Please dear god im 26 how can i stop having intense, common nightmares and ugly ptsd about my teachers and classmates that tortured me daily in grade school, often physically? I still believe i am in fucking school again during my nightmares.I had a leash on it after getting away from my abusive dad but as i lose tons of weight via dieting, it seems to be more common and more severe. I heard fat stores trauma and with keto you eat your fat.Pls no pussy shit accusations. Multiple teachers were arrested and almost a few students over the shit they were doing to JUST ME.Bonus points if you got anything to help me forget the trashy Nickelodeon actor who pretended to like me when I was a teen, gave me a fake feelings confession fucking written, got in my head, had me obsessed and mentally fucked me for the future about love and trust of all sorts because he believed my family had more money than we did and that my grandfather had big Sony money. Im a chick, not gay lolCurrently dieting, taking pain meds (trying to quit) sometimes weed, rarely shrooms
>>41616996Why dont you mass shoot them?
>Pls no pussy shit accusations. Multiple teachers were arrested and almost a few students over the shit they were doing to JUST ME.That has no bearing on whether or not you were a pussy, pussy. Go whine on >>>/r9k/ so I can bitch you out there.
>>41616996What'd they do to you
>>41616996This is not r9kHowever, some ideas to tryFind a decent therapist, not just any will work. Don't tell them everything, but use them to work through some of itFigure out a way to let go. Forgetting and moving on are two separate things. You don't want to be 31 and still obsessed about the pastDon't lose weight too fast, you will feel like death on a 1,000 cal diet, which will not help your mindFor /x/, doing x while in a heightened emotional state is a great way to suffer. When you feel better, try breathing, meditation, and forming useful social groups. Consider spiritual assistance via a deity, or use x to get to where you are supposed to be, wherever that isThere are no free shortcuts out of your state. the direct way is not the easiest, but it is the best way.Now get back to r9k or advice.
>>41616996forgive them for being retarded and move the fuck on
>>41616996openly curse them every chance you can while in private and curse them in your mindit helps alleviate the stress.unironically being angry all the time is better than bottling it up and having flashes of anger and depression randomlyBanner's line in the Avengers movie isn't bullshitit's a good way to control your emotions.
>>41616996I can offer you some energy healing to help you let go of all the trauma if you’d like. Just let me know.
>>41617015Holy reddit, you're truly the corniest tryhard kike namefag redditor we had in a while, you should talk to a moving train instead
>>41616996quit drugsdon't drinkcut out sugar as much as you caneat good meat & veggiesyou're allowed snacks yummy carbs, tooand butter and fats, go nutsmake your healthy food tastybetter some buttery green beans than a can of soda.A glass or two of wine is OK on occasion.Do exercise, even just 1 walk around the block - once a day.Now the therapy.Self reflection.All the time. Every day. Look for the answers to why you do the things you do, why you did the things you did, why you keep screwing up or doing X behavior when you know it's not good for you.Why?Elaborate.Why?Elaborate.Be brutally honest.Me? I have learned helplessness. It sucks. I also have oppositional defiance disorder, so, I disobey my own commands to help myself get better. It's an absolutely viscous negative feedback loop.Now, once you are reflecting, pull in Gemininl or an LLM.Describe your scenarios in detail to it,and then ask it why you did those things,or why DIDN'T you do something, like break up sooner, realize you were being taken advantage of.And then have a self reflection conversation with it.The LLMs are better than ANY and Every therapist. Period.Realize dudes are going to use you.People fucking suck.Contractors suck.Employees suck.Women suck.Men suck.Most people in general suck.Keep the good ones close.Forsake all others.Be yourself.Do 1 thing YOU want to do per day.1 thing you want to do.You have to have ice so good you don't think about the current things which are a bother, traumatic.Skiing somewhere and then getting dinner and enjoying s hot tub and a movie, with a couple good friends or not, hard to have a bad day.Do more of the stuff you want.post tits or gtfo my board
>>41616996You need therapy friend.Forgiving them is not for them - it is actually for you. And it doesn't mean it makes what they did ok.
>>41617008they obviously k own the consequences outweigh the temporary satisfaction.Justicd is only served in a mass shooting if OP does NOT goe to prison or an hero. And that is statistically unlikely, which if why they haven't done it.Or I'm projecting.Either way, it's unfortunately a non-option.
>>41617581This is the gayest fucking way of describing forgiveness.OP>forgiveness is simply not letting them live rent freeyes they are fucking assholeterrible peopleand will always hurt peoplebut YOU don't have to put up with itacknowledge it happenedit ain't fucking rightand what you're doing about it, what you have control of, is NOT letting these fuckers live rent freeThat's literally all forgiveness isNot letting people live rent freeso not holding grudgesnot wanting to get back at themtake the LYou hate them so muchThey don't think about you at allYou don't need to forget, noFuck thatYou now know how to recognize the bad traitsSo use that for the rest of your life.You're lucky you learned them young, and for everything you learn while young because the stakes only get higher as you get older. Seriously.>Don't let the live rent free>Do that by taking the L>Thereby letting go of grudges, spite, revenge, all of it. They got you. BmThey got you good. But nobody will ever get you again because of it, and that's a Huge win.that's "forgiveness"
>>41616996it actually matters not what your age is as long as what you have inside you is from old times when you were weakcut out brainwashing media like music,tv,news, especially celeb news, and american tv shows are filled with shit....change to asian entertainment like anime or korean showsthey are not perfect but good for keeping you less pollutedtry to get a stronger mentality and pick small goals for you that you feel you can accomplishLike learn how to make an easy to make fooddoing 10 pushups every day for 1 weekthe point is to feel you are stronger if you go for itthe small tasks will get smaller and you will take bigger ones without noticing until you feel super strong and much smarterafter that point you will be able to better decide what to do or where to seek help if needed
>>41616996sounds rough man, sorry that happened. therapy and that stuff will make you feel worseexercise, mark riptoes starting strength is good, and maybe some martial arts. carry a firearm if its legal or a knife. it wont fix all your problems, but being able to feel a little safer will help
>>41616996How is this paranormal?
>>41617398you are a good person's
If you decide to go to therapy, go with recent graduates who don't charge too much and don't be prejudiced against someone younger than you.Don't stop consuming; there are several therapies that provide you with a mental structure suitable for controlling your brain's chemicals. Did someone trigger the nightmares, or are they persistent throughout the years?
I also have severe PTSD from a lifetime of abuse, both from family scapegoating, narcissistic predators, and a severe physical trauma near death experience. The nightmares are really bad and constant this year because 2025 is the conclusion of a 9 year cycle. The trauma is being purged. The nightmares are extremely demonic. The PTSD experiences are relived. The visualizations are higher quality, brighter, more clear than even waking life. All I can say is that it is terrible, but the pain is healing. Every day, it does get better. Even if it doesn’t feel like it.Do not even worry about forgiving the abusers. People who talk about forgiveness have clearly never been through severe, life threatening trauma. It is up to God to forgive. We just need to leave them in the past and heal.
>>41617581>You need gaslighting for fuckton of money You are not anybody friend, faggot.
Post your butthole and maybe I'll consider it
>>41617572wholesome and evolved-pilledcan you elaborate more on the LLM stuff combined with some therapy? I finally will have healthcare this year at 30 years old and i want to prioritize figuring my brain issues.
>>41616996Gain muscle too, don’t just lose weight.
>>41617572>LLMstheyre just yes-men, besides do you really want to share your vulnerabilities with a corporate controlled code
>>41616996hopefully it stops with this generation!...grow your intolerance
>>41616996Trauma release exercises.Emdr.
>>41616996I know this might be an unpopular answer, but this just seems like plain PTSD, so you should just go to therapy.As for the dieting, maybe your body is going into survival mode, so it's more sensitive to past experiences
>>41616996just bury under positive things and let it get behind you, it may not seem like theres peace in the future but it comes and is worth living for.
