>Pray to Jesus for the first time, apologising for sins before bed.>Have the most satanic, evil dream I have ever had. Nothing related to Jesus, just pure evil.> Remember I had a similar 'evil' event happen as a child>One time when I was 12 on the eve of Easter Sunday while staring at the ceilling trying to fall asleep, I was hallucinating terrifying faces, eventually I saw a old looking parchment with illegible black cursive writing accompanied by a photo of le typical Satan goat. Prior to this I hadn't ever watched horror movies, saw any scary images etc. So before you say I must have imagined it.My entire life I have had a indescribable hatred of injustice, pride and evil. Feel general benevolence to those around me. Not really raised Christian or anything.Wtf is the problem? Is this some kind of message?
>>41017975Could be the evil tries to come back at you as a punishment for turning to Christ. Might've done some damage to it and has retaliated in this manner after that prayer. Never let go of Christ and faith toward Him, those demons cannot hold on forever. I hope it stops and leaves you in peace. A parasite or some entity could've latched onto you as a child, since kids are more vulnerable to these entities.
>>41017975>>41017995What anon said, spiritual enlightenment or awakening can expose you to dark entities knowing of your presence. You essentially open a portal, imagine like turning on a light and countless mosquitos flying towards it trying to suck on your blood.
>>41017975I have been a believer most of my life, but had only a handful of genuine spiritual experiences. The one that removed any trace of doubt for me happened only a couple weeks ago.>obsessed with a girl who keeps breadcrumbing, hot and cold>get intrusive thoughts about her, things I never used to imagine. Weird things>it gets so bad I can't even pray, like my mind is so overtaken with the version of this person I created in my head that it crowds our even my prayers to God>over the course of two months I feel myself growing distant from God>begin having vivid, disturbing dreams>some involving her, some not>an old religious lady at my work randomly comes up to me one day, puts her hand on my shoulder and says, "I'm Satan, and I'm in your mind">any other time in my life this would've scared the shit out of me>for some reason I just shrug and blow it off as her being a little crazy>the dreams and other weird things only intensify, including disembodied voices that at first sound male but later sound like her voice>in retrospect I think it was some thing pretending to be her to mess with my mind>for a period of about a week I enter a state of borderline psychosis >become convinced that everything around me is broadcasting the message that she's secretly in love with me>TV, social media, numbers on the clock, you name it>somehow think the things I see on there are reflecting her actual thoughts and constantly get confused about what she has actually said versus what I'm "receiving" from the "universe" about her thoughts >get a bizarre, inexplicable compulsion to message her a complete rundown of every secret, struggle or embarrassing fact about my life>just listing them off out of the blue for no apparent reason. Naturally she's weirded out by this but continues being my friend and doesn't really even bring it up>over the course of two days without sleep, I feel this increasingly pressure in my head and a profound feeling of doom >cont'd
>>41017975What do you think it means, OP?
>>41018218ay ya continue with this story i wished for teenage love and this exact limerence shit happened to me after my sugar baby gf dumped after she was lying to me
>>41018218>it builds and builds, this overbearing feeling that something really bad is about to happen>it gets so intense that I'm gripped with fear>finally call my mom who prays literally 3-4 hours every day>my parents lay hands on me and pray to bind spirits, curses, etc >the nighttime feels ominous and everything spooks me>a few hours later the feeling stops like a fever breaking>can't sleep all night long, finally get up to make coffee and decide whether to call out of work>sit in my chair with my coffee and immediately crash>wake up 3 hours later, 20min after I was supposed to be at work>missed two alarms, a bunch of texts and missed calls from her asking if I'm okay because boss asked her to check on me >really worried that something happened to me>get to work and boss is cool about it, first time I've ever been lateWhat's odd is that for weeks leading up to this I have been seeing memes on different platforms about the "burnt toast theory", the idea that small delays are actually God protecting us from something that would have happened otherwise. Saw it so many times I started hiding/blocking the accounts because it was getting annoying. A few days later the intrusive thoughts are gone and I am shocked at my own behaviors. Like coming out of a dream and saying "wtf was that?!" Even my feelings toward her significantly dissipate though I still care deeply for her. I can't get the book "Descent Into Hell" by Charles Williams out of my mind, where a man latches into a false demonic version of the woman he's in love with. Weirdest period of my entire life and I've never had this kind of delusion ever before
>>41017975The darkness attacks you the hardest when you're closest to the light
