Bedtime Story Edition>Previous threadhttps://boards.4chan.org/vt/thread/109022808/>YouTubehttps://youtube.com/@pillowdear>Twitter/Xhttps://x.com/pillowdearasmr>Merchhttps://uwumarket.us/collections/pillowdearasmr>Fan website & resourceshttps://piwwow.love/>Fan wikihttps://virtualyoutuber.fandom.com/wiki/PillowDear>Latest coverhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ns08Y6GYWEc [Embed]>Latest eventhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8C6LGy2A4S8 [Embed]>Latest streamhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1xCY4TBJpM>Upcoming streamhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DVM-UQ8fyhA
Thread rules
Piller is my pillar
>>109063427Why are furries so into butt stuff?
Thinking about Pillow thighs
When I see Piller,I wanna fill'er!
Pillow was in a concert todayhttps://youtu.be/-X-FwoPr0_w
>>109064872why didn't I know about this
>>109065453She doesn't do much self-promotion.
>>109063423SO CUTE
Ready for Pillow to run away from the girls today so she can hang out with piwwos.
bros... I can't we don't deserve her
Nothing is more lonely than being a piwwo over the weekend. They all abandon me...
Thinking of how nice it would be if Pillow pissed on me.
>>109069057So warm. So sweet. So embarrassed.
>>109068888At least we'll get to see her today piwwo.
I really want to be able to write her letters and send her gifts. Just little things like bracelets, drawings, girly bath stuff or equipment for her nail streams and crafy projects. Send her postcards when I'm traveling to let her know I'm still thinking of her.I know why she's careful but I really wish there was a middle ground for us all to communicate more intimately, where she can even do streams sharing the stuff she's received every now and then.
>>109069296I am just choosing to hold onto all the things I make for her. She can see me post pics of the gifts on Twitter. Ultimately if she was receiving gifts constantly, they’d probably sit in a big box anyway, so I’ll hold onto them until a potential opportunity arises.
>>109069296I know how you feel piwwo. You just have to do what you can. Post what you want to say on X (she'll see it) or email her if it's too personal. Postcards would be a good thing to share on her community tag #ThePiwwos. And I don't know where you are, but sometimes a convention or event that she's a guest at will accept gifts for her (which is how she got the last batch I think) so look out for opportunities like that.>>109069331Yeah that's the other thing, she'll appreciate photos of stuff that you made for her even if you can't send it to her. And maybe it'll convince her to give piwwos a more accessible way to send her stuff.
>>109069331Do you know if there's a service in the US which Pillow could sign up to where we can send everything to which allows her to maintain her privacy to a level she's comfortable with? I'm an eurowwo so I don't know what kind of post services are offered over there.
>>109069376I'm also not American and I only know about PO boxes, which I think would still give away more information than she's comfortable with (we don't even know what state she's in) so I'm guessing that's why she hasn't gotten one.
>>109069199what is he looking at?!?!?
>>109069376I mean, best I can think of is a post office box at the local office, but that of course would be doxxing her town, and also it’d be a massive pain for her to go collect stuff anyway since she can’t drive. For instance, I’m a fan of Uwoslab and he has a PO Box, but he has to go collect every week or so since the post office can only hold so much many packages. I guarantee there’s some service out there where you can reserve a mailing address that’s anonymous, but it’s not generally something most people do, and it’d be hard to set up. Combine the fact that she has no car to pick up packages, and that she struggles with accepting even relatively simple things like superchats, and I’m sure, as much as she’d love to receive gifts from Piwwos and thank them, it’d be insanely stressful for her.
>>109069407Yeah that's what I was implying, a service which basically has massive warehouses, in states outside her own who would then ship it to Pillow (or a PO box for her to physically collect). Kind of like VPN data centers which have known IP addresses so websites know you're using a VPN, but they still can't get your IP.
>>109069494Why did I have to oshi someone so sweet and shy that I can't even properly express my love for her because of it...
>>109069494>>109069504I hope she can figure something out, but yeah as one of you touched on the other issue apart from logistics is that she's very insecure about properly expressing her appreciation. Remember how long it took her to make that unboxing video? She's going to feel obliged to thank every piwwo who sends her something and I think that'll weigh a lot on her mind.
>>109069582>>109069572I have personally asked her about some stuff, not exactly similar to this, but in the same ball park, and she’s petty cognizant and wary about managing her stress levels. She’s fully aware she’s a hot mess, if it weren’t so stressful for her I’m sure she’d be doing monthly gift opening streams or something.
>>109069622I want to give her daily massages and tight cuddles to help Pillow manage her menhera.
The EU Piwwos are eating well with the early streams. My conspiracy theory is that Pillow loves me and wants to kiss me. IM NOT SCHITZOPHRENIC YOURE CRAZY IM NOT CRAZY
>>109069806Yeah all these early streams have been really nice, and now I have CushionHun premieres to look forward to as well.
>>109069806There was a time when us eurowwos constantly missed out. I think she's made a very conscious effort within the last year to change that and that's when I decided to finally oshi her. I see a few /here/ burgerwwows missing out which sucks. Especially those with shit work hours.
>>109063423>reading bedtime story>ends up in a happily ever after>ending is surprise anal with the reader>shock she looks at piwwo throbbing cock point at her
Does Kanna have the 'tism?
I'm trying really hard not to say anything rude about Pillow's friends but Jesus Christ
It's another episode of the Nene and Pillow show. Cute!
>>109071218cute girls doing retarded things
I think Pillow would let Nene sit on her face. She REALLY loves her.
pillow and her friends are cute 'tards
>>109071338I don't think Nene would be into it unless??
>>109071124She's Scandi they all do
I wish I could find something that makes me as happy as Pillow in minecraft with her big chested friends
These girls are all having fun playing with their friends and here I am alone in my room watching like the unloveable incel cuck I am.I need to kill myself at the soonest possible convenience.
>>109071696pillow loves her lonely chud piwwoscheer up!
>>109071696I'd say you could play on PiwwoCraft with piwwos, but it's probably dead now.Still, Pillow wouldn't want you to think like that. Open your heart up to piwwos. You'll make friends easier than you think.
>>109071696>unloveable incel cuckfortunately for (You), all of those things are fixablejust don't be retarded
More Pillow x VAllure kino incoming
>Miss PillowNova called her that too the other day, I like it :)
>>109073464Don't tell Pillow but I was listening to Chibi's spicy audios yesterday.. It's a strange feeling seeing her interact with Pillow today.
>>109073646The contrast is funny. It's sweet that they're friends despite it.
Helping our cute oshi to make friends
I have this uncanny ability to send chat messages only when Pillow is looking away
>>109074710Sorry piwwo :(
>>109073604Miss Pillow just like her oshi Mister Koro
How do you suppress the feeling of wanting to hug and squish her extremely tightly?
warming up pillow's toes with my mouth
Why is she talking about her feet if she reads the threads?
>>109075278you don’t
>>109075519She can't keep teasing us like this. It's cruel.
>>109075519Learning that she prefers not wearing socks even when it's cold UOHHH
>>109075899>doesn't wear socks>doesn't wear pants>wears glasses
>>109075943She doesn’t wear glasses while streaming though. It’s why she can’t see half the time
Lifting up Pillow's blanket
She eats so fucking much. I hope she doesn't poop.
>>109076083I for one think she doesn't eat enough
>>109076002my oshi is half blind and a tardcute
I hope Pillow likes me...
>>109076551She does piwwo
>I don't know what nippy means
>>109077083Do Americans not say that?
>>109077120I think it's British but I've heard a lot of Americans use that phrase when doing a British accent. Pillow probably took it...literally.
>>109077083nippy as in fast or cold?
>>109077639cold
she had so many girls to interact with but she still spent so much time chatting with piwwos.she really loves us...
>>109077811Pillow cucked us. She received so many random kisses and didn't give us one.
Cuck general
tune in for an old classichttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7njRy4Cyzg
never notice how bouncy pillow chest moves to distracted by her cute face
>>109079273>bouncy pillow
https://x.com/neonshrine_shop/status/2017813222729138455would you jester like this for Pillow?
>>109079659pillow has a soft spot for nerdy idol wotaku I can feel it
>>109079734She does! She always she loves and admires it
Why did she remind us she loves us before ending the stream? Did someone say something?
>>109080242I don't think so but she's had experiences before where piwwos have said they felt neglected during collabs so she probably just wanted to reassure us.
I like how she's still not afraid to call out obvious cheaters when they try to be sleazy
I know she was just being herself but I laughed a little when she ran away screaming when a girl (that she wanted to talk to) tried to approach her. She’s done that before too and I think she just gets scared
What age does pillows voice sound like? Ignoring her actual age. Is it loli?I saw like four people come in stream today and get banned because they said “is that her real voice”
>>109080601she has moé voice it can be loli, it can be young womanit's really matter of perspective
>>109080541adorable
> wants to be friends with everyone and people love her > “how’s the weather”
>>109080756she's just like me fr fr
pil
Lady Pillow cute!!
I really hope the cafe event she alluded to is near me. It's been too long since I've last seen her. I can't wait.
>>109084759It’s always gonna be California
>>109085602Holy moly new pill butt art????
>>109085602Pillow butt…
>>109084759I just couldn't ever visit her. I know I'm a chopped chud so she will instinctively laugh at me as I sperg out (kinda hot but also sad)?
>>109085946Pillow genuinely does not care about looks. You could be the most chopped chud imaginable and she’ll still love you with all of her heart if you just show her some kindness. By taking the time of day to even visit Pillow, in her mind, you’ve already proven to her that shes worthy of your time, and that’s the greatest kindness she could ever ask for. She will love you, I can promise you that. She would never be mean to you just because of how you look
>>109086233The only person in her life she's ever been unkind to is herself
>>109085946I know you're memeing a bit, but I'm chopped as fuck and she said I was handsome. Speaking to Pillow will BOOST your confidence. You would also make her very happy if you went to see her.>>109085098lucky for me then
The snack break during MC was very comfy today. I remember Pillow saying she wants to do something like mukbang, but I feel like her stomach is too little for that, particularly since she doesn't eat super slow. Stream would either be her painstakingly eating tiny amounts, or would be over in about 20 minutes. I feel like it'd be sweet to do more regular food breaks during streams, especially since it means she could stream longer more often.
Don't worry piwwos, I've got a snowblower. Your driveway will be cleared!
I feel so happy to have her
The name CushionHun is so erotic, it makes me think of her pillowy soft butt
Would you consider it cheating if Pillow confirms that she's dating a woman?
>>109088764Yes, and I would instantly drop her.
>>109088845Are you gay or something?
>>109088845why are you gay?
>>109088764I'd be very disappointed in her and probably stop watching.
>>109079659Honestly I love her but no. She got me to clap for "if you're happy and you know it" with a room full of grown men, that's as far as I'll go.
>>109080601She sounds like a young woman doing a cutesy voice.
>>109085602are pink pantsu canon?
>>109091245weak
>>109091908No, she wears plain white panties with the nurse outfit. Lacey black thong with her virgin killer.
>>109091940>Lacey black thong
>>109085602Holy fuck. That ass is actually perfect. Holy Sex
Adult day out with Pillow, shopping in IKEA for furniture and suddenly losing her. You walk all around the store...nothing. You start to worry and eventually have to contact staff. They find her playing in the kids play area in the ball pit.
>>109093051Cute :)An IKEA date would be really nice. I love walking around there, and the cafeteria. Always makes me think of that video of the guy doing puns with all the Swedish names to her girlfriend. Imagine Pillow in the plushie section...
>>109093260>Imagine Pillow in the plushie sectionTreating Pillow to one of those giant green snakes and seeing her fall asleep hugging it on the way home in the car, with a belly full of swedish meatballs, cinnamon rolls and too much ice cream.
I’m going to start yearning…
>>109093260>>109093356would pillow be more of djunkelskog or blåhaj type of girl?
>>109093477Bear. She has a severe dad fetish.
>>109093487I love my pillow dotter!
>>109093380Yearnbros this is our curse
>>109093684I mustn’t ever lose hope. Dates with my PillowWife, seeing her happy and comfortable, must be in my future.
>>109093860It's good to have a dream piwwo but don't let it get you down if (when) things don't work out that way. I'm trying to keep a realistic mindset about it.
This is my dog, I am going to feed her corn syrup
>>109094931But that'll give her diabeetus
Hello Piwwos! In a month this board is holding a virtual Divegrass tournament called /vt/ League, namely it's 10th iteration. The teams consist of board generals with players representing memes related to their respective chuubas and/or thread culture. If you are interested in football or just want to have some fun taking part in board events, feel free to sign the thread up next week!Some questions that might arise>how exactly does it work?Two teams controlled by AI play against each other in a football simulator video game, currently it's eFootball PES 2021>what do I need to make a team?You need 23 players, which means 23 ideas/memes that can be put into a 3D model. Note: it should be something creative, having a player simply called Pillowdear or Olive won't cut it Buttslug will, however>do I need to know anything about football?Not at all! Unless you want to manage and provide instructions for your team AI, you can let other people take care of that>do I need to learn Blender/3ds to make 3D models?While being skilled in 3D modelling is very much welcome, newcomers can submit requests and get professional helpFeel free to ask me any additional questions. I know you might think that the board is shit and it's not worth sticking your head out, but VTL is a relatively shitposter-free event and we try our best to make sure everyone has fun
>>109095122I hop so
Why the increase in Pillowbutt?
>>109095556Why not?
>>109095746I need Pillowbelly
>>109095768All in good time my dear Piwwo
>>109095768You have already received as much as you deserve. Any more is merely greed.
I want to grope and squeeze Pillow’s squishy, little butt
I just now randomly remembered that some viewers used to call Pillow “mommy” about 2 years ago and she didn’t mind. I can’t imagine anyone doing that with her current voice and demeanor
>>109094931would
>>109096325I would call her daughter or imouto in chat, but I'm afraid it would come across as creepy/cringy
>>109096416That would make her horny
>>109096325She said she wanted to be 'your baby' before but I think she's too shy to lean into it even if she'd enjoy it.
>>109096953
cute daughter playing with her local park friends
sleepy morning Pillow is so cute
>>109096964pillowbaby
Suddenly got the urge to adopt her.
Gotta tune out for a while. Post if anything cute happens pls.
Using Pillow's wings.NSFW: https://files.catbox.moe/o0fs50.pnghttps://files.catbox.moe/jt1nkw.png
>Free manWhen's the last time she gendered piwwos?
>>109098447Maybe like a month and a half ago when she called us good boys
I don't wanna think about what Pillow woulda done to me if I was wrong about the stonecutter...
Just for the sake of bumping, I'll share: I have a couple ideas that I'm excited to commission, just waiting for the artist to open up slots.
>>109097799They're her most sensitive spot. That would probably hurt Pillow more than the blowjob...
>>109100519Neat. Can't wait to see it when they're complete.
Is it just me or does pillow become a brat around her friends? She gets needy and demanding
>>109101503I don't see the problem with this
Pillow is a girlfailure..
>>109101574Piwwo 90% of female vtubers are girlfailures...
> says she’s a crybaby > only cries when she wants something from piwwos> gets demanding and ordering of her friends > gets fussy when something doesn’t work Guys… pillow is really a big brat. Everyone thinks she’s a sweet shy angel but the truth is that she’s actually a brat who wants attention and someone to do what she wants. What other behaviors does she have?
>>109101698That's hot. Also possessive of her piwwos and doesn't like exposing us to other girls too much because she gets jealous.
>>109095258Nioh 3 comes out Friday, we don’t got time for that. Plus being a piwwo is already a full time job.Can’t you just do it for us?
What's the most effective way to punish and correct bratty Pillow?
I for one like the bratty arc. Now she needs to bully me for being old.
>>109102201Show her cute feet on stream that'll show her...
>>109101918Sorry brother, but I'm already taking care of one team. I'm willing to provide any help within my capabilities, but someone from your ranks has to step up and take charge. I'm just a casual Pillow ASMR listener and don't really spend much time in the thread, but I like her and I like you guys, which is why I decided to propose to make a team. Don't feel like you're being pressured into this event either, we're doing this for you and not vice versa. It's about good vibes after all
>>109102275It turns me on a little when she's bratty. I don't know why lol
Putting a pacifier in Pillow's mouth whilst she's in the middle of complaining at you
>>109102451I don't understand it either
>>109102651>*Smugly puts the slug in your butt as retaliation*
>>109102694
>>109102352On second thought, it may not be the best idea anyways.All our players could be innocent but I don’t know how Pillow would feel if she came across a clip of her 3D model playing against Mecha Hitler or some shit.Thanks for the offer though. It’s a cool event.
Pillow replied to me btw
>>109100519I had something I wanted to commission from a specific person, just got an email back from them saying they’re booked into the summer cause I waited way too long.Learn from my mistake, piwwos. Commission TODAY.
>>109102920She replies to lots of piwwos.
>>109102911The same way any other chuuba for a various team/thread in the VTL would react. (And there's a lot of chuubas from various threads that watch their team on stream)
I’ve noticed that not a ton has been getting posted to Pillow’s tag lately.I think it would make her happy if more piwwos started using it even for stuff like sharing thoughts on recent streams, asking a question to her or the community, or even just sharing a sweet message.You won’t be annoying. Remember she checks the tag obsessively. She likes it when we’re thinking about her.
>>109102911That's assuming Pillow is not aware of this board nor this general nor does she post /here/, haha, unless?. But I can understand your concerns, after all you know your oshi better than I ever will. If you ever change your mind, however, feel free to join!
>>109103317I've been trying to post more, but mostly on the community tag. I'll try to talk about her streams and say random nice things about her more.
>>109103317I'm too self conscious and prefer to lurksorry, I barely muster courage to even comment or reply to her in generalalso I don't feel I'm active enough in the community to pollute her timeline when more serious piwwos deserve it
>>109103317I already make up like 30% of the posts across her tags, if I had more to post about I’d do so, but unfortunately I only have so much time in the day
>>109103317I never use my twitter and when I do I just like her posts and that's it. I'm not a very social piwwo until you get liquor into me.
>>109103790I'm the same as you. I'm happy hiding in here and yearning for her pale body and IKEA dates.
>>109103790You know exactly the type of replies you’re asking for when you post stuff like this.Whatever, man. Fine. Leave all that possible love and affection you could be receiving from her on the table. No skin off my nose. It just means there’s more for me in fact!For real though, I used to feel similar. Eventually I bit the bullet and started interacting with her and the community more. It’s been amazing since.I still sometimes look at the like she left on the drunk tweet I sent a while ago, it always makes me smile. I want to say you’re missing out, but Pillow would also want you to only do what you’re comfortable with. Just remember you’re always welcome.
I do wonder if it frustrates Pillow knowing there are piwwows she can't stalk or know the names of. She has a lot of love to give so it might hurt her feelings knowing there are piwwows purposely hiding. The lurkwwows should be more visible in 2026. It would mean more to her than any other gesture.
I was also very withdrawn from the community to begin with, mainly just posting here and replying to Pillow. Recently, I've started interacting with and opening up to piwwos, and I'm glad that I did. They're so nice, at least the ones that I've interacted with, and I know that it makes Pillow happy to see us getting along and looking out for each other.Pillow gave me this gift and I appreciate it every day.
>>109104540I seriously doubt Pillow wants to read the same mundane crap happening in my life over and over piwwo.
Yearnbros I've been lacking inspiration lately. What have you been thinking about?
Angle practiceNSFW: https://files.catbox.moe/dkvxiz.png
>>109105916
>>109100564I like to imagine the wings store a lot of her dream entity power, so I kinda drew it thinking that pulling her wings would amplify her emotions in that scenario.>>109106509I don't know what this means, but I like it.
>>109103317I would rather share my thoughts on her streams in the VOD comments. Posting questions or "sweet messages" in her tags feels way too performative and low effort.
>>109107871Well, okay. I do both. That's what the tags are for.
>>109104540>lurkwwowsi prefer she does not know about me besides the little interaction I do talk in stream and twitter
>>109103317I want to interact (all the normal standard stuff like twitter posts, chat, yt comments) with Pillow or really any vtuber I like at this point but I've been a giga autist recluse almost all my life and now can't come up with anything to say in most life situations in general. Like I know "what" but not really how to do it, like you technically know what a light year means but you can't really comprehend and get a feel for it fully.
>>109107871Kinda echoing your thoughts, I feel like constantly spamming sweet messages devalues it in a way. If I tell her "I love you" all the time, then the phrase loses a lot of its meaning. It's also why I sort of dislike the existence of this thread. A lot of the time, it is just necrobumping, making it a very hollow demonstration of love for her. That's just my personal belief, though.
>>109108269I know what you mean. I’m a giga autist too.Best advice I can give is fake it til you make it. It’ll start to feel natural eventually.Alcohol also helps. I don’t drink often cause it makes me feel like shit, but on special occasions it really helps me speak from my heart.
Thinking about Pillow belly button
pill
piller gently pegging your ASMR
Pillow small penis appreciation ASMR
(Out of character) angry Pillow sketchNSFW: https://files.catbox.moe/x91o3i.png
>>109111369Cute...
>>109108269You can just fuck around. I threatened to boil an indie girl yesterday, and whenever she respond I’d just send a pic of boiled lobster. You can just do things.
Would you still love Pillow if she had an outie?
>>109116883just the same as I would feel with inverted nipples
>>109107871I just repost memes there and she still has fun with it. There’s no barometer for effort required, she just wants you to love her and think about her.
>>109116883Pillow raping me by shoving her outie into my innie.
If you want Pillow to rape you, is it still rape?
>>109118703I'll pretend to not like it
Excited for the nail stream. I’ve missed her pretty hands and miniature art so much.
>>109119206I love them and I'll make sure to let her know.
>>109119206I'm excited too it's always nice to see her gorgeous hands and her artistic talents on display
>>109118703non-con but I will allow it
Kissing Pillow on the mouth
>>109120520That's how you get pregnant
Pillow forcing her tongue down your throat
>>109120520Imagine how big a deal even this would be for her. She'd be so adorable.
>>109093477https://x.com/i/status/2018750437311336957
>>109122959hairy dadwwos won
>>109122959Pillow would choose the bear??XYbros, I feel sick…
>>109123026>>109123178Not so fasthttps://x.com/i/status/2018755217702195224
No one can resist the Blahaj
Ojiwwos…we lost. We’re too old for her love.
What do you think she'll be wearing today?
>>109123959Using her GL outfit so predictably, black lace gloves
>>109123427
Pillow loves old piwwos! Stop being sad
>>109124298>black lace glovesUnf
>>109125145True she does love all the piwwos even us old fucks.
https://x.com/scarfed_key/status/2018788155181379921
>>109126193holy angel...
Fug stream in less than 15 mins piwwos
I saw pillow at the supermarket and she whispered in my ear that I'm a huge faggot and asmr is for retards, then she said no one would believe me and screamed "THIS GUY JUST GRABBED MY ASS" and then ran out of the store with a cart full of ham she didn't pay for in the confusion.
Does she really not like compliments, or is it reverse psychology?
>>109129034bit if both
im late and confused, why is this stream not working out...? is it how she sounds?
>>109129488Yes. She fixed it but decided to do nail painting another time.
Learning a lot about her in this stream lol
in an ocean of coombait and prostitution vtubers, im thankful for pillow
>>109129976I feel the same, she's a breath of fresh air.
I love my silly and playful oshi.
adorable and humorous
With all the hags trying to be cunnytubers, Pillow could actually pass as a cunnytuber. Though that wouldn't play well with her GFE,
kinda sad the nail stuff didn't work outI just know she will probably be in bad mood for at least few days because of it
>>109130749She'll be okay. She does care, but I think she plays it up a little how much it gets to her. She just wants to be called dumb when she feels dumb, like she said. And now she's playing Minecraft with friends, so it worked out. She'll be doing other stuff this week that'll hopefully take her mind off of today's hiccup and go smoothly so she can feel competent again.
>>109122959becoming soft bear for pillow
Thinking of Pillow as I cum in all her sexy friends
It makes me sad when she mainly reads messages from one guy. Are my chats really that bad?
>>109133687try harder desu
>>109133687all about timing, piwwo
>>109125145>>109125952
>>109135256wow you're old
This is kinda hot
>>109133687The chat was moving super slow and there were only like 5 guys frequently talking. The one guy who gets read a lot was sending a message every time ANYTHING happened, so it lead to him getting read a lot. In faster streams, that’s never the case
Today's stream kinda has me down.I think this was the first time she has done nails in the afternoon rather than the morning so I was really excited I could make it after being cucked by all the early streams. Then it turned into another fat reminder that I'm a pathetic loser with no friends who comes home to a lifeless room to spend all my free time pretending that an internet livestreamer is my GF. I don't think watching these VSMP streams is good for me lol.I think I'll be fine, I'm just a big baby.
>>109135762:(
>>109135762You’ll be okay man, just gotta work on it. Pretty much all of us are in the same boat, you get used to it. Just don’t forget that Piwwos and Pillow both understand how it feels, Pillow would NEVER intentionally exclude someone.
>>109135762>reminder that I'm a pathetic loser with no friends who comes home to a lifeless room to spend all my free time pretending that an internet livestreamer is my GFI've never been able to see it that deep. Even as a long-term viewer when she only did ASMR, when I watch her streams all I see is a cute silly girl playing games.>GFNeedless to say I don't think this is exactly healthy. But if it makes you feel any better this is becoming the new norm, so don't beat yourself up about it too bad.
>>109135627Important to remember that even if she’s not reading your chat aloud, she’s still reading the whole chat. She does the whole “I’m just a 2 year old I can’t spell!” But she actually reads very fast. If she was legitimately just looking at chat and reading out the first thing she sees, she’d end up reading out shit like “Pillow’s feet” before mods could nuke it. She reads everything, then she reads aloud the stuff that is most engaging. Hence why it’s best to chat stuff that’s funny or interesting, instead of just emotes or something small.
>>109135991I’d say the best way to treat her, and the way I see her, is treating her like a gf, with all of the love and attention and care you’d give a gf, but acknowledging that she’s not legitimately your gf. I have zero expectations from her, I treat her as nicely and passionately as I do because I believe she’s a girl who deserves that kind of love.
>>109135885>you get used to it.I've been getting used to it for 22 years...>Pillow would NEVER intentionally exclude someone.That's not it. It's just really unfortunate that nails had to be canceled. I really hope the next one is also in the afternoon.Some headpats from Pillow rn would heal me but I don't want to be an attention whore. She kinda described exactly me when she talked about piwwos who were really excited for nails being disappointed. She later asked how all the piwwos in the chat were feeling. Should I have said I was feeling down? Feels like it would kill the vibe a bit.
>>109136362Man, Im at 23, though admittedly Ive had my fair share of luck with ladies, so it’s not quite the same. My recommendation would be to post something on Twitter about how you’re feeling, but maybe leave out that you’re sad about the nails. Honestly, I think she’s mostly just been REALLY enjoying playing her favorite game with her friends. After all, we basically get to see every time she interacts with her friends. I believe the only person she’s really interacted with much has been Kanna for their Backrooms streams, for at least the past few months. She gets lonely too, even if she does have the attention of the Piwwos, it’s not quite the same. If you post something to #thepiwwos, she’ll see it soon and will fuss over you a bit.
Kinda out of the loop because was at work. Why did the nails not pan out?
>>109137897Mic issues. She had her mic turned around, spent about 20 mins trying to fix it. She gets embarassed pretty easily and hates when things don’t go to plan, so she set the stream to private and just played MC for a bit
>>109137871Oh come on, I'm not Papa November. I have absolutely no problem with the minecraft streams or collabs in general. I guess it's that seeing Pillow having so much fun with her friends gives me some pretty intense FOMO. Not her fault at all. >If you post something to #thepiwwos, she’ll see it soon and will fuss over you a bit.Part of me is extremely tempted by that, but it feels sooo attention whorey. Especially since I've never posted anything personal like that up til now. I'll basically look like a giant crying baby throwing a fit, demanding to receive headpats from the eceleb, at least that's how I see it. I've seen piwwos post stuff like that in the past and receive some sweet wishes from her, and I don't think any less of them for it. Still, it feels like it goes against my nature.Another part of me is also deathly afraid of the possibility of her not seeing it, or even seeing it and ignoring it. That would make me feel 100000000000x worse!!!I think I'll just thug it out for now and try to make something sweet for her birthday. I plan to take a day or two off next week so I definitely won't be missing the streams. Talking about it has already made me feel a bit better, thanks.
>>109137871She doesn't check #thepiwwos all that much. Better to just post with #pillowdear
>>109139054The point of #thepiwwos I thought was to be the more casual one where you put your daily occurences. Mostly to talk to other piwwos rather than Pillow herself, no?
>>109139054That would be even MORE attention whorey no way
>>109138496Good luck, man. I've been through similar emotions before, and yeah it can be difficult. I'm glad to see you're thinking through these situations at least and not impulsively freaking out. That's a good thing to reach out to people about your feelings when you can't handle it, even if it's to retards like us who constantly fight each other. My advice for you is to really find that safe distance between yourself and the community. I personally stopped engaging in the Twiter side of the community as I found it was getting too much for me.And thank you for not taking that piwwos advice of making Pillow "fuss over you." This is insane, CJ and PapaNovember-tier advice holy fuck. That kinda shit is selfish as hell, not only to other piwwos but to Pillow.
I started having lewd dreams about her again
>>109139553>That kinda shit is selfish as hell, not only to other piwwos but to Pillow.When you put it like that, yeah it's definitely not a good idea lol.Although it still makes me INSANELY jealous whenever I see Pillow reply to a piwwo venting their feelings without even tagging their tweet. Sometimes I wish I had zero self-awareness. It seems to have a couple upsides.
I suspect that pillow mostly responds to those tweets, not because she’s deliberately stalking them, but because her feed is making those tweets show up. Usually those interactions are with piwwos who post stuff in her tags
>>109141382Piwwos do definitely show up in fyp sometimes. I repost a lot of cute animals and I’ve had some one-off likes to my reposts from her, which usually means something made it to the fyp.
>>109063423what did she read
>>109139054As someone who posts a lot to #ThePiwwos, she absolutely does check it often. She loves seeing piwwos interacting.
>>109135762maybe I'm delusional but for me it's the oppositehaving pillow wife helps me stay motivated and excited for another day
>>109140100>againshould be daily occurrence desu
>>109143124For me it's motivating to a point, but then there's the feeling that there's only so much I can do and at the end of the day I'm always just going to be one piwwo who, sure, she'd be sad to lose, but matters to her only as much as any other.
pillow could write all of you individual love letters and there would still be venting and not having enoughsome anons can never be happy
I sympathise with the guy who was disappointed about the nail painting stream. I'm almost 25, which is closer to my 30s than my teens. No friends, never had a girlfriend. Pillow makes me happy, but there's a sadness that comes with it.I've been trying to get piwwos to open up more by posting to #ThePiwwos. I know you want the attention of Pillow, not other piwwos, but I'd like to hear from you. I've had some nice interactions with other piwwos and it genuinely does cheer me up to receive nice messages from them. Pillow does check that tag and it makes her happy to see us looking out for each other. I understand not wanting to come off as needy or attention-seeking, but you can word your message in a way that it isn't. She wants to know if piwwos are feeling down. It might even motivate her to do something for them, like an extra love-bomby ASMR stream.
>>109143297Yes, of course.I will never be happy until I am bound and gagged in a dark, dingy room and violently sexually assaulted by Pillow for the rest of my living days.Simple as that.
>>109143297Yeah, one of the primary things men get from relationships is the validation of being chosen by a woman to be special to her. Pillow could be raising kids with me and going on dates with me, it still wouldn’t be the same as a real relationship ship if she was doing that with every single other Piwwo. There’s a reason why cuck is an insult.
>>109143297Of course there would. We clearly just want her to be our girlfriend. I'm very appreciative of everything that she does; she's the best oshi that I could ask for. But it's never going to be the same as an intimate romantic relationship. Which is fine, I don't expect that from her, but I am gonna be sad about it and yearnpost.Venting is fine as long as you don't turn bitter and blame Pillow for your being a lonely kissless loser.
>>109143355I'm a oldfag wizard chud incel, but having pillow is enough for me in everyway possibleI have only one wish - to protect pillow's smile
>>109143374same and real
>>109143408You explained it very well.
>>109143408>>109143445that's why I don't use social media and mainly consume VODshelps to keep up the illusion
>>109143355Yeah, I appreciate what you do, though admittedly I find it hard to get involved in stuff other Piwwos do. I tend to just be focused on whatever I’m working on.
>>109143514Thanks piwwo.
>>109143408I hope your post doesn't imply that you think that other gachikoi piwwows are inherent "cucks"
>>109143512Honestly I usually find the opposite. Older VODs I don’t have any attachment to, but I tend to be sad listening to her ASMR during the parts after I fell asleep. The possessive part of me wishes she’d be doing ASMR just for me.
>>109143564It doesn't.
>>109143445>as you don't turn bitter and blame Pillowspeaking of the devil I noticed that papa november has blocked medid he do it with all the piwwows?
>>109143612I don't know, I've never checked up on him.
>>109143630Isn’t he the former Piwwo who changed to being one of Alekirser’s body oilers? That evolution is always interesting to me. Bro couldn’t get pussy from Pillow so he swapped to a girl who doles that shit out.
>>109143630probably for the betternowadays when I see venting piwwo I just have instant allergic reaction because I'm afraid it could turn worse and negatively emotionally effect pillow
>>109143725>Alekirseryou can't be serious KEKthat's OF model tier embarrassing...
>>109143738Best to try and moderate that down, the better way to think of it is that it’s better for Piwwos to vent on here than anywhere else, and those feelings are always going to be prevalent because GFE attracts lonely dudes down on their luck.
>>109143760She seems like a nice girl, but the idea of a lewdtuber oshi just seems embarrassing. “I like to pretend that the online prostitute is my girlfriend.”
It's time to save Gotham!
>>109143862that's why I only wank to some lewdtuber content, but nothing more
>>109144056from whom?
>>109144203If you watch Pillow enough pornography should disgust you.
>>109144222The Androids!
Missing her hands, gestures and mannerisms terribly
>>109144330There'll be a next time piwwo
>>109144277So true, king. (I make porn professionally)
>>109144277I watched pillow ever since one of her first ASMR vidsall that time didn't make my libido go down despite aging significantly I have only pure thoughts of pillow though, trust me
>>109144330samebut enduring for pillow makes her return so much sweeter
>>109144754Oh I understand that, but Pillow being so sweet and wholesome makes me feel even more gross when I indulge those feelings.
>>109144780Who drew that
>>109145119Pillowhttps://x.com/pillowdearASMR/status/2017776690626240710
On your break at work. Pillow prepared lunch for you and she secretly put >>109144780 in with your lunch which she drew in the morning whilst you were getting ready.
>>109144780I hope she keeps pink hair and wings for redesignat this point it's iconic
>>109145551She's keeping the pink hair for that reason, and the wings I think. I'm sad that she didn't go with brown like she was considering, but I understand why.
>>109145324My fantasy is to have a nice garage workshop, with a lock on the door. 95% of the time, it’s unlocked, but she knows that if it’s locked, that means I’m working on something secret for her. I want to learn how to blow and mold glass, to make her a bouquet of glass Baby’s Breath and Sweey Asylums. A representation of my passions, they never decay and they never rot.
>>109145625It honestly pisses me off how good you are at this lol
>>109145625cute
>>109145636Sorry buddy, I just think Pillow deserves the world. The purpose of a man’s rough hands is to grab the world and bend it into being softer for the woman he loves. The purpose of a man’s broad shoulders is so that he is strong enough to carry the burdens of others. I just really like Pillow.
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