so, i've been talking about a tank on /k/ but never dared explain WHY i see this so clearly..to talk about myself a little, i am a strange case of tard that often see things way before they happen, i am constantly stuck in a loop of past experiences and sometimes i see future experiences, gone trough DT so many times and bumped my head a tone so i guess its literal tardation, its like i jump in time for 1-3 seconds, the flashes are so intrusive that i jump and or repeat tix like phrases without meaning to, sometimes cover my eyes.. it happens more than 40 times each day (my mental state is normal now that i don't do drugs or drink anymore, its just the time jumping glitches that bothers me these days) anyways, i do not have schitzo, they say its some sort of funny self inflicted (and not self inflicted) ptsd mixed with anxiety.. the glitches are good when it comes to luck, they also help when picking a class for games fx, i know what maps its gonna be about 70% of the time so ppl that knows me also wonder how i do it.. i got no clue. anyhow, i keep having flashes of war.something where army needs ppl because prior hubs isn't an option (i think its after a nuclear strike on big cities)flashes contain:>army guy looks at my driver license.>in a sim for what i thought at first was just a dream about playing warthunder in an arcade. (a game i only played for a week years ago) >driving around in the north, snow on road and pine trees.>funny language on signs (not russian) >in a strange looking tanks that looks cheaply built, not rly a tanks.>next flash is even worse>flash of driving, listening to shotgun turrets blast, im bleeding from side of head and shoulder.>hospital>sitting in chair at a field with totally bomb scared fields, an angel angel with jetpack looking thing that has drone arms and the angel holds a scythe. don't know what this means, but it triggered me to try drawing it.. i remember the "signup" flash had the word "mink" on paper.
>>41051746angel statue, managed to copy pasta last word and delete next, kek. the angel statue has four wings, but at the top of the wings there are propellers, its also blindfolded, i am very much alive during this flash, it looks like an aftermath visit to a place of battle.
>>41051850the flashes are sporadic and not linked, but they don't change and don't come often, i sometimes see what happens 3 seconds after or before but no new flashes in between these time jumps has arrived. what i can tell you about this machine my short ass is sent to operate is that it is a armored personal carrier.it has two shotgun turrets on its roof that rly doesn't like it when things fly, so the road is also covered with birds making the snow unreasonably red.the main gun is a big mortar like cannon that's mainly used for indirect fire (that's what i remember from sim) behind me sits a loader but i can only see his feet when turning my head (after noticing blood flow) it appears that commander is placed in the rear of machine with the riflemen because of where the primary hatch is located (i also hear him screaming on headset)i am sitting in the turret, looking trough a periscope, to the left and right are screens showing a better picture than what i see in front of me. i know focusing on the machine is semi wrong but i don't know what to do about these dreams anymore.. i don't know if i should even call it dreams, i just hope these are flashbacks from a dream that i've had. pic related.>mink machine// scuffle mink.. machine had scuffle written on turret.
as for my anxiety, they don't give me meds because i am coping so well with it, they don't know about the flashes tho, so for in the eyes of state, i am fit for combat sadly enough.. and i operate heavy machinery daily, the glitching mainly happens when i sit down to do nothing.
