Hey guys, can you help me decipher my night terrors. I'm trying to advance in the occult ways, and only recently I realised just how much not wasting your sexual energy really matters with making progress along the spiritual line. I'm on day 20 of not playing with myself and I intend to keep going for as long as I can, I realised that in order to crystallise my soul I cannot be a coomer, I can even swear off women (not that I have any chances with them but still) this is the only thing that matters to me, crystallising my soul so I don't lose my memory after death and do not come back to this shithole. But I am being harassed in dreams, with very violent and disgusting themes, mostly killing, mutilation, a lot of shit piss and vomit plus rape and generally disfigured creatures. Like being at my Father's place and theres just 13 demons chilling in the kitchen and making bets whether I will break or not. (1/2)
Or just now this shit woke me up, basically I was in Mexico I think smoking weed with some mexican (I live in EU and I don't smoke weed) and I said something like ''I hope we wont run into any cartel mothafuckas because I'm pretty fucked'' after which guess what Cartel niggers started spawning, after running from them for a while they caught us, the mexican started shitting his pants from fear so they locked him in the toilet, then they wanted to do the same with me but I wasn't scared, I think that pissed the cartel guy off because he grabbed my pants and vommited into them just to fuck with me, and then locked me up. Here I am vommit against my balls and ass and I wonder what the fuck should I do, I don't want to build up more karma by using violence but what else should I do, they will most likely keep pushing me until I do something. So I kicked the door down, one of the guys was cleaning his gun and was distracted so I grabbed his knife and started stabbing his neck, took his handgun and started blasting into other spics. The other prisoners took advantage of the chaos I started and we successfully liberated ourselves. But the question is why the fuck do these themes appear in my dreams, I do not have any fucking scat fetish, I don't watch porn, I barely play any games (Shadowrun series recently but I don't think it justifies the violent parts) I do not watch any goyslop on tv, I currently read Dion Fortune's ''The Esoteric Philosophy of Love and Marriage (1924)'' so there is no stimulus for any of this shit to trigger the ''subconscious mind''. I'm trying to be a better person in all aspects and then I get fucking harassed during the night.Thanks for reading my blog, and any help or hint will be appreciated. (2/2)
Get baptized
>>41019348I've been baptized
>>41019382Well then, dreams are based on what you consume. Have you looked at a lot of gore images, horror movies and video games in your life? It's time to stop viewing that stuff until your dreams calm down.
>>41019421But that's exactly what I mean, I haven't been watching any of that type of stuff in a long time (1year+) so that should not be a problem. I've been keeping things on a positive side for a while now, hanging out with family, actually socialising instead of hiding in my apartment like I used to, and I don't watch any fucked up shit.
>>41019328call for yeshua, dumbass. he died for this, use it.
>>41019328>13 demons chilling in the kitchen and making bets whether I will break or notthat's pretty much what it is, since you have made your intentions clear to the universe in wanting to progress spiritually, the dreams are testing your automatic reactions, if you will, your deep human programming.>I said something like ''I hope we wont run into any cartel mothafuckas because I'm pretty fucked''you attract what you fear, this is much more vivid and instant in the dreamspace, don't worry about it, your dream self is learning this by trial and error and the next time this thought won't even get to occur>I don't watch porn, I barely play any gamesyou don't, but other people do, and like it or not, we are psychologically connect to some extent, we are all submerged in a soup of astral dreams and nightmares, even in our waking state, so all this visions, all this picked up energies, are coming afloat in your dream time.So what do?Nothing, just stop caring, don't react. Know deep within yourself that the universe has your back, the deeper you ingrain this truth in your subconscious, the less power the nightmares will have over your dream self, and let your dreams do their thing, it will sort itself out with time. The fact that you are experiencing this to begin with is because you opened yourself up to it and your are ready for it.Or, you know, you can also do as other posters say and call upon the god of your choice. This is my thought based on my personal experience.
>>41019328You don't have a soul that's Why this shit can never work for you you're an NPCInfected with lies that areTruths that pertain to spiritual evolution of a separate species
>>41019328Raise your level of consciousness by using your astral body. Going to brighter places increases your vibrational rate.
>>41019724Thanks, I'd rather learn how to deal with this on my own than to rely on someone else's protection. Especially since they like to masquerade as good beings, I find it difficult to trust blindly
