This is my experience, i either get hated on or ignored both real life and online. Im also ugly and possibly mentally ill undiagnosed with no education and trouble studying. I also was born with feelings of void and self worthless-ness and addictive personality.What are the spiritual or past life implications for this? Should i kill myself to change fate?
>>41226618>should i kill myself to change fate?OP, don't be a retard. turn off 4chan and do things you want.
>>41226627i can't do anything im poor class with no education. Everybody will be happy when i go but i don't even know what method to try and i can't get the items for the methods that will 100% make me go to the other world. If i had the ingredients for a method that actually worked i would have done it and killed myself instead of posting on 4chin with you faggots.
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>>41226618it's because before you were born the astral had scouted you, and made you a target.. I think. Either that or some kind of aural weakness / not enough cultivated energy to repel negative influences. Regardless which one, we live on a loosh harvest world, so it's one or the other but both are also possible
>>41226618it is most likely generational trauma being passed down to you by your parents who got it from their parents.but you can break this cycle.it is most likely your warped perception, most people do not hate you or want to ignore you.it can have a variety of reasons why people do not want to have contact with you, it is possible you radiate out desperation, hopelessness or depression. people have limited capacity to deal with this negativety, so they chose to limit their contact with you.but i firmly believe you can find your ways. what do you like to do? what are you passionate about, it can be anything like building bird houses or trying to improve your time on a track in forza horizon 5 :)i believe in you OPwe are human, we all have the capability for greatness and happiness.ask yourself how you can help the people in your life.ask yourself EVERYTIME this negative thinkings come up : "not that i believe it, but what are some alternatives of perception, how else could i interprete this situation, i am going to try it out as an experiment"
>people hate you (probably for unjust or no reason at all)>instead of thinking they're all evil stupid fucks>you hate yourself insteadwhy are normies so retarded. most of them are a bunch of archon puppets bro. stop giving them your loosh
>>41227255based. How many of normies took vaxx?
>>41226716>binary fallacy>denying your sovereignty>you gotta suffer broa bluepill archon guru wrote that
>>41227231>ask yourself how you can help the people in your lifeso to be a servant, since i have no use i must serve other people and hope that makes me feel good is what im getting. Been there tried that, people are even worse when you do that and use you and then discard you when they got the help they needed. You also have really dangerous parasitic people latch onto you when you do this. Real life is not the movies or the bible. Turning the other cheek will lead to even more suffering in real life. Been told i am a very humble person by the same people who treated me like crap, so fuck that shit.> it is possible you radiate out desperation, hopelessness or depression.Does this mean someone is deserving of bullying then? Do you think i just stay around people looking depressed or hopeless?: why do you think i radiate that?This feels like some toxic positivity millennial post from the 2000's.>>41226716>Either that or some kind of aural weakness / not enough cultivated energy to repel negative influences.Maybe, i also feel sick and unwell after certain arguments with people. My body really can't take all this negativity it's too much,Maybe it's this, but why. I never was greedy like 90% of all humans who chase after being millionaires, having harems of women, having power over others,being sadists etc. All i wanted was stability in my life and just normal stable parents, job, environment and sense of self, that's all i fucking wanted. Why is my life like this and why do i have strange feelings of emptiness/worthlessness since a child that i cannot explain even when i was content with life.>>41227255i don't know why, i felt self-sacrificial and anxious as a child so i would ruin my relationships with the popular kids to defend the loser kids who would then end up bullying me once they stopped being losers and became popular thanks to my help and i would be silent when people would insult me as a child.So this started as a child, but why.
>>41227349this post bleeds negativity, i almost didnt want to read it at all or engage with it.like others, i have limited capacity to deal with negative people.so i chose to not do it most of the time.you can call it whatever you want, toxic positivity or whatever, but i think the fact remains that people do not want to engage with perceived hostility or desperation.and this was my only argument, if you want to spend time with people you have to add value into their lives, not expect to extract something for yourself.but you do not have to spend time with people, if you see helping people as being a submissive slave then do not do it. but i think it feels good to help people and can strengthen bonds.i get your argument, people want to exploit your empathy, but this can be realized and you just chose to not help those people, but help those who really need it and are genuinely happy about it, what about your family? do you like helping them?
>>41227349>but why.luck of the draw; you can at best figure out a how, but the why is always random chance.try to put the thoughts and memories that come back the most to paper in a diary or something, that's supposed to help bring clarityalso stop trying to look for a solution if you want to be happy
>>41227401instead of telling people who are struggling with life to help others I WANT to ASK what you are doing to help others and how you are adding value to their lives? Let me guess when it comes to you then it's just existing, but for others they have to add value by being philanthropists. I know your type.There is a reason why successful people never help anyone, they just tell others to do it. Stay strong OP.
>>41227255Yup. Remember, they always end up getting “cancer”, so don’t feel too bad for yourself. Help those that seem like real people, and do it in ways that don’t bring attachment, nor with the expectation of reward. Only help people because you want to.
>>41226716>>41227270Humans benefit from this too though, so can we really only blame archons for this when humans themselves want a underclass of humans that they can abuse and use for physical, financial and emotional labor? Humans themselves always tell broken people that they should be the ones begging for forgiveness and doing even more labor and servitude but in reality they just need punching bag.
>>41227548At this point I'm not even sure if they're "human" who are benefitting from this stuff. Sure some of them are, but the most higher ups are non-humans in human body suits or something. It's hard to put blame on humanity for this stuff when it really isn't humanity's fault
>>41226618>What are the spiritual or past life implications for this?That you need God in your life to help you.
I'm in the same boat OP. I'm pretty sure people treat me bad because of how I look. My inlaws can't see any positives in me and when I spend time with them I feel like they're looking at their watch the whole time and just waiting to get away. I've taken them to some cool stuff like a farm to table restaurant with only 4 services a year in the middle of the woods which only seats 30 and sells out within seconds, and also a hot air balloon ride and all they could talk about is all the other people they should take to these things.Idk man my lifetime of being treated poorly by others, starting in elementary school, has made me isolated because I refuse to spend my life performing for others if they don't accept me for who I am. The isolation and lack of social obligations has developed my mind and made me interesting and self sufficient. I pursue any interest I develop, get to form my own non-groupthink opinions, and can depend on myself. I'm not sure if I would change it. Imagine spending your whole existence going to one social obligations to the other yapping about the same boring shit for eternity.
>>41226618You could have autism. I have autism and sometimes feel that way. As for spiritual implications, I seem to have some kind of connection to the god Xolotl. I've called upon him before and have witnessed miracles. One day I read about him on wikipedia and I guess started to become fascinated. A lot of mythology has "moral" gods act in ways that are clearly not moral and justify the evils of their society's ruling classes, but there wasn't much of that with Xolotl. Xolotl is a god of monstrosities and I am one of them.>Should i kill myself to change fate?Some Aztec gods such as Huehuecoyotl and Chalchiuhtotolin are credited with the ability to change fate. There's probably other methods out there to try and change fate, too. Killing yourself is the single most drastic action you can take, so wouldn't it be better to try some crazy occult method of changing fate first?
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>>41227548>Humans benefit from this too thoughThey don'tThe hylic archon system in place DOES NOT benefit humanity 99% of people live in misery, survival mode and trauma just so 1% of demons in skin suits can live like evil gods lmaoStop being dense
>>41226618>I also was born with feelings of voidhttps://pastebin.com/HXZstGgm
>>41226618Most people cross the street when they see me or can't look me in the eye in passing. I'm built, bald, bearded, and tatted, but I wouldn't hurt a fly. Fuck shallow folks, my dude. You just have to find your people.
You have to develop yourself bro. You are hoping for others to save you but that is literally hopeless. Ignite in yourself a power so great that nothing can extinguish it. Accept that life will not be kind to you. Instead, life will either destroy you or create an incredible warrior of both body and spirit. In this life you will receive no love. Accept that. Let go of this neediness and pathetic behavior. Meditate. Practice ceremonial magic. Ask a god, a masculine warrior God, to help you. In return, offer them reverence and offerings. You are a boy. You need to develop into a man. The harshest of winters bear the greatest of fruits.
>>41226618Were you in the gate program
>>41226618im the same OP. try to find someone in the same position as you. they'll probably appreciate friendship more than a normie ever will. its hard to find people like us though i think. and for me personally, no friendship is possible, i am completely blocked off and can never like another person after what ive endured at their hands.
>>41227440>hold door open for people coming after youNo one asked for it but you did it because it's a nice thing to do. This thread is so doomed lol
>>41231310This. I think they use that response to gaslight people. Well their tactics are not going to keep working because more and more people are starting to notice what's going on. A lot of normies have started to pick up this stuff
>>41227255>>41227270More on this, any threads on this topic?
>>41226618>Spiritual implicationsBad karma.
>>41235656Or he was incomplete and still decided he wanted to be bornIt's especially true if the mother hated him all his life.Probably an intruder. Not only on her and his family, but everyone he meets.
>>41226618>>41227584>>41232102The potential spiritual implications here is that you are being challenged by the Universe for whatever specific reasons so that you can possibly learn to grow and overcome this harsh hand of life that has been dealt upon you and it will serve to make you not only more mentally tougher and resilient because of it, but also spiritually more capable and experienced too compared to most people on the planet as well.And no, taking your own life will not solve your problems now or later, it will only delay them further down the line in the next life and make things more difficult and worse for you, so please do not do that because despite the unlucky fate that you've been dealt with thus far, your life still matters and it still holds meaning. So don't let it go to waste unnecessarily and instead find a way to overcome and improve your current life's problems so that you can learn and grow from this spiritually and mentally, and you will surely be rewarded for your positive efforts in this life and in the next life as well. The Universe will make sure of it. So make sure to get lots of sunlight exposure everyday without sunburning because it's great for mental and spiritual health. Hope this helps. Goodluck and take care anons.
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>>41226618*hug*
>>41226618>What are the spiritual or past life implications for this?Porcelain does not belong in the mines. You don't belong. This world is eroding and breaking you fast, but you need to hold strong. It sucks but there's no other way.>>41226618>Should i kill myself to change fate?Unfortunately that'd just make things worse. Shit, I'd be so easy. But it doesn't work. It kinda depends on why you do it, but do NOT risk it. If you do it wrong you could destroy your soul. There would be no changing fate, or starting over. It would BE over.
>>41238514Paranormal feet job
>>41240340um...
People just get hated like a clockwork. Its not just you. Hang in there anon. Maybe get some fish.
>>41226618“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.” (1 Peter 5:6-7)
>>41245189>judeo slave psyop
