Ive been browsing this board for at least 15 years now and I am finally at a point in life where I am willing to do anything for a raised consciousness and persisting, unwavering internal peace. I have studied magic, alchemy, philosophy, and much of the esoteric in-between but I have rarely ever practiced it. I have done sex magic a few times and I think it was somewhat efficacious, as well as some other spells for manifestation but it wasnt enough, or maybe I was not doing it right. How do I get to next stage of life and graduate to the upper end of the bell curve? I am willing to give anything except my own spirit in exchange for internal peace and perceptive control. What do? Where go? What exactly am I looking for or rather what am I not looking for?I have experienced several notable supernatural events ranging from NDE's to contact with ayyyys, miracles, and others, I know of these things and I am not afraid, but I am lost. I feel that I must fulfill my purpose, no matter how absurd or mundane it may be.I am listening.
>>41078487rv the object in my right hand. i will answer your question after
>>41078487None of us know. That's the point of life. You make it up as you go. Nigger.
>>41078490Its your dickNow answer me what life is about?
>>41078505How did you know?
>>41078505Right now, life is about healing.First your heart.You’re searching because things aren’t fitting together.You need to find contentment in your heart.Then, you need to find a way to heal others.Then you will find the truth.
>>41078505wrong. reconsider everything that led you to this point. your learning has given you less than you believe
>>41078490I have never been able to awaken my third eye beyond small sensations of color, I can sometimes perceive aura colors but its very faint
>>41078522more struggle. more practice. maybe complete opposite
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>>41078487for me I just had to come to grips with the fact that I can’t control everything
lucidity....my mind has locked onto the idea that i need to be lucid dreaming while awake, as well as when i'm asleep. if i can train my brain to recognize that i'm in a fake dream while sleeping, it will help me do it while i'm living a normal awake life. so far i've failed at doing both. most of the day i'm in NPC mode without any purpose, feeling stressed and melancholic. very rarely can i control my mind to focus on the fact that all of this "reality" is not real and not to take it too seriously.i think this is why "elites" (allegedly) do crazy, rapey, murderous polysex shit...they do it to break out of the norm, to see this world as an unreal dream while still living in it. and thus they can manipulate it, because it's no longer this objective and rigid thing. hopefully this makes sense. and no i'm saying we must do crazy rapey murderous shit, but it is an example. sort of how if you were lucid in a dream, and you saw women inside that dream, you could recognize that there would be no consequences to just sniff them or fuck them...now think about how men actually get laid in real life, they just use their mind to talk to many women, fearlessly, until they meet one who is down to fuck. meanwhile the overly serious guy gets no pussy, no money, lives in fear, because he isn't lucid.
>>41078871have u tried long water fast? idk rly but it seems very opening
Thought changes in the thinkers. Your nervous system needs changed, by practice, via paranormal means. I don't ask your soul of you, but if you are willing to grow some neurons in yourself, if you are willing for some small pieces of dendrite to die to make way, to help you be more skilled at ESP, then I can help.If peace is what you want, then the more of yourself and your time you devote to what I'm talking about, the more you change and the more you think about it, the more I will help you have a sense of peace.Work to make everything better in Creation. We'll live longer, we'll have telepathy, we'll have telekinesis, we'll have power over the powerful to stop their evil ways. Reduce the pain in others and yourself, increase the pleasure, the types of pleasure, as our minds meld into the One Thought of Creation. It is many thoughts and one at the same time, there is one consciousness and we share it is one way of looking at it. You'll find me there. You can always contact me via telepathy.They don't remind you that your thinking parts need to change in order to think differently. It's the divide between the biological and the spiritual, when beings believe miracles are possible without effort, without skin in the game, without a reason to care when they claim to be trying so hard.
>>41078487There is no peace, life is a struggle. Si vis pacem, para bellum.Cowards know no peace.
>>41078487 just be
You feared the destruction OP so instead 4 neurons were started growing outside your right shoulder blade, and then many more along the front of your body towards the center left. They'll help more than just yourself to do ESP and get it right, you were willing and so you're helping now.
>>41078487Jesus. The answer was in front of your face the whole time. The son of God incarnated on Earth and saved humanity from death. Follow Jesus to eternal life. Or else you will go to Hell. I am not fearmongering. This is the Ultimate Truth. You asked for eternal peace. Jesus is the only way.
>>41078962Are they black and shaped like amoeba?
>>41078487heaven... this image is pure gold. 10x
>>41078487>am willing to do anything for a raised consciousness and persisting, unwavering internal peaceCelibacy of mind and body. Semen retention. Read the Bhagavad Gita and understand the battlefield is your mind.
>>41078487try this >>41063381
>>41078487You can't have total peace, you are never alone, you are never all-one and by the way you write, you are not an 'innocent', nor am i and probably everyone on this website has left the paradise of childhood.You can get better by eliminating inner conflict though. Probably means not eating meat, not having sex or masturbating, giving to the poor and reading the Gospel. Get your blood moving, go run. You will fail a lot but should be better and better with time.
>>41078487Have you considered seeing the world as it is rather than how it appears to be, and then doing what comes natural?
>>41078487Cum in your hand and eat it.This is the first step towards true enlightenment.
>>41080777>>41080766Checked
>>41078487Do you meditate regularly, be honest. Dabble all you want but you need a baseline of discipline first.
>>41080909Partially. Not as intense as I should be, probably. My own natural disbelief stops me from pushing forward with it.
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>>41080986You gotta keep doing it with regularity man. Think of it like working out, you need to consistently do it otherwise of course it's not going to benefit you. There are studies on how good meditation is for you if that's what's keeping you from not doing it, I hate to be a dick about it but you have to stop being lazy about it if you want to take it seriously. Aim for an hour or two every day for a couple months, it's been 15 years anon it's time to do this for real.
>>41080998You're right, anon. It is time. Mind over matter, and it must start today. Despite my reading on the matter (which has varied in intensity over the years), I am still unsure of which type of meditation is most beneficial. My experience with eastern techniques is good at calming the inner storm but I have found little else with those styles. I feel called to vibrational meditation and I feel as if I had some success with that, especially when done with the aforementioned sex magic in the OP, but I stopped with that since my partner I was doing that with is no longer here. What do you recommend? I understand there may not be a one-size-fits-all; its just that after so many years, it is very difficult to combine the sporadic knowledge I've accumulated on the subject and use it appropriately for intended results, or maybe better said as "I really don't know what the fuck I am doing". Is it combined with prayer, and to whom? Is it silent? Is it intentional? The highest of truths are the most self-evident, meaning complexity is likely not the answer to these questions, right?
>>41078487The first step on the path to true magickal power is shutting the fuck up u lil bitch
>>41081055Whatever you're comfortable with, do that consistently for a long-ish period of time. You don't have to over-complicate it with spells and stuff yet, those are the cherries on top of a cake made of discipline. For me personally, it's very simple. I sit in a comfortable position, usually with the lights off because it's easier on my eyes, and try to keep my mind silent and alert. Anytime I notice my thoughts wandering and my mind drifting I snap myself back to attention and I repeat this until I'm done, the ideal is 3 hours a night but I'm lazy too, I usually manage about an hour. Learn to do the basics before you try anything else despite your past experiences. Think of people on deviantart adding all that color and detail to a painting that is fundamentally drawn badly.
>>41081079Just adding clarification to make it easier. The goal is complete silence and to be completely awake and alert. It's not "shutting off your brain", you're actively fighting your own urge to daydream and think of random stuff. Eventually when you do it after a while you'll feel a lot better, a lot more in control of yourself, and at that point you can move on to more advanced stuff.
>>41078487Start reading the great mystics and you will quickly realize that everything you've experienced thus far is only preparatory. Progressing from hylic to psychic is a necessary first step, but don't get stuck there like Crowley and the other permapsychic magicians.
I care not about riches or wealth, nor vices of any kind. I am not motivated by power, but I am motivated by control. Finding the golden balance between the total exercise of intrinsic ability and the complete turnover of letting all things go has proven to be immensely challenging. What has stopped me from pursuing magic entirely can be summarized into two points: the first is instilled fear from Protestantism (which has waned over the years by repeated exposure), and the second is a sensation of being lost. The second point can be explained by allegory, if I was to ask myself "if I had a billion dollars, what would I do?", and I still cannot answer that question. I apply the same question to magic, if I had total control over my will and could impress it on the causal universe, what would I do? I still do not know, and that is what has stopped me. I eventually realized that all my desire to control is based in effect, not fear. I have already suffered even unto death and my fear has been destroyed, so now I am simply lost. Brave, but lost. Often times I have relinquished control, assuming that I am not competent enough to impress my will, but this too I had to realize that I will impact the causal chain even if I do nothing, that inaction is still action. Thus the throne and crown is there for the taking, and I believe I am ready to start, but I am still lost. I do not think it's a lack of knowledge of the esoteric, I think the problem is me, and now I am trying to solve it through the esoteric.I would give so much for one single word or sentence from someone who has ascended far beyond me... teach me what I do not know, teach me what I need to know. I refuse the left hand path, and I am willing to martyr as a saint or bodhisattva or beacon of love, to combat evil through a lens of the penumbra and not the piercing light. Perhaps by divine providence, the right anon can tell me what I need to hear.
>>41078487literally just semen retentioni know you wont do it because you will use this to rationalize: >I have done sex magic a few times and I think it was somewhat efficaciousthe answer is literally just retainbut no one will follow it and think there is some shortcut or trick that will let them attain higher consciousness while still being a giga coomeryou get what you fucking deserve indeedhonk honk
>>41081094>>41081079Thank you anon, this is in line with what I have learned and it reinforces the way. I will begin now.>>41081104Who do you recommend? Crowley seemed to have regretted certain decisions he made in the end and I dont want to follow that path unless it is intended for me.
>>41081122Stop talking so much and go practice if you're serious. Why do you feel the need to talk so pretentiously, who are you trying to impress.
>>41081079>>41081094Nice practice for developing concentration but that's not gonna help OP get psychic powers. You didn't even tell him why he should meditate or the goal of meditation as a whole. Do you even know why meditation is practiced?
>>41081125I dont disagree, from what I learned performing sex magic is that when the orgasm is attained, the sexual energy is released into the universe and then converted. I read that if you dont feel tired after the release but rather more energetic, the energy conservation worked. I am not against retention and have been actively gearing towards it, as well as completely eliminating pornography. My only concern with it is similar to that of fasting; some is divine, too much is death.Tell me more about semen retention because I dont think I have ever made it beyond a month or so.
>>41081135Oh but it will, especially when it's practiced in a pitch black room and he starts to see puffs of color floating around him. Fundamentals come first, all the other stuff needs to wait until OP can actually See.
>>41081132Its my own confusion and this is the only place I will get an honest answer. Its not intended to be pretentious and im sure it reads like a blogpost, but its really just an attempt at connecting with someone who may be able to address something that I cant see, the cause of my own confusion, and I would not know how else to arrive to those answers without explanation or discussion. But maybe you're right, maybe its my own thoughts and mouth that are causing some of the internal problems.
>>41081158That's pretty much everyone, everybody is at the mercy of their tyrannical internal dialogue that keeps their minds trapped in the same thought patterns, churning like butter, over and over and over again the same thoughts. Worries over romance, wars, politics, diseases, "why did this happen to me, it's not fair, how could they have done that, why did they do this to me". You need to stop getting lulled into complacency by talking to yourself and wake up.
>>41081129Western: https://www.ccel.org/index/genre/gen-MYSEastern: Tao Te Ching, the Upanishads, Brahma Sutras, Adi Shankara, Nisargadatta Maharaj.
>>41081168The whole point of maintaining silence and concentration is so that you can stop interpreting the world through the eyes of a modern human. The world we perceive around is a an interpretation of our perception. You see a tree, you know it must have roots but you don't see the roots in front of you, that's just what you've been taught. Everything is like that. You need to get rid of the interpretation of reality you've learned through years and years of brainwashing and learn to see it for what it really is.
>>41081135Also, I forgot to add, your 'double', your dreaming body, doesn't understand earthly suffering. When your double is in a bad situation they just leave. So when your internal dialogue is constantly miserable, which for modern western people it 100% of the time is, you scare your dreaming body away. It's like an abused dog, if you frighten it it'll run away.
>>41081191>>41081209Truth
you talk like a fag and your shit is all retarded
>>41081143>My only concern with it is similar to that of fasting; some is divine, too much is death.exactly the rationalization i mentionedngmi>Tell me more about semen retention because I dont think I have ever made it beyond a month or so.lame prompt, ask ai or go to srg
>>41078487>am willing to do anything for a raised consciousnessAll you have to do is eat a fat wad of dog shit while livestreaming it. You'll get real conscious about your situation real quick
>>41078871interesting take. I had not really thought about things that way before... where did you get these ideas?I think my first doubt is that by trying to be lucid here and now you begin to grip and try to control which brings me back to 101. Hrmmm
>>41078487Stop looking for signs. You are already enough.
>>41078487dude this bread is embarrassing. you will never arrive at peace because youre a greedy and selfish monster.too bad.
"Doing magic" isn't really a thing you can do incorrectly. Also, be sure not to run to places like this and ask for help. It's just like running to a finance forum and asking everyone what to invest in.In both sides of this analogy, you'll have people hassling you to charge their magic methods or to invest in their investment so the number goes higher. What you want to do instead of this is find something that suits you; a system that you create or which feels very close to what you'd like to do or an investment that feels right to you because you're confident in your knowledge about what you're putting money into.
>>41078487You are afraid of being lost
>>41081125I do SR because it gives me more energy to do things and maintain my physical health so the idea that it can bolster consciousness is Greek to me. What am I supposed to experience other than increased energy levels? >t. celibate for over 3 months
>>41086507You know nothing about me.>>41087392Yes.
