How to get exorcised?I hate being schizophrenic. Nightmare visions of gore and spirits that fuck with my mind, but both good and bad so that the feeling is like riding a rollercoaster. Manic episodes where everything "just makes sense", followed by nosedives into reality leaving me unable to trust my own mind because I'll believe ludicrous things when manic then realize that I'm absolutely batshit crazy when I'm in a slump. Then the voices tell me that it's real. That I'm making it worse by arguing. >it's not schizophrenia! see, it's _____yeah sure. fuck. that's the worst part.I understand how this illness leads people to believe in demons. My entire life has gone down the shitter after I lost it. All my belongings gone after eviction after eviction, career tossed in the trash because I can't keep it together enough to be reliable at work. Can't socialize with others. And the worst part is when I'll have things put back together mostly but still can't get rid of the voices. Then, even though I logically can tell that I'm ill, I still end up believing them, becoming manic, and losing everything in a vicious cycle of schizophrenic mania and depression. Can't take meds because I'm paranoid. Besides, I understand what they do and I'm afraid of becoming another zombie zonked out on ssris. Not all of my paranoid delusions are just delusions, the medical industry really is fucking evil. At this point I'm willing to try anything even an exorcism. Do any anons know how I can approach getting one?Or maybe I should commit to being a shaman and just let the voices flow...
Dark Night of the Soul is good for you.
>>41014162go visit a sincere mental health clinic if youre secular, or go to a real church if youre spiritual
>>41014162Read Jung. He's got a system that works for schizos because he was one
>>41014162maybe what you have is a mind virushttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ibz-gPkTMDM
>>41014162What might happen if you had a psychic shield and cast some lightning from your hands at these entities and sucked all their energy dry, converting it to be useful as necessary? Or imagine a cube frame around them and then watch a cube inside it shrink to nothing but a dot in the blink of an Eye of a Beholder? Maybe all you need is an image to meditate on to see your Way through...
