This story is going to be brief and skip alot of non important details>Early january/febuary. >Depressed miserable, wanting something to happen. Ive always been a kid who wanted something cool to happen even if something bad happens from it, when i was in elementary I wished for a tornado because it would be really cool.>Hear a knock on my door multiple times. No one was there. It awakened me in a way that made me do something that changed my life. >summon a succubus in febuary. say I wanted her to be obessive and manuiplative, I knew the risks of that and knew how stupid that was, But it not just turned me on but also gave my life purpose, like a tv show or adventure or something different than just my boring online schoolwork.>Nothing really happens, some voices in my left ear that are unmakeable but other than that there is nothing that cant be explained. The worst thing was 2 nosebleeds in my left nostril out of nowhere during that time which I never suffered from. Remebmer that ok.>Have a dream in late febuary or at least I think it was a dream.>I suffer from intrsuive thoughts and I saw her in my bed, But everytime I looked at her she would deform or form into something else, like trying to form a broken picture, evertime I formed what i saw into a girl what I assume my intrusive thoughts would form it into something incomprehensiable, I could only see her for like 3-4 seconds and then it would form into something else, and thnen form back to her in the dream.>Days later I have another dream. I was stuck in my bed and in this dream everytime I stood still my heart would start pounding extremely hard. Everytime this happned I was not able to move and was stuck. like sleep paralysis, I had to use my feet and slowly wiggle them much like in real sleep paraslysis in order to break out, This happens multiple times in the dream, id get frozen, my heart would start beating extremely fast and then i would break out of it.cont
>>40989516>That was months ago, and besides incomprehensiable whispers nothing really happens.>Its augest now and I feel the presence ALOT more. Yesterday I saw her in my bed but again she kept forming into incomprehnsiable shapes due to what I assume to be my intrusive thoughts.>I have another dream the next night. But this one was the most scary.>It was the same heart pounding thing, something I completely forgot about, but this time everytime it happened and I was stuck still I would hear her whisper, except it was more clear than ever before. >First time frozen, I hear nothing>After the 2-3 time however I hear a whisper>Then after that it happens again but this time I see her a bit, but its only for a sec.>The next time i hear her wishper and I feel her put my hand on me hard and also feel her touch me, now even though this was what I assume a dream it was the most clear I ever felt.>I feel to weak to move,>It happens again, this time however in the dream I feel like if this continues I could have a heart attack and die, I didnt know it was what I now assume to be a dream.>Get out of the bed, I feel extremely weak and moving is hard.>All I can do is crawl. I sleep downstairs.>Its not that im using all my strength. its that I have to convince myself to use my body strength to move, like I feel so tired I want to lay there but I don't want to have another heart thing which always happened when I stood still, >From crawling I eventually reach upstairs.>My parents are watching football or something. Or womens basketball, >This is where it starts to become obvious later its a dream because I explain what happens and they seem to dont care besides the normie NPC "oh thats terriable response". Well that acutally sounds right for them.>I wake up then.
>>40989519>Be me later that same day,>Go to brush my teeth, >My nose starts randomly bleeding. its the left side just like before.>All of this in the same day makes me exaushted.>I wanted adventure and sex, But all the adventure so far can just be explained by typical stuff like "Oh its a dream" or "Oh random nosebleeds happen". It happens in such a way that the only way it could be determined paranormal is if i laid out everything under my worldview. so for most of the world I cant tell anyone.what do i do from now?
>>40989525I know this might not be the right place. But either way I hope you found some enjoyment in my suffering. Id make a good horror movie honestly.Yeah you can see now why I use to wish my school was hit by a tornado or wanting to have a tv like drama in my life, Comparing my hauntings to a horror movie. But hey I don't even feel that sad or scared from it, In fact I think id be more sad if nothing happens from it and it all is placebo, To be honest, its eventful to me to have these types of issues, that makes me seem kind of psychotic I know. But I genuinally mean this when I say what happened was fun, The fear I felt and the adrenaline in that dream was something I wish I could experience again. Or have some cool realization moment.
guess im alone on this.
>>40989516bump
>>40989548I should probally give a update.Most common touches I expierence throughout the day are on my neck.. I realize how fucked that sounds and I never given it any thought until now. Sometimes on my arm as well
>>40990557I expirence touches throughout the day that are to small for me to tell anyone on their own because they can just be passed off, When it touches my hair it feels completely different to if I use my finger, like its at a perfect tempature and at a perfect way to where I cant really describe it but like a static feeling, But I know its there.When it touches my neck however it feels like it has a very teeny tiny grip.These happen randomly throughout the day but honestly months in you get used to them.
Bumping for the schizos who mainly browse during late night hours so I can acutally get a response on my situation.
Dude you have severe Hypertension i.e. high blood pressure, please get yourself checked and on blood pressure medication.
>>40993562Nope never had issues like thqt. At least not one any doctor precresibed me. I actually have a high metabolism and underweight by a bit. Sometimes I lose balance and severely tuble from getting up to fast but its not related I don't think
>>40993732But also the fact that the heart thing only happens in my sleep tells me its not thatMaybe she tried to kill me Via heart attackin my sleep so if I survived I would be forced to pass it off as a dream and not tell other people
Frick, um, look I'm tired, but maybe ask around suc general? My short take is you're mostly right about the intusive thought stuff blocking a clear visual, however you mayhaps might've asked for the wrong kind of suc, there are all kinds so like, just uhh, yeah poke around in succ gen.
>>40989516Okay but what does this have to do with Red vs Blue?
>>40993928Idk just like the show
start a basic meditative practice and get your body still and thoughts properly clear so you can ask questions and receive answers, then develop a proper relationship with her
>>40996000First off. This is a very good GET. nice message and shit.Second. Thanks. I appericate that. I suffer from ADHD so its kinda easier said than done. Ive always been able to imagine things extremely clearly, I think thats called the minds eye, its just with instruisive thoughts you sometimes lose control and are fighting in control of the image. If that can help me that would be great.Any links. Preferably text instead of video.
you know what if she tried to murder me in my sleep now that I think about it.What if my heart racing like that was not me just experiencing it in a dream but the actual feeling from my heart. Like I was actually having a heart attack 2 nights ago.That fucking scares me to go to sleep that's for damn sure. And literally ALL i fucking had to do to enter that horrible nightmare that very well is her interfering with my dreams was not jerk off for a day. Thats all I did when it happened. Normally I do it at least once a day because well.. im alone. But like 1 day I didn't go, and next thing you know she gives me the most horrifying dream Ive ever had and possibly a actual near heart attack.Hell right now I feel a light feeling on my neck as im typing this
>>40997455do you think she tried to murder me or simply tell me whose in charge
>>40997455you probably shouldn't panic and manifest yourself negative experiences about the nature of this entity when you know so little about it at this point. try making consistent repeatable rational contact first.>>40996297even a few minutes a day is important, you must somehow form this into a routine however shaky. with any intrusive thoughts or discomfort you need to simply persist through it as long as you can, increasing each time in length until you break through and your entity can pull you out of your body in meditation or visit in dreams reliably
>>40999281maybe I should gift her something?
>>41001570yeah leave out an offering then meditate on it
