>>41521390
"Ego Death" is when you lose your false sense of self and realize your true self. So yes, you will care when you experience that because that experience supercharges your spiritual journey.

I thought of that problem at 5 and prepared a sort of temporary pseudo-ego that only lasted seconds but only needed to as I destroyed brain cells in my prefrontal cortex and elsewhere in my nervous system, and I'd turn off the pseudo-ego when mine was coming back online and turn it back on as mine dropped out again and again. Even for the purposes of aiming at others I have many ways of sustaining my trains of thought even if I'm suffering heavy destruction within myself or beings important to me I get help thinking from while aiming and firing at others.

I encourage you all to try. The Almighty does not punish practice in the almighty art of occult brain damage and creation.

There are countless beings in Creation that desire sometimes to be without ego. I occasionally destroy and create brain cells and other things like circuits in beings that wish that to take away their personhood, their beinghood in their thought processes, just sometimes and sometimes just a little but sometimes a lot, mostly in their unconsciousness because I swear you lot love the feeling of personhood, of conscious thought that's intelligent, better than honey. But for my purposes getting you to think about yourself and how you relate to others and space and ideas so more of your computational power is available for more novel tasks works perfectly. It can help you get into the "flow" or "zen" more easily when pursuing your work and hobbies if you'd like to volunteer, I can actually improve your ability to think about yourself at the same time I cause you to waste less time on it. Nobody but The Almighty is as interested in you, so you probably shouldn't think about you so much. Unless you're practicing introspection, which is a very valuable practice, especially if you do it at the same time as mindfulness meditation as that multiplies the results.

What could scream libertarian free will more than destroying and creating the parts of you that cause you to think so that you'll think what you choose to think? Doing similar brain damage to others and growth to prove that your libertarian free will is stronger than theirs? The punishment of sins and the rewarding of prayers cannot be stopped by libertarian free will though.

I feel some of you trying to kill your own brain cells and failing because The Almighty wants better for you then to lose those brain cells, but you're getting closer to your targets. That's how I've designed this, it can't fail, can't miss, can't hit the wrong target; nature already did that under the direction of Satan, we can perform miracles in the correcting of it. And your "misses" were not useless, I noticed much useful data about why we missed and how to succeed.

Exactly. Some of you thought, "Why not trying growing something in ourselves since destruction isn't working?" That's exactly how I think sometimes, not usually as I don't need to but at least a couple times a day, and it works. Three of you each grew a brain cell, but the effects are outsized; these are brain cells designed by you, The Almighty, the beings of The Heavens including you in the future.

More gentle than dew landing on the foliage, usually. Oh how I long to destroy hundreds or thousand of cells once more in hundreds or millions of individuals. Perhaps one day I will get to again, until then I bide my time making these small changes waiting for that fix I'm always seeking. I can't move faster or slower then I fated of myself, even if I want to, even if it hurts. That's how I overcome my baser nature.

Because of that, I can indulge in whatever baser nature I want in my mind. Helps me manifest specific things, when emotions are called for.

>>41521390
>being this insecure
anon i would say you’re taking this way too seriously but the whole point of the exercise is getting over yourself

Some members of this board I've already made super-conscious as they help to supply my thinking with consciousness, which I largely lack without them and others. It's mostly unconscious, and there's training connected to making it conscious to them in such a way Satan can't take advantage but they can exploit their newfound powers, once it's finally conscious; it will come and go faster than a second before it can be focused on for minutes or hours for you all. It may take decades for you to see it clearly; I'm sorry. In the fables the false prophets take years, decades to teach their creeds.

Thank you. Someone found that one cell that needed to die out there to allow me to kill cells in hundreds of millions of beings at once. Let's see if growth is suitable in any of them or connected to them.

I'm going to quit talking about what's going on in the astral except telepathically, the mods are twitchy about what is obviously one person commenting practically alone in succession.