I just bought a peyote cactus(hope I dont end up on jail lol) and im gonna eat it. Im not doing this just for fun recreative purposes, I have clear intentions: basically im 23 and Im unable to feel love and care for others, Its not like im a psychopath or depressed but it feels like there is a black hole in my heart, or some unresolved shit that blocks and cuts me out from people even my family. So im gonna do it with the expectation of being able to find out what is erong with me, im still very new and i dont know how an when to really harvest and consume it but I will figure it out, feel free to inform me ;) I have some fears that kinda hold me back: im the same guy that did the CBD oil and freaked out(i made a thread), and weed usually hits me bad. But... this is different, right?
>>41669259im just... gonnna Do Mescaline okaay HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
>>41669267*farts on you*
>>41669259Its extremely different from Weed, but pretty safe. Very fun. One cactus wint get you that high, I recommend getting an alcohol extract instead.Honestly though, I recommend starting with mushrooms instead. Mescaline is less forceful than mushrooms which might qctually be less helpful for you right now.
>>41669267i just wanna be a fucking normal feeling loving human being again. the meds didnt help, psychiatry didnt help, psycholgy didnt help
>>41669302>One cactus wint get you that high, I recommend getting an alcohol extract instead.Seriously? I bought one cactus, i wasnt even thinking of eating all to reach "high"
I did mescaline once. I just sat in a chair and watched people grow thick black outlines and all the colors flattened out so everything looked like an old fashioned comic book. After that I don't remember anything but I'm pretty sure I was in the chair the whole time.
>>41669311Yeah, really. They are tiny. In mexico they harvest several of them and make them into a concoction. Im not saying you wont get an effect from 1 cacti bu it wont be a full on trip unless you are super sensitive.
>>41669259Good luck hope you find what you're chasing. Or realize you're chasing your own tail, and you already possess what you chase.Love starts and ends with you. It's also a verb, an action. So do loving shit like eat well, stay fit, keep your mind and spirit clean. Re-engage interests and activities you used to be passionate about, or make new ones.