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>>41401470
Couple things:
Benzos are hell and I wish you the best as you move forward.
I don't have much spiritual advice for this, so I'm not ignoring that. I just don't know.
The one thing that comes to mind is- are you biologically a woman? I noticed you only said "fem" but some women write like that. Being "trans" will spiritually tear you apart for denying yourself. If you're "trans", nothing will ever change until you address that part without indulging it.
If you're biologically female then you've got a tough road ahead of you and I hope you get some real advice that applies to you.

>>41401490
thank you, i’ve been relying on them for over a yesr now and i really just want it to end. Yep bio fem

>>41401496
One (unfortunately very mundane) solution is that it's an emerging treatment to come off benzos to just use a medically induced coma. Somebody might jump in and say that's WAY too much, but I'd guess that poster has never come off benzos. Especially 3 at once. There's synergistic effects to those, so I have no clue what your doctor was doing when they prescribed more than one rather than just an ever increasing dose of alprazolam. Not my place to judge that part, I'm just saying I understand to some degree how serious this really is.
I think Jordan Peterson flew off to some other country to get off klonopin this way. He's a lame person for doing that because he was hiding an addiction and trying to take an "easy way" when he had an entire influencer-business hinged on self reliance and responsibility. I would guess that you have no such business or "identity" to protect like that, so nobody would be able to think less of you for taking that option.

>>41401517
usually, its just 1 per, every 5 days (max). but since halloween, i had to take 3, sober on the 1st. and another 3 today, i still feel messed up.
I don’t think i suffer from any addictions, i’ve easily dropped nicotine without a second thought, i believe i am just very sensitive to energies snd then prone to anxiety/dpdr

>>41401540
That's one of the really hard parts. I'm not necessarily accusing you of having an addiction, I was saying Jordan did. Any human being consistently relying on benzos for a year, though, is someone who probably has some element of dependence. Good benzos make both of those issues go away like they're nothing. When you stop, it's REALLY hard to determine how much of that is actually you and how much is rebound from oppressing that within yourself for so long. Also, when you experience any amount of dependence to benzos, early withdrawal symptoms mimic exactly what you're describing so it's even harder to determine.
In the most /x/ adjacent way I can possibly think right now, shifting perspective from Freudian psychological thinking to Jungian might help here.

my firdt panic attack/dpdr attack happened after an arguement with my mom, she was insisting i take the benzo. I ran out got on a bus then stsrted experiecning awful derealisation like my mind and reality were merging. came home snd thr benzo of course is what helped.
I feel like she used some energy attack to force me to take a benxo…..

>>41401570
Being a woman and feeling like you're under energetic attack from your own mother is definitely a problem. I can look at my own life, the people I know, and even a lot of history to see how relationships between mothers and daughters go, despite being neither myself. What you're saying about that is definitely really, really wrong.

>>41401583
hfmmm well she is , from what i can see, partially psyhcic. she knows what im thinking or what i want, but shes not aware of it. this doesnt happen with other people. In her esrly childhood she claims she saw ‘dragons’ amd other folklore. She told me she has very negatively charged thoughts so assuming she is a psyhcic that would affect me

if anyone wants 2 give me private advice or spells my email is brohrowro@gmail.com

>>41401596
Quick question, then:
Is there anything about yourself of which your mom has ever been noticably jealous? Maybe you have cute dimples, a hair texture she wanted but could never have, a large bust when she didn't have one? Something like that, if you can think of it.

Sending you some healing energy.

>>41401639
intelligence? is the first word that came to mind.
I know she has been the unconcious caster of some hexes in the past, ive seen the effects after i performed a return ritual. She doesn’t practice witchcraft like i do (all protection/return spells) her energy sometimes bites st me when she enters. i dont hate her, she tried to help me but is kindoffucking awful at it, a revolving door of w
questions when im having an attack … uuuahhh… i think she is more, terrified that something bad will hsppen to me, snd projects that onto me,

>>41401667
thank u do much

>>41401670
That's tough. Being more intelligent than your mom and also having more emotional control fucking sucks when you have to live with her. I do know that personally from experience and I'm not just being a haughty fuck, she specifically talked about being envious of my talents fairly frequently. Especially when she fucked something up and felt like a failure. This is all real negative, though, so I'd like to end with a story that makes me chuckle when I remember it
>Be me, kid, lying in bed
>Mom is in room, just tearing me a new asshole. Standing in doorway so I can't leave
>Used to this shit so just staying in bed trying to be verbally neutral so that hopefully she laid off soon
>She keeps going
>Finally snap and call her a "malevolent bitch"
>Her face totally changes and she leaves the room with purpose
>Thinking "of shit, the bitch comment was too far and this is gonna get real bad"
>But instead she comes back crying and holding the dictionary open to malevolent and sobs that I'm grounded
Lmao

Ive come back to mention, WHILST i was rehearsing a r2s ritual pacing around the streets like a skizo, it seems to have affected my mother (again) as she is suddenly suffering from some heart issues. (nothing big dw) lying in her bed.
Maybe i need a demon removal ritual. .. uhhh god…

>>41401693
>holding the dictionary open to malevolent
HHA HAHAHAA AHH hhaa ha Oh hearty kek..
whenever my mom channels the demiurge i have 2 sit and ignore her, ignore, ignore like a Deamon… Dont let it see you

All acts of negativity
Will all return to thee.
When this verse is done,
I will be set free
All ill will you send my way
Returns to you every day.
All actions, thoughts and words of hate
Become your own decided fate

By the all up high, blessed universe inside of me
As i will it, so mote it be

>>41401731
this is the incantation btw