>>5959317
I have been trying to find this video fr a while now... Thank you.

>>5959455
Again

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the lyrics speak to me

>>5959548
Fly high sky king.

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>>5959706
Wrong file
Whoops

i keep coming to these threads hoping to see something more than a video with music played over it
but there never is

>>5959890
this is lovefool btw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NI6aOFI7hms

>>5960664
Well what else are you looking for?

>>5959706
Anyone knows which German march is used as a base for this song? Can't really find anything, since my German isn't that good.

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>>5960962
Grün ist unser Fallschirm is the original song and the remix is referred to as Fallschirmjäger remix

>>5959542
>>5959508
>>5959509
>>5959520
omg this is so deep. you should also check out r/thisisdeep

>>5959534
Nice.

>>5959617
Nice.

>>5960892
Nice.

>>5959536
Nice.

>>5959528
yep it's not nostalgia
life was truly better even in seemingly meaningless aspects such as going with friends to lan dota after school

>>5959542
source for edit pls

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If you're reading this, (You) are champagne.

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>>5959530

>>5962101
Fucking based this made me feel so much better somehow

>>5960614
Im really sorry im bad at texting first. I smile like a retard every time someone messages me, most of my friends are people who just wont stop messaging me even when i never start the convo. I hope you'll know you never did anything wrong, im just retarded. T. The person you're mad at

only reason why I prefer the hell hole of gif over wsg feels is. the cringiest stuff can be posted in these ones

Does anyone have that video of a guy screaming / crying about being alone and an incel over a video of ducks?

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Everything in my life is going well I have a beautiful wife i have a decent job I make money but still this feeling never leaves. As the years go by and this melancholy never seems to fully fade. Even on the best of days it's still their. Idk maybe trying to kill yourself at a young age ruins your brain forever

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I don't think I'd kill myself anymore but i don't think id move out of the way of a car. I feel I'm cursed for life to be depressed. The world gets worse every day and their is no future

>>5962830
This is the worst video I have ever seen in my life.

>>5960892
How do you guys steer away from engaging is self destructive acts? I'm trying to avoid drinking or any other vices, but some days, it becomes hard to see the point of it all.

>>5962832
Same, but our type rarely kills themselves. People who kill themselves usually are normies that do it impulsive. Like losing their job, a break up, etc...
If you're numb you don't have the drive for anything including killing yourself

>>5963061
Personally I cut 1 bad habit by a time. Smoking, drinking, binging soda, stuffing pizza's, whatever... Always be replacing it by something (more) healthy. It's always hard at first, but I know that when you hold on (and its fine to have a slip) the good habbit will take over the bad habbit eventually. It's all about conditioning, you can condition yourself for anything.

I only drink water and deca coffee now, no fastfood or anything - just healthy food made from scratch.
I have a cheat day where I eat fries and pie because you still need to get some dopamine to keep you going, but I never will "treat" myself if my body is craving it because that's a bad habbit that wants to get back on top.

I'm now working on excercising which is pretty hard because im not replacing a bad by a good habbit here but creating a new one.

>>5962828
Faggot hands wrote this. Youre on a board for hopeless incels like me. I have a whole universe hiding inside my autistic head and im utterly incapable of sharing it with anyone, man or woman. and im 5’8 and balding besides. You owe it to miserable bastards like me to shut the fuck up and be happy. Cause id trade places dick face. Melancholy is for people with too much time on their hands.

>>5963620
>Melancholy is for people with too much time on their hands
this is oddly inspiring

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When will we be forgiven from trying?

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>>5963746
Why is it never us?

>>5963747
Man this shit never stops hurting to watch

>>5962832
>>5963502
I'm like Deadpool, God doesn't let me die. Dodged death like 10 times or so, once reached Heaven and they were like no bro you still gotta do this thing

>>5962832
>>5963502
Out of curiosity, what is the reason you guys are like that? Loss of someone? Otherwise anything is fixable

>>5959508
Thanks for posting this anon, I needed a good laugh

Not sure if this is the place to mention it, but recently I found out there's a trend of YouTube videos featuring greentexts of alleged feminists coming to understand that men have it hard too, but the posts featured are fake as hell (no visible date or post number, surpassed character limit, mentions of nonexistent Twitter posts, the posts can't be found in archives). What's up with that?

>>5959509
The man's grunts/cries are soundbites ripped from Swords and Sandals 2. I'd recognize them anywhere

>>5959317
There's this webm of this guy on this motorbike getting chased, he eventually gives up, stops the bike getting off and picks up the sand with his hands until the police apprehend him. There's this techno song playing throughout it - I think it's deathgrips

Does anyone have it? Losing my fucking mind to see it again since I didn't save it to my new PC

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>>5963875
People want to think there's still a form of like "karma/justice" you could say, where the evil realize their wrongs they either reform or suffer under the burden of their own sins. It's somewhat similar to "Bullies end up as losers later in life" it gives people hope. That's my interpretation at least

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>>5959694
That almost made me cry

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>>5962828
It's all relative. The general decline or stagnation of psychological well-being seems to have a large genetic component. Simply having material or personal success isn't necessarily going to guarantee happiness. You describe your job as decent, is there something you'd rather be doing?

Nevertheless, you have made it farther than many others anon, keep at it. If possible, I hope you find that last piece that you're missing.

>>5959509
song sauce?

>>5964400
the "success" sentiment always reminds me of the Midas story, You think you want 'gold' but it will become the source of all your pain.
I understand that it's a story about greed but i always thought Midas could just be a depressive, who spent their entire life thinking "this would fix everything, if only i could have 'x'" but when you finally get a taste of it, the emptiness and disappointment is ruinous

>>5964400
I’m always grateful I realized this before getting in the rat race. I know having lots of money and a family and anything material really won’t make me happy so I’m not going to waste my life and time grinding to get things I don’t even want just because society told me I should

>>5959890
looooooool kill yourself TCOAL FAGGOT!!!

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you faggots should kill yourselves man up stop being sad

So many faggots infiltrating this thread
make your own ffs, why ruin threads

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>>5959893

>>5962101
waste of 5 minutes

>>5959537
saved. No idea what hes singing but it struck something

>>5963746
The actor for Marty was a total slut though

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>>5960596
Man, I wish I could be twenty again. Then again, I'd probably not do any better a second time around.
>>5964970
She seems fun.

Vidrel is on my mind lately. From the same channel the 'anemoia' video is from that get's reposted here occasionally, only checked it out because I saw it here. Kind of a shitty encode, should have probably just made the resolution smaller.

>>5962101
Great movie.

>>5963620
>You owe it to miserable bastards like me to shut the fuck up and be happy. Cause id trade places dick face. Melancholy is for people with too much time on their hands.
Not that anon but this is quite the cope. I'm not particularly ugly but it was still over before it started for me (bullied relentlessly from age 7) and even though I experienced having a girlfriend at one point, if anything it only made me realize just how far removed from normal human experience and emotion I am. I could never function as a normie.
Am I materially better off than you for having at least experienced it? Yes. Is this >>5962828 anon materially better off than me for having a wife and a job (while I'm a useless, unemployed 38 year old schizoid caring for his elderly parents)? Yes. Does that actually matter in the context of a feels thread on a cameroonian orangutan appreciation website? No.
Don't be so quick to judge your fellow anon.

>>5963907
its more likely a popular SFX pack that they used just like HOMaM3 SFX in south park

>>5961523
I agree that was all pretty sappy and low tier.
>>5959522
This is what we're talking about. Actual realistic things, not things that ritalin children of high class households consider bad, like actually working a job and failing to make any friends at all in 20 years like some kind of fucking hateful retard.

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>>5959890
full version, sounds a bit different though

>>5964515
>song sauce?
Guided by Voices - Game of Pricks

>>5966580
should've saved a boolet

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>>5967409
Hear an assortment of these clips everyday on my work playlist. It makes me want to watch the show just so I can see his character arc. I heard other anons say just S1 is worth watching.

>>5968269
Is that a girl pretending to be his daughter?

>>5962828
Read Burton's Anatomy of Melancholy.

how do i go from just knowing how over my life is to actually having the will to kill myself

>>5968389
Guessing its a matter of gradually losing all lingering attachment and fear. For me most of it comes down to my parents still being alive and both of them needing care. After that the only thing really keeping me would be an innate self-preservation instinct, but that probably won't last very long when I see that my options boil down to either endlessly slave waging just to keep a roof over my head, no friends, no family, no possibility of any real human connection (because I'm literally incapable of it at this point, and so are most other people), just enduring constant humiliation purely to stay alive. Or begging for welfare, again enduring constant humiliation just to stay alive.
Then again, part of me does thrive on spite so if nothing else staying alive just to spite normies also has a certain appeal. Not sure how far that can get you.

Anyone else totally out of it? I turned 28 and have got nothing to show for it in terms of social "accomplishments" or anything aside from academical and financial success. I have managed to ruin every friendship I ever had. I have no family left either. For half my childhood I was I was sexually abused on a weekly basis by an older female friend of the family, the mother of a boy I used to play football with. She groomed me and did everything that might cross your mind when you think of "sexual abuse". After a couple of years I finally managed to tell someone about it, which happened to be one of my sisters. She then also started taking advantage of me but in a much more loving manner. Rather than out of her own lust and desire it was more so done to help me cope, I think. Not sure. Of course that too left a mark on me but the memories of us together are mostly warm unlike the ones with that woman. Anyway when I turned 16 I told one of my homeroom teachers about what I had been doing with that woman which was for almost half my life at that point. It became a huge story in my small town. Plastered all over the newspapers etc. My family are a rather traditionally oriented bunch, upper-class White. So not White trash as you might have thought to yourself reading all this. My parents never once showed me any warmth afterwards, they never even brought it up as to play make believe. Believing that if it isn't talked about at the dinner table, it might as well never have happened. My brother did try to get me to open up to him, but I was too stubborn to do so which eventually got him to back off too.
I moved out at 18 and would only seem them every now and then, at family gatherings and such. It's only a year ago that the story my sister and I became public. My sister is a married woman with 4 children, a husband that provides for them too as a proper man of the house would and as far as I could tell, their relationship was rock solid. This was until she and I started "

hooking up" again. "Only" a handful of times in the last couple of years or so. A year ago I met this lovely girl who I thought was the one, which led me to try and steer clear of my sister. I remember visiting her place one evening, on the birthday of my niece. After I had played with the kids for a little bit they were sent off to bed. Her husband was out somewhere, not home. As soon as I tried to bring it up to her, tryint to tell her that it would be better for the both of us if we put and end to all this, she got all mad up and told me to my face that if I did that she would tell my parents about everything and also make sure to mention how I had forced her to do these things with me. Even all the times it happened when I was only 12 and she 18. I was in such shock that I didn't know what to make of it. She then turned into her old usual sweet self, and got closer to me. One thing led to the other, and we ended up doing it that night again. A couple of weeks later I did cut ties with her. That's when she went to our parents and told her side of the story. Her being a woman and me a man, they took her side. And it's not as if my parents had any warm feelings about me anyway. Shortly after my parents decided to disown me. I would've been fine with that if only it wasn't for the fact that they also forbade my siblings to stay in touch with me. A couple of months later the girl I was with also decided to end things. I've been pretty lonely ever since. All I do these days is work, come home, head to the gym and then head home again to read a bit before I call it a night. Sometimes I sit there staring at the wall for hours on end. I'm very careful with the way I carry myself in public, at work for example no one would ever know that my life is a large void. I do not show it on my face. I feel as if it's actually over for me. I find it hard to trust women, or be with them. Sorry for this messy wall of text. I won't ever kill myself but life just isn't "fun".

>>5968809
Tell your family to kill themselves and move on, start a new hobby or activity and make new friends from it. In 5 to 20 years you will be over it. In the meanwhile jack off to porn until you feel sane enough to start a new relationship.

>>5959317
>I'm sad give me sympathy
>entire world view is based on mistreatment of groups of people
It's so crazy how they can't see the parallels of their own suffering while exercizing the midtreatment of others.

ive been looking for an edit using keep pushng on by john maus, anyone got it?

>>5968994
>entire world view is based on mistreatment of groups of people
wut? that is one big assumption

>>5968306
He would rather have a pretend daughter than his irl piece of shit son.

>>5967405
You know the song that's playing over it anon?
Shazam doesn't say anything.

Also, got any more of this fuel?

Sorry I can't contribute, my shit got nuked.

>>5969074
>>5968306
He has a daughter you retards and thats her.

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>>5959534
song name please

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>>5969906
Damnit I didn't realise it got cut off

>>5969378
Trevor Something Fade Away with some reverb added.

>>5968204
S1 is the only Season of True Detective I've seen and its definitely worth watching. 10/10 from me personally.

>>5969948
i like this one

>>5959317
Yep, life sucks!

>>5959526
He rapes or gets raped too.

>>5961791
Dota? Lol fag.

>>5959317
Anybody got the one where the guy is talking about growing up without much help and feeling like you're watching all your peers swim off to these great lives while you're just stuck in a life raft with no idea what to do?

>>5963765
People are disgusting creatures of mamipulation and evil. Society is basically a group of terrible people that agrees on the type of evil they prefer. It's okay to treat certain kinds of people bad. I'm autistic or something, but sonewhat attractive I assume by the advances I receive. I get turned off by women who obviously want sex. It's just like an animal. I don't get turned on by animals in heat. I had a connection I thought, but it was sexual. I fucked her well. I got depressed from friends getting killed and kind of withdrew. She started fucking around right away. I had a bunch of other run ins with hyper sexual women that liked me for sex. It's just empty. She loves me until I make her orgasm then I'm just a piece of shit. If she cheats then I'm always a piece of shit. I let people treat me however they want and when they start treating me bad I just disconnect 100% and feel nothing anymore. I currently have 0 connections. It's not lonely. I don't like any of you. I'm just here. I used to try to help people, but not anymore. I don't give advice or try to hrar stories etc. It's just, "That's cool" "That's crazy" "Oh wow" "No way" "Really?". I give nobody any part of me anymore. I keep the things I care about safe now. I don't hand it to society and let them destroy it and rebuild it how they want. I reject society and the future. I will not reproduce. People like me don't deserve to be treated terribly, and I won't let my children suffer through it nor let them help yours. Society doesn't deserve help. It deserves exactly what it is going to get. Abandonment by those that cared to those that destroy. The world will be birth defects, polluted water and wildlife, cannibalism, and grotesque infections and diseases. The last humans will be fucking and devouring their own family as long as they can survive lol. Mongoloid disfigured incest cannibals will be the ruling class and people will flee to death in the wilderness, because the animals are all dead.

>>5968389
You don't. It's lame. Why make a mess for sonebody to clean up as your last act on earth? Don't be a dick.

>>5959548
F

>>5971240
>Mongoloid disfigured incest cannibals will be the ruling class
that's a fancy way of describing jews

>>5969932
Does anyone know what Bowden speech this is from?

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>>5961238
Stop spying on me

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>>5962495
>Filming himself doing it
This is exactly what's wrong with everything

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>>5968260
More soulful version

>>5968274
Fuck man. I sent this exact clip to my dad right before he died of cancer this year. Told him it reminded me of our relationship, and he said that it was beautiful.

Fuck. Fuck.

>>5971901
That's beautiful. Truly. I hope he didn't suffer, and I'm sorry for your loss.

>>5961791
Source on the song? It's an edit of Mobb Deep Shook One's part 2

>>5959530
such a great show

>>5969932
Desire - Under Your Spell

>>5963061
I just don't do it because I've never done it before

>>5971778
>soulful version
>shitty video filters

>>5963765
It’s not loss of someone per se it’s more a giving of yourself. Losing who you were. Wondering where that kind curious 7 year old kid you once were went.

>>5972876
It looks like actual camera footage instead of being obviously from a movie which makes it way more soulful.

>>5973172
No it looks like someone put a video filter over it. It's prentious as fuck and ruins it.

>>5963911
i don't have the webm anymore but here a link to the video if it's the right one

https://youtu.be/Dv4A6fEyjn0?si=cOoVsamkUzcTwcVw

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>>5962832

>>5969079
Motherfucking insurance ad got me in the fucking feels. Goddamnit

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>>5968204

Right now, at the moment, I don't even feel depressed but extreme dread, I feel unwell.

>>5963765
If I knew then I wouldn't be like this

>>5960596
music?

>>5963061
things hurt every day, physically and emotionally, no matter how much i try to improve my mental condition i'm bottlenecked by my physical illness that i don't understand
so i avoid vices and self destruction out of necessity because i don't want to make things any possibly worse than it already is and damage my already loose thread connecting me to happiness

>>5964599
what even is this and why does it make me feel like i've forgotten something?

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So tired of being lonely. I've got so many things in order and FINALLY going right. More muscular than ever in my life, wealthier than ever too for the same reason. Instead of getting more social interaction I either don't exist or people stare at me like I have something disgusting or offensive on my face. I catch people doing it all the time and nobody tells me what's wrong. They just stare with a nasty look on their face until I leave. I know I'm not ugly but it sure makes me feel like I am. I know I'm not wearing an ugly expression either. Alongside that nobody talks to me unless they're obligated to one way or another. I feel like I was born to be alone at this point. I'm doing all the things that are supposed to get women interested and just like everyone else I'm invisible or I get that stare.

I'm supposed to be happier than ever right now because of my own successes but I feel worse than ever instead. I got to have a taste of happiness, now I'm deeper in the abyss than I was before.

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>>5962828
>Beautiful wife
>Decent job
You won in life brother.
Perhaps you're missing a spiritual component of what fundamentally makes us human.
Reconnect with the Lord.
If like me you need proof of the spiritual realm, do a dry-fast for 3 days (build up to it by doing 1 day fasts once or twice a month)
When you do your dry-fast, pray (even if you don't believe) to God the Father as if he existed. Dedicate the fast to him.
You will be attacked by demons towards the end of your fast and you will no longer be a non-believer.

>>5967405
cute <3

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>>5962765

>>5963765
For me, it's just that constant permanent loss looms over everything. And if you are really unlucky, you can live to lose a lot. Not just people passing away, but the loss of innocence, loss of childhood, loss of friends drifting away, loss of memories, even loss of treasured items. You lose some things forever and there's no going back. Time waits for no one and everything is so transient, I just end asking myself "What's the point?” a lot. I tried the different copes people have come up with to deal with this but nothing sticks. It's a gloomy way to look at life, but it still the truth. The good times are like ad breaks until the next bad times. I've been like this since high school.

>>5975375
Surprisingly good advice.

Religion is a nasty cope tho.
I prayed every single day for years for the good of my father and he ended up in prison for years.
I tried to cope and think that God put him in prison to protect him from a worse fate but why do that when He could soften his heart as he hardened Pharaoh's?
And why do I gotta cope with this shit when there are people born into an easy life where their parents are good and kind and not callous criminals?

>>5968264
Fuck dude. Bebop is too much some days.

>>5963061
Moderation. I'm an alcoholic that can usually control my drinking by establishing certain steps. I'm never going to beat it this way and I don't want to. A prospect of a permanently sober life sounds as much fun as pulling my teeth out, no lube.

>>5965782
Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows
Good stuff, I hadn't seen this one, thought he quit years ago.

>>5973326
Holy fucking shit anon, thank you so much. In my head the music sounded different than I remembered

Appreciate it immensely

>>5975375
I've been married for 10 years and bought a house in the countryside on an acre after working many years as a programmer.
Now I'm doing jack shit. Not because I got bank, rather the contrary. Why tje,? Because it all means nothing. The only thing that matters is family and health. And work is always a negative trade off, you always lose. Nobody on their deathbed ever regretted free time, they only regret working too much, not being their for their family, not doing what they love...

You don't lose in life. You don't win in life.
First of all, what defines "winning at life" is different for everyone. The image of "winning at life" is different based on the environment you're part of. I

2nd, you live the only life you could have.
Your choices aren't really choices, your brain already choses before your conciousness does.
These choices, your life, is based on your genes and environment, none of which you had a say in.

>>5959317
Ii will never get any better.
Trust me.
I have a wife that loves me and does everything she can to makes me happy.
I have a daughter, we share a nice relationship.
Still, I feel empty, alone, tired.
Spare yourself another disappointment, this is not a remedy.
There is none.
Get used to it.
Hide it.
Pretend.
You will fall asleep alone, and you will wake up alone.
If any rest you may find.

>>5965092
a glass of vodka on the table
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6JsNEKvfuU
https://genius.com/Grigory-leps-a-glass-of-vodka-on-the-table-lyrics

>>5960596
>Regrets mounting
The only way to live without regrets is to stop regretting. Taking a risk and having it go badly hurts a lot too. If you let yourself care what was in the mystery box, you'll never be happy no matter what you got.
You've noticed by now that obsessing over a mistake isn't helping you do better next time. So just stop doing it and you're instantly better off.
You want to change your life, fine, do it. Shitting all over your past self isn't going to help with that you just have to actually do it.

Do social relationships like friendships and whatnot go out with age? I'm 20 and have practically no social life now, basically zero friends. my old highschool friends dont want to even talk to me and I'm not ever invited to anything and I'm struggling to make friends at university. I think I have one friend I keep in touch with but we live far from each other.

>>5968994
4channite feels thread anons were way less radical and less interested in politics, you silly little thing. Radicalization on the whole website on both sides of the spectrum happened because no one but the top 5% of anons got a gf/wife and kids. Even the homos at /lgbt/ became radical leftists today because no other homo (probably ultra-giga normalfag gay kind of people) was willing to settle for them romantically speaking. Literally the last non-radicalized anons are the biological women lurking and posting on this website, especially /cgl/ which used to be filled with radical feminists 10 years ago.

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>>5977175
bullshit. I have chosen my life and though I lament the circumstances I find because of my choice, I do not regret my choice. I could have easily chosen differently for it was a difficult choice and perhaps part of me does regret it for it was a burdensome price. You're not just your genes and your environment. You're a soul that has a choice.

I have won in what I was trying to do, but lost that which I actually wanted the most, I made a choice

>>5975306
Normalfags are envious little shits that don't even like to see the light in your eyes.

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>>5975306
I can't express how much I relate to you Anon. Having spent all this time to get my life together and feeling like it didn't amount to anything. At a time I felt like I had recovered from my loneliness. I spent years on improving myself and my social life seemed have finally gotten better. But then I hit a wall and everything I built over the years crumbles. The fast majority of the time people just don't seem to care. I cope by telling myself much of this is cyclical but at times the copium is no longer hitting. Now things are finally looking more bright after a long depressive episode. There is a girl that is finally showing interest in me even if it is as mere friends. No matter how hopeless it all seems someone will come along I promise. You got to keep trying and put yourself out there.

And then there are the stares people give as if they can tell you are lonely but those people don't really deserve your time or energy to socialize with in the first place. Imagine seeing someone struggling and you make fun of them instead of helping them. That is essentially what these people are like whether they are aware of it or not.

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>>5977935
>No matter how hopeless it all seems someone will come along I promise

Not him, but please don't create a habit of feeding wishful thinking copes to people, it may soften the pain now, but this is the kind of thing that can hurt more down the road, when the reality hits. There are still good and humble people out there that you can meet, but there is no law of the universe that makes sure that everyone finds a partner, friends and lives happy forever. Every person is different, people have different lives and that is okay, you are not worse than others and not necessarily doing something wrong.

I know very well how loneliness and social exclusion can hurt, but I wish people had been more real with me, instead of feeding copes and typical normie bs.

Not saying your should give up and kill yourself, keep self improving and doing whatever you want, but everyone should be ready for the possibility of not achieving everything and not living the peak normie life they see others living. I read once that society should teach boys how to lose and how to deal with failure, but instead, they only teach them how to be a winner, so when that doesn't happen, they breakdown and feel stumped. It doesn't help that we are fed a bunch unrealistic standards all our lives.

I turned 21 a couple of weeks ago and I have never felt more done with life.
It feels as if I have nothing more to say or do in the world. Because of this, I have been retreating inwards more and more. I find more in my inner world than the one on the outside.
I can't wrap my head around 10 more years of this, let alone 40-50 years.

My mother made a remark some time ago, about me being an unplanned pregnancy. Sometimes this gives me some comfort, knowing that I am not even supposed to be here, or rather that nobody wanted me here.

>>5978456
>I can't wrap my head around 10 more years of this, let alone 40-50 years.
I said that at your age, and I still say that now at 38. It sucks when you're not wired for suicide. Then again I keep thinking everyone has a limit, and I just haven't hit mine yet.
To be fair I can't imagine what it'd be like turning 21 in this year. I was depressed at that age, but back then it was still possible to feel a general sense of hope and curiousness for the future, for technological advancements, for possible opportunities. Now we're living in a weird nightmare limbo state where any advancement is just a new way to spy on you or fuck you in the ass, or make you obsolete, or force you to become a glorified prompt engineer. Politics has entered a level of absurdity where they don't even pretend that they're not blood-drinking pedophile demons anymore, and yet you're supposed to gaslight yourself into thinking that's not the case. Everything relating to the human condition is either already commodified or well on its way to be. Therapy, whores, streamers. What a fucking time to be alive.

>>5978572
>politics has entered a level of absurdity where they don't even pretend that they're not blood-drinking pedophile demons anymore, and yet you're supposed to gaslight yourself into thinking that's not the case.

I remember being younger and first hearing about 9/11 being fake. It was all I thought about day and night. As an eastern euro, mind you.
I could not comprehend how the much richer and educated americans could be fooled so easily. Which only led to me looking back at my own third world shithole. Was everything permitted here?
Yes, it was.

Now I look on as the US is becoming more and more like the shithole I left. Or the veil is being lifted and we can finally see that they were the same under it.

>>5977488
You can tell yourself fairytales like having a soul and choices. And most people have to, because the truth is uterly depressing.
But you don't, your brain choses, not your consciousness

>>5962812
Source? Song and Film please

>>5978760
Gelatin Silver, Love (2009)
O Paradis & Totenlied - Sin Sabor
Here's the better quality vid i ripped it from
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wd0hu0QSEdY

>>5978476
Heh. Nice.

>>5962830
The worst part is that she never had a chance of escaping. She was surrounded by ocean.

>>5978070
Beautiful

>>5978705
Why are we conscious then ?

>>5979207
Evolution. Just like every mutation that benefits survival. I hope you're aware that there are certain animals that have different levels of conciousness as well, we're not special, we're just more evolved

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does anyone have the one with the guy who says "i want to go somewhere far away, i want to be someone else" and theres a train that goes by

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>>5979551
This one?

>>5960596
Men born in an era where they are hated for creating civilization, mocked for trying to protect it, and shamed endless for making mistakes, while being pushed into depression or degeneracy. The freefall of society is rapid, and it is up to (you) to stop it, man on 4chan.

>>5962830
Elephant just wanted to be free from its abusers...This is what Ego does. Puts innocent into prison, and kills the innocent when it lashes out.

>>5969948
Interesting amount of clips and choices. cool video

>>5973600
I need to watch this series again... really good edit. Do one for jon snow.

>>5975306
Speaking as a 31 year old Anon that has failed 100x more than the average person has, the only thing that matters in life is you loving yourself, everything else is bonus but shouldn't be your priority. How to love yourself? Recognise the growth, and achievements you've made no matter how small. If you feel negative or think people are judging or dont like you, then tell your Ego to STFU and get back in the corner. What other people think about you doesnt matter, what matters is that you care about yourself and you're being positive and being grateful for what you've achieved in life and have done in life. Focus on self improving to be a better version of you a year ago, if people judge you negatively thats their choice but its not related to you, thats on them. You be your own cheerleader, You be your own Positive Perspective Maker, You be your own best friend, Be Kind to yourself, Never let your Ego shame you, You are Human Consciousness and that is something to be proud of in itself, think of all the animals on earth that wish to be a human, think of all the humans in worse situations than you, think of all your ansestors that had such harsh conditions from constant wars/disease/sickness/lack of freedoms etc, their blood is literally in your veins!

Screw everyone else, check your Ego for putting your down and realize that your purpose is to love yourself and help be a better human that you were the year before!

>>5969906
>I'm surrounded by people to talk to I doubt thats gonna change
Yeah until you hit your mid 60s and people stop caring you exist.

>>5980028
yeah thanks man

>>5962830
That poor sweet girl :(

>>5968272
fuck you guys, How do people even get this

>>5968809
>I'm very careful with the way I carry myself in public, at work for example no one would ever know that my life is a large void. I do not show it on my face. I feel as if it's actually over for me.
I don't know but this is really sad, Like you see a stranger with a poker face or a downbeat face and you don't exactly know what's in their mind and then you realize he has the most fucked up story like yours

But don't worry lol, The only problem is your family and you should start new in somewhere (if you're in somewhere then) just find a new girl and you'll be fine don't worry

>>5968272
man

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>>5978070
Maybe the point of hope isn't to make dreams come true
Maybe it is just the blanket to keep us warm while we chase them

>>5980028
what movie?

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>>5968272
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>>5980815
I wonder how many videos there in this photobooth style. Maybe it was a fad for a while or something.