I want to fight fire with fire against any and all satanists, but as I've stared into the abyss, enveloped and molded in it, I fear I've been corrupted.I'm afraid I'm now one of the most evil entity's on this planet.
>>41435068Unless you've held a child down and fucked it, I'm pretty sure Chinese Jesus would forgive you
>>41435068whats the most evil thing youve donemost people who are truly evil never have the self awareness to recognize that they are
>>41435068Buddy, nobody who is genuinely evil says faggot shit like you've typed. Usually they think they're on the good side.I'm pretty sure you jacking off to questionable material can be forgiven.Here's what you do:Ask God for forgiveness, say fifty Hail Mary's, wipe your dick off on something and try to be better
>>41435068gravity.. is a given.. all things go down except for light. most things are not light. Following the tide down? dont be a tard.
>>41435132Some kid I met on a ski trip texted me a day later saying he was suicidal and I just said uhh that sucks bro and blocked himHe had cerebral palsy
>>41435227That's really not that bad.You're not a psychiatrist, you aren't the cause of his suicidal ideation, and you didn't give him cerebral palsy.If you really think about it, the people close to him have more to feel guilty for; considering they have more access to him and are his literal guardians.Write a song about it like the guy from Vice City Stories
>>41435068Did you by chance have jewish connections irl or online?
>>41435068>entity'sSomehow I can't picture someone who does a typo like that as evil, sorry lol
>>41435068It's called concupiscence.
>>41435227You're not the asshole here. It is fine, not that bad.
>>41435977Thats dumb as fuck. Just call it human nature like a normal person.>be religious leader>hmmmm how can I control my followers better? Right, I know, I invent a term for when they break my unnaturally restricting rules by simply being a living being on this planetWho falls for that kind of stuff lol
>>41436018Thanks for your opinion guy who is virulently anti-christian
>>41436049I haven't mentioned christians at all you schizo but since this is /x/, now that you mention it, hell yeah I'm anti-christian. This place isn't for you
>>41435068Ok, chunibyo.
>>41436074Yeah I could tell from your knee-jerk soirage at me mentioning concupiscence
>>41435227BASEDAnon it is precisely that you even experience guilt for something that by all means is you setting boundaries that you are not evil. We all stand to be a little more evil in this sense -being less of an emotional puppet for other people.
>>41436083>the most reddit smartass pseudoscience around>but the others are soi, surehow can you have so little self-awareness
>>41436112What the fuck are you even talking about? You're like a bot that's been trained on 4chan lingo, nothing you just typed is reflective of the short interaction we've had with one another. Just saying shit
>>41435068It stops being alluring when you become an adult, unless you're a narcissist.
>>41436136I don't think it does for 99% of people. Most people don't have the self-awareness to understand themselves and engage in introspection. That's why you see so many evil, duplicitous pieces of shit running around the world thinking that they're genuinely good people.
>>41435068https://youtu.be/i8GJXAz_WHk
>>41435068Because the abyss calls. Shadows drip in our blood. I love the magician devil and shall trade my right eye for the revelations of Acheron Actual real talk though morality and ethics are a psyop to control us by the enemies and always have been. So you aren't really becoming evil as much as in the first stage of realizing that you don't need to be shackled by the bounds of goodness. But this doesn't mean you have to do "evil" things or "good" things just that your beggining a path where an actions merit will be based on your true desires.
>>41436207>I want to torture and eat babies>I'm jewish btw if that matters
>>41436115It's called concupiscence.
>>41435068because its the easy path (at first)
>>41436207Why is it that people who preach about amorality are invariably doing shit like pinching little girls nipples on live television or making jokes on social media about bathing in baby blood? I've not seen a single person who's said shit like "good and evil doesn't exist" that didn't seem like a totally fucking unhinged psychopath.
>>41436227Yeah?
>>41435068You are making more of it than there is.But it is good you want to be good.Try to live according to the values set forth by the bible. Those are a good general ruleset.Anything other than that... being evil... I know of really evil demons. They came here to be evil. Some Jewish Freemason Priest, for example. Vamp.Sometimes you must kill the evil. Mostly you ought to just banish it.
>>41435227I wish that was the worst thing I'd ever done.
Hesiod wrote about this
It's not. You're probably a spiteful mutant of some kind.In other words, evil is appealing to you personally because you feel denied the life-experience you think yourself owed.
>>41435227What you did was resist control. If he were seriously scared for his own life, he would have called the hotline or been reaching out some other way. He was trying to initiate an extremely controlled friendship and I promise he was not too stupid to understand that what he said was a trap to get you to never stop texting him.Even literally retarded people frequently know what they're doing and [try to] use it to their advantage. When I was growing up there was this retarded guy who sat next to me in a history class. No idea why he was in normal classes without a wrangler but I guess he seemed pretty tame and indeed I never did see him lose his shit. Anyway>Come into class one day, paper is due>Teacher is not even strict. >She just fuckin grades the shit on length and then moves on.>We're getting our shit out to turn it in and retard shows me his, 1 page>The only requirement she was about to grade on was it being 3 pages>Tard says "you think this will be okay?" And gives thumbs up?>I'm cool with the guy but now in awkward position because obviously the fuck not dude>He gives the shrug with this face that says "but I'm retarded">Okay dude>We turn them in and teacher immediately notices the one pager>"Hey tard this is not even 2 pages I'm not even grading this. Why would you even do this when all I grade on is 3 pages blablabla?">He tries the "but I'm retarded look", pleadingly now>She gives him the "fuck off face">Conversation over>Tard is literally flabbergasted at first that this didn't work>Then sulks the rest of the day and writes the required pages from then onHe was doing it on purpose, based as it was.
>>41436153>That's why you see so many evil, duplicitous pieces of shit running around the world thinking that they're genuinely good people.Oh they know they're bad people, anon, they know. They just don't care. I've caught so many "good people" doing truly evil acts that it's laughable. And yes, most rich people are jerks, it's how they got rich. That part of why Jesus Christ said that it was easier for a camel to pass through the eye of the needle (a small opening in a real rock formation, not an actual needle) than for a rich man to enter into Heaven.
>>41435261>>41436098>>41436814I suppose you're all right. I'm not OP btw just a random anon who is interested in the thread.Anyway. The anons who said I was just setting boundaries and resisting control, that's an intriguing analysis to me. I've felt most of my most neglectful or "evil" behavior could be rationalized as simply setting boundaries. There was another kid, in my class this time, in middle school, who also told me he was suicidal and I brushed him off. Ironically I was suicidal a few years later but I mostly kept it to myself.I stole someone's graphing calculator. Actually, I've done a lot of petty theft. Stole a lot of protein bars etc when I worked at a gym (the gym's bars, not random patrons).Lots of really nasty name-calling when arguing with friends and family, but I guess who hasn't done that. Still not proud of it though .Honestly I haven't really DONE that much, but I often just shirk rules a little bit.. smoking too close to no smoking signs, taking extra free samples, etc. Not really evil so much as it is just petty and a little pathetic. But I feel my spirit is evil, or I have had past lives as someone evil, because I often vacillate between feeling duty and guilt towards others, or feeling completely unbeholden. Or, feeling vengeful, and having elaborate daydreams around that.. I don't really want to go into detail, but I'm sure you all can imagine what I could imagine.
>>41435068It's forbidden. It doesn't matter how you were raised. Nearly everbody was exposed to the programming that you don't hit people, steal, etc. The question is if we didn't reinforce it, would be be naturally better because there's nothing to rebel against or would morality just cease to exist (besides in a few caves with strange people like the Essenes).
>>41438397With all due respect, anon, it sounds like what you're really struggling with is a persistent feeling of guilt. You seem to be able to understand very clearly that you're not inherently evil but you have all of those suspicions based on little things in life where you've skirted the edge of what's okay. In terms of setting boundaries with other people, yeah that's always gotta be something that's true. a certain type of person figures out extremely quickly that they can threaten suicide and start getting VERY attentive niceness from good people around them. Sometimes they just need it a little just the once, frequently those people abuse that When it comes to theft, I don't want to make you feel any worse because the point of this post is to help you but the graphing calculator thing hit home for me. I was a dork in school and enjoyed it but I had a SHIT home life. They wouldn't even buy me the graphing calculator when it was on my school list and they could afford it, I knew that, so I saved up for a year in advance to buy it myself. I unironically probably would have cried had it been stolen.All that said, it sounds like you've never done much that goes beyond what an apology could fix if you chose to do so. You CERTAINLY have not done anything heinous. I think it's very possible that addressing the underlying guilt you feel in all this might be the key to getting it all comes out. All the best, anon. At least one 4chan retard [me] believes you are NOT an evil person and likely never will be.
You should channel your evil urges into removing human pieces of shit from this mortal coil
>>41438659https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrndSo8Uelo
>>41438397Bro you're way too worried about being evil to actually be evil. The other anon was extremely correct when he said evil people don't worry about being evil I mean, think about it. Part of being actually evil is being shameless of those acts. They don't get home and night and think "shit, was everything I did today actually wrong?" like you might be thinking. That's how YOU are. Evil people are not like that. They get home from a day of being an evil shitter and they think "fuck yeah, Itm awesome. It was so fucking cool today that I took whatever I wanted. Now I've got what I want and I can sleep happy until tomorrow when I do it again." Surely not in so many words, but hopefully you get the point.
>>41438686Well. Maybe I'm not evil, but I'm not Good. Occasionally I'm spontaneously helpful, but it could be better. Anyway, thanks anons for your kind words and wisdom. >>41438640I am really sorry I stole the calculator. I'm not even sure why I did it. If it makes you feel any better, this kid stole it from the classroom originally, so it wasn't something he had saved up for or anything.
>>41439031Frankly, I would be weary of anyone who unironically describes themselves as a good person.
>le stare frog
I have done evil sometimesAnd had evil thoughts when mind gets sickI wish to not be evil, I am imperfectWhen I try to become hypercompassionate, cause me to feel so much pain...
>>41435068What is evil anyway? Also being "evi" starts being appealing when to some "good" starts feeling like it doesn't include them.
>>41439031The questions you're thinking about remind me of this, the theory of positive disintegration.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Positive_disintegrationMaybe you just hit level 2?
>>41435068Because the sort of evil that is fun is not real evil. If you were the type who actually enjoyed sick twisted things, you would 100% know and not be questioning anything. In reality you're just enjoying the anti-hero vibe and aesthetic.
>>41436294>not even realizing when he is made fun ofChristians, everybody. God's finest
