it's been a full year since gumpai "graduated" and i'm still not okay. genuinely struggling with it.she'd hop in vc after her 9-5, open mic so everyone could talk/chill/share about our day, real back-and-forth, not muted like most VTubers do. it felt like we were actually part of her life. then at night the sleep calls, her just being there until we all passed out.sharing pics (she'd react and comment genuinely), getting horny together on discord for free. she'd even save our nudes in her special folder like it was casual fun. more real interaction than any of my irl exes or fiancée ever gave. people hate her, she was a terrible person and retarded in a lot of ways, but she was fucking fun. never a boring day with her around.most gfe stuff is paywalled behind fansly tiers, she was the only one who kept it free and real in the group space. she did create a fansly near the end of her run because some viewers asked for it as a side thing, but it was unrelated to what she gave on discord, she made way more from throne anyway.elfin was the closest i found: edgy, spoke her mind, joined open vc with viewers, even sexted some privately. but she still acted more like a normal vtuber (not fully open and horny with everyone there), so it never felt as judgment-free as gumpai's space where you could just be horny or show love for her without getting called out or feeling weird about it. i don't need an exact clone, just someone with even a fraction of that free/intimate/no-shame energy. any indies out there kind of similar, or recommendations?not bait or drama, just venting after a year of this and hoping to find people who get it, miss her too, or have found something that comes close. itt: share your thoughts.
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>>109536318i would buy much more if it meant her coming back but it's not happening
she was a whore like everyone else.
>>109536589that's a positive for me, i don't think you read the post
>>109536296Hey anon, never watched your oshi and mine has a complete different vibe but I want to let you know from one stranger to another that you're not alone.I'm also struggling with the sensation of being abandoned by my oshi after feeling we were truly sharing our lives. Like I was important to her. And now she's not there and I'm out in the cold depressed and frustrated as hell.Good luck out there anon.
>>109536296crazy bitch should stay gone
>>109536770thanks anon. that really hits home. the abandonment feeling is the worst part, like you mattered and then suddenly you're just left out in the cold. depressed and frustrated as hell is exactly it. knowing i'm not the only one carrying this makes it a tiny bit easier to breathe.you're not alone either. hope we both find something that brings back even a little of that warmth someday. good luck to you too, take care.
>>109536296>one of gumapis favorite vtubers was lia>one of elfins favorite vtuebrs was lumiit always goes back to phase connect
>>109537608i just watched lia's valentine stream and damn, it's crazy that i can see gumpai in her, the influence is real. i'm not even a fat guy but the bit where she talked about wanting us to be fat brought me some good memories. i probably should've checked her out way earlier, she seems fun.
>>109539012Did gumpai ever tell her chat in honesty that she hates their guts? She even did it during an expensive valentines 3d the madman
>>109540681i don't remember gumpai being as funny or witty, i'll be honest. her being retarded and not knowing how to speak was one of her main selling points, and her voice of course.
>>109537608lol
This girl had confirmed BPD or some Cluster B PD didnt she? Every lonely guy who interacts with a BPD girl gets fully mindbroken like this because they just know exactly what you want and how you want it. No filters whatsoever, its like the honeymoon in a normal relationship but dialed 100x in intensity and sometimes in duration.
>>109537608>here, let me be phase connect minus the tard wranglingand people are upset at them hammer dropping jelly why?
>>109537608And Mel Nekomata's favorite was Pippa. Noticing a pattern kek
>>109543280That's bullshit but i believe it
I do not care that she had a bf has long has she showed her body to me
>>109543472i don't care if she shows her body or has a bf as long as she brings the discord back and hangs out there every other day.
>>109536296this was the femcel paki racist vtuber or a different one?
>>109544012That was Elfin (who came back as expected.) This was the og.
>>109536296I know she broke up with the pink guy a long time ago, is she still with the replacement?
>>109542241she definitely had something going on as she was constantly self sabotaging and even banning some of her oilers just to prove she can ban anyone if they say something she doesn't like. a lot of people there knew she was a mess but she kept us company on discord like no other while having a normal full time job and streaming.
>>109544216how would we know, she hasn't had an online presence since the failed comeback attempt
>>109536296Yeah, my best friend is going through that right now. I'm trying to help him. He'll get through this, but I don't think he'll ever watch a VTuber again. Those evil sluts enjoy playing with their victims' feelings and then trash them as soon as they're no longer useful. Why do they do it? revenge? Can't they just take revenge on the people who hurt them instead of doing it to strangers who had nothing to do with it and are just looking for some affection? I don't know, screw them.>>109542241This explains quite a bit, in fact.
Gumpai is a radfem and a frequenter of lolcow, she did it all on purpose as a message to men that this grift is in fact harmful. It was all a social experiment to her. She is on her next social experiment. She has an extreme obsession with incel culture and the male brain.
Fuck madeleine I hope she stays gone. It’s a year later and I’m still fucked up from what she did to all of us. She’s fucking evil and I wish her the worst.
>>109536296I remember making weird comments at her when she still had her old model and I got permanently banned for it, but I swear that awakened something in her.
>>109545349Grown ass man acting like a victim
After Gumpai I found pillowdear and she’s the most genuine sweetest vtuber I’ve seen. And she actually loves her fans. Unlike Gumpai who says she loves her fans and thought of them as friends/boyfriends only to discard them so easily on a random Tuesday and never look back. Even if you showed loyalty to her after the boyfriend thing she didn’t care. She just threw us all away. None of it mattered in the end. She never thought of us as anything more than people to toy with and ruin.
>>109536296it's a shame you can never really have this kind of vtuber without them blowing themselves up within a year unless they tame themselves and become a marketable plushie like everyone else.
>>109545381She was older than me. I am a victim. She mind raped me.
Can a brother give me a qrd?
>>109536296Didn’t someone off themselves because of her? LMAO
watch vaipyre instead, sound similar but she’s more stabler twitch.tv/vaipyre
>>109545424yea i don't think she ever really cared for us but she still spent most of her time in vc so i'm sure she enjoyed the attention to some extent. i know lots of other vtubers that are sweet and remember their fans but i miss her company the most, regardless of her being a terrible person or not
>>109545633You remember how rough January/december was last year? She stopped talking to us because she was hanging out with her boyfriend. She made it seem like it was our fault that she never joined vc but she really just wanted to hang out with vatrance. Even if she came back she wouldn’t hang out with you, she’d be with him.
>>109545494yea i remember talking to that person and he was really struggling. it's clear she didn't give a shit and it's fucked up that i still can't replace her despite getting into actual irl relationships.
>>1095454940 proof
>>109545562retsu/vai is just as mentally ill as gumpai but has a higher iq she also has a bf
>>109542241>Every lonely guy who interacts with a BPD girl gets fully mindbrokenTrue. BPD women are the closest thing to demons you can encounter in a day to day situation.
someone post her fansly posts, i need to gump my jorts
>>109545562will keep an eye out, thanks!
>>109545714nice bait, she has no reason to come back if she wants to be with him to begin with. her success came from being very active on discord, she knows anything else wouldn't bring her any money or attention
reminder his aspwhore had a good boyfriend who also streamed and she broke up with him, posting a huge tumblr rant about how she wanted to be loved only by her fans and look where it got herstupid whore
>>109546579Yeah that was a fucking lie. She was good at that. Lying. Up to the very end.
>tfw my oshi loves me and her other fansFeels good man
>>109546579>had a good boyfriend who also streamed and she broke up with himThey broke up because she overheard him telling his mother that gumpai is a crazy bitch
>>109546825not so far from the truth it seems like
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>>109536296my only interaction with her was my oshi replied to her tweet one time and she melted down and tried to cancel her, so i don't exactly miss that
>>109551684The internet is definitely better off without her. She’s a woman straight out of nightmares. Genuinely the worst person I’ve ever met.
As a person who has known her since her /asp/ era with her ex, I wish she was medicated
>>109537608>Gumpai liked her>another small corpo vtuber with schizophrenia lied saying she was lia's literal sister to get a job and it worked what is it about Lia that attracts mental illness?
is there an archive for the streams she did when she came back as the new persona? they were fun
Terumi was my favorite mentally ill vtuber. I really enjoyed her candid alt account streams
>>109552687Why didn't Terumi do the Lumi stream?
>>109536296QRD? NTR?
>>109536296most """vtubers"""will hop on vc with an open mic. only real vtubers won't do that
>vc for hours >sleeping on call>casual dick pics >huge whore in a serverUnironically just get a discord kitten(18 or over).
OP I hate to admit it but I understand you on some really weird level, despite never watching her. Crazy whores are fun. Maybe I'm admitting I'm a victim of what >>109542241 is describing. The way they can destroy you can also make you feel aliveI don't think we're ever gonna find the same experience again. Girls like that come and go. I'm taking your word, because I know women like her also like chewing men up and spitting them out and i don't mean this sexually. We learn to move on.
>>109558878Nah mate, 99% of the time girls are just cunts and backstabbers. Bpd isn't that common
>>109558878are they a flip?
>>109559143She was white, european, and rich.
