Tempted to fake a religious-experience tier apology with several of my exes and family i cut off, not because i miss any of them or feel bad about anything, but just because im dangerously tempted to chase the masochistic high of crying and seeking pity and promising to change and tricking people into thinking i have morals so that i can get high off of their love and pity for me. It's that feeling of letting them down, their disappointment, that feels better than anything else...
that's fucked up man
OP is actually a woman for once
>>41175958God can just punish you with the opposite of what you want if he thinks its funny and honestly I'd find it pretty funny, masochism can be a defense mechanism but you also can just make this whole thing up for a reply either way you should seek actual soul fulfillment instead of digging your grave deeper shithead
>>41175992Why would God punish me?
>>41175958Hot. Most deserve it. What would it take for you to actually love someone though
If I did that in front of my parents they would just laugh and tell me to fuck off lmao. If you are planning to do this make sure it's believable because if you fail you will seem like the biggest fucking faggot on this godforsaken earth.
This is gayer than gay porn. I don’t even think god would punish you. Bro would be so embarrassed for you he’d probably just ignore it desu.
>>41175958Eh. Sounds like a lot of work.
>>41175958How did you get this actual IRL picture of me?
tits or gtfo
BPDemon OPthey're not real people btw. they're just archonic algorithms designed to extract loosh from real humans
>>41176299It's not that i can't feel love, i just dont have the reward circuits that tell me to keep people in my life or sacrifice for them. If a feeling of love comes with too much guilt or obligation then it's not worth it for meBut to answer your question, I'd have to feel like he was superior to me, excited to see me but not dependant on me. I don't mind following rules or being submissive, but I want to feel like he is paying attention to my desires and giving me what i want while he's taking what he wants from me.
>>41178147>>41175958You sound similar to me in a way, but also different. Don’t just cry, you have to try, try and try and let them see you “winning”, let them see the world turn against you, and nearly defeat you, show them you are Comanche, then, when they say “you should find some friends” then you break down, then you admit, nobody loves you, nobody wants you to succeed and nobody helps you. You’re not deceiving them either. You’re telling them the truth. Nobody loves you, helps you, and wants you to succeed.
>>41175958Gaddang are you literally me?But thats not healthy mang. You should be alone forever
>>41175958You are.................. wanting to be a horrible person.
cringe
