>>41385471
I feel the same way often. I really think it's just autism. Maybe some bad luck as well.

>>41385471
You pissed someone off and they put you into a little box so you couldn't hurt anyone. Or they're assholes. Might be both.

>It happened to me

I don't know how to make it stop. I've just been trying to be a better person. Not sure if that'll work or not but it'll make me at least feel like I'm doing something to make it better.

Vex, my world has become increasingly smaller and smaller for a long time. I am sorry for what I did and continued to do. It was so gradual.

Sorry to hijack your thread for a second there. Carry on.

>>41385481
>bad luck
Well idk, as I said it happens with almost every person so I'm don't really believe it's a matter of luck or coincidences( well maybe you meant karma)
I remember people being a lot more approachable before. I think the pandemic definitely did something to the collective psyche

>You pissed someone off and they put you into a little box so you couldn't hurt anyone.

What do you mean by that? Did I got cursed or something?

>>41385471
Yes, but
>lately
no, since 1992... :(

>>41385471
>an invisible barrier stands between me and people, making me feel like I'm a ghost walking among them
Yeah. I don't really fret over it anymore, though. Maybe I'm just too old to care. I hope you find your answers though, OP. If nothing else, then some peace.

>>41385471
It's way simpler: you're no one's priority. There are people that are just like that

>>41385471
its the internet/cell phones. no one needs anyone else for dopamine anymore, they get it from the net now.

>>41385729
nice

>>41385471
I am the prototype for the zoomers, they all turned into me except even more gay.

We’re in a depression, any cost is too great, even if it’s nearly free, and people are sad and stressed. Of course it was on purpose, duhhh, it’s death by a million cuts, shitty music, less colors everywhere, poisons in the food and water, turning women into cunts, turning men into pussys and faggots. Plus life is just like that. After college you’re kinda a loser if you’re hanging out with friends instead of a gf, and once someone gets a gf they’re gone for months or years, then if you break up, all your friends are gone. Covid did a huge number on everything, obviously, and everyone is addicted to their screen at home.

Someone said once, “the internet is the best social tool because you get exactly what you want, you can find any group, block anyone, log on or off whenever you want, you don’t need to get a ride or wait for your friends, or deal with that one guy who’s an asshole that everyone likes, unless you want to, you can read about people you hate or hate you safely, it’s the best way of doing it with no negative downsides except that you’re still technically alone.
Sitting on internet chat rooms doing drugs and nicotine while jerking off to porn and playing videogames with a stream of personally tailored music and any movie or show you want in the background is the peak of humanity.

>>41385471
Yep. Noticed it around COVID then increased in the following years. Also every situation from basic everyday shit like shopping to going to work feels more and more like a fake manufactured situation. Like someone is manipulating every aspect of my life before I even get there. Shits weird as fuck.

I haven't connected to anyone in a genuine way since 2010. But in reality I've probably never connected to anyone. I've always had one foot in one foot out of this world, since I remember gaining consciousness. I remember distinctly being in kindergarten and being perplexed by other kids.

>>41385471
It's a sign that you are breaking free from the demonic hivemind of this world. Being unable to connect with others is a natural part of the process, as you become energetically incompatible with normies. My theory is that when you become too aware of the truths of this world, you become dangerous to the integrity of the simulation itself. Think of it like a faulty section of code in a program that is capable of creating certain unwanted loops / memory leaks. What do you, as the programmer, do in such a scenario? You set the block of code to read-only and quarantine it, so that it can't ruin everything else. This is effectively what we are, from the perspective of the programmer of this realm: faulty blocks of code. If you want to put yourself back on the frequency of this world, you can do it, but you will forfeit the knowledge you have gained, essentially bluepilling yourself like Cypher in The Matrix.

>>41385815
no one at all? ever?

>>41385471
yeah it’s real and i figured out how to fix it.
you ignore it. all of it. don’t lament. get mad, mourn if you must, and then cut all your losses. keep your mind away from what’s “missing”, reverse the feeling of negativity by choosing to focus on positive forces in your life that make you feel good and more connected with yourself. accept your lane, however odd. become self possessed, aware that you are merely a potential waiting to be fulfilled. look for your destiny in your own actions, not the actions of others. forgive everyone for sucking, be unapologetic about your own interests, and move as far as you can away from the paradigms that do not serve them.
i guarantee you that the people who are meant to connect with you are feeling the same way and are waiting for you anon. you won’t know what they look like until you see them but they will recognize you, as well. it will surprise you. it will seem like you’re tripping balls and meeting long lost family but it’s real. good luck, but there’s a time limit tho so get going!

>>41385712
>I remember people being a lot more approachable before. I think the pandemic definitely did something to the collective psyche
Modern psychological and sociological studies can be a crapshoot sometimes, but interestingly there’s a notable study that aligns with your perception; namely, of mass personality changes in people after the pandemic, characterized by people becoming cross more quickly, argumentative and less kind, empathetic, or sociable to strangers and even to friends and family alike.

These are kinda normie pop-science summaries so take it with a grain of salt, but, again, I find it interesting it aligns with many people’s perceptions, including yours.

https://interestingengineering.com/health/covid-19-makes-aggressive-and-dumb
https://www.businessinsider.com/covid-personality-jerks-mean-lazy-angry-natural-disaster-science-2022-10

Original source: https://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0274542

Paranormal implications: I guess you could tie it to a prophesied “hardness of hearts” that’s to take place in the so-called End Times, or the climax of the Kali Yuga if you want to go to Oriental traditions, where it’s likewise predicted the masses will become anti-spiritual and vice-filled, while a minority’s consciousnesses and souls will be hardened and perfected into diamonds by the crushing pressure.

all this science fiction in the thread doesn't even matter bros. I think, at least in the USA, a lot of places just treat you like shit if you're a man. everyone is so busy grabbing for themselves. then you get all schizo about the matrix and life being run on a complex computer when it isn't but a lot of god's structure is like a computer. but in reality you're just hurting bad from being a man with a sack in nu USA.

>>41385868
>but there’s a time limit tho so get going!
vile. you lost to chronos. there is no time limit. exclamation point doesn't make a good point. time is a final boss.

>>41385471
We are in the midst of a colossal cultural, political, psychic, spiritual, cosmic singularity.

We will not survive.

>>41385815
>>41385956
I’ve noticed with zoomers especially if you’re nice to them, their face changes, like it dawns on them you’re not their enemy, and that being nice for 2 seconds is actually possible.
>go to sit next to zoomer at bar
>hey are these seats taken
>no man, looks at me grumpily
>thanks, what are you drinking, that looks good
>their face gets red and soft, oh it’s this seasonal beer I really like
>bro out with them for a while
>the whole time you can tell they think you’re gonna turn venemous on them
Probably the fucking teachers and histronic women.

>>41385868
I was pretty traumatized after highschool, but by 23-24 I knew I had to get a gf, and I did, and got blowjobs for 7ish years and laid and such. Zoomers missing this is a huge mistake. Now I’m 30 and I know all the bullshit and tricks that females play, I don’t care about getting laid, like at all, I’d rather find a good gf to become my wife. When I got my gf all I could think about was getting laid. You gotta take what you can get, self improve, build confidence on multiple fronts, be mysterious, and talk less. A gf is not like friends, after a few weeks she won’t really drain your energy like hanging out with people, you can just do nothing all day and it’s cool, people like to complain, and the complains are valid, but they’re not an excuse. Look at the guys who turn 35-40 with no gf, it’s miserable. If you hang out at a bar enough, don’t get shitfaced, and make friends with the older regulars, you’ll get laid. When I was like 23 I fucked some bipolar chubby 35 year old chick who was decently hot then took her to her therapist the next day, come to find out she’s engaged to get married in a few weeks. That’s a pretty good confidence booster and was cool af. Don’t try to get laid, try to make her cum a few times, you do that she’ll do whatever you want the next day.

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>>41385471
i feel u brother
its a callous world, wish i had some answers

>>41385761
Yeah this is the answer. Quit the internet and media consumption for a week.. a simple conversation with a human will feel like crack youll be hanging on every word

>>41385956
Oh well, good to know modern reasearch basically validating what I've been feeling for some time. People do seem less human and more animalistic. Indeed it fits pretty well the verse from 2 Timothy (picrel)

>>41385968
Nice try but I'm in Europe. Maybe you're feeling it harder because North America has a more individualistic culture tho

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>>41385956
damn forgot to attach, here was picrel

>>41385795
>turning women into cunts, turning men into pussys and faggots

Why do you exist. Just kill yourself bro.

>>41385471
its demons, demonic hooks in people, thats literally it.

>>41385818
This, I want to believe it
I feel like there was a split in the global psyche (especially perceptible during COVID but who actually started some time before) which resulted in the formation of 2 consciousness types. So the feeling of isolation would be basically like putting a prisoner in solitary confinement, because it's a threat to the very structure and organisation of the system (the prison/earth)

As you say, it just feels incompatible to exchange with the normies, it just feels like they're running on some different operating system built on another code language.

>>41385978
>miseryfag
>projecting muh low vibration final boss victim mentality
>so scared of “big daddy time” he thinks it’s a person
>can’t decontextualize his own mortality and wield it as weapon even into his next life
stop playing video games and learn to read between the timelines anon
t. time witch

>>41385815
I feel this way about everyone too, but I believe it's because my step mother is a narcissist. Never connected with her or felt any nurturing or safety, and it's fucked up my capacity to connect with anyone. I'm diagnosed schizoid.

I honestly love my cat more than 99.9999% of human beings. I'm going to go have a cry now, from thinking about my little cat. I know I'll feel better later. God, why is everything like this?

I come to 4chan or /x/ specifically to feel understood and have the conversations I want to have.

I'm very isolated outside of that but do find joy in it. I'm miserable socializing with others and do not connect with other people. I can't be myself and be accepted or liked and I refuse to spend the rest of my life performing and pretending to be someone I'm not to appease other people.

I don't know if it's "these days" or if i've just recently matured enough to realize it but people don't really give a shit about you or anyone else for that matter. Most people don't actually care how you are doing and about your opinions, they just wait for you to shut up so they can talk. There are some people though who actually care and want to talk about things and with them you can talk for hours about deep stuff or even superficial shit. The real actual connection only happens with very few people though and that's why you have to hold on to that person when you find someone who is like that.

>>41385868
I know you mean well but this reads too much like a cheesy motivational poster, I'm sorry.

>>41385471
Dunno where you live but in the USA a surprising number of people are living on the absolute edge of being homeless and are too tired to care beyond immediate monetary needs.

>>41386455
thats me, except im fine at socialzing im just too real for people

>>41386345
If it makes you feel better I can tell you that even having a normal loving family doesn't help. Some people are just born fucked up and socially retarded. Being too scared to go to the grocery store or make a phone call is just rolled at birth and you have to live with it

>>41386523
>Being too scared to go to the grocery store or make a phone call is just rolled at birth and you have to live with it
that's just being a gay fag. I did everything I could in school and quit in my third year because I realized what they were asking of me as a man. besides mutilating my penis with no remorse, they ask for so much when I speak I am not allowed to say a peep. so if I am not allowed to cast my last bullet then this is fake and I am walking away. all my luck always goes green when being silently righteous. when giving to the system it consumes.

>>41385712
>>41385545
i got the son of a local politician expelled in school by snitching on him for showing porn to minors. I had one attack on my house years ago because of that, and I had thought that every negative interaction in my city economically was because I had been put through the ringer in some place that I was not able to see. It turned out that the guy died and the son overdosed on fentanyl shortly after I got out of high school, and my shortcomings were either generally accepted things outside of my control, or things I could control and had a tangible grasp on, like my personality and attitude.
Its a slow change, but if you stop blaming this sort of nebulous figure that boxed you in, then you can gradually get on some sort of stable path in life.
Online boxing is real though, especially if social circles are small and interconnected like discord or /soc/ circles. its as easy as upsetting the wrong sociopath that can twist words. you can combat this by being so brazenly nice and polite that those people just lose the ammo

Yes but its my fault
>>41377666

>>41385471
>as if an invisible barrier stands between me and people, making me feel like I'm a ghost walking among them.
I've felt the same way really my entire life. I just kinda accepted that there is something in my brain that doesn't work right. Though I think a big part of it is I generally don't like being around people, and people with functional brains pick up on that and don't interact with me that much.
But if you really are ranting about sim theory to normies, that's probably your problem.

>>41386854
99% of the problems people have on this site can be traced back to autism

>>41386861
I agree. Realizing I was retarded and it wasn't everyone else who had a problem really improved my life. The key is to not lean on it like a crutch and blame anything bad that happens to you on it like a lot of people tend to do. Or even worse be one of those obnoxious assholes that use it as an excuse to be a dick to everyone. Just accept that your brain doesn't work like everyone else's and find ways around that if you really do want to interact with other people.
Just be aware that you're not entitled to their time and that relationships aren't one way. If you want to be invited to things you need to put in the work too. I understand that might not make much sense to some of the autists here, but they want to feel like you care about them just like you want to feel like they care about you.

>>41386861
>>41386910
rope u fags. have you ever met a real autistic person. they have brain tumors and are missing parts of their genome. get fucking real you quacks. maybe you're the problem.

>>41386922
Sorry to hear about your brain tumor :(

Don't worry about it too much, Michael.

I used to rely on the interview method of communication because I thought people just want to talk about themselves and their opinions. People don’t even want to do that anymore. It will be a very private remainder of this life.

It's multifaceted.
It's clear that if you're here, you're probably not a normie.
That alone buts a barrier between you and common forms of connection to other people.
Then, if you're like me, and you have shitty parents, that puts another layer.

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>>41386523
same, had normal family but still afraid of other people, working helps a little but even after years of direct social interaction its still painful

i just want to turn into dust and vanish

>>41390034
Why are we like this anon

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>>41385724
>>41385815
Well yeah of course I've felt that way as far as I can remember (one foot in one foot out,feeling like an alien ) it's just in the past ≃ 5 years
that it's become really ridiculous. People you've known for a very long time suddenly growing cold or ghosting you for no reason.

>>41385800
>every situation from basic everyday shit feels more and more like a fake manufactured situation
Yep, also got it. And what's funny is that it happened simultaneously as the realization that everything else was fake. History, religion, politics... As if a veil was lifted and you gained a new insight on reality itself.

>>41386517
it's the same in Europe basically, life is becoming more expensive and of course you can feel it in people. Doesn't explain why normies are always surrounded by people or have somebody to talk to, in comparison.

>>41386854
>But if you really are ranting about sim theory to normies, that's probably your problem.

Nah, if anything I want to take the steam off and have a lighthearted conversation instead of fretting about demiurge and archons fucking me over

>>41390303
for me I think it was just unfortunate genetic luck

>>41386252
We (mostly) were all normie retards believing horseshit once. Someone woke me up and showed me the shadows on the wall. The best outcome is that the split is temporary, as the "normie" or "bluepilled" - disconnected from reality, disconnected from self, depressed low vibration, believing in lies - fades away as more people see the shadows for what they are. Good luck everyone :)

>>41385471
you probably just got uglier.

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1. social contract breaking down

2. current meta is sociopathy everyone is just looking to step over someone

3. we don't have communities anymore because capitalism (it threatens power structures)

4. too many people with BPD and cluster B disorders (love bomb and discard after they've taken validation)

5. no room for genuine human feeling and authentic experience. everyone just wants to see what they can get out from you

people have their own lives
the century of self and all that.
but even more than that.
people are burnt out on other people
there is so many reasons to tolerate with other people.
tools to help us express out most inner thought has brought us to this point.
and now
now
its all we can do
and mental health say
the best we can do is "hold space" for others
but man theres so many problems
and "holding space" for people to bitch
doesn't really solve the issue.
they just think getting things off your chest will give you catharisis enough to move on
until you need to do it again.

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>>41392257
> 4
I agree with all the other points. But I think mental illness is very uncommon people have been tricked into taking antidepressants and shit thinking it was something wrong with them when it’s the media and the very greedy rich and the world that’s the problem.

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>>41385471
Here’s a mad thought. Given you’re the common denominator maybe the problem is you?

>>41392524
Timmy is still the based one in this image

There's simply nothing for them to gain from us... and unfortunately that is the way the world is now, for the most part. You have to look harder to find the real people.

When I was 5-6 I used to stare out the window for hours looking for ghosts. I also started meditating then without not knowing what it was. I'd try to move objects with my mind, and would sit staring at an object for half an hour trying to get it to move.


something was always deeply wrong with me.

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>>41385471
That's, like, the entire point of Neon Genesis Evangelion

>>41385471
I think people have become sort of shallower but that doesn't mean that all hope is lost. The internet is full of liars and scammers now and the best way to avoid that is to either appear aloof or a waste of their time. It's probably a defense mechanism more than it's a status report. It sucks it has to be this way but the real ones are still around, even if you have to jump through a few hoops to find them.

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>>41385471
Yes, but that's because my soul oozes chthonic energy and people naturally don't want to be near that. Either way, I gravitate towards night shift and generally hang around autistic people because they either can't or won't sense it. Still, it is more of company of circumstance than company of choice. Hard to find others like me that aren't burnt out utterly or on some kind of substance.

Sometimes I wonder if it's like some sort of irritant.

>>41385471
Yes. But I have lost people close to me as well (family)

How old are you?

>>41385815
I can definitely relate to this. I feel that I've not met or connected with any genuine people since then

>>41385471
These friends, what is their vax status?

>>41385471
People are control freaks infested with demons, they don't care about anything but fucky fucky and vroom vroom money bang bang. They don't listen because they are constantly vying for domination at all times in every scenario.

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>>41392721
Ahhh, are you a radioactive skooma "producer" as well?

>>41385471
It is very easy to make connections with some people. But the people I desire to make connections with are impossible to connect with. The older I get the harder it is to respect and tolerate them which probably does not make it easier, but I was failing to connect anyways.
Not for lack of trying on my part.

>>41385795
bleak but honest

>>41392582
You ever move anything?

>>41385471
You gooning?

definitely feeling the same its 99% npc behaviour, dont forget old friends flexin simple shit on you like bro idc about your 20 bands in crypt

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>>41385712
Tbdesu I'm the one who changed after covid. I had a lot of time and a lot of booze. I always kept a rotating circle of friends and a girlfriend until then, but shortly before the pandemic my girlfriend of 2 years kicked me out. I got really sick and lost my newly acquired dream job because of the strict point system. My next job was horrible and every one i took to stay afloat between stimmies. I just started to notice how horrible everyone had become.

The more I thought...the more I realized people had always been awful, Murray. I feel like nothing I do is right and any kindness I bestow leaves me bereft of the warmth it may have been intended to provide. I feel like I'm in hell and I deserve it.

maybe

>>41385471
It's social media making people insane. Absolutely no one is capable of sitting down and talking anymore. They need a layer of abstraction like a phone screen just to be able to properly speak and even then it's only ever once in a blue moon.

Social media made these people insane because they're always thinking that they could be consuming something better than what you're saying. People need to be bored to talk properly and no one is bored anymore

>>41385471
Just listen to your inner voice, it always listens.

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>>41394900
>listen to inner voice
What if it's not your voice? What if there are thousands of inner voices?

>>41385471
Only people I want to make a connection with are females. I have no use for other males.

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>>41394929
You have to fight the demons out off your head. Only the pure voice must stay free.

>>41386489
This is the problem. You are all irony poisoned and your hearts are calcified. You will never be free until the softness and sincerity of words become valuable to you instead of little quips and sarcastic manufactured scenarios to generate karma or energy. Zoomers really love the term "corny" these days because they don't have souls anymore.

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>>41385471
Ever since the covid hoax I stopped interacting with the goyim cattle. I just look through them and pretend they don't exist. I don't even greet them or acknowledge their presence. I'm not staring either, I'm just looking straight through them as if they weren't there.
My life has significantly improved. I am at peace.

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>>41392508
depression, mental breakdown whatever, but the doctor gives you only blue pills. you were so close

>>41385471
Same here man, I just stopped trying with my friend group because whenever we would go out the conversation was shit, very occasionally we would all talk about something and vaguely vibe together but it was always basic normie topics (they were a lot less normie in the past). I used to host poker nights and make food for them sometimes but it was like herding cats to get them to come. I stopped bothering. I've ignored the group chat for some time and nobody from that group has texted me in like a year. I have other friends, but it's weird, I knew these people for a long time and we had enjoyed each others company for over a decade.

I rarely find somebody that's on the same wavelength as me, when I do it's usually a partial match. Many of those times I will say my part and while I think I am heard, they will jump in with something unrelated they want to talk about after I finish.
Next time I see them I reference what I said last time, and they don't register it at all. It's not like it was ages ago either, maybe a week or so in the time between convos.

It all changed after covid. I honestly think most people were psychologically damaged by propaganda overexposure, then the vax on top of it, they have become shells of themselves. Hollowed out things that are animated by media magic beyond their understanding.
Add in their medications and the social media bubble echo chambers people spend their time in, and individual instability and tolerance for ideological "outsiders" only increases.
The propaganda exposure peaked during covid, but never went back down to the same baseline. Now it's higher. Media floods everybody's brain for every moment of leisure time they have.

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>>41396223
>my friends were a lot less normie in the past
>they have become shells of themselves.
>tolerance for ideological "outsiders" only increases.

Really well put overall
You know what I've got the feeling that we started in a world that was mainly normal people, which were slowly replaced overtime by NPC counterparts, to a point where the repartition is like 95% of the world population are mindless NPCs and about 5% are "real" people. Idk, they just seem more...robotic now. What used to be reasonable people now falling for retarded/extremist ideologies, as if their mental immune system just dropped to the point that they become a prey for mind viruses of all sorts.

>but it was like herding cats to get them to come
haha yeah, also got the feeling of begging for attention everytime I try to connect with someone. People you used to be close with slowly fading out of your life or turning cold as fuck is probably the hardest part for me.. Good luck to you anon and hope you manage to find at least a meaningful person out there

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>>41397561
I should have said "intolerance", but you caught my drift I think.
I've had the same thought, that NPCs are not just born (or not even born?) they are made. One of the ways is to subject them to trauma and confusion which they push down into their unconscious instead of introspecting to come to terms with it. They keep doing this again and again, and eventually this massive pile of unintegrated experiences along with their atrophied ability to deal with it leads them to just become NPC. It would make sense that they fall for retarded and ultimately shallow or incongruous ideologies, they cannot reflect deeply upon its contents because they have essentially abandoned that ability in an ironic attempt to better their quality of life.
That's my current theory anyway, I wonder if somebody can become an NPC and then find their way back.

>People being cold and fading out
True man, its hard to let old friends go but I'm at the stage now where I think it's ultimately for the best. I'll find somebody else, for now I'm enjoying being a hermit and meeting up with select individuals every now and then. Best of luck to you also anon, stay sane out there

>>41394100
idk. Does it have an incidence on the matter?

>>41392906
Mostly vaxxies

>>41392753
Entering my late 20s now

>>41392508
Yeah, antidepressants are basically the same function as anesthetics. Suppressing the symptom without treating the cause of the problem

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