Maybe I'm too retarded to post it here but fuck it. Very fucking difficult for me to post this but I need to be sincere because I really feel fucked.In the last couple of months I've been having very significant sex dreams, not like when I was young and had wet dreams because hormones doing their shit, this is different. I am 21 an virign, on my way to become a true VVizard. Then earlier this year, I seriously thought on just going out with a hooker, then when that thought was becoming more and more serious, I dreamed of having sex with a woman I didn't know, the dream was very clear but dark, I tried it the best I could but she was like a starfish not doing nothing looking at me, then an older woman passed by laughing, we just sat watching TV until I woke up, she didn't say anything.Then recently I met an older divorced woman, she is very good to me and I thought that it would be hot to get my cherry popped by an experienced lady, I then had a dream about having sex with one and it was horrific, she just let me use her, I ended up not having sex again, then the dream repeated from the start and she told me she was just using me to prove that she was still attractive and charming.These dreams are becoming more and more common. And I keep remembering that thing an anon said to me years ago about doing semen retention for 4 months.
>>41121044Wtf did I just read rn? A granny popped yo cherry? Is this some telepathic communication shit, like she let you ravage her to prove to you that she is still young?Anyways you've been domesticated and cucked spiritually, you should be feeling like a lest bien whom was a young ewe
>>41121087learn to read, i didn't actually had sex with her, and I think she was trying to prove to someone that she is still young or something.It's just that I have never accepted hookup culture as an option and when I do I have terrible dreams that fuck up my psyche. I feel like walking in fog more and more.
>>41121044>doing semen retention for 4 monthsYou fucked up anon.
>>41121044If it reassures you, at least you did dream of sex with some normal woman. Not a ghost or anything, with the dry bones of the dead littered all around you...
>>41121203Did anyone read my thread? I didn't have sex in any dream, I tried and It didn't work, it just didn't. I remember groping and trying to fondle but nothing about sex.Also I just remembered the first time I had a lucid dream, the first thing I did was beat someone in the face until I couldn't see any facial features, the second dream was me trying to have sex in a dream and it was like the AT field from evangelion (pic related) where I tried moving my body towards it but it felt like a magnet pulling me out. Then I just dreamed about flying around and woke up but still, everytime I think about hooking up with someone just because, I get a terrible dream where I can't have sex, I am destined to celibacy? Is it to late for me to find a fair maiden?
>>41121271forgot the pic
>>41121271Oh, understood you did but it was not satisfactory. Would not worry about it, likely just a minor blockage. Ever wanted to talk about something important in a dream and then noticed you could not move your mouth? Awareness of the sleep paralysis state of your body. Could be either emotional turmoil or arousal with that particular topic, must be switching on something in your motor center halfway. Guess you must not even exactly be aware of the paralysis, just the brain noticing it and coming up with a dream excuse. Should perhaps approach it in a more relaxed fashion, not push it. Otherwise, I can really recommend ghost sex. Pretty wild stuff. ;)
>>41121547I believe my brain must be forgetting the sex part entirelly because I am conviced I didn't have sex in my dream. But i've been struggling with finding a partner for years while friends are getting laid instead of focusing on working and exercise and stuff in general that I need to do.It's just that i'm having these dreams more often and feel like fapping is fueling this and rotting my fucking brain as i feel like walking through fog all the time, and not getting physically fit is affecting my perception of the physical realm, the few meaningful thoughts I have need to be written for me to remember and the few moments where I improve I just go overboard and can't keep with the momentum.I know I am dumping all my shit like this is my personal blog but i've been struggling with this shit for at least 4 years and my brain feels fucking numb at this point like I want to kill myself everyday.
>>41121784*at this point feeling like I want to kill myself everydayTypo
>>41121784Well, the ghost jokes aside for now, that sounds more like you are stuck in a pretty bad behaviour loop. Dreams could be interpreted as an alarm signal then, a pressure relief attempt. An expression of a deeper frustration over the loop you seem to be stuck in. Gotta find a way to break with your old habit patterns here, best advice I could give. The way you describe going about things right now sounds to me like bashing your head against a wall repeatedly. Not healthy in the long run. Thing is also, that way you will just lock yourself even deeper into frustration. You see my point here? You need something else, something new to occupy your mind with for a while. Can you think of anything here, hm? A thing you wanted to try out once but then never got into it, an old hobby you dropped ... or something you read about recently that you found fascinating for a second ... :)
