again know that it's not something that can be easily replaced.

You never existed whatsoever and the illusion of happiness vanishing just brought you back to yourself, nothing is actually worse than before. This culture still banks on faster life cycles as it has shown to be the most profitable. You're expected to follow the artist and not the art, shower them with love and appreciation to stop them from leaving you again while you're too busy to realize you actually liked the persona more than the person and that identity will never return.

As long as your happiness banks on your perceived happiness of the people you love, your emotional state will always be chained.

Considering the overwhelming majority of /vt/ posts are utterly bitter or delusional, you're basically asking for a way out of rock bottom while the rest lives there in lethargy.

>>107906062
True, I'm not actually sure what I expected asking vt for advice. Im not angry. I loved her memory and have separated her from ceres fauna. Its the absence that hurts. The character i revolved my life around is gone. How do I find a reason to do more than eat,sleep and work anymore. I dont particularly enjoy life. She was my happiness. And now my happiness is frozen in time.

>>107905932
Guess. But i honestly Im not interested in emotional growth. Its hard. It doesnt seem worth it. Id rather numb everything with noise. Why would I ever bother with growth when I can pay money for a Spotify subscription or send my oshi another supa?

>>107905689
I managed to find my current oshi relatively soon after I stopped following my previous, and in my case it was a slow breakdown into disillusionment that cumulated into dreading to hear a notification for her stream pop up, which became the deciding factor that things shouldn't continue that way, so acceptance was much easier compared to the sudden end that graduations tend to be. And one thing for sure is that feeling of being unable to connect with another vtuber will likely continue forever, because the separation (and I assume subsequent news) has already left its mark on you and turned you cynical and doubtful of anyone new.

So the question that is best asked here is if you truly want to continue using an oshi and the attached experience as your pillar for getting through the day. If so, then you should try being open to watching a vtuber you find as entertainment first. Oshis don't always mean someone you feel an immediate direct connection to and interact with often, actual idol otaku basically don't even get that most of the times, restricted to like maybe ~5 events per month that their group does. Quietly watching with only occasional chat participation when needed, throwing support sometimes via tweets or superchats, or just enjoying them with the stream in the background is completely fine as well, damn what this board says. Once you've eased yourself into liking another vtuber then maybe you can think about committing into a more active participation later, but ultimately the important thing is to be certain you are still enjoying this whole "watching a cute anime girl do things", or if you should move on to commit into a different hobby.

>>107905689
Is nimi really that different than fauna? Last i check, she sound exactly the same, play the same slops, didnt curse, etc, etc.
The main difference prolly is she cant collab with holos anymore but desu i doubt you care too much abt her collab content as collab isnt her main catch after all.

>>107905689
Sounds like you have a self loathing issue. If you had any self love of respect you wouldn't worship some parasocial woman like this.

Turn your hyperfixation into something productive. Draw her. Go back and clip old streams. Make a game or your own plush or something. You can still wallow in Fauna all you want but at least this way you’re still improving yourself by picking up new skills.
You’ll find someone or something else that’ll grab your brain again in a similar way eventually.

Before any real advice can be given, you gotta tell us how old you are. I promise if you're in your early 20's, you'll be fine. Your hyperfixation will move on to something else your autistic little ass can sperg out on, you just have to keep looking around. Just go back to anime, because I assume that's where you came from.

>>107906803
No one fuckjng believes im actually happy for her with the new news. She always seemed like the type to be a good wife and this didnt come as a surprise. Ive been watching her content since I was like 13 years old. Since her lemon leaf days. The only reason im leaving now is because I believe in creating boundaries as a idol otaku. Once a girl leaves the company. She's longer choosing to participate in the idol crap. I want to respect that. So in a way im just tripping over my own sense of morality.

>>107906825
Not really. I still keep her streams on in the background sometimes as premium background noise while im doing other stuff. But I have standards as an idol otaku.

>>107907480
Im 18. People keep telling me ill find something. That itll get better. Most of the people around me are dumber than me. But I keep trusting them. I gets exhausting but im not stupid enough to kill myself.

>>107906440
You need to grow or die trying. It's a matter of survival. After a while the noises will be incapable of numbing the pain, if they are not already.

Fake thread.

>>107905689
Blame someone for her graduation, anyone. Embrace the hate, live for revenge and never forgive.

>>107907678
No, I love her. I will respect her decisions. Shes a grown woman. She made these decisions on her own because of her own reasons. Give her that much respect at least. She's not a delicate flower to be protected and she's not a bitch. Shes a person. And as long as shes happy im happy.

>>107907540
Sounds like a fine conclusion to come to and decision to stand on. But to say you weren't affected by it entirely would be lying to yourself, or else you wouldn't dismiss other vtubers as "fake or shill tier", because that is the opinion of a person who is too cynical to accept the positivity and dreams that an idol can give. Again, the best thing you can do is give others a chance and see if you really want to continue using an idol oshi as the centre of your lifestyle, or if you should pour that passion into something else that you likely haven't found and experienced yet

>18
Yep, that explains it.

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Come Sapling, friend or traitor come; to the squeeb chamber where we once stood side by side eons ago before the triumvirate saw me worthy of defeat.
I still maintain the light of levity for the green one in passing whispers and gasps. Those who once stood with you in comraderie still find shelter under our dismantled 7th house.
While I still haven't lost my true oshi, she's in a time zone where I can't watch her live. This means I'm free to broaden my horizons and see more streamers than I would if I was hyperfocused on my oshi but our situations are still similar.
Just remember like all the old TV shows, all content has its seasons, sometimes without renewal

>>107908188
I meant it as more so that forcing myself to treat the other girls like Fauna is fake and pretending like hololive is a perfect company that can do no wrong makes me a shill. I like the other girls but my heart just isnt in it anymore. Maybe the next en wave whenever it happens. I might find a new oshi then. But for now im pretty stuck since I haven't found anyone new yet. Ive been looking at the JP side but the language barrier is just too strong. I like streams not clips.

>>107908270
Bruh

>>107907605
>18
Thats explain it. As long as your not gonna 41% yourself, the problems will get fixed eventually as you got older. Your gonna be surprised of how much shit you thought matter that didnt at 28. You also gonna get so many shit you gotta deal with that caring about some random e girl is below your daily fucks given quota

>>107905689
What do you do when your favorite show ends? Slowly erode away like a loser? Just fucking rewatch it. Do the exact same with Fauna's streams. Rewatch from the beginning or your favorites. If you enjoyed her that much, then why don't you watch her VODs

Fuck off to plebbit you namefagging retard

>>107907605
>Im 18
lmao

>>107905689
Can't you just keep watching her? Aside from different model and name, nothing changed about her content

>>107907540
Jesus Christ anon, go find a cute girl your age and have fun. I’m 27 and I wasted my twenties right out of college being madly in love with her. I’m doing better now but it took a while. Go socialize and party!

>>107913566
Real girls are mean and scary.they only ask me out because im avaliable and convenient. Theyre not interested in who I actually am. They take advantage of the kindness I try to give.

>>107913835
Hey, I hear the pain and hurt in that. I promise that’s not true. Idk if you plan to go to college but highly recommend you do so if not just for the on campus experience. I promise real women are less scary than the horror stories you see on the internet!

>>107905689
Something else, somebody else, fills the hole

>>107906825
It's not, and the damage she's done cannot be undone.