I was out in San Marcos almost four years ago, todayThey probably would've put me in a home either wayBut I threw all my belongingsInto a garbage bagAnd out into the world i began to roam.All of my hopes lay shatteredLike a mirror on the floorAnd when i see myself i find it hard to believe all the years ive been clean and i see the way.The wildest summerThat I ever knewI had a flat tire down memory laneBut I came back after 5 months and a halfAnd now I'm just trying to explain why ,why cant i just have any good clean life??
>>41246492Bless you
>>41246492Brother, it's all on the inside.This world is for you to experience and learn.Whether for wisdom, or just to see a bunch of shit.Try to hold onto the ride.If you're gonna go nuts. Be like Terry A. Davis.
>>41246492Yea let’s not kill ourselves.
>>41246577I am truly lost partner.
>>41246602Brother, many have been there.I may not have been as lost as you are now, but I've been close. I've seen many people just dump straight to the ground so hard that halfway houses weren't enough to help them.The only thing I've seen work is to jump into something outside of your comfort. Mosey and find a shitty job to meet people.Go into the woods and wander around like a nomad for a little while and talk to yourself.Hell become the neat homeless guy in town.Who cares.Rage against the machine that is your mind.Whoop that bitches ass!You run your life, you are the grand poo-bah in your world. If you're afraid of interaction, fuck em.They'll never see you again.If you're young and you can, join the military and don't think about it. That brings tons of experience. A Zogbot research expedition if you will.
>>41246647Only from developing a baseline can you then develop and focus on goals. Who knows, your goals may change drastically. Mine did.I used to be an angry and isolated little computer nerd scrump surrounded by drugs and needlessly hedonistic faggots.Now I build machines, cars and guns.I don't watch TV and hardly even think about video games.Life has some big fucking curve balls man.Don't give up. Please brother.
>>41246492Beautiful makarov.
>>41246492"Lord Jesus Christ the son of God have mercy on me a sinner." Repeat without ceasing.
>>41246492dont give up gamble on your life further, you gonna make through it ! you have will, so you can always remember youre here to experience what is real life, not just consuming
