I want to become spiritually okay with purposely ruining my reputation with everyone I know including friends and family, potentially making everyone hate me. Which is what I intend to do after I convince myself to become okay with it. Because conforming to societal rules of interaction causes me pain because it takes away my freedom and requires effort. You are supposed to never "act crazy" or share "fringe" opinions on things, and "be normal". I don't want to be, but I act that way to maintain reputation. I WANT to become the openly "insane" guy. Even if it ruins my life I'll have freedom, the restrictions will be taken off me like chains, and my outer self will match my inner self. Thoughts? I want to go completely "INSANE" (what normies falsely consider insane)
Anon, before you go through with this: you do realize that "reputation" is a highly valuable social currency, so to speak? In this jewified anonymous hive mind day and age not so much as it has been for example in european medieval tight knit society, where reputation was of utmost importance, but still. I do not know what kind of job or source of income you have, but depending on what it is, ruining your reputation means ruining getting respect from your peers which means they will no longer abide to anything you say which means you loose any authority and may loose your job about, if it requires having authority over your peers.
>>41247481it sounds like you're an edgy high school kid who needs to touch grass
>>41247481better to stay out of trouble
>>41247481why not aim to be a charismatic and convincing cult leader?
>>41247481>purposely ruining my reputation with everyone I know including friends and family, potentially making everyone hate me.Just hang out here, you will pick it up
You looks like you just want to draw attention
>>41247481Honestly just start dressing like that guy.
