Keep giving me that sense of cosmic dread, keep belittling me with how truly ignorant I am, keep discouraging and hindering me from ever attaining peace of mind. keep samsara spinning for trillions of more lifetimes. I want to really see what it takes for my ego to die.
Bad news, this is is how you attain enlightenment.
>>41414911based left handed whackolet's>>41414911 tear this shithole apart
>>41414911I have to admit, I've somehow become accidentally mentally normal and it's horrible despite the lack of suffering
Wow you guys are soooo cool
>>41414911Go to a bath house or local gay gym and let a bunch of guys fuck your ass & mouth repeatedly.If that doesn't continue your spiral into the abyss, then maybe you are the chosen one. Disregard true enlightenment by letting other men ejaculate into you like some kind of sock that gets tossed behind the dresser after vigorous use.
Fast for three days and meditate on this sigil
>>41414911Checked. Praise kek. Add some weed. When you really start to experience madness keep your wits about you. Be the calm center of the madness storm.Also try to channel Saturn's energy. It's not evil just powerful and ominous. Feels great.
>>41414911>>41415603this is the Masonic way and it doesnt work
>>41414911you need to understand you are God what does that meanif you are thinking "naah if I was God I would make myself rich" etc etc.... This is a sign you are not understandingthe moment you understand it, and you see why would you put yourself through the life of your person, then you are understanding why some beings die to be eaten alive, why seemingly bad people do good....if you understand it, you are there, and more than understanding, its knowing
>>41417809why some beings are born to be eaten alive*** die born, its the same
>>41414911>I want my Mental health to keep decreasing>Keep giving me that sense of cosmic dread, Reading the daily newspaper will probably do the trick.
>>41415622IT'S PIKACHU
>>41414911Do you have spiritual vision? Able to see the Spirit? Please, look at your chest. What you see?
>>41414931>Bad news, this is is how you attain enlightenment.
>>41414911get yourself physically addicted to alcohol and cocaine and then let yourself go into full withdrawal. make sure you have someone to call you an ambulance as well.
Becoming mad is not about dramatic things that cause steep decline, like drugs.It's about odd things that are inconvenient that you punish yourself with. I only wear underwear that does not fit as a way to express this concept. (Skinny man, but I wear size 2XL underwear)
>>41414911OP's dumbass ten minutes later:>WTF now I just feel like shit all the time. Maybe this was a bad idea after all
>>41414911Why do you think ego death is good?
I had the same thoughts as you once, it started at age 11-12 for me with miniscule stuff about existence and it eventually consumed me. I tried to keep a balance between friends and family and my studies but it eventually takes you over because you start seeing things through a different lens and start evaluating everything as consciousness experiencing itselfYour ego is basically a mask that your conscious self had to create to experience everything in this life. A name was given to you and this name was a first step, the building block to build upon with your feelings as you experience the world. That's why you will hear a lot of stories about people wanting to change their lives and move elsewhere, change their name and start anew- in a sense they are reborn. Not only because of maybe some previous devious things they did but because going elsewhere where no one knows you and introducing yourself with your new name gives you a chance to build a whole different character / egoI always thought that breaking the ego, this illusion, would be something profound and in a sense it is. But I don't think most people are ready for it, I certainly wasn't. There are many different ways to experience the world through consciousness and so far to me it seems that the baseline we have is decent. Pulling the veil mostly creates more problems, things start losing meaning and you start phasing in and out of those experiences you hadLastly, I was always distant from my family and most people really. I empathized with a lot of people but never really felt a connection with anyone other than one good friend. When I first had a "breakthrough" and detached from my ego the first thing I thought about afterwards and during was how I didn't want to lose my mom. I realized that I was more attached to this world than what I believed, so ask yourself if you are ready to leave it all behind for this
>>41426409I don't post much on boards, mostly lurk for a while through the year. I didn't know there was a 2000 character limit. So I can't really give you my full thoughts and I tried to condense it by a lot which sucks but one more thing I want to add about my last point with my mother.I always loved my mother as any child does but as I said I was very distant especially between 14-26 years old. I really thought I had nothing to lose. So truly ask yourself if you are ready to lose your close family or dearest friends, and by lose I mean changing your perception in a way that your own parents seem "strange" and different than you previously remembered. You will still have access to your "before" feelings and perception about them but your baseline will change, or the worst case scenario have them see you have a complete mental breakdown that you won't come back fromAlso, with any profound experience, any attempt to convey your new experience to the world will have them look at you like an alien. There is simply 0% chance anyone will ever understand what you experienced and you will feel more isolated. Even if you have for example suicidal thoughts that the now you that has them, your new perception might change that completely firstly because of your perspective change and second because you'll feel like you tapped into something and want to experience more lifeIn the end, if you are truly alone and have no one in the world. If you had abusive parents and no friends and are completely alone in the world go for it. Otherwise tread carefullyAnd as I said in the beginning of my first post, this is just my experience. You could have the same experience as me and find a completely different meaning in it all, who knows. I'm still 30 so it might change for me as well as things set in in the next few years. One can only hope
>>41415622I see a fat nazi sig heiling. What kind of rosarch test is this?
